Date: Sun, 13 Feb 2011 03:15:34 +0000
From: Cody Samuels <literally.naked@googlemail.com>
Subject: Something About Steve 2 (College)

Something about Steve

Cody Samuels

Literally.naked@gmail.com

Introduction: Hey all! Glad I got a good response from some of our readers,
and don't worry, it's going to get a lot more interesting so make sure you
keep yourself sane and don't go busting a nut one something as small as
Jacob getting a boner

About myself: So did I mention I live in London? The city of freedoms and
insecurities meshed together in their famously tight skinny jeans? Well it's
not attractive (unless it happens to be a muscle head that owns them in
which case, Hell yeah! Let's see some crotch!). Life is fun and intense at
the same time, and as we're all going through a recession times can be
tough. Which is why everyone is a train ride away if I ever need company.

WARNING: May Contain Scenes of a sexual nature. But you already knew that
didn't you? Stay safe- really... Use a condom

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Something about Steve - 2

 "Whatcha got there dude?"

"Nothing" I said, trying to sound normal even though I could feel my
breathing hammering through my mouth like police men breaking through the
door on a raid. My hands shook and I could feel myself tremble at the same
time. Part of me even stirred downstairs at the thought of being caught by
Steve. I couldn't have him find out I liked guys. So I slammed the suitcases
shut and put one on top of the wardrobe and the other under my bed as fast
as I could.

"C'mon now Jacob, I'm an ok dude, you don't have to worry about me freaking
out about porno" I think I felt my balls drop and pull my guts with it. He
must have seen the look on my face and laughed at my misery. To think he
would have seen the, magazines and instantly labelled me "fag" and press his
"groupie" alarm whereby lots of big muscular air-headed jocks were ready to
pummel me silly. I had to lie, or something. Anything, the silence was
killing me. My silence was killing me, if I let him continue then he's
probably assume I was gay and press that groupie alarm anyway... think!

"It's not porn... It's ...my ex" I felt the words escape my mouth. Verbal vomit-
the worst of the symptoms when talking to a guy you liked. You gushed, you
guffawed and said anything to make yourself think you were normal and then
before you've realized it, you've spouted an essay out in 2 minutes flat.
Luckily it wasn't.

"Oh" Steve's face changed and it almost saddened me when I saw his face
drop. "I didn't mean to pry" Damnit.. I could feel the heat burn in my chest
and across my face. Why was he so hot? Why was he so sexy? Why was he
already the world's greatest man in my eyes? I had to get out of there, do
something. Anything!

"I'm going to go grab my timetable from the office and probably my network
log in as well. Did you get an Ethernet cable?" this was something that was
standard in most British universities. You never had wifi in dorms- only
Ethernet cables. Steve gave me a weird look. "Is that what they do in
England for internet? Dude that's so stone age, we have really secure wi-fi
networks here, here lemme show you" walking over to my laptop, I realized I
had a desktop background of some random guy from those popular gay porn
websites...Johnny Falk. I dreaded it almost instantly, hoping there was a
password lock on it. I could feel the sweat building in my hands, and the
worst bit about it: I could feel myself swelling along the length of my
cock, thinking in some absurd part of my mind that he was going to enjoy
what he saw. I had to stop him or he'd press that button and get the boys to
beat me! And How did Steve not see my tented jeans? Quick! Stop him!

"Ugh... Steve, It's ok, I still need to get my time table"

"Dude! It's all on the blackboard sites now. Come over here and I'll show
you" he beckoned me and it was then that I had just noticed, how big his
biceps and triceps really were. They were big... at least..20cm around.

Why wasn't I more worried about him opening up my laptop? For a split second
I was caught up admiring his arm musculature when he hit the lock on the
laptop and pried open.

"Steve! Leave it alone! It's fine! I'm still going to the reception to see
what else I need" he looked at me so puzzled by my behaviour and then
smiled.

"No worries dude" as if nothing had ever happened and left the laptop ajar.
"I'll come down with you if you want. We've got the "induction" soon and
we've got to hear what the RA has to say." He coaxed me out of the room by
my arm and I felt a shock in my body... It felt weird, like my skin and body
responded with a warm glow whenever he touched me, especially my chest and
cock. It was getting more and more difficult to see- My face must have been
so beat-red; people would think I was trying to contain an angina attack.

So there I was with Steve Callahan, walking down the stairs to the main
lobby where I first came in. Watching that hunk move his ass as he walked,
it was pure torture, I couldn't control my raging hard on for him. I had to
re-arrange myself three times, feigning to Steve that I had to double check
I had my phone and our keys.

"Dude relax, you'll be fine, I've got keys as well, now come on" he patted
his back pockets to make the jangling noise. And from there I kept staring
at his ass up until we got to the reception and Steve asked if there was
anything else that I needed from the reception. It wasn't until the second
time Steve asked that I snapped out of the ass-oggling and saw that the
receptionist give me an endearing look. I shied away, too embarrassed to
admit I was lost (both in direction and senses no thanks to Steve), and said
that all I needed was to log onto the University's blackboard system, enrol
online and I should be set.

