Date: Sun, 1 Jul 2012 05:13:07 -0700 (PDT)
From: don mumford <thinat20@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: main copyOLIVER'S ADVENTURES  Chapter 4 (Goodbye Wildword) by Donny Mumford

			    OLIVER'S ADVENTURES

		      Chapter  4  (Goodbye Wildwood)

			     by Donny Mumford


When in Wildwood I prefer to go to bed later than my parents, and get-up
the next morning after they've left for the beach. It's not that I'm
avoiding my parents, it's that I'm nineteen and like my independence, and I
love sleeping-in too.  This year we're staying in a brand new duplex and
everything in it is new too. The mattress on my bed is new, and excellent,
and I sleep a deep sleep on it.  This morning I turn over and glanced at
the clock on the night stand and I'm startled to see it's after ten
o'clock.  Oops!  I'm suppose to be at Alexander's for that free sixty-five
dollar haircut at ten o'clock sharp.  Into the bathroom I go for my daily
routine, very regular sorts of things, but no time for a wank this morning
.  I don't hurry with it though because I'm not really too keen on getting
a haircut in the first place, and in the second place I'm nervous having a
kid just out of barber college cut my hair. I said I'd do it last night, so
I will because keeping one's word is important.

Munching on a chocolate donut, I saunter down the back stairs and across
the back yard to the North's condo.  The back door opens before I even
knock and there's Alexander, saying, "Oooh, I was worried you changed your
mind, Oliver".  He has such a nice way about him.  He'd spoken with a sad
lilt to his voice, not a pissed-off one; he's just a very likable guy. Nice
personality to go with his sexy body and cute face. I go, "Sorry,
Alexander," and explain I'd over-slept, not changed my mind..  He gives me
a small grin, nodding his head saying, "Oh, that's that's okay,
Oliver. It's just I really like cutting guy's hair, especially for a hottie
like you with that great head of hair you have; I don't get much chance to
do it since graduating barber's college and I miss it. So thanks for
letting me give you a haircut. I really need to stay in practice."  So
sincere, is Alexander. I smile and walk inside where he has a mini
barbershop set-up in the foyer with a captain-style bar stool from the
kitchen ready for me on the foyer's hardwood floor, and a table with
professional barber tools carefully laid out close by. A round, hand-held
mirror leans up against the wall.  "Please sit down Oliver. I know exactly
how I'm going to cut your hair.  I've given it a lot of thought and this
haircut, which is popular in Europe for young kewl dudes, will be just
right for you. This style is beginning to show-up in the trendier salons in
the US now, but we're always behind in guy's hair styles for some fucking
reason."

I sit down and Alexander holds my head in both his hands, exclaiming, "Oh
Oliver, your head-shape is so perfect for this and you have wonderful hair
so you'll probably catch on fire after your new haircut; that's how hot
you're going to look".  I go," Holy shit, Alexander," and as I start asking
what kind of haircut he's talking about, he interrupts putting his finger
against my lips and leans over, his face close to mine, to say,
"Shhh. Don't talk Oliver, please. I cut hair listening to music only. I
concentrate because I'm a perfectionist in everything and especially with
my craft." I raise my eyebrows, like, "Oh! Okay." Alexander's got an iPod
in a player on the kitchen counter that's putting-out slow, moody Van
Morrison songs, with the volume turned down low. What the hell, I might as
well try to enjoy the salon treatment, if that's what this is.  I always
get my hair cut in a barber shop that has a red, white and blue poll
outside the door.  The barbers are usually old hacks with little style, bad
attitudes, and too much boring conversation.  Alexander's all business and
very serious.  No joking around.  His talk about different haircut styles
reminds me of my never-to-be-forgotten best bud, Tyler.  From the time he
was about eleven years old he was very concerned about his appearance.  He
tried all kinds of different haircuts and he'd ask me how I liked each
one. I always said he looked, "Kewl" because I always thought he looked
cool in all of them, short or long.  I never cared much one way or the
other; how my hair is cut, I mean... and I guess I still don't.

Alexander puts a strip of tissue around my neck, then a black silky cape
and he fastens both around my neck. He gages the tightness by using his
fingers between the cape and the back of my neck to see that it's just
right, and the coolness of his fingers feels good against my neck. He clips
the cape at the proper tightness and then a hand rubs each of my shoulders
to smooth the cape and a squeeze on my shoulders. The squeeze is just for
the hell of it, I guess.  Right after he squeezes my shoulders he squeezed
the back of my neck twice and then quickly follows that with a ten-finger
massage up the back of my head using only his finger tips, which gives me
chills, but pleasant chills.  He massaged my scalp while pushing my head
down so that my chin hits my chest and now I have chills and goose bumps
all over me.  It feels really good and my shoulders do a little
shudder. Yeah, it all feels nice, but it's a bit odd too. You know, me
sitting here letting Alexander do what he wants and me not knowing what's
coming next. It's kind of the feeling I got from Mike on the boardwalk when
he made me be docile for him; a feeling that someone else is in charge; in
this case it's Alexander who's obviously taken charge. It's strange, but
cool, to be in this frame of mind. The silence, except for the low moody
music, along with all the touching, puts me in this pleasant trance-like
state of mind. That's the best way I can describe it. Very relaxing, but
almost a little scary with a buzzing around my balls for some reason.
Alexander begins my haircut slowly, just combing through my longish hair
initially; he combs my long hair first from the front of my head all the
way down the back and then from the nape of my neck all the way to the
front.  That feels good too, and there's tingling all over my scalp. My
hair's very clean because last night, just before going to bed, I'd washed
it twice in the shower and used a softener so Alexander would have clean
hair to cut.

When he's apparently satisfied my hair's just right for cutting, he combs a
batch of it up and holds the batch away from my head between his index and
middle fingers tightly, pulling on it a little which creates more scalp
tingling. Then, with barber's scissors he cuts through this batch of hair
just above his fingers and I hear a subtle scrunching sound as the scissors
slice easily through that the hair and a pile of my hair, about six inches
long, falls on the cape and cascades down to settle in my lap where the
cape has formed a pocket. The pocket is between my legs, and there's a
great deal of my shiny clean hair gathered there after only one cut, and it
makes me quietly gasp at how much he's cut off. Alexander does a quiet,
"Shhh," as I gawk at the hair in my lap. Jesus Christ! The hair Alexander
didn't cut-off is about an inch long.  Lower down near my ears and neck he
cut it shorter than that and as my hair piles up in my lap there's that
little nervous thought in my head that I'd put myself in Alexander's hands
and, was that a mistake? He's not shy or hesitant as he cuts hair from the
sides and back of my head for the next ten minutes or so.  He's extremely
deliberate about everything he does and there's absolutely no
hurrying. It's just scrunch after scrunch and piles of hair falling free
from my head, and no talking.  I have to admire his confidence.  He knows
what he wants to do and he doesn't feel he needs to explain or apologize
about his decision or his actions.  It puts me in that trance I mentioned
earlier and his deliberate confidence gives me hope that perhaps he
actually does know what he's doing, but this is a much shorter haircut than
I've ever had before and I wonder how I'll look with it. He cuts a lot of
hair off the top of my head too, but he cuts it at different lengths on
top.  It's shortest closest to the sides of my head and longer towards the
top, middle. The trance-like state continued as I sit here feeling very
docile. I sit very still and just let him do as he wishes with my hair and
it occurs to me I'm in a submissive frame of mind that's peaceful and
almost hypnotizing.  Of course, knowing Alexander's a gay boy like me, plus
the fact that I like him, probably has a lot to do with me letting him
loose on my hair, as well as my submissive posture.

My hair style hasn't ever been of much concern to me, and this seems to be
much more about a new adventure for me than a haircut.  Generally speaking,
I'm more willing, anxious even, to explore new adventures ever since my
unexpected and very sexy experience with Cris. After my thrilling
experience with Christobal I feel I've finally coming out of my shell and
want to explore the possibilities that present themselves, and this is
fitting the bill at the moment. The unfortunate incident on the boardwalk
with that Mike kid maybe was a bit of a setback, but I recovered from it
pretty well, and I did get turned-on by him too. And those two, Mike and
his best bud Richie, are both extremely cute boys and maybe worth the
humiliation to me because I got to see them so closely.  Damn, I hope I get
to meet more boys like those two, minus the humiliation next
time... hopefully.  Alexander's been cutting my hair steadily, cutting some
of it two or three times to get it just the length he wants, for about
twenty minutes now and it's almost put me to sleep. That's how docile to
Alexander I feel at this moment. I'm wishing he'd continue cutting my hair
shorter and shorter, but he puts the comb and scissors down. I want to
reach up and feel how short he's cut it, but don't because I've sorta fell
under his spell somehow. He begins meticulously outlining around my ears
and the back of my neck with that electric vibrating trimmer thing which
causes more chills to roam around my body.  It's been quite some time since
my ears were last seen sticking out like they must be doing now with no
hair concealing them.  Now a little hair gel is applied and Alexander combs
my hair up from the sides of my head towards the middle.  I'm sorry now
he's finishing the haircut because the trance-like state is very relaxing
and enjoyable and I've begun to love the way he's been fussing over me,
touching my shoulders, neck, forehead and so forth. It's a very pleasurable
experience.

Finally he's finished, but he needs to inspects my head from all
angles. Putting his fingers under my chin, he tilts my head up and then to
the side and then pushes my head down so my chin again is against my chest
again, and he snips a little bit of my hair here and there.  When he's
satisfied that he's actually really, really satisfied he stands behind me
and holds the mirror in front of me with his arm resting on my shoulder so
I can inspect his craftsmanship.  I like the haircut as I lazily look at my
reflection from his mirror although it's very different from any haircut
I'd ever had before.  I do recognized this style though, I've seen it on
some of the gay models on the boy sites I peek at from time to time.  No
reason to share that information with Alexander though, he isn't aware I'm
gay. The hair style is fairly short all around the sides and back, but on
top it's left longer to comb up.  You comb from the left and right to have
the hairs stick up on top, longest hairs are about an inch and a half near
the center of my head.  I'm not describing it well, but I thing it looks
cool and distinctive and I'll leave it at that.  Tyler would have been
proud of me for trying something new. I tell Alexander it's an awesome
haircut and that he's very talented.  Standing behind me he bends his head
down to my level, resting his chin on my shoulder.  His frizzy hair tickles
the side of my jaw.  We look at our reflection from the mirror, as our eyes
lock together.  He quietly asks, "Do you really like it, Oliver? It's
called a faux hawk. A fake mohawk with style."  I nod my head slightly,
still in a bit of a trance, one Alexander's created and reassure him I
indeed like it a lot. His head is next to mine and it makes my stomach, or
maybe it's actually my balls, buzz again.  He smells good, very sexy and
his eyes are hypnotic. No cologne this time, just Alexander's natural
boyish scent.

We continue staring at each other in the mirror and it's weird; I wonder
what we're doing, but can't bring myself to break the spell I'm in. It's so
relaxing and eerily sexy in this trance-like state.  Alexander lifts his
head moving the side of his smooth face against mine, our faces cheek to
cheek. I freeze, continuing to stare at our reflection from the mirror. His
beautiful brown face feel so silky smooth against my cheek.  His big,
chocolate-brown puppy dog eyes stare into my blue eyes, as he quietly asks,
"Is this okay with you, Oliver?" I should say, 'No, it's not okay, please
back-off', but my brain is busy enjoying the sexiness of the situation and
not available to help me form the words. And, as the seconds tick by, I
finally nod my head slightly again, one time up and down rubbing against
his cheek. The nod meaning, 'Yes, it's okay, Alexander'.  He drops the
mirror on my lap and hugs my shoulders, then hugs around my neck pressing
his face against the side of my face more tightly.  During the last eight
years of my life I've longed for a boy my age to hug and kiss and be gay
buddies with.  Twenty-four hours with Cristobal is the total extent of my
wish fulfillment along those lines so far. The best twenty-four hours of my
life, by the way.  But twenty-four hours out of eight years isn't
much. Cristobal gave me a taste of how wonderful it can be with another
boy.  So, with that thought swirling in my head, I'm simply not a strong
enough person to tell Alexander 'no'. I probably never would have the balls
to approach Alexander like he's doing to me now, but I'm too curious,
although a little apprehensive too. My new adventurous self wouldn't think
of telling him 'no' when he's propositions me so excellently. He has a very
gentle way of offering me the chance to do what I yearned so much to
do. The side of his face feels so wonderful next to mine; plus, I think the
reflection of our faces together in the mirror looks really nice. We make a
cute couple even if I do say so myself. I'm just coming to understand that
I interest some gay boys. Before Cris I thought I looked too young and not
macho enough, but now I'm seeing the light a little bit and I just might
have the type body and face that can serve me well in my quest for gay sex
and to make up for all the years I yearned for it, but was
unfulfilled. Still, I'm so inexperienced I need to let Alexander lead me;
I'm more than willing to follow.

