Date: Sat, 21 Jul 2012 09:25:20 -0700
From: Phil R <171.r99@gmail.com>
Subject: The Beatles Chapter 2 College

The Beatles

Chapter 2

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Paul's kiss left me dazed and confused.  Did Paul like me in "that way?" Or
was it simply a friendly gesture from an extroverted guy?  I found myself
constantly touching my neck where he'd kissed me.  I swear to God that spot
stayed warmer than the rest of my skin.  I had to admit that I was happily
infatuated by Paul.  But I was sad too, because I was pretty sure he was
straight, and I doubted very much that my strong feelings were
reciprocated.

When I got home my mom noticed that I was more withdrawn than usual.  She
asked me if everything was okay.  I touched my neck and replied that I was
just a bit tired after the year at school.  She asked if I'd chosen a major
yet.  Although I hadn't given it much thought I found myself suddenly
saying "criminology."  I told her that I had a friend who suggested it.  He
thought my analytical personality would be suited for catching bad guys.
She looked a bit surprised because I'd always leaned toward the sciences
and had talked about becoming a doctor, but she smiled and said I'd be
great at that.  As always, she told me I had her support.

Then she asked, "Why do you keep touching your neck, dear?"  I shrugged and
blushed a little.

Changing the subject she asked, "Are you going to date that nice Sandra
girl while you're home for the summer?"

"No ma, she's going out with Brad Thurlow now.  His dad owns the local car
dealership.  He's a better catch than me."

"Oh, John, never sell yourself short.  You'd be a great catch for any
woman!"

That's my mom, always my greatest fan.

In some ways the summer passed quickly.  I had a great paying job in a
mill.  It was smelly, dirty, heavy work but it kept me busy and tired.
However, time always slowed when I thought about how long it would be
before I saw Paul again; the weeks ahead seemed to be a vast empty plain
that needed to be crossed. The good news was that I was building some
muscle from the heavy work.



I was still too young to drink legally but one of the older guys from work
invited a few of us over for "brewskies," as he called them.  I wasn't used
to drinking alcohol and after about 3 beers I was pretty pissed.  One of
the guys there seemed to be coming on to me but I had no interest in him.
He only reminded me how much I missed Paul and how confusing that
relationship was.  I was suddenly overwhelmed by feelings of melancholia,
longing and anger.  I sought refuge in the bathroom where I sat on the side
of the tub and sank into the deep well of self-pity.  I bawled my eyes out
until there were no tears left.  It was a catharsis of sorts.  I felt a bit
better as I splashed cold water on my face and prepared to rejoin my
friends.  I made an angry vow to myself then and there that if I couldn't
have Paul I would never look at another man.  I would be straight!

Paul and I had sporadic email contact during the summer.  He had a job at
in the office of a feed store and seemed happy.  He never mentioned he was
dating anyone, but I just assumed a good looking, outgoing guy like him
would have his share of interested girls.

September finally rolled around and we agreed to meet early on the first
day of classes at our favourite coffee place on campus.  I got there first
and was pretty nervous and excited about seeing him again.  Would he hug
me?  Call me Fuckwit?  Give me another kiss on the neck?  I had no idea
what to expect.

As it turned out he did hug me but it was just a quick man hug.  In fact
Paul seemed a bit anxious about something.  We got our coffees and decided
to enjoy them outside in the sun.  Which, on that September morning, was
still fairly low in the sky.

We made the usual small talk about our summers.  He noticed that I'd buffed
up a bit through the chest and shoulders.  I told him that was from the
heavy work at the mill and that my hands were all calloused too.

"Let me see your hands," he said.

I held them out and he took my left hand and cupped it in both of his.  He
ran his thumb over my palm.  It sent jolts of electricity through me!  I
began to get hard immediately.  For me there was nothing in the world but
his thumb running over my palm and my painfully growing erection.
Naturally I started to blush again.  I was thrilled by his touch but
horrified at my physical reaction.

"You got some good calluses there.  Very butch." he said.