"See! No problems, now cmon! Let's got to that induction"

To be honest when I got there and suffered a mercilessly boring lecture
about health and safety and standards from the preppy cheer-leader type
girls; I was about ready to just get up and leave. If it weren't for the
fact that Steve kept making stupid and funny expressions of her cheering
about "Safety first! Respect the Residents!" I probably would have. But he
made me stay. I kept staring at his arms, the way the muscles ripped and
formed around him as he made "mouthing" gestures with his hand and pulling
stupid faces whilst mimicking the RA. There were also moments where I would
sneak a look at his legs- thick hairs that covered his legs all the way up
until it disappeared through his shorts. And the fine muscles on them too. I
wondered what they felt like... just thinking about that made my cock stir. It
gave me a shock right back to reality and Steve chuckle in his low-baritone
voice.

As we exited, he asked something that confirmed to me in my head that he was
mostly likely straight. "Say dude, didn't you think she was cute?" I
shrugged giving him neither an answer nor an indication. Truth be said; I
just couldn't see girls that way. And it made me sad to think that Steve
did. I sighed heavily, and he seemed to pick up on it but wouldn't say
anything. He just let it be, which was just as well. I didn't think I could
handle a "20 questions" grilling from a handsome fucker like him. He'd kill
me just smiling.

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We spent most of that evening preparing for the classes. He did Sports
Sciences so most of his majors were track, sciences and social science
stuff, and because I majored in English language, mine were mostly just the
arts and philosophies and politics. We might have crossed over for one
subject only our time slots were different. Because of the track training in
the morning, I'd miss out on his one. However I could always skip that one
and go to the later one. Just to see Steve?... I decided against it, fearing
that I might get too obsessed with him and make him think I was weird or
creepy.

I mean who wouldn't? He was a buff 18 year old guy who could easily pass for
20, a very well built frame, brilliant flashing smile that made me want to
prostrate and worship it, body of some Greek god (although I got to admit,
being around him made me hyperbolize everything about him) and a face and
eyes that sent me Gaga for him. And that's when it hit me. I was completely
infatuated with my roommate, and that would be it. No progression. No
relationship. Just perving on him as he stripped and went for the shower, or
when he came back from training and when he went to sleep. Fuck. Life just
got shit.

When I was in London, It was easy to hide who I was, because there was so
much to do in London and so much to try, sexuality was only just one of the
many facets in London. I was so busy being a book worm and being studious
that I missed out all that London had to offer. And now being away from it
made me miss it's business. And it made me miss that fact that I didn't feel
this longing for someone when I was in London. In the States, it was so much
more contained, people were your interactions, and your source for most
things. It was hard to escape people. Which made me wonder- how did I ever
escape people in a big city like London?

So the first week went by and I learned a lot about Steve just through
conversation and eating with him. He didn't seem to hang out with the other
jocks much and his showed me his results one time to explain why he didn't
hang out with them much. He was really a child prodigy. A's in everything.
4.0 GPA (which I had no clue what it was other than the fact that he did
well every day) and that he was part of the University's football team. I
think as the Quarterback, but then again I never understood it enough, just
knew the role enough to know that it was effectively "Team Captain".

He had a brother and sister whom were much older than him and most likely
married on engaged. So being the younger brother, he'd always strived for
the credit that his mother and father gave the older siblings. He always
watched cartoons at 7pm for some strange reason and he would always be
watching Tom and Jerry. It was something really endearing about him- just to
watch him laugh in hysterics as Jerry smashed a hammer onto Tom's fingers.

He always talked about traveling around California, and telling me about
places I didn't even know. I was a learning curve for me but that bit was a
bonus. Just listening to Steve, with his low-baritone voice, describe the
scenes, views, sights and memories. He made everything sound amazing. He
filled it with a sense of respect and awe, and revered it. And when he
spoke, there was a passion to it. Like he meant every word. And of course,
he wouldn't keep me from looking away. I was always fixed onto his gorgeous
blue eyes and his calm but heroic face. That burn in my chest kept getting
bigger, brighter and harder to control.

He talks about California often and misses Los Angeles. He told me, whilst
we were drifting off, about the orchards nearby his house, and how he always
enjoyed the smell of Vanilla growing from there. I didn't know much about
American geography or its natural heritages but I was sure Vanilla wasn't
local to Los Angeles.

And he also told me, after one night when we had finished dinner that he
dated girls. And it put a downer on me for the rest of the night. I was so
down and sad that he asked me if I was alright in the middle of the night.
He said something about me breathing hard and muttering in my sleep. I
dreamed he and some pretty brunette princess cheerleader were smooching
under a tree and that I was recording it on camera. I felt a tight knot in
my gut hoping he would just leave it be.

If there was anything to be said about our relationship, it was the fact
that we were the kind of roommates that gelled very well with one another
and kept ourselves to ourselves at the same time.