Alexander moves his head a little and kisses the corner of my mouth, just a
little kiss with his lips only and I literally gasp. It brought me out of
my trance-like state because the kiss caused an electric shock, a very nice
electric shock to hit my cock. So nice and sexy I want more.  His full lips
again kiss my lips and we open our mouths together and our tongues find one
another and we do a quiet pleasure moan. He kisses good. Alexander must
have had a cigarette earlier in the morning because I can tasted a faint
hint of nicotine and it's like a forbidden taste and adds to my
arousal. This is a handsome African/American boy and everything about him
seems more and more exotic and erotic to me with every move of his hands on
my body and every lick he does on my face and lips. Alexander appears to be
experienced enough for both of us. My eyes are half closed concentrating on
the pleasure Alexander's giving this gay boy named Oliver.  My cock is
already about as hard as it can get as Alexander whispers to me, his lips
damp against my ear, "Please let me suck your cock, Oliver. I'll do you
better than you've ever been done" and he sucks my whole ear into his mouth
moving his tongue around inside it.  I rise a little off the stool, because
it was so unexpected and so sensual. I'm quietly going, "Ah ah, oh, oh. "
Words are difficult to form.  Alexander in his usual deliberate way, pulls
away from my ear and unhooks the cape from around my neck, he gathers all
the hair to the middle of the cape, picks the mirror up and puts it on the
table. I sit here paralyzed moving only my eyes to stare at his every move;
my lips open and my breathing comes in quick little puffs of air.  He's so
smooth with everything he does, like a cat.  He makes a bundle of the hair
and the cape and pulls it off my lap.  My pants form a tent in my lap,
which I glance at for a moment before my eyes find Alexander again.
Dropping the bundle, he slowly knells down in front of me, his eyes on mine
as he unfastens a snap on his shorts and pulls out his long dark boner. I
continue my trance like staring, fascinated at his deliberate ways. I'm
panting now; little fast breaths as my eyes blinking rapidly. His boner's
longer than mine, but not as chubby.  It looks enticing and the entire
scene has me very stimulated. He strokes his cock a few more times in that
unhurried, smooth manner of his as he lightly closes his eyes .  Pre-cum
from his boner runs over his fingers and then, putting his hands on top of
my thighs, his long hard boner bobbing between his legs, he looks up at me
with a serious look on his face and asks, "Okay, Oliver?"  I do my little
head nod again realizing I'm back in that trance.  He pulls my swim suit
off in one swift motion without me even lifting my butt off the stool seat
to help him. The swim suit is left dangling around my ankles as my boner
bounces back against my belly. I want to be more assessable to Alexander
so, with my feet on the bottom rung of the stool for support, I inched my
butt toward the front part of the seat, my boner bobbing with each of my
movements.

His fist goes around my boner to pull it away from my belly. After stroking
it three time Alexander puts the head of my cock against his front teeth
and sucks on it with those full delicious lips of his, then he rubs it
across his perfectly white teeth, going, "Mmmmmm". I each my my back and
the head of my cock slides along his teeth feeling the slight separation
between each of them. In short order he sucks my whole boner inside his
mouth and an inch or so goes down his throat.  I lift my butt off the seat
at that, going, "Ump Ump oh oh."  Cristobal and me hadn't done any oral sex
together so this is a first time experience for me and it isn't at all a
disappointing one. He pulls back off my boner and lips it and tongues it
until I'm squirming on the stool, saying, "Ahhh, Oh, Alexander that's,
ohhh". He goes back to stroking his hard boner and sucking just the head of
mine.  Every time I look down at him his eyes are looking up at me and this
time I see liquid drool out the side of his mouth as precum rolls out of my
cock's pee slit.  Everything is feeling so good I squirm in my stool,
purring out, "Oh Alexander, this really is sooooo fine". Leaning forward
slightly and reaching down I take two handfuls of his hair; it's soft, and
dense, full, and spongy. It feels great as I clasped and unclasped handfuls
of it before massaging his scalp and the back of his neck with my finger
tips.  My head lolls back as I moan with the pleasure of it all.  He's been
stroking himself for no more than five minutes when he blows a lot of air
on my cock, grunting, his face scrunches up and I hear his first cum shot
splat up against the bottom of my stool. Oh, it's so fucking erotic knowing
Alexander has just climaxed while sucking my cock He fires off a few more
blasts of creamy spunk, grunting around my hard cock with each spurt. After
his climax Alexander takes a huge inhale and then increased his efforts on
my boner. He sucks on my cock and laps it with his perfect tongue until I'm
holding his head for balance and lifting out of my seat as letting out a
desperate, "Ahhhhh!" and cream my orgasm into his mouth. It comes out like
I'm taking a piss, my balls fire cum to my cock with such force it streams
out hard. The cum flows out of my cock with Alexander still sucking on it
like it's a fat straw. He maintains the suction pulling the cum up and out.
I'm squealing embarrassingly by the time he lets my cock slip out of that
fabulous mouth of his. Smacking his lips, swallowing and then smiling up at
me with his cute face, he mutters, "Cum, yum."  I can see his own cum on
the back of the fingers of his right hand. Smiling myself, and a little
breathlessly, I asks, "That the best you can do?" We exchanged pleased
looks and little grins, not really moving around much.  Alexander's sitting
back on his ankles on the floor in front of me, absently rubbing up and
down the fine hairs on my legs as he stares at my softening cock.  Finally
he mutters, "I really like your little package, Oliver. Choice!"  I go,
"Little?"  He chuckles, telling me it was just a figure of speech, as he
lazily stands-up and gets himself together. "That was hotter than hot,
Oliver, but I gotta think about changing clothes fairly soon so I can get
out of here. I can't miss my tee-time. Golf is what I like second best in
the world. You just moved up to the number one spot, hottie".  He smiles
and pats my cheek like I'm a little kid, muttering, "You're too cute for
words, dude".  I feel sorta like a little kid, sitting here on that stool
after my home haircut, not to mention my home blow-job.

Finally the spell's broken and I get off the stool and, strangely we
instinctively hug.  Alexander held a kiss on the side of my forehead and it
makes me feel special. His body's much better than my recent date with
Patty; her body was mushy.  After our hug and kiss we clean-up the barber
area by sweeping-up my hair clippings and emptying the cape, clean some of
Alexander's random cum shots off the stool, and things like that. As were
doing it we talk generally about our other gay sexual experiences.
Alexander's had more of them than me of course, but not as much as I would
have guessed. He tells me he's been 'out' to his family for a couple of
years, but only a few of his close friends know he's gay. He's had one
boyfriend which went on for about a year during that one year of college
before he went to barber's college.  The sex was light between him and his
boyfriend though, and that's because the boyfriend wasn't ready to admit he
was really gay.  After the boyfriend moved on, Alexander had two other
short flings with guys at his barber college.  "Nothing memorable", he
says.  Alexander tells me he'd picked-up something from me with his
'gaydar' last night while flirting with me. So, he purposely touched and
fussed over me more than he needed to during the haircut, and it seemed I
was receptive to it. He said I seemed to be enjoying it so he took it
further by putting his arm on my shoulder while holding the mirror, and
then his chin on my shoulder. I never objected to any of it so he took a
chance with his cheek against my cheek.  He says he was hot for me and
therefore willing to go out on a limb. Sitting in the kitchen on my haircut
stool, drinking orange juice, I listen to him explaining these things while
I absently run my fingers over my head enjoying the feel of my short hair.
Alexander's in his room changing into his golf clothes. He comes out in two
minutes smoking a cigarette, wearing light tan cargo shorts and a white
Polo golf shirt. On his feet, a pair of sandals.  He's carrying black and
white golf shoes with black ankle-socks sticking out of the left shoe and
he looks real nice; he looks hot too.

"Thank you, Oliver. This was the best morning I can remember having for,
well, for forever."  He explains that he wants to stay and play sexy some
more with me, but he'd really screw-up the other three guys in his foursome
if he did.  If you miss an established daily tee-time you forfeit future
ones. He and his three buddies have set tee-times for every day they'll be
in Wildwood, and the fact is, at the shore during the summer, the tee-times
are hard to come by.  He's really sorry, but he just can't screw it up for
his buds. I tell him it's no problem and Alexander smiles his killer smile,
walks over to me while taking a drag on his Marlboro and, putting his golf
shoes on the kitchen counter next to my drink, he say, "Thanks for being so
understanding, Oliver" and he kisses me again as I sit on the stool.
Cigarette smoke comes out of both our mouths and some out of his nose. The
kiss was so yummy I didn't mind the taste of the cigarette; actually it
made everything sexier somehow.  Alexander must have thought so too,
because he takes another drag and we do it again, longer this time. I want
to do it all morning, but Alexander makes a low moaning noise in his throat
that I don't think he even realizes he'd made. W e're having quite an
affect on each other. I wrap my arms around his neck and we suck each
others tongue and then suck each others lips and lick long licks across
each others face and my boner comes back hard as ever.  He's moaning openly
now and in between kisses he gives me compliments about how I taste and
smell and feel, and it's very hot and very special for me.  He says that
white boys are so pretty and I tell him to checkout a mirror when he has a
chance and he'd see something pretty there too.  Alexander's make-out with
me seems even hotter than Cristobal's, or maybe I'm forgetting how hot
Cristobal was. All I know is Alexander has me clinging to him and wanting
to eat him.

We both gain a little composure and make plans to meet in my bedroom
tomorrow morning as soon as Alexander sees my folks leave for the beach.
Then we hug each other tight and, damn, he feels good in my arms, and it
feels good being hugged too.  We're hugging like we aren't ever going to
see each other again, or maybe it's just that we're both hoping we've found
the boy we'd been looking for and we don't want to let him get away.  Even
though there isn't anyone around, Alexander whispers, "Will you fuck me
tomorrow morning, Oliver.  A good rough fuck, Oliver. Can you do that?"
This is his number one desire, but I've never fucked anyone before and I'm
nervous I'll let him down. He's holding onto my shoulders, a hand on each
one; the cigarette we used in the beginning of our make-out had burned down
to the filter and gone out.  Alexander's still holding it between his index
and middle fingers so maybe he's forgotten it's there. He's holding it with
same two fingers that earlier had held my hair just before he cut it all
off. I'm stupidly staring at those two fingers as if there going to tell me
something. When they don't I look back at Alexander, and say. " I'd love to
fuck you, Alexander, but I'm a virgin in that regard." He already knows
that because we exchanged our sexual experiences earlier, but he still
wants me to do him.  It's more than fine by me because alone with my
nervousness, I'm excited at the prospect too and if I had my choice I'd do
it here and now. This unexpected encounter has my sexual juices boiling
hot. Walking out of the condo with him and waving as he drives off, I
immediately take my boner into my bathroom.  All that kissing and hugging
with sexy Alexander has me worked-up and turned-on, and the thought of
fucking him tomorrow is the straw that brakes the camels back; even though
I had an orgasm a half hour ago, I need to jerk off. That great orgasms in
Alexander's mouth was awesome, but I need to have another which makes me
wonder if there's something wrong with me. Taking my cock in my hand, I
forget that concern and enjoy a hot five minute wank, all the time thinking
about Alexander's blowjob, and a short cum load spurts out of me feeling
good as my shoulders shudder. Damn, I like feeling that.

Cleaning myself up a little, I'm thinking about tomorrow morning and what a
adventure that's going to be. Then, wandering down to the beach to join
everyone, I enjoy this feeling of being very relaxed; this bouncy upbeat
frame of mind I'm experiencing can be directly attributed to being sexually
satisfied, but how long that will last is anybodys' guess.  My folks and
the Norths, for different reasons, all like my new haircut and the twins
love it too. Both the boys rub their fingers through my hair, and then
Nathan asks his twin, "Noah, whaddaya think?" Noah makes a funny face while
unconsiously playing with his pony tail and then reluctantly, it seems to
me, nods his head 'yes'.  The twins are going to get their brother to cut
their hair like mine.  Should I be flattered or more likely, should
Alexander?  The twins and me hug as usual, with no one taking notice of it
anymore. We're all used to it after eight days together. The twins' parents
have concluded I'm an asset because instead of the twins coming to them
whining, "We're bored. What can we do now."  The twins come to me when
they're bored and as I sit in my beach chair relaxing, both of them will
grab one of my wrists and pull me up and I'll take them miniature golfing,
or to a water park, or arcades, scooter rides and kite flying and motor
boat rides, whatever. I have fun with them and I don't have any other
diversion except Alexander and me doing sex together. This has been a great
vacation actually. To the Norths money's no problem, whatever it cost to
make the twins happy is fine with them. Truth is, if the twins weren't so
cute and beautiful I might have thought they were occasionally a bit of a
pain-in-the-ass.  Overall though I have to admit I loved them both because,
like I said, we have fun together.  Mr North calls me the twins' other big
brother, the one who pays attention to them. The first big brother mostly
pays attention to his golf game.  I smile and think to myself, "I know
something else the first big brother pays attention to now."