My mouth was dry so I just managed to squeak a quick, "Yeah," in reply.
What did he mean by butch?  Did he think I needed butching up?  Why was I
even questioning this?  The rubbing went on for a while, and I was getting
more excited and more freaked by the second.  In an attempt to calm myself
I slowly began to extract my hand.  I was seeking some sort of safety from
the emotions that were boiling inside of me by creating a little physical
distance.  Instead of just letting go of my hand he kept the thumb and
middle finger of his right hand in a steady pressure.  His grip slid off my
hand and onto my middle finger.  I continued to pull away slowly.  Finally
he just had the pad of my finger trapped and he gave it an extra squeeze
before he finally let go.  Honesty, I nearly came on the spot.  Now
wouldn't that have been embarrassing?

Naturally my mind was roiling with a thousand questions.  Why did he do
that?  Was he again just being his friendly, outgoing self?  Or was there
more to that touch?  Was he actually coming on to me?

I needed to get a grip and I thought frantically of something to say.  Of
course I had checked out his body when we met a few minutes before so it
was naturally my turn to return the compliment on his expanding muscles.
Yes he was definitely bulked up.  I mentioned he looked bigger and he said
that his dad had let him use the gym at the police station and he'd been
working out steadily all summer.

"It shows," I said.  "I can see your pecs pushing against your T-shirt."
Now why the fuck did I say that?  He's really gonna suspect I'm gay now.
Oh God!

He looked up and caught my eyes with his and smiled a little smile and
raised his eyebrows a bit.  I was getting harder by the minute.  If this
didn't stop soon I'd never be able to stand up!

He suddenly turned serious and started fidgeting in his seat.  He looked up
at the sky.  He looked left, he looked right.  He sighed.  Finally he took
a deep breath, looked at me and said, "John, I've been doing a lot of
thinking this summer.  You know you're a really great guy.  I feel really
comfortable around you, and you know there's nothing I'd ever do to
intentionally damage our friendship.  Right?"

I nodded and waited for him to go on.  My analytical side thinking through
a thousand and one possibilities of where this was all headed but I kept
quiet because this was his speech.  I just hoped he wasn't going to tell me
that we should "cool it" or not be friends anymore or something like that.
Didn't he just say he didn't want to damage our friendship?  I was a
confused as hell.

I held my gaze on his face, but he had a hard time meeting my eyes.  He
looked down and scuffed around some dirt with his feet.  Definitely a
delaying tactic.  Whatever he wanted to say was costing him a lot.

I waited.

Finally he looked in my eyes, and I noticed that his seemed to be a little
shiny.  Tears?  But then I told myself it was probably a bit of dust or the
cool breeze that was blowing.

Finally, in a very quiet voice he began to stumble through some words, "I
wanna talk about feelings John.  I...er....um.  Well, I've thought a lot
about this.... Oh God, this isn't easy.  It's just that I feel.....I
feel....well...um....I really....."

At that point a shadow fell over us.  We were both a little startled.  What
had so suddenly blocked out the sun?

We looked up to see the silhouettes of two slim girls.  Or were we seeing
double?  It certainly looked like the same girl twice.  It was impossible
to see their faces clearly because the sun was directly behind them.  The
sun made their hair glow.  They looked surreal.

The one on the right started in on a staccato kind of dialogue, "I hope
we're not disturbing you.  Are you guys brothers?  We're sisters.  Twins
actually.  Identical twins.  I'm Jennifer and this is Marianne.  Oh gosh,
you look surprised.  Well, I guess I would be too."  Finally, she seemed to
run out of steam.

Paul and I sat there a little stunned but Paul managed to find his manners
before me and said, "No, we're not brothers, just good friends.  I'm Paul
and this is John."

Marianne, the quiet one on the left reached out her hand for me to shake
and said in a much more subdued voice than her sister, "Nice to meet you."

"You too," I said as I took her small hand in mine.  Then the hand shaking
ritual between the four of us took place.

With our focus shifted to the girls the tension between Paul and I
retreated.  As, thankfully, did my embarrassing erection.

There was a moment of silence which gave me a chance to appraise the girls.
They had moved slightly and the sun was no longer directly behind them.  I
could see that they were indeed slim, and pretty too.  They were dressed in
casual, good quality, clothes.  Obviously intelligent.  Good posture and
graceful movement—I was guessing ballet lessons. Certainly the type of
girls I wouldn't hesitate to introduce to dear old mom, if you know what I
mean.