It wasn't until the third week of University that things started to pick up
a little (in the activity sense). Steve started to disappear often before 7
where he would normally watch Tom and Jerry (with me as well since he had
gotten me hooked on it) and back before 12. Almost promptly as well. And he
would just go to bed and not say a word. I'd get a little kick out of
watching him undress and get into the covers with just his boxers on, and
sometimes under the stark moonlight, it was the most gorgeous thing I'd ever
seen. It kept me hard, raging and in angst all to the early hours of the
morning.

Half of me always expected Steve to smile when he saw me, whilst the other
half of me just doubted and worried and told the smiling half to shut up and
hide. It wasn't good. It hurt me all the time whenever Steve wouldn't say Hi
to me... as if it was my fix. The more I saw him, the more I wanted him. But
he kept disappearing. Whenever we hit a good topic and we hit a fiery point
in the discussion (usually on ethics and morals... ) something would always
find a way to stop us from hitting it off. For instance, once on a Thursday
night, he came back from a Sociology lecture and just slammed his books on
the desk.

"How can we as a society still function when you have stupid things like
racism and prejudice still around?"... it triggered a hot topic between us and
I argued it's just human nature to be always prejudiced, to always judge
what you do not know, for fear of it, whilst on the other hand Steve argued
that we are all human beings- shouldn't that be enough not to judge us. It
raged on for a good two hours before he hit a sore spot. "I don't think it's
fair anyway, the only people that seem exempt from it are gay people. They
have it all". It shut me right up and I didn't say anything.

It made me pull the blankets over me and say goodnight to him. Because it
wasn't true. Gay people weren't exempt from it. If anything they were one of
the worst affected castes out there. It cut me to pieces for him to think
that we didn't suffer. We did. I did... Because sometimes, Gay people only
fall for the straight ones.

It was a similar position when I said that most sports really don't deserve
the money their given. That shut him up and we went right to sleep. At first
I thought that I had offended all his principles on the deepest level
because that's what he devoted half of his life too. And then I realized
that even I had gotten really insensitive about it. I tried to apologize but
that night, the air was heavy with emotion and hostility. It made me want to
cower in my covers.

Even if we got to a point where the discussion was heated, we'd always find
a moot point to stop us dead in our tracks. As if somehow, there was some
sort of topic that was rising to the surface within both of us that we
wanted to say, but were afraid of raising so it caused us to stop.

And now, I started to miss those intense discussions, and the moot points.
Something about these conversations and discussions started to make him
disappear from the room. And it made me sad. At one point you wouldn't see
him come back until 11pm and would always disappear at the crack of dawn.

It broke my heart. Never seeing him pulled at me so hard, and it got harder
to concentrate in lectures and in seminars without thinking about Steve. Was
I really falling for him? I couldn't! He's straight!

So I decided on the Wednesdays, I would skip the morning Sociology lecture
and go to the one in the evening. And during all of the Tuesday, I had
gotten so worked up and anxious that I didn't eat for the whole day. One of
the girls- Megan and her friend (presumably boyfriend) Charlie offered me a
sandwich because I looked like I was going to pass out during Wednesday
lunch time.  Then came the afternoon lecture at 2pm. The lecture hall was
fairly packed, and a lot of the sports majors and social sciences were in
this room.

I took a seat in the middle row, just so I could see everyone. I saw a
couple of people that caught my eye. One of the other sports majors that
happened to be taking an English minor, Lucas. Big, built guy in his 20's
with dark hair and striking black eyes, covered in hairs and a chiselled
jaw. He caught eyes on him and smiled, beckoning me to come over. I shied
and stayed where I was, afraid the big man might crush me if I sat next to
him. He was, without a doubt, sculpted and very handsome. But something
about him also made me think he was out to use me and abuse me for what I
was worth. It brought a deep chasm in my heart open and made me shiver. It
took a couple of deep languid breaths to control me before I was back to
"ok".

I looked around more, seeing if I could spot the one guy that had caught my
heart in one move. And I didn't. I didn't see anyone. I felt my heart sink.
I sacrificed a morning lecture and a seminar with my language professors to
see if I could see Steve, only to find he wasn't around. Everyone had sat
down and the lecturer was about to start when Steve rolled in and apologized
for being late. He took the nearest seat to the door and from then on, all I
could do is keep looking at him and ignoring about a good 75% of the
lecture. It brought me on such a high to see him in again that I kept
missing out what the lecturer said.

I even managed to embarrass myself by answering a question related to
Marxism stupidly. "Ugh... because the Proletarian are always in control?"
which made Steve giggle. I knew what the word meant... vaguely. The lecturer
gave me a sour look and I sheepishly hid behind my notes. By the time it
came to 6, I was glad the lecture was over, and the first chance I got, I
put everything in my bag and pushed past other students to get to Steve, who
was already out of the door.

 "Steve! Wait up!" I yelled, desperately trying to reach for him. Please!
Wait for me!

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