Today's an especially nice day and I only need to hide a couple of boners
that pop up on me during the afternoon; Alexander has relieved me of a
month's worth of pent-up sexual need and desire. It's nice for a change to
not constantly be aroused by the twins.  How far would this take me, will I
still get aroused gawking at the hot cute red-headed kid I'm currently
ogling. He usually sits with others a couple of groups over on the beach?
Will I still be groping myself on the boardwalk when those pods of boys
come jogging by wearing only skimpy running shorts and sneakers.  How
sexually satisfied am I anyway?  Well, in all honesty, now that I think
about it, perhaps I'm always a tiny bit over-sexed, and I think I like it
that way. Being sexually satisfied doesn't really last a long time with
me. Maybe I spend too much time musing about gay sex. Then, later in the
day the twins pass-up our regular Mini convertible ride to get their
haircuts. Alexander's back from golfing and he's very excited about cutting
the twin's hair. I go along to watch, as Alexander and I exchange sexy
looks with each other. As Alexander cuts the twin's hair it's sexy somehow
seeing all the strawberry blond hair cut off the boy's heads. Naturally,
Nathan goes first as Noah concedes to his twin's every wish. And, oh my
God, do the twins look extra cute with their new haircuts. Even younger
looking then before and other-worldly cute; it gives me a boner just
looking at them. My boner is undetected by everyone by me because I've
become adroit at hiding them in my pants, usually sideways.  It's my turn
now to run my fingers through the twin's short hair.  Alexander is
ridiculously happy; he's been begging the twins to let him cut their hair
for almost a year. After the haircuts Alexander and me go together to
pick-up Italian take-out food to bring back to my parents' duplex where our
families will have dinner together. We bump against one another frequently
and exchange more sexy eye to eye contact. At dinner the adults drink two
bottles of wine and then start in on some beers.  Everyone's in a great
mood; the North's have really added to the fun this year in Wildwood.

Earlier, when Alexander and me were waiting for our order at the take-out
restaurant, Alexander kept his arm across my shoulders and whispered
naughty things in my ear until we're both giggling with boners in our
shorts.  We're acting like a couple of horny thirteen year old boys.  Jeez,
I really like Alexander.  He has a basic niceness about him that is pure
and sweet.  He's funny as hell too and self deprecating; there's nothing
phony or pretentious about him.  What a great bit of luck renting our
duplex right behind the Norths.  After dinner the boardwalk is nice tonight
too, but I find my mind drifting to thoughts of tomorrow morning.  One more
of the things that I've dreamed about for years is going to come true and
Im anxious that I don't do something to embarrass myself in my first
attempt at fucking someone.  I'd tried putting a condom on once, then
jerked off wearing it, and then way back when I'd tried fucking myself with
a condom covered cucumber, but that led to that horrible mini-breakdown I
had. Trying to recall anything remotely complicated about using a condom, I
can't come up with anything . Oh well, Alexander would be there too of
course, he'll help me if something gets messed up. Then it's the next
morning and, two minutes after my folks are out of the house, I hear a
little knock on the front door and, as pre-arranged, Alexander opens the
door and comes across the hall into my room.  Inside he pushes the button
on the knob to lock the door and glances over at me with a mischievous look
on his face. I'm ready with a big smile, although I'm still a little bit
nervous.  Alexander says, "Would it be alright if I get under the covers
with you, Oliver?  Naked?"  I go to say, "Sure." But I run out of air when
I say it and it comes out like, "Shhhh".  We both laugh self-consciously.

He pulls off his boardies and I do the same; his naked body next to my
naked body in bed brings back those wonderful feelings I had when Cristobal
and me were naked together in my Holiday Inn bed.  At this particular
moment, just like with Cristobal, my heart is pounding too fast and I'm
having a little trouble breathing regularly.  Alexander and me lay on our
sides looking at each other and loosely holding hands.  "God, I'm nervous
about this" Alexander says as he makes a face moving his eyes and jiggling
his head a little.  I bite my lower lip and give Alexander a puzzled look,
absently thinking, 'He reminded me of a girl just then with the way he
spoke and with the eyes and that little head move and all.'  He moves his
head that funny way again and I try to remember if Cristobal ever made me
think of a girl when I looked at him.  No, never. Hmmm?  I think to myself,
'Damn, don't let something stupid like that mess this up'. It was a passing
thing gratefully and Alexander doesn't make me think of a girl now as we
begin kissing and sucking each other mouth. I'm not thinking of a girl when
Alexander and me are grinding our boners against each others stomachs and
smearing pre cum around our bellies either.  His body doesn't feel anything
like a girl's.  Alexander works-out regularly at a gym developing muscles
for his golf game. He doesn't have any extra fatty tissue around his waist
or ass; he's tight, fit, and toned.  His body's hot to my touch and I'm
squirming my naked body against his creating as much contact as I can
manage. My thought from yesterday morning that, 'I'd like to eat him'
drifts through my head again. We have a hot body to body make-out for ten
minutes or so and now I'm grinding my crotch against his while wrestling
about and my boner gets stuck between his legs so he tightened his thighs
on it. Using pre cum as a lube I can't stop myself from humping in and out
between his thighs until I climax. Jeez, what an idiot I am!  Gasping for
breath and still humping long after I shot my load... no, Alexander isn't
reminded me of a girl at all.  He's reminding me of a very attractive, sexy
African/American twenty-year old boy, who I thought was nineteen, and who I
feel lucky to be with.  Alexander gushes, "Oh my God, I'm so turned-on with
your cum soaking my legs. Oh fuck, please, suck me off, Oliver.  My balls
are aching."  I flip around and take hold of his long, thin, dark boner and
stroked it a half dozen times as he closed his eyes and blows air out
through his tightly closed lips, making a long hissing sound as he does it.

I'd always wondered about this too; putting a boys' cock in my mouth, I
mean.  You know, it's where pee comes out and cocks get sweaty sometimes
crammed in boxer shorts or, God forbid, jockey shorts all day.  Maybe a
little 'ripe', you know?  But now that I'm actually holding the real thing,
a long, brown cock that I'm anxious to taste and I get right into sucking
it for Alexander, who's made me feel so good and who I'm beginning to
really care for.  And, he's a gay boy like me so his cock is
pure. Alexander's body gets as stiff as his boner. I do it without
hesitating, putting his boner in my mouth and sucking it, I imitate how he
sucked mine yesterday.  I'm not able to get the head of his cock in my
throat though; I try three times, gagging and then giving-up I go back to
licking, sucking, and stroking his wonderful brown boner until he shoots a
big blast of creamy white cum in my mouth.  I don't hesitate, I quickly
think, 'just do it! and I swallow Alexander's cum, then suck on his boner
some, then more sucking and out drools more spunk.  Surprise, I like the
taste of his cum and I like having a cock in my mouth too.  Very intimate
thing to do.  I suck that cock until Alexander complained it's becoming
sensitive.  Reluctantly I let go of it and moved back up for a kiss.  We
hug each other again with our bodies touching from our noses to toes.  How
could it get any nicer? We're quietly enjoying the after affects of our
climaxes, while holding on to each other.  His body's so nice and I stare
at his brown skin; it looks sexier than my pasty white skin. I've had a
hard time even getting a suntan because I'm so light.  Then I think of
Cristobal's even lighter tan-brown, Hispanic, skin tone and decided that
one's my favorite.  The most important thing of all, obviously, is who's in
the skin, whatever the skin-tone.  I like who's in Cristobal's and who's in
Alexander's skin and I'm glad they both like who's in my skin.

Alexander says, "Can we doze off for a couple of minutes, Oliver?  It feels
so nice in your arms."  He quietly tells me he stayed up late last night
fucking around on his computer and he's tired.  I go, "Sure, Alexander" and
that's what we do. We both fall asleep and almost an hour later Alexander
wakes me and with a grin on his face, saying, "Time to give me that hard
fuck, Oliver."  I'm like, "Wha...who.  Oh, Alexander, give me a kiss."  He
does that and a lot more too and I'm in love with making-out with him, so
my pecker is back up to bone-hard quite quickly. We get the lubed condom
Alexander brought with him and the two of us get the condom on my boner,
even though both of us has shaky hands.  Alexander wants me to do him doggy
style so he gets on his hands and knees with me up on my knees in bed
behind him, holding him with a grip on each hip.  "Push it in slow,
Oliver." Lining up my boner with his anus I press against it and the lips
spread around the tip of my cock feeling fantastic. I press a little harder
and it slides in, just the head as Alexander and I both quietly go,
"Oooooh," And what great sensations on my cock as I push it in slowly, me
watching my cock disappear inch by inch up his ass. It's tighter than I
expected, and feels better than I expected. This is fantastic. Alexander
grunts, so I stop for a second waiting for him to mumble, "Feels good,
Oliver, go on." Feels good to him, but I can't tell you how different, how
excellent it feels on my boner. Feels great alright although it's more
difficult plowing my cock up Alexander's tight hole then I thought it would
be. I have three inches of hard cock up his ass and tight or not the new
and indescribable sensations I'm experiencing are tantalizing all around my
groin. I slowly finish pushing all the way in till my balls softly bump
against his plump, firm buttocks and I need to hold my breath absorbing the
extra sensations of erotic pleasure I'm sensing. Just knowing my cock is up
another boy's ass is enough to get me to blow my load and I probably would
have if I hadn't climaxed between his legs earlier. The condom doesn't seem
to be inhibiting the pleasure for either of us, but of course I've never
tried this without a condom so how would I know. Oh God, does it ever feel
tight, tight, tight all around my pulsating cock.  Every fraction of an
inch is massaged in Alexander's tight tunnel as he tightens and loosens his
rectum muscles.  I gasped with newly discovered sensations of pleasure as
I'm now humping in and out in rectum.  This feels so fine I'll want to do
it all the time, but getting fucked is awesome too. I don't know which one
is hotter, not yet I don't, but I'm determined to do enough of both to find
out.  Alexander's going, "Oh oh oh, fuck me faster and harder, Oliver,
harder, un, un, un."  He picks up his grunts of pleasure as I pick up the
speed of my thrusts; my cock sliding smoothly now back and forth in his
ass. I'm totally fascinated watching it disappear inside Alexander's body
and really slamming into him now, my balls smacking up against his ass with
each thrust, me and Alexander grunting and breathing hard.

Alexander began on all four, but switches quickly to all-threes.  Two knees
and his left hand holding him up; his right hand is stroking his long
cock. No way can this get any hotter and I'm extremely sexually
aroused... and then Alexander starts talking like a girl, saying, "Fuck my
pussy, Oliver. Jam your cock up Alexander's cunt, harder, you bad boy. Fill
my cunt with your cock..."  and other stuff like that, and the voice he's
using is kind of a girlie voice and he holding his head in a feminine pose
and kind of moved it around in an affected manner and it just makes me
think: girl, woman, female, feminine.  I can feel my boner start to loose a
little of it's heft. I didn't want to disappoint him, but this feminine
thing of Alexander's has reappeared and it's a turn off. Just before I
start to panic and lose my boner entirely, Alexander climaxes and really
tightens his anal ring which tightens dramatically on cock and my thrust
are further stimulating my boner like I've never felt before. He's pumping
cum out in two foot thin spurts which is so sexy I let out a squeal,
sounding a little to feminine myself, and shoot a nice orgasm into the
condom, then another as my face contorts from the amount of sensations
coming from my cock; it's absolutely incredible and makes me dizzy; the
high peek of sensations from the first of my three thrilling shots of spunk
as me blinking and unbalanced for a few seconds. Holy shit, that was
something alright. I forget all about the earlier feminine concerns I'd had
about Alexander's pleadings and body language, and enjoy the electricity
running around my balls and dick as my shoulders shudder uncontrollably
again. After a second I start fucking him again and I can't hump in and out
of him fast enough.  The tight hold his anal ring had on my cock is so new,
so fabulous....there are no words to do justice to that feelings in my
cock.  My eyes are tightly closed and I just spew spit from my mouth
gasping and grunting after that great multiple climax.  For a second there
I couldn't tell if I was in pain or just experiencing a new level of
pleasure.  All around my groin area, spreading out to my thighs and up my
belly, so many good feeling and sensations.  Fantastic shock waves! Done
with his orgasm and the fleeing after affects of it now, Alexander relaxes
his body and the tightness of his anus muscles lessens So I pull out of his
ass, and collapsed next to Alexander on the bed We're both panting, laying
almost on top of each other.  My cum is squishing around my cock in that
condom, which I now pull off and hold, the open end squeezed together.  No
way did I want to forget this thing and leave it in the waste basket or on
the floor.  It's going down the toilet, but not this very second.  I need
to think about breathing and stuff like that first.  Then I think, 'So,
that's the other half of fucking.  Not bad at all."  I think about the
feminine things Alexander did at times and knew this might be a problem for
me, but not one I'm going to mention to Alexander now. Also, I need to do
something about my own squeal at climax, that's if I don't want to look
like an ass in the future; learn to expect that incredible spike of sexual
arousal at climax. This ain't jerking off! It's so much better than that I
need to prepare myself for the heightened climax. Oh, how awesome gay sex
is! I in for some thrilling rides with gay sex. Thanks to Cris I got my
cherry taken care of and now I've fucked a climax out of a cute boy's
balls. Damn, I feel good!  It was a close call though as I'd almost lost my
boner when he let the girl side of him out in the open.  I knew I'd have to
think about this, but right now I want to enjoy Alexander here in my bed.

We snuggle under the covers for a little while, sexually satisfied and real
lazy like.  It's nice, but it ain't love if you know what I mean.  I
couldn't get enough of the boy part of Alexander and thankfully that's the
part that shows-up most of the time. Burying my face in his dense, soft
hair, I enjoy Alexander's boyish smell, which I like quite a bit.  The feel
of him too, his velvety skin over his tight, hard, long, thin body. He
needs to make his tee-time at the golf course and I've had enough for now
anyway, so it's just as well we end this. We get up and get dressed. It's a
little awkward now that our desires have been taken care of and we both
realize we hardly know each other, but it's not too awkward. A quick
goodbye kiss with some short compliments back and forth to be polite, and
he's out the door on the run.  He said he'd stayed too long in bed but he
couldn't make himself let go of me, and I'd like to think this was more
than just getting our rocks-off, but I'm not sure.  We'd connected early on
and our relationship in this short timeframe seems pretty good when you
consider we've only known each other two days.  I feel like we did pretty
good, everything considered, me being new at this and all that.  He's
already really kinda important to me, and I'm sure I have some feelings for
Alexander so we're not just two horny boys doing it and that's that. Then
it hits me that I felt a deeper connection with Cristobal after the short
time I knew him. What could this mean? Something, I'm sure, but it could be
as simple as it was my first time for any kind of gay sex with Cris so it
meant a little more to me.  It'll go on my growing list of things to think
about later.

Taking a quick shower, then fussing with my new hair style, I shoot my
mirror reflection with my index finger, giving myself a wink because I'm
pleased with the way I look and I'm pleased with my progress on the sex
front as well. I wonder if I can ever be a hot shit, a really cool
kid. Probably not, I don't have the self confidence for that. Best to be
me. Off I go to have some fun in the sun on the beach. I'm feeling happy,
which was rarely the case growing up.  Wearing sandals, my boardie bathing
suit, and Cristobal's T-shirt, the one that has a picture of a palm tree on
the front and Spanish words under the tree, I'm on my way to the beach
again.  Ha, for all I know the Spanish words on my T-shirt spell out, 'Go
fuck yourself'.  I'm feeling so good though, really good.  On the beach the
twins are in their beach chairs talking quietly to each other while running
their fingers absently up the back of their heads feeling their short hair,
just like I did after my haircut, so I know how it is.  After having long
hair for so long it's a novelty to feel short hair on your own head. Feels
good to experience new things. I come up behind the boys and get an arm
around both of their necks and pull their heads back against my belly.
Four hands immediately grab hold of my forearms.  God, these kids are fun
to mess around with.  Of course, if their brother hadn't taken such good
care of me a little while ago I'd have a wicked boner holding the twins'
heads against my belly like I'm doing.  But not the new Oliver.  No, as
long as I can have sex with a hot boy for two hours each morning before
leaving the house, I can behave as if I'm working with a normal sex drive.
Haha. This is the best vacation ever. The twins are pissed off at me
though. It's because I'm so late coming down to the beach.  "We were just
about to come up there and drag your dumb ass out of bed, Oliver," fumes
Nathan.  "Whoa, don't do that."  I mumble.

We go in the ocean for a swim and a wrestling match like we do every
day. That went on for a half an hour or so, never long enough to suit me
because the boys' slippery, tight bodies are hot. The wiggle out of my
grasp as we're all accidentally-on-purpose goosing each other regularly
now, giggling like nine year olds.  It makes me remember back a number of
years when grabbing crotches was an every day activity in early puberty; at
least it was among the guys on my school bus.  For now I'm just enjoying
being fourteen again, along with the twins.  Unfortunately the goosing is
always a quick grab by the twins.  There's no overt sexual meaning at all
in the way they goose. Just squeezing some nuts to hear the other guy
yelp. On my part, well, maybe there's a little sexual overtone.  All I know
is, it's fun.  And, I wasn't the only one with 'a nice little package', to
quote Alexander. I can't help but notice the twins each have a damn nice
one too. It's a hot day and we all drink a lot of the lemonade that Mrs
North made fresh and brought to the beach in a cooler. She actually uses
lemons, sugar, and water to prepare this secret recipe lemonade.  Just like
they make on the boardwalk, for three dollars a cup.  The twins, after
drinking much too much of it, peed in their bathing suits wading out in the
ocean laughing hysterically while they did it. These boys can really
laugh. I tell them that big boys know how to hold in their pee until a rest
room's available.  Peeing should be done in a toilet, not in the ocean or
shower or pool and certainly not under a sprinkler hose. I give them this
lecture while I'm peeing in my boardies, standing in waist deep water.
Peeing in the ocean is fun. Nathan says, "Oh yes, Oliver. Thank you for
that grown-up advise, from now on we'll be just like you.  Right, Noah?  It
is odd, however, that the ocean water around you appears to be warmer then
the water around me.  Hmmm, why is that, Oliver?"  Laughing and hugging
while splashing around in my peed-in part of the ocean all three of us
trying not to get dunked. Blinking my eyes real fast I need to acknowledge
that my dick's starting to stir and firm-up again as the slippery bodily
contact with these two yummy young teens continues.  It appears that two
hours with Alexander is only good for two hours of sexual relief for
me. Then it's right back to the old, horny Oliver again. Can't say I'm all
that upset about it.

The Norths and the twins leave the beach around two o'clock to visit
relatives in Ocean City.  Alexander's meeting them there later to have
dinner and spend the evening.  Now that I'm here with just mom and dad,
both of them hunched under their umbrella, each reading a book, the beach
seems empty.  I look up the beach for that redhead kid, the one that makes
my dick twitch, but see only his ugly, unbelievably-skinny freckled-faced
mother with the usual scowl on her face.  This isn't going to work out so I
asks my parents if I can get anything for them and when they shake their
heads no, with a "Thanks for asking, Oliver," I say, "Enjoy yourselves, I'm
heading up to the boardwalk.  See you guys back at the condo for dinner."
We wave goodbye and my thoughts turn to the possibilities on the
boardwalk. I haven't been on the boards during the day since that
disturbing incident with Mike and the buzz cut boys, and I never did see my
favorite hat or my sunglasses again. Damn!  The sunglasses were cheap ones,
but I've had that hat for six or seven years.  Christian bought it for me
at a Pirates baseball game when I was twelve or thirteen years old.  Just
thinking about that conjures up a long forgotten memory. I'd whined to
Christian that I need a new baseball cap and he'd said, "I'll buy a hat for
you Oliver, but you have to give me a kiss on my lips first". I'd quickly
kissed Christians lips and he laughed and bought me my Pirates baseball
cap, but hell, I'd kiss Christian any time he asked me to back in those
days, hat or no hat; I love my brother. That's no secret to anyone, he's
always been wonderful to me. For the longest time I thought that all little
brothers kissed their big brothers when told to. That was a year or so
before Tyler's horrible accident.  Back then my Aunt Ceil always said that
she wished her kids, our cousins, could get along like Christian and I got
along.  Funny, I hadn't thought about that kissing thing between Christian
and me for years. Thinking about my lost hat brought it to mind just
now. And, of course, I also thought of the recent kiss at my graduation
party too. Maybe Christian was taking a trip down memory lane with that
kiss, maybe knowing he'd soon be moving far away.  No, that couldn't be it,
he hadn't know about Seattle then. I wonder what's up with these random
thoughts I'm having, although I do have one last thought on the
matter. Christian never asked for a kiss after Tyler's death. My graduation
party was the first kiss on the lips in five years. What does it all mean,
if anything? Damn, strange thoughts.

I drive around some just because I like driving my new car, not because I
have anywhere special to go. This fabulous car my brother bought for me has
helped me gain some self confidence and I love the damn thing like mad, so
maybe I should have kissed him when he gave it to me. Brotherly kiss. Maybe
that's it.  Damn, there I go with more of the 'kiss' thoughts.  I make
myself think about my new car. I really do love everything about the car,
but even though I'm trying to avoid thinking about Christian at the moment,
thinking about the car has me going right back to thinking about him again.
Thinking about how he's living all the way on the other side of the
country, in Seattle, Washington, and thinking how much I miss him already,
maybe especially because I know how far away he is.  Damn, no one will ever
look after me like he did. Christian spoiled me something terrible, and
something wonderful, too. Of course I know now that most brothers don't
kiss each other on the lips, but so what?  It's what we did back then
because it's what Christian wanted and I liked it too.  What's the harm in
that?  Day-dreaming is okay at times and convertibles are fabulous all the
time, except sometimes. Like when the temperature is too hot and maybe the
car air conditioner is a better alternative to having the top down. And
sometimes day-dreaming or just plain thinking too much makes a person feel
sad or a little bit scared. Today might qualify as one of those days for
both of those things, so I park two blocks from the boardwalk and put the
Mini's top up, lock the car and walk up on the boards slowly trying to
clear my head of troubling thoughts.  Immediately I notice that the breeze
off the ocean makes it about ten degree cooler up on the boards.  Well,
that's nice.  Now I need something to shake me out of this 'blue funk' I've
landed in.  Food always helps.

Taylor pork-roll on a hamburger bun with ketchup and french fries on the
side, is what I order at a little stand. For my drink I order a
black-and-white milkshake, and a damn nice lunch it is too.
 The milkshake choice is in honor of me and Alexander, who I'm now thinking
about.  I want to lighten-up and enjoy myself, so I'm thinking only cheery
thoughts; tomorrow morning with Alexander to be specific.  Gee, I can't be
getting horny already, can I ?  Apparently I can.  Staring out at the ocean
while I slowly eat my lunch creates a very hypnotic feeling, the ocean's so
amazing to watch as endless waves pour onto the beach and there's that
optical illusion of the ocean and horizon meeting where the world ends;
it's very cool. I'm sitting on a bench with my back to the boardwalk
looking out and thinking I might get another Taylor pork-roll sandwich
because my first one was so good.  Maybe with a little onion this
time. "Hey, Hi. I like your new haircut.  It rocks, dude."  I hear this and
then someone slaps me on the shoulder. What the...?  Turning around I see a
short kid standing behind me.  Oh yeah, it's the small, buzz cut kid with
the contagious smile.  He was with that Mike kid earlier in the week. His
smile is full voltage at the moment and, god damn, if I don't smile back at
him, and say, "Oh, Hi."  The smiley boy has his hand out saying, "I've
looked for you on the boardwalk almost every day. My name is Tucker
Dwight. Nice to meet you. This time under better circumstances, huh?"  I
shake hands quickly, but can't stop myself from looking around to see if
Mike is in the area. I don't know if I'm hoping he is or hoping he isn't.
Neither he nor any other buzz-cut boys are here. I guess I'm glad.

Tucker asked, "Do you have a name?" and then that big smile again and I
have to smile again too.  Damn, I feel stupid smiling at him all the time.
Staying seated, I mumbled my name and he takes a step behind me and started
massaging my shoulders.  He says, "Oliver, huh?  What the hell kind of name
is that?  How's this massage feel?"  I shrugged my shoulders to move them
away from his hands and stuttered, "Ha, Hey, don't do that."  Tucker is
immediately apologetic and goes into this bizarre tale about how his
grandmother taught him the art of massage when he was twelve years old, and
he likes to share his skill with his friends. I notice from the little bit
of massage he did on me that he has very strong hands. Still, I have to
frown at his strange story although he seems so proud of it all. Well, it
is about his grandmother who he seems to adore, so I relax a little,
nodding my head trying not to be too negative while thinking about how
sweet my own grandmother is to me. I say, "Oh, oh, yeah, your massage felt
okay, good actually.  Your grandmother taught you very well. She did that
for a living, did she?  Being a masseuse?" Tucker sits down next to me on
the bench, a little too closely if you ask me, and goes into this long
explanation about his grandmother coming over from the old country not
knowing the language, but she knew the technique of massage. She did
eventually make a career out of the massage techniques she'd brought over
from Poland, although even to this day she can't speak much English, and he
goes on and on about it.  He's so animated in the telling of the story it's
actually interesting at the beginning.  After ten minutes or so though I
know more than I need to know on the subject of Tucker's grandmother and
massage. But you know, the thing with Tucker is that he has this very nice
self-deprecating personality and he's small, but very well put together,
and he looks right in my eyes while talking with this conscientious manner
of his, like he really wants to please, very sincere and all that. Then, of
course, there's his smile. He does try a little too hard, but he's a cute
kid just the same and I'm starting to like him. I say, "That's interesting,
Tucker," and then to act friendly, I add, "I'm curious, let me rub your
buzzed head and see what that feels like."  He smiles and I smile back at
him, as he mumbles, "Sure, go ahead, Oliver."  I give his buzz cut head a
good rub with the palm of my hand and it feels like real short hair. Duh!


We walk the boards together for awhile, and he talks, Tucker just kind of
grows on you little by little.  He's so sincere it's almost comical, but
I'm having a good enough time and I like him fine even though he always
seemed to be partially in my space, if you know what I mean. Too close all
the time and I get the urge to stretch my arms out or something.  After
we've been goofing around together for an hour or so Tucker invites me over
to his Aunt and Uncles place for a swim.  He tells me about this beautiful
private pool they have and he wants to show me a few things he's sure will
be right up my alley. I'm not at all sure what he means by that, but I'm
intrigued.  My new adventurous self, asks, "What kind of things you talking
about, the things that'll be right up my alley?"  I tell him right up front
that I don't do any kind of drugs.  He goes, "For Christ sake, it's got
nothing to do with drugs. I'll tell you all about it.  Sexy stuff.  Hell,
you're going to love it.  How old are you anyway?"  I tell him I'm nineteen
and this excited him.  "Jesus, three years older then me. This is gonna
rock! I thought you might be sixteen or seventeen at the most."  Tucker's
real animated, like I said, and it makes me smile. He has a lot of
energy. Did he say sexy stuff? Earlier I'd told him about the Mini Cooper
and he is hot to see it.  So, what the hell, I like to show it off.  I
follow him down the ramp leading off the boardwalk while he's giving me
general directions to his aunt's house. I know the area and he seems very
anxious that I see the pool so I guess we're going.  What the hell, a swim
sounds okay, but I better get a little clearer explanation about the sexy
stuff.  Tucker drives me to where the Mini's parked and when he sees it he
couldn't stop going on about how hot my car is and on and on and on.
Finally even I'm getting bored with it and want to change the subject, so I
mention the swimming pool. Tucker goes, "Oh, if you really want to, I guess
I can take you, but you're going to have to follow my rules when we get
there.  That has to be understood upfront because there are rules for
private pools, safety ones and others. You cool with that?"  Now I'm
confused because he's making it seem like he was doing me a favor letting
me swim in the goddamn pool when, just a couple minutes ago, I thought I
was the one doing him the favor by going with him.  What the hell?

Tucker's getting in his car and shouts back, "You promised me you'd follow
the rules, Oliver, don't forget. Just follow me, it's only about fifteen
minutes from here."  He drives off waving his arm out the window for me to
follow. Well, I can't just blow the kid off. He seemed so excited about me
going for a swim with him when we were on the boardwalk, I'm probably
misreading him now. The new adventurous Oliver, that's me!  Tucker's
considerate that I don't lose him at traffic lights and we get to his
Aunt's place in less than fifteen minutes.  Like I said, I knew generally
where I was and how to get back and all that. Getting out of my car and
looking around I see this is a very nice neighborhood.  Big expensive,
single homes. I follow smiling Tucker around a high hedge, through a gate
and along a tall wood fence, and then across a stone walk and there it is.
A beautiful secluded pool.  Not huge, about fifteen feet wide by thirty
feet long, just the way he described it. Lots of pretty shrubs and flowers
growing here and there and everywhere. This place is very private and quite
pretty. A minute after we're inside the pool area Tucker turns to me and
says, "Rule number one, Oliver. We skinny dip. Get your swimsuit off."  He
sounds different, like he's pissed-off about something. No smile, just a
stern look on his face and authority in his voice. I give him a puzzled
look with a half a smile, assuming he's joking, and then tell him I don't
do 'skinny-dipping', and anyway is he crazy; nobody skinny dips in a family
swimming pool. I chuckle a bit to show I understand it's a joke, but
something about his attitude is making me feel uncomfortable. He takes his
bathing suit right off and flicks it onto a lounge chair near the pool.
Now I'm really uncomfortable, plus my mouth drops open as he pulls his polo
shirt over his head and tosses it on top of his bathing suit. He definitely
has a hot body, but his pecker is less than three inches long and quite
thin. He has a regular pubic patch and his nuts aren't especially small,
just that tiny dick of his.  Quite frankly I'm flabbergasted; I've never
seen anything like that penis of his on a teenager. Why the fuck would he
want to display that infantile penis, skinny dipping or any other way?

Looking away I'm hoping he hadn't noticed me gawking at his tiny dick.
"Hey", Tucker said, " I know you've probably never role-played before, but
I'll bet you've messed around with your friends doing sexy stuff
together. You are definitely the type and I spotted it in you right away,
especially the way you became docile for Mike. Now, get that swimsuit off
right now so we can get started."  I can't tell you how shocking his
transformation is.  It sort of paralyzed me with disbelief. From sweet,
cute Tucker, who I felt sorry for, into this new person with a tiny dick
who is very confident and aggressive.  But, even as weird as it is, there's
something in the back of my head that wants me to do what he says, a
tingling in my penis too. I'd had similar urges with my fairly recent
Ryjohn episode and Tucker's right, that very recent Mike episode gave me
the same sensation, so maybe it's me that's weird. While that thought
flashes through my head, Tucker's walking slowly over to me.  He's holding
his tiny dick between his thumb and index finger and stroking the skin back
and forth on that pencil nub of a penis. I can't help myself, I'm back into
my staring mode with my mouth open again.  He comes right up in front of me
and, without a word, put his hand swiftly inside the front of my swimsuit
and cups my balls, then squeezes them very hard.  My eyes open wider than I
would have thought possible and I go up on my toes leaning into Tucker with
my hands grasping his shoulders.  Of all the things that anyone has ever
done to me this has got to be the most unexpected and most painful. He
says, "Pull your swimsuit down".  I let go of his shoulders and just lean
my chest against his, my face next to his neck and my eyes looking over his
shoulder and down his back as the pain flies around my brain. Fumbling with
his hand at my waist, Tucker pulls my swimsuit down to my knees.  I don't
fight it, he squeezed my nuts so hard I couldn't even get a scream out and
the thought of another squeeze like that is unthinkable.  Although I tried
to scream, only a wheezing long note managed to escape my throat. I almost
throw up, like I use to do all the time when I was a kid.  Panting with the
pain as it rolls around my groin and belly, I clutch onto Tucker to keep
from falling over.  Sweat drips off my face and I'm not thinking
straight. He was back to stroking his tiny dick, but stops that and takes
mine in his fist and begins stroking a normal sized dick. He's back to
holding my nuts tightly in his other hand too, not squeezing at the moment.
He has me under control for now as the pain in my nuts and all through my
mid-section is roaring, although it's beginning to abate somewhat.  It took
a minute or two before the fading pain allows me to notice an on-coming
tingle of pleasure in my cock from his stroking.  My hands are holding onto
his shoulders again with my head still resting against his neck while the
pain in my groin is slipping away at it's own slow pace. I can't speak,
just groan.

Tucker's voice is more compassionate sounding now.  It's as if he were
speaking to a little kid, who he'd just punished, but who he is ready to
forgive.  In that voice, he says, "You'll be fine in a few minutes. Just do
what you're told, okay Oliver?"  I nod my head 'yes' against the side of
his face as my senses begin returning to me. Tucker said quietly, "Good
boy. Now, Oliver, I want you to stay leaning against me, but put your arms
around my neck.  Do what I say, put your arms around my neck, Oliver."  And
he squeezes my nuts slightly.  My arms go tightly around his neck and I
nuzzled in against his small tight, smooth body as best I can.  I can feel
strength in that small body and he easily keeps me from falling, even
though I'm a good five inches taller than him.  It feels somewhat awkward
scrunching down to have my head on his shoulder, but I don't trust myself
without support at the moment. He had a very pleasant odor about him
too. "Oliver, you're doing just fine. You'll be feeling a lot better in a
couple more minutes," He's whispering now, "It's important you accept that
I'm in charge here.  Do you understand that yet, Oliver?"  He's still
stroking my cock and it's firming up, no doubt about it. Tucker has more to
say, "Hug my neck tightly with your left arm and rub your fingers over my
head with your right hand massaging my scalp. I want you to get use to
doing what I tell you so that's why I'm telling you to do these little
things."  He's speaking in a nice, concerned voice now, like he's really
trying to help me, not that what he says makes much sense. I feel his
buzzed head again and sort of rub it. I'm thinking that under different
circumstances he wouldn't have to be jerking me off, I'd be getting hard
just hugging this kid.  Great body.  Tucker starts up again instructing me,
"This is all part of the preliminary submissive training for you. This can
really be fun for you, you'll see."  My head is aching a little, as in a
headache from the ball busting, but it'll be a temporary situation now that
the pain has finally faded.  Most of what Tucker says makes no sense and I
have a passing thought, 'Could it be that this fucker is crazy?' I'm
getting some of my senses back finally, but by now Tucker has my cock
leaking precum from the constant stroking and it's feeling good so I'm
having mixed-up thoughts that this is kinda sexy hot. If Tucker wants to
give me a hand-job before our swim, why didn't he just say so, how about
sucking my cock too. I had to smile at this strange experience. Somehow
he's got lube on his fingers which helps him slide his fist up and down my
hard six inch pole faster and faster and I can't help grunting, "Ah ah oh
oh..." All the time still hugging him around his neck.  I'm getting very
close to a climax in spite of the tight grip Tucker is using on my boner
and my hips, seemingly on their own, begin thrusting.

Tucker voice gets angry again as he says, "You've got to listen to me. I'll
squeeze your nuts again if you don't start paying attention. You need to
admit to yourself and to me that I'm in charge of you here.  You need to
say it outloud and really believe it. Do you understand?"  The very thought
of him doing another nut cruncher causes my boner to lose most of it's
bone, so I quickly say, "Okay, okay, you're in charge, Tucker.  I'm
positive about that, I got it, I got it.  No more ball crunchers,
please". Tucker stops stroking my boner and rubs up the back of my head in
an affectionate way, saying, "Sure, that wasn't so hard, was it?  Good boy,
Oliver. I'm seldom wrong about guys like you." He really sounds pleased
that I agreed he's in charge.  Fuck, as long as he's still holding my nuts,
of course he's in charge.  Tucker now started talking in a nice, low,
matter of fact way, "After you cum, you may ask me for one thing.  A beer,
or soda, or to go to the bathroom, or what have you. One thing only to
start though.  Okay? This is called role playing; I'm playing the dominant
role and you're doing the submissive one. It's very sexy for both of
us. You'll see. Have fun with it."  He's hugging and rubbing the back of my
neck and head.  He switched body position a little when he'd let go of my
cock, and when he moves now I feel his steel spike poke my thigh; he's got
an incredibly hard boner going for him.  My forehead has moved to his
shouder now and I can look down the front of him and see that his tiny dick
had grown hard and stands straight out from his pubes.  Hard now, it's
almost four inches long, but it's head has swelled to almost a normal size
cock head.  I can hardly believe my eyes.  If somebody told me about
Tucker's dick I wouldn't believed him.  My semi-boner is being ignored as
it bobs between us with each rub of my head.  Tucker goes, " If you can
finish getting yourself off in twelve strokes we'll discuss that one
request you've got coming to you.  Jerk yourself off now."

Jesus, can this get any more fucked up?  He very well may be crazy like I
wondered about a few minutes ago. This whole deal has moved way past weird
now, but I grab my boner and do rapid, tight strokes and I'm right on the
edge of blowing my load when Tucker squeezes my sore nuts a tad and says,
"Stop! That's twelve strokes."  I stop immediately, leaving the head of my
cock stretched and shiny, and dripping. I needed to cum now.  "Put your
arms around my neck again and don't pick your head off my shoulder until I
tell ya to."  I don't intend to do it, but as I hugged his neck I moan,
"Ohhhhh", as if I'm aroused by hugging his neck, but it's actually the
feeling in my cock that caused the moan. Tucker quietly mutters, "I know, I
know. You're getting attached to my control over you already, and it's a
turn-on for you. You'll be fine, you're in capable hands."  I wonder, "What
the fuck's he talking about now?"  My balls are hard and full of cum.  The
head of my cock burns as my slit opens slightly ready to fire my spunk.  I
bite my lip and grimaced, but I really need to stroke my boner two, three
more times and have it explode. I say, "I'm sure you're right about all
this, um, stuff... ah, but, Tucker, I need to finish getting off.  Please
don't squeeze my nuts anymore. Come on Tucker, you know how it is with us
guys.  I need to cum like mad."  Tucker takes a big annoyed breath and, as
he lets it out he says, "Don't whine, you'll screw-up my mood, but alright,
go ahead," and I stroked three times slow and then four real fast strokes
and the cum shoots out with a burning feeling at the speed it comes out. I
do a long sigh of relief, but it wasn't a good feeling except for the
relief part. I can't remember another time when climaxing didn't feel
fantastic.  This is another first for me.

I'd had my eyes tightly closed climaxing and, like I said, it wasn't a good
feeling so there's very little after shock. I just want this stupid
experience to get over with.  Wiping the cum off my hand on the back of my
T-shirt I feel spurts of wetness on my thighs and open my eyes to see
Tucker the pervert pulling on his four inch boner and shooting off quite a
lot of cum, most of it on me.  He still has my nuts in his other hand so I
wait.  After awhile he says, "Whew, that rocked! How'd your's feel? " I say
nothing and so he goes, "Okay, time for your one wish.  What can I get you?
We'll take a break for a few minutes. Isn't this fun?" I'm thinking, 'It's
official. This fucker is as crazy as a junkyard dog."  To Tucker I say, "My
request is that I can get my cell phone out of my car. If dad calls me and
I don't answer, I'm up shits creek." I don't know where I came up with that
bull-shit story, but it sounds believable to me. He reluctantly says," Oh
alright, as long as we understand each other Mr Nineteen-year-old. I will
let go of your nuts, but it is a simple thing for me to get a controlling
position on you whenever I want to, so stay on your toes and do what I tell
you. Got it?"  I definitely got it. Any kind of squeeze on my nuts would
have me groveling on the ground by now. I nod my head up and down. Tucker
says, " First, step out of your swimsuit." Oh yeah, I forgot they're around
my ankles. I step out of them, and he goes, "Good boy.  Kick it over near
the pool."  I kicked it and hear a quiet splash. Guess I kicked it too
hard. Tucker gives me instructions in a casual manner, "When I tell you to,
make a mad dash for your car out there on the street. Do it with your bare
ass hanging out along with that nice set of cock and balls you got swinging
in the breeze. I'm allowing you fifteen seconds to get the cell phone and
get back to standing at attention right here in front of me. You'll get a
smack on your bare ass for every second over the fifteen. Got it?" I go,
"Yeah, I got it, Tucker."  After hesitating a second, he let's go of my
nuts and yells, "Go! Time starts right now."  He begins with the count of
one second one , two seconds two, three....

I ran out the gate bare-assed and once around the high hedge I grab either
side of the neck of my T shirt, the one I'd changed into that reads,
'WILDWOOD NEW JERSEY' on the front, and I rip the neck open until I can
pull it down over my shoulders and arms and wear the T-shirt like a skirt.
Walking to my car, not running now.  I've said I'm not a fighter and I'm
not, but I never considered myself a coward either. Tucker's strong,
especially for his size, but if he wants to come charging out here after
me, so be it. I'm super motivated to kick his ass, after I punt his tiny
dick to his Adan's apple, but I'd rather not do it wearing a T-shirt as a
skirt. My head has finally cleared quite a bit from the confusion of that
painful nut busting. I don't really know how long he'd had me literally 'by
the balls', but it seems like maybe five minutes tops. I'm really
pissed-off now and I'm bigger and older than him, and if need be I'll kick
that no-dick's ass from here to the boardwalk.  Hopefully I won't need to
do that right now because frankly I'm not feeling real good at the moment,
I'm still a little nauseous from the pain. I never take the Mini's car key
swimming with me, pool or beach, because I'm afraid water or sand will
screw it up. That key is like a little computer with all the things you can
do with it. I reach under the mat, get the key and fire up the Mini Cooper
S.  Stepping on the gas while in neutral, revving-up that loud
throaty-sounding engine and turning on the music fairly loud I sit there to
see if Tucker wants to make an appearance.

Sure enough, he comes running out behind the hedge with his swimsuit back
on shouting, "Hey!"  I stay there at the curb looking at him, half
expecting to have to get out and fight.  He yells, "Hey!  Hey! Hey!" but he
doesn't approach the car.  Assuming he has covered all the "Hey"
conversation he has by now, and since he didn't make a move toward me, I
flip him the finger and drive slowly away. I yell back to him, "I'll be
back you Jekyll & Hyde homo motherfucker."  I hear, "Hey!"  one last time.
I guess he couldn't think of anything else to say.  He obviously hadn't
expected me to run out on him, me being under his control and all that
other bull shit he had spewed out. I drive the speed limit, my license and
owners card are in the glove box, but getting pulled over in my
T-shirt-skirt is not what I need right now. My mind's running all over the
place. I couldn't have conjured-up a scene like the one in a million years.
He's one sick pervert and a homo too, but who am I to call someone a homo?!
If I told Alexander about this, would he even believe me?  I owe pay-back
to Tucker for that ball busting he did on me and I'm getting madder and
madder thinking about it. Plus that buzz cut gang is putting a hurtin' on
my wardrobe; my hat, sunglasses, boardies, and sandals. But right then I
get the giggles thinking about his "tiny dick" and I need to pull off the
road because I get laughing too hard.  I'm laughing about the tiny dick for
sure, but maybe a little bit of my laughter is of the hysterical variety
because of a feeling of relief getting away from a situation that borders
on the crazy, scary side. What's with that crazy bastard anyway? Submissive
and dominant? Maybe I need to check that out on Google, see if he made that
shit up.

I get it together and concentrate on my driving.  My balls are healing
amazingly fast and I'm proud of both of them.  When I get to our duplex I
pull right up on the sidewalk next to our front door, then jump out, get
the key from the flower pot, unlocked the door, and run up the
stairs. Inside I put on a jock strap, jockey underwear, jeans, sneakers and
an old Italian T shirt; then grab a cold Snapple and run back, locking the
door behind me.  Nobody around to witness my quick change. I get in my Mini
and while drinking my lemon flavored Snapple ice tea I slowly drive off the
side walk and back onto the road.  I'm headed back to get my swimsuit and
my
 sandals.  The buzz cut boys have taken all they're going to take from me.
Sunglasses, my favorite hat and now my swimsuit?  Fuck that!  I'm not
taking any more shit from that group, but I sure wished Christian was with
me. It took about twenty minutes to get to his aunts house from the duplex
and I missed the turn-off twice, but then there it is.  I pull right up
their driveway, leave the car running and go to open the gate, but it's
locked.  I hammer on it and Tucker, now using his good guy voice says, "Is
that you. Oliver?"  I tell him he's goddamn right it's me and give me my
fucking swim suit right now. He immediately throws it and my sandals over
the fence.  Obviously he fished the swimsuit out of the pool and was
waiting for me to come back.  It's a six foot high wooden fence between us
so I can't see him and he can't see me.  I'd chosen the clothes I'm wearing
because I expect to be in a fight. I can't get in through the locked gate
so I scream, "Get your ass out here, Tucker.  I'm going to pull your tiny
dick off and step on your nuts."  He starts in on how sorry he is and how
he'd misjudged the whole thing, and please don't tell anyone because he
wasn't really a homo, and it's all just suppose to be a fun dom/sub game,
and didn't I ever hear of that, and he couldn't be more sorry, and more
than anything, he just wants to be friends, and he thought I'd love being
dominated by someone who was shorter and younger, and why didn't I just say
I didn't want to do it, and he is so fucking sorry I can't possibly know
how bad he feels and how embarrassed he is that he got it all wrong and
about me .....and on and on.  He was still going on non-stop when I pull
away in the Mini.  If I see him up on the boardwalk we're going to get into
it.  And, if these nuts of mine somehow, due to the crushing, prevent me
from having a hot time with Alexander tomorrow morning I'll go looking for
that son of a bitch Tucker and tie his tiny dick in a tiny knot. I get a
lot more macho as soon as I'm sure Tucker was staying behind that fence,
and then even more so the further away from his Aunt's house I get.. Macho
oliver, that's me.

I drive back to the boardwalk and try to get my adrenaline under control,
but I feel sick to my stomach so after a while I go back to the house to
lie down.  Not a good afternoon for me at.  This afternoon, as adventurous
Oliver, I wound-up stepping on my own balls, sort of.  In a very short
while I fall asleep and when I wake up two hours later I'm feeling a lot
better.  My folks come in from the beach and the world is back to normal.
We have a nice dinner and I stay in tonight to watch the Pirates play the
Phillies.  I'm in bed sleeping by ten o'clock and am I ever rested and
ready to go the next morning.  My balls feel fine. I'd analyzed the Tucker
affair all during the ball game last night and it was a weird, weird
experience, no doubt about that. No matter how hard I tried I simply
couldn't understand how he thought he was going to get me to do what he
wanted once he let go of my nuts.  He kept inferring I wanted to be under
his control and that I'd want to do whatever he said, but that didn't make
a lot sense to me.  Why the hell would I want to do that?  Then I
remembered the initial tingle in my dick and it gets me thinking I'm weird
to get excited being controlled by Ryjohn or Mike, and I sort of felt it
with Tucker for a while there too, so what's up with that?  Yeah, I'd
experienced a little bit of that funny sensation I guess, but certainly not
from someone hurting me like crushing my nuts, that's 'nuts'.  Oh well, I
guess I just don't get it. I'll have to leave it at that.  Another mystery
of life, but I do know that anything involving the buzz cut boys is
off-the-wall and way too violent for me.  I'm staying clear of them unless
I run into Tucker when he's alone.  That's how I'm leaving it.  Other than
that, I'm forgetting about the whole sorry affair.

Alexander came over the next morning, of course, and we had our regular
make-out which lasted longer than yesterday so maybe we got something going
on between us; I mean, something more than getting our rocks off.  This
time Alexander spontaneously spunked his load on my stomach humping between
our bellies with him going, "Oh oh oh", the whole time he was spouting cum.
While Alexander's recovering from his messy, but nice climax, I maintain my
boner by stroking it every once in a while.  Then, when Alexander's ready
for it I fuck him as he lay on his stomach... me laying on top of him.  We
wanted to try this position for purposes of deepest penetration possible.
We were all about experimenting different positions to fuck in. I kept my
eyes closed so I wouldn't see any feminine moves from Alexander and I kept
my fingers in his mouth to keep his comments to a minimum.  He sucked on my
fingers the whole time.  I don't believe I've ever cum harder than I did
with that fuck.  My face was in his fantastic hair on the back of his head
half the time and the rest of the time I was kissing or just inhaling his
special smell at the back of his neck.  We were both dripping with sweat by
the time the climaxes arrived.  What a absolutely incredible feeling that
climax was.  I'm learning more and more about sex, but I'm still very
unsure about love, to say the least.  Cristobal says he and I are not in
love because you must know someone very well first, not just meet them for
a day, to be in love.  I guess the best way to put it is that I'm in love
with what I know about Cristobal.  I guess it's okay to love that much at
least.  And, now I can say the same thing about Alexander.  I don't say it
to him, just to myself.  I love the part I know about you, Alexander, minus
the feminine part.  If that's allowed, love-wise.  Each morning that week
we have hotter and hotter sex.  A number of times I thought about bringing
up the delicate 'feminine' matter, but I chickened out, so that's
unresolved.  One important development of recent days is that our
relationship won't be over when our vacation is over.  The University of
Pennsylvania in Philadelphia is only a one and a half hour drive from the
North's house in Delaware.  I'm going to get down there, using the need for
haircut as my excuse, or to say "Hi" to the twins and maybe spend the
weekend when I can.  Details to be worked out 'on-line'. We'd already
exchanged email addresses and I have a feeling the twins are going to
bombarding my mailbox, but that's okay too.

Alexander will also be making some trips up to see me.  We plan on staying
together at a Motel 6 when he visits and that's because I'll have a room
mate in my dorm so Alexander couldn't stay there and do the things we're
planning to do.  I don't think Cristobal will have any problem with me
having more than one boyfriend.  He's very open-minded and of course I have
no experience with these things, but I do think I want to be up front about
it.  Surely that's the best way to handle the situation. I know Cristobal
has other boyfriends, or he has in the past at least.  Of course, I can't
communicate with him until September when his European trip is over. From
time to time Alexander would say he loves the way I taste or smell or feel,
or the way I fuck and suck, and things like that, which is wonderful to
hear.  But, he never once said, "I love you, Oliver."  So I guess he agrees
with Cristobal.  I'd told Alexander about Cris and it isn't a problem.  At
least, I don't think he has a problem with it.  He just sort of looks away
and looks up in the air the few times I've mentioned Cristobal's name.
Probably he just doesn't think it's any of his business.  Now that I've
just said that I'm thinking that the only times Alexander has acted strange
or pouty around me were the times Cristobal's name was mentioned.  God damn
it, I hope he isn't jealous of Cris.

It's Friday morning and Alexander's with me in my bed as usual.  Vacation
is coming to an end.  We all wish we had another week down here.  After
this today we won't see each other until the fall because it's too long of
a drive from our home in Pennsylvania to where the North's live, so I
probably won't see any of them till I go away to college.  Our last morning
together and for something new I want to see what Alexander's long cock
felt like way up inside me.  He claims he isn't a very good 'top', but he
wants to get better at because he likes it and he'll be happy to do it with
me. Well, he does get himself off and fill the condom with his cum while
basically screaming out all the while he was fucking me.  He really enjoyed
fucking my hole it seems, but I ended up having to jerk myself off.
Alexander's right, he's not very good at being a top.  Too much girly
conversation and screeching out and way too tentative in his fucking. He
fucked me methodically as if he was jerking himself off using my hole
instead of his fist.  That's what it seemed like.  So, he's not perfect.
Neither am I.  But, the parts of Alexander that are fabulous, like
making-out and blowing me and being a fun friend, and letting me fuck him
far outweigh the bad parts like fucking me and the little feminine things
he occasionally does while I'm fucking him.  I'm going to miss him
something terrible, I just know it. Both of us have a tear or two during
our last kisses together.  He tells me he likes me better than anyone he's
ever met.  That's a pretty good endorsement. I thanked him and told him
that I'm inexperienced with love, so I can't be sure, but I might be in
love with him.  I said all that in a fast, hot-shit kind of way.  Not a
lovers kind of way, but it still made him stop and pause for a couple of
seconds before saying, "Thanks, Oliver. That's a sweet thing to remember
you by until we meet again in September."  It was his pause that concerned
me a little.  We kissed some more, but you can guess what happened next.
He saw the time and he scooted to make his last tee-time.  Fucking golf!

Alexander left Wildwood after dinner Friday night to drive back to
Delaware.  He's competing in his private club's club championship
tournament at seven Saturday morning. We all wished him good luck.
Alexander and I just do a little hand wave goodbye.  Very anti-climatic
after our eight days of sex together.  I feel a bit down in the dumps, but
I'd promised the twins I'd go on the boardwalk with them our last night
here.  Knowing Alexander isn't even in Wildwood by the time we're going on
amusement rides really took all the fun out of everything for me.  Not the
twins, they were having a blast right up to the last second.  I wonder why
I get so attached to some boys, I wanted to cry knowing that Alexander was
probably home in Delaware by now.  Maybe with his Delaware boyfriend, if he
has one.  Damn. Saturday morning we pack the SUV and my folks get on the
road about ten o'clock; they're stopping at the rental office to drop off
the key.  I told them I was hanging around for a few hours saying goodbye
to Wildwood for another year and I'd see them at home.  I'd gone over to
the North's with my parents to say goodbye just before my folks left.  The
twins were off getting in one last swim in the ocean and I know that the
Norths are planning to leave within the hour, so I need time to say goodbye
to Nathan and Noah when they get back from the beach. In the meantime I sit
on our back deck taking in the view one last time and finishing off the
last bottle of orange juice from the refrigerator.

Shortly I spot the twins walking back from the beach, looking like they're
attached at the hip.  They both go around the side of the duplex to use the
outdoor shower.  A few minutes later I watch them towel off and I go
inside.  I'd called out to them, but they didn't hear me.  This has been an
awesome two weeks for me.  Well, except for those fucking buzz-cut boys.
Meeting the twins and then Alexander has been awesome.  Goddamn, do I ever
have a 'thing' going for Alexander though, and I can't wait to see him
again and taste his taste and all. I get a hard-on just thinking about him.
Oh well, I'll just have to wait for September.  I better get over to say
goodbye to the boys, but just then I hear them thundering up the back
stairs.  I opened the door just as Noah's reaching to knock.  "Oh, Oliver,
we were afraid you left already." Nathan seemed sincerely concerned. "We
didn't see the Mini Cooper."  I told them I'd had to park it up the street
last night because all the spots on our street were taken. Just looking at
those identical beauties is a pleasure.  I smile at them and tell them I'd
been just about to come over to their place.  "How the hell could I leave
without saying goodbye to you two?"  We all hug and Nathan says, "You're
our other big brother now and you should give us a kiss goodbye like
Alexander did last night."  Oh my God, I had no problem with that.  I
hugged Nathan to me and he wrapped his arms around my waist tight which
felt so nice.  I kissed him like I saw Alexander kiss him, on the cheek
with a long kiss and then drag my lips along his cheek almost to his mouth,
then breaking the kiss off, I mutter, "I'm going to miss you, Nathan."  He
looks up and quickly kisses my chin saying, "Not as much as I'll miss you,
I bet."  Nathan let go of me and looked at Noah who came over and took
Nathan's place.  Same fabulous hug.  The boys have this wonderful youthful
smell about them.  Their skin seems new, it smells almost like a baby's
skin. I'd sprung a boner from Nathan's hug and kiss so to avoid pushing my
boner against Noah I stood almost sideways when he hugged me.  This put my
thigh between Noah's legs.  I kissed him the same way I kissed Nathan and I
could immediately feel his five inch cock grow against my thigh; it got as
hard as my six inch is.  Noah was pushing it against my leg and grinding a
little.  What the...?  When I dragged my lips across his cheek he moved his
head in the opposite direction and we were lips on lips.  From the street
the horn from the North's car was sounding for the boys, Noah gave my lips
a big wet kiss and he quietly murmurs, "We love you, Oliver."  He let go of
me and both the twins ran down the stairs with tears on their cheeks.
Somebody finally said they loved me.  I have tears on my cheeks too.  But,
I'm wicked confused....

What did it all mean?  Was that rehearsed?  Did Noah mean 'he' loved me,
but because they always spoke using the plural it came out "we' instead of
"I" ?  Or was Noah representing both of them.  Noah has spokened any number
of times in my presents, but only to say..yes, no, or okay.  One word
answers to questions I'd asked and his voice is identical to Nathan's, but
he chooses not to use it.  It would be totally out of character for him to
be their spokesman for something like this, so it probably was "I love you"
as in "I love my brother".  But then, what was the boy's boner all about ?
Another Wildwood mystery for me, I guess.  The Norths had driven off by the
time I sauntered, in a bit of a fog, down the back steps and closed the
door for the last time, hearing the lock click before walking towards the
Mini.  I had a semi-boner just thinking about the twin's and the goodbye
kisses.  That was an unexpected bit of icing on the beautiful cake that was
this entire two week vacation.  Damn, am I ever happy to have met those
three.  I'll be daydreaming about the North boys and that's for sure. I
thought about all three of them as I got in my car. Well, nothing to be
done now but to check out the boardwalk one last time.  I drive ten blocks
down from our duplex because there's more action on the boardwalk down a
little bit.  Pulling around a corner, almost blindly because of a high
shrub, a guy entering the intersection blast his horn at me just as some
guy on a motorbike swerves in front of me and gives me the finger and yells
out something that sounded like "asshole". Fuck!  That was lovely.  No one
was hit or anything and the three of us go our separate ways, but I was a
little bit shook-up so I parked in a lot and begrudgingly paid the fifteen
dollars.  The lot is right next to the boardwalk.  It's unbelievable that a
guy blows his horn at me when it was his own damn fault we almost had an
accident, and then some guy on a fucking motorbike, who had actually cut me
off, gives me the finger because he thought I blasted my horn at him.  Both
of those two were in the wrong and both of them got pissed at me. Life
isn't always fair. Trying to forget about it, I walk up onto the boardwalk
for the last time this year.  For me it's the fourteenth beautiful Wildwood
day in a row.  Everyday of our vacation weather had been near perfect. The
ocean looks spectacular with bright sunshine glistening off it's dark
surface.  The white caps contrasting with that dark color of the ocean as
the waves brake on the beach.  Pigeons squawking and fighting with each
other over a scrap of bread.  The boardwalk's bustling with people at
eleven in the morning.  Walkers, bicycle riders and the joggers, including
the groups of young teen boys jogging together that I like to look at.
Here comes six of them in a line right now...cute!  and HOT!

I hear some guy right behind me say, "Hey, Asshole!" as he gets me in a
headlock and really tightens his hold on my neck.  "Aaaaggghhh, Ouch!
Fuck!!" I'm not too proud to beg when my neck is being tortured. "Whoa,
okay, please stop.  What's your fucking problem?" He says, "I don't like
assholes blowing their fucking horn at me, shitbag!  Got it?."  Oh, the guy
on the motorbike?  I try to tell him I didn't blow my horn, the dickhead
behind me blew his horn at me.  "Please, man, go twist his head off, I'm
innocent.  Really, I didn't blow my horn at anybody." The guy lessens his
hold on my neck and I mumble, "I swear it wasn't me.  Come over to my car
and I'll blow my horn for you so you can see it doesn't sound anything like
that other horn."  The bully says, "Okay, pussy, I'll call your bluff on
that.  Let's go."  He lets up on the headlock and grabs hold of the back of
my neck with a powerful grip and pushes me toward the ramp leading to the
street.  This hurts just as much as the head lock.  My hair is all
messed-up and my face is red and sweaty as I struggle to walk with this
animal pushing me ahead of him.  We're almost to the ramp when, thank God,
one of the boardwalk policeman glides up on his mountain bike and asked,
"What's going on, Sullivan?" In a cheerfully sarcastic voice my attacker
says, "Just a bit of fun with one of the summer riffraff, Officer Martin.
How are you on this fine day?"  The cop says, "Are you having fun, son?"
referring to me, I assumed.  I said, "Not yet."  The cop snorts and goes,
"Let him go, Sullivan.  Now!"  Sullivan says, "Certainly" and he lets go of
my neck.  I rub it and say thanks to the cop.  "Take a hike, son," is what
the cop says to me and I walk down the boardwalk wondering if that Sullivan
guy who attacked me was going to be in trouble now; I sure hope so.
Walking away I don't look back.  As a matter of fact I never got a look at
the tough guy.  He was strong though.  Lucky for me that cop came along.

It simply wouldn't do to have that incident be my last memory of Wildwood
for the year.  I try to get my good mood back by looking at the view out
over the ocean and then back to the boardwalk and the view of the young
teen joggers.  I need to start my summer job next week which I do not
believe will be as much fun as Wildwood has been.  That was a joke, of
course it won't be as much fun.  I don't actually expect it to be fun at
all, but I'm hoping it wouldn't suck too terribly.  It's still two months
before I can see Cristobal or Alexander.  I'm beginning to think I may be
naive in believing that Cris and Alexander won't care if I have two
boyfriends. I think back to my little jealous feeling about Alexander being
with his Delaware boyfriend, if he even has one.  I didn't feel too..., but
before I can finish that thought someone grabbed the back of my nylon
basketball shorts and, pulling up hard, gives me a wedgy that flattens my
balls.  "God damnit !  That is crushing my nuts." I croak out, and then got
embarrassed and red in the face as a group of older woman stare at me with
outraged looks on their faces. Then from the wedgie madman, to me, "I'm not
done with you just yet, ya fucking horn-blower. Wouldn't ya rather blow me
instead of blowing your horn?"  He didn't give a fuck about the old ladies
gawking at us. I twist my head around and recognized the tall, blond,
buzzcut kid, Mike.  I moan, "Oh, no. It was you on the motorbike?"  "That's
right dick-for-brains.  You blew your horn at the wrong kid this time,
didn't ya?"  I just grunt out, "Oh shit...." and then try to explain again
that it wasn't me who blew the horn, but by now he'd pushed me up against
the outside railing of the boardwalk, over on the beach side.  My back is
up tight against the railing and he's leaning into me with the top railing
biting into my back.  Very uncomfortabe, painful even.  Especially with
Mike's leg in between my legs, pushing up on my balls.  At first it hurt,
but he moves his leg slightly, then little humping motions against my cock
and with his body pretty much smothering my body I'm getting stimulated.  I
suppose a straight guy wouldn't have this problem, but I was starting to
get the early feelings of a boner coming up.

Mike's nose is level with my eyebrow so he must be a little over six feet
tall.  Our bodies are tight together and our faces are almost touching.  He
has perfect skin, not a single imperfection and what an incredibly handsome
boy he is.  He has to be at least sixteen because he's driving, but up this
close he looks younger.  Mike is the best looking, hands down, among the
trio of him, Alexander and Cristobal, and the last two are cute and good
looking and hot, so that's saying something.  How lucky am I?  Not only two
fabulous looking boyfriends, but the young kid who bullies me and beats me
up all the time is the best looking kid I ever saw. He smells good too.  I
couldn't describe how he smelled, it's just hot, good, sexy; things like
that come to mind.  Trying not to be obvious about it, I couldn't help but
take a big inhale of him.  He asks, "Are you getting a boner?  Is that what
I'm feeling on my leg?" and he increased the motion on my cock with his
thigh.  I simply say, "Yes, I am."  Mike smiles a little smile and squeezed
the back of my neck lightly with his finger tips, then he pulled the short
hair on the back of my head till I said, "Ouch, that hurts.  Please, man."
My arms are holding onto his waist, there's no place else for then
actually, and it's comfortable just holding onto him lightly like this.
Everything's so odd with all the people continuing to move past us on the
boardwalk as if we're invisible. Through-out all this Mike maintains a
little smirk on his cute face, he's having fun. He seems to enjoy
humiliating me as he rubs his hands on my head and then using the index
finger of his right hand, while cupping his left hand behind my head to
hold it in place, to put the finger against my lips and moving it up to
pull my upper lip inside-out, and he continues to drag that finger slowly
up the front of my nose bringing a little mucus from my nose along with
some saliva from inside my gum and lip.  Then he smears it on my forehead
and then pokes that finger at my mouth and when I try to turn my head away,
he goes, "No! Open!" and for some reason I slightly parted my teeth and he
pushed his finger in my mouth till the tip of his finger hit the back of my
throat.  "Lick."  I move my tongue slightly back and forth on his finger
and he pulls it out.  Showing a cute smile now and holding his finger up
like he's real proud of it, he mumbles, "See...all clean," and he sucks on
the same finger smirking like crazy with that cute grin. He has beautiful
eyes. It's almost worth being bullied to get to be this intimate with
him. This kid is so hot he sizzles without even trying.

Then he uses both his hands to play with my hair, combing it with his
fingers so my hair's sticking-up on top of my head, like it's suppose to be
anyway. He says, "This is a much better haircut. What'd you say your name
was?" I say, "Oliver Nickerson," in kind of a trance, another one. He holds
me in place against the railing with the pressure of his entire body
leaning on me, his cheek rubbing against my nose as he changes his mind and
decides to mess my hair instead of combing it with his fingers.  My hard-on
officially becomes a boner. Mike casually asks, "You always get boners when
a guy leans against you?  You'd have plenty of problems doing that on my
high school wrestling team" and I mutter, "I don't always get a boner, it
depends on the guy.  If it's someone hot like you, yeah, I get a boner."
He makes a face like he can't believe I said just that, and he spits out,
"What, you some kind of fag or something?"  I try to look him in the eyes,
but it's not easy because our faces are so close.  I say, for only the
second time in my life, "Yes, I'm gay."  Mike looks truly taken-aback,
"Don't bullshit me.  Nobody just says they're gay.  Prove it.  Kiss me on
the lips, homo."  I've been fed-up with this buzz cut crowd for a while now
and, feeling a little wild and crazy and pissed-off, I kiss him on the lips
and push my tongue in against his teeth.  I swear he kissed back a little,
a reflect action probably. He exclaims, "Holy shit!  You do that again and
I'll knock your fucking teeth out."  He cups his hand on my cheeks along my
jaw, and squeezed a little.  I'm thinking, "How much do I care about my
teeth?"  It might be worth getting them knocked out for another kiss with
him.  I stare at him, and just like that he smiles a great smile.  Jesus,
what a cute face when he smiles, even cuter then before.  He backs off and
put his arm around my neck, and goes, "We'll forget that kiss, you remind
me of somebody I'm very fond of.  Come on, walk with me awhile."

It takes me completely by surprise, but what's new about that? We walk a
couple of steps, and he says, "You know what?  I admire you for coming out
and saying you're gay. That takes guts.  Damn, I never heard another, well,
I did hear one other kid say it actually, but you're just the second.  Gay,
huh?  You don't seem gay."  We walk and I still have my boner which I'm
trying to hold against my leg using my right hand, in my pocket. He has his
arm around my neck as we walk so I put my left arm around his waist.  I
can't see any benefit from me saying anything so I just keep my mouth shut.
Mike seems oblivious to everything and I'm letting myself enjoy his bodily
contact. I wonder why I'm going along with him and quicky decide I'm doing
it because I want to. He's younger than me but stronger, nonetheless, I
could have broken away from him if I wanted to, so obviously I don't want
to. This is fun and sexy and different and somehow I know he isn't a bad
kid at heart. In fact, I have a feeling that if I needed something, Mike
would help me out with it.  Strange, but I feel safe with this taller, but
younger kid next to me.  He possesses some quality I can't put my finger
on, and he's intriguing as all get out. It's obvious that Mike pays no
attention to the other people around us.  As far as he's concerned, there's
just me and him alone on the boardwalk today.  He tells me about some
machine or something that broke down earlier on the farm he works at.  Most
of the farm boys weren't needed after that.  "So, since I got the time, I
like to come up on the boardwalk alone; that's what I was trying to do when
you ran me off the road, blowing your horn." I look at him with a shake of
my head, but I didn't contradict him because it seems a waste of time.  We
come up to a little breakfast stand that has a few tables out front and
Mike says, "Sit here and wait for me."  He knew I'd do it.  The thought
never crosses his mind that I'd just walk off.  It never crosses my mind
either. I sit here waiting for him and shortly he brings back two paper
cups of coffee.  Both of the coffees are black with sugar.  He just assumed
I'd like my coffee the way he takes his.  I don't like it this way though,
I like lots of cream in my coffee, and not that kind of cream, you perve.
I don't say anything about the black coffee except, "Thanks".  It's fun
just being able to look observe him this close up.  When his face is
relaxed, somber even, he looks ridiculously handsome and when he smirks or
does his little smile he has the cutest face I'd ever seen.  It's almost
beyond belief.

Mike slurps his coffee, "Too fucking hot." he mutters.  Then he takes out a
pack of cigarettes and gives me one.  I tell him I don't smoke, and Mike
says, "Smoke it", so I do.  I take little tiny drags on the cigarette as
Mike stares at me with a bemused look on his perfect face.  He mumbles,
"You smoke like a girl.  What the fuck's your name, again?"  I tell him,
"Oliver Nickerson."  Mike laughs and goes, "Oh that's right, Oliver?  What,
your parents hated you or something?"  I just shake my head and smile at
him.  He reaches over and messes my hair some more, saying, "By the way,
you gotta get a buzzcut before you can join my gang."  I say, "I just got
this sixty five dollar haircut last week".  Mike goes, "You got robbed."
We laugh together, and I go, "Oh no, I didn't.  It was free."  He goes,
"You still got robbed."  There's something so sexy about him I gulp for air
every so often, you know, when I'd forget to breathe.  He apparently feels
very comfortable staring at me, but it's making me a little uneasy and I
can't hold eye contact with him for long.  I need to look out to sea every
once in a while and take in a big lungful of air.  He'd just tilt his head
a little and grin at my discomfort. We drink our bitter coffee without
saying too much.  Then Mike goes, "I can't get over how much you remind me
of my best bud, Richie.  You remember him at the Double Shot, right?"  I'm
like, "Oh, so you do remember me from the Double Shot?"  Mike says of
course he does and, "Don't think your hair's too short now for me to still
get a fist full of it, if I need to".  I go, "Oh, please, don't do that to
me again.  I promise not to stare," Mike smirks a little smile at me and
tells me he wants to walk some more.  According to Mike I don't look like
Richie necessarily, but I have the same body type and everything I do is
similar to the way Richie does it.  He tells me I react like Richie and
that it's all quite weird and hard for him to believe, and I mumble, "Yes,
but there it is."

We walk some more, Mike doesn't put his arm across my shoulder right away
and I think I'm disappointed about that, so I asks, "Aren't you going to
put your arm on my shoulders?"  He gives me another smirk and does a nod of
his head, indicating for me to get closer.  When I stepped next to him he
puts his arm around my neck and pulls my head next to his so that his nose
is on my forehead for just a second and then he lets my head return to it's
regular spot right there above my shoulders.  His lips had left a wet spot
of saliva near my left eyebrow; I hadn't realize his lips touched me.  My
boner's comes back up.  I'm thinking that this Richie is one lucky kid.  We
walk without talking for ten minutes or so, and then Mike says, "Take off
your sandals, Oliver.  We're going to walk on the beach." I take off my
sandals as Mike lights another cigarette and blow a smoke ring in my face.
I grin at him. He doesn't keep his arm around my neck as we walk on the
beach, but he looks over at me from time to time and I give him a little
smile each time.  It's a sexy feeling being alone with Mike.  The way he
pays attention to me makes me feel like, at this moment, nothing else
matters to him in the whole world except me.  I want desperately to kiss
him again.  If I couldn't kiss him, then I'd at least tell like him to tell
me something else he wanted me to do. I have a strong feeling that Mike's a
straight guy who likes being a big tease, even as I yearn for him to be
gay.

We walk way up the beach.  After awhile I began imitating the way I
remember Richie walking with Mike; right next to him so that Mike's and my
arms rub against each other; he's apparently used to it and doesn't take
notice. God this kid is hot!  When we're down past where people sunbath
Mike puts his arm around my neck and again pulls my head over to his and
this time he licks across my lips and rubs his cheek against mine.  I
almost stumbled as he looks right in my eyes and gives me another great
smile.  I would have done anything he told me to at that moment.  By the
time we get back to where my car and his motorbike are parked, it's way
past the time I should have been on the road home.  Mike wants to take me
for a ride on his bike, but I have a five hour drive ahead of me and I
don't trust myself with him, so using common sense I didn't even know I
had, I beg off. Surprisingly he doesn't argue with me.  We walk off the
boardwalk without much conversation and when we get to my car, he says,
"Okay, blow that fucking horn of yours and it better sound different than
the horn that blew at me earlier."  I look at him, like 'Really?' to see if
he's serious and it looks like he is so I blow my horn.  It didn't sound
anything like the other guys horn.  Mike smiles and mumbles, "I knew it
wasn't you."  Everything he did or said was exciting and I can't tell you
why that is.  It just is. He also says, "Give me another 'gay' kiss,
Oliver.  I want to be able to recognize one if someone else gives me one."
I kiss him right there in the parking lot with people all over the place.
He definitely opens his mouth this time, but just a quick tongue lick.  I
lick across his teeth and suck on his top lip and I feel my boner leaking
and I know I'd have cum in my shorts if he kissed me back again.  Mike
says, "God dammit, you asshole!  I was joking with you about the kiss.  You
are going to need a mighty fucking good dentist if you don't wise-up.
Jesus, you're so gay, Oliver"

I try to copy the way he smirks at me, and when I give him my imitation
smirk, I think I see a half a smile on his lips.  I say, "Next summer I'm
looking you up.  Maybe I'll get a buzzcut and join your gang."  We both
know I'm just fucking around. Mike lights a cigarette and looks up at the
sky.  It didn't seem like he has anything left to say, so I asked, "Mike,
ya think you might introduce me to your bud, Richie, sometime?"  He goes,
"Probably not." His motorbike is parked near my car.  Mike gets on it and
fires it up making a lot of noise with his mufflers.  He goes, "See ya,"
and roar off.  I have a boner that aches and I need to sit in my car a few
minutes letting it go down before turning on the engine.  I want to jerk
off so badly.  Why couldn't I have thought of something that might have
made him stay a little longer?  Maybe he was pissed-off I didn't go on the
motorbike ride with him.  Now I'm pissed-off at myself too; I should have
gone.  The new adventurous Oliver should have gone.  Why, when I get a
chance for something really exciting do I turn into the little mouse Oliver
of yesteryear, instead of the new adventurous one?  My eyes sting I'm so
pissed-off at myself.  There's a magnetism, a charisma about Mike that I
can't articulate, but just the same it's there as big as the sky.  Or
bigger.

The ride home is a long one what with the traffic jams that occur on
weekends in the summer.  I think about my Wildwood vacation the entire time
and have a number of boners along the way.  I try to understand, a number
of times, why I chickened-out going on that ride with Mike.  I'm still
disappointed in myself and make a promise that I won't pussy-out the next
time I have a chance at something special.  Mostly I concentrate on the
good things: the Alexander thing and the twin's mystery kiss thing.  This
Wildwood vacation was the best I've ever had and now it's over. Now I need
to start getting serious about this summer job I'll be doing for the next
eight weeks.  And, on a brighter note, I have to get out to Seattle to
visit Christian before I go off to college.  That will be fun, flying first
class and all. I try to think about the future from the adventurous
Oliver's perspective, not the mousey Oliver's one.  Fuck the mouse.

To be continued...  Chapter 4 (Goodbye Wildwood) Donny Mumford
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