I was fairly chuffed at myself for thinking these thoughts.  Weren't these
good, normal thoughts for a young guy to have?  I mean, my boner was still
deflating, but I had to admit there was a certain attractiveness to these
girls....

Talkative Jennifer interrupted my reverie and said, "We're in first year
nursing.  What are you guys taking?

We both said "criminology" at the same time and I caught a look of surprise
on Paul's face, but I could tell it was a happy sort of surprise.  Then I
thought that if he looked happy he wasn't about to tell me to piss off a
few moments before.  I was very curious about he intended to say....

It was pretty obvious that the girls were trying to pick us up, but I
didn't have much experience in these matters so I left the next move to
Paul.  Right on cue he asked, "So you guys wanna get together some time?
See a show?  Something like that?"

Jennifer, definitely the spokesman for the sisters, said, "Sure, why don't
we give you our numbers?  Marianne and I live in different dorms.  I mean
just because we're twins doesn't mean we're joined at the hip or anything.
We try to give each other space."  Did she ever give Marianne a chance to
speak?

Both of them dug out a pen and paper and wrote their numbers down.
Jennifer gave her number to Paul and Marianne gave her number to me.  I
guess there was some sort of unspoken, mutual agreement between the four of
us.  Marianne and I, who were more quiet and reserved, would pair up and
Jennifer and Paul, who were definitely more outgoing, would pair up.

Jennifer then announced "Well, we better get going, we've got a class in a
few minutes.  Wouldn't want to be late on our first day!  Bye!"  With that
she set off with Marianne following along in her wake.

Paul looked at me, smiled and shook his head from side to side and said,
"Well, I guess we've just met George and Ringo!"

"Looks like it" I replied.  Then I added, "What were you going to tell me
earlier?"

"Oh nothing.  Not important now."

I shrugged, disappointed, and replied, "Okay...."

We started dating the girls and one thing led to another.  Our relationship
slowly headed in a more serious direction.  I was happy enough.  Marianne
was someone I could be proud of and I discovered that sex with her,
although not earth shattering, was satisfying.  Sometimes I thought about
Paul when I was having sex with Marianne, but it didn't worry me.  It was
my little secret and nobody needed to know.  I was just grateful that I
could indeed "fit" into the straight world and that a normal life with a
home, career and children was in my future.

Apparently the same thing was happening between Paul and Jennifer.  As our
relationships with the girls grew, Paul and I drifted apart.  This was
partly because the girls didn't like double dating.  Also, Paul and
Jennifer like sports and dancing; Marianne and I preferred movies and art
galleries.

One of my courses that year was an introduction to emergency services.
Part of the course requirement was that we take "ride-alongs" with police,
ambulance and fire services.

 I enjoyed my shift with the police but I didn't think I was assertive
enough to be a cop.  They saw things in black and white.  Good and Bad.  I
saw too many shades of grey.  Maybe Paul's more assertive manner was better
suited to that field.

 Ambulance was another disappointment.  It was certainly interesting, but
not quite my cup of tea either.

Now fire—that was another story entirely!  The guys I met on "D" shift
at the fire hall were genuinely warm and it didn't take me long to realize
that they were a team and very much into covering each other's backs.  I
was paired up with a guy named Smith who was an arson investigator.  He
took me out on an inspection of a warehouse fire that looked suspicious.
As he prowled the ruined building pointing out signs of what the fire had
damaged, where it had started, the "hot spots" from accelerant used, I was
hooked.  I knew unequivocally that my future lay in that field and that my
analytical skills would serve me well.

For the next three years I focussed my studies on becoming a fireman and
learning all I could about investigating suspicious fires.

Three years passed quickly.  We graduated from college.  Paul and I married
the girls.  He got a job with the city's police force.  I got a job with a
suburban fire department.  The girls got jobs in nearby hospitals.

Paul did well with the police force.  After serving as a patrolman he was
promoted to a position on the homicide squad.

I worked as a regular fireman at first, then an opening came up for an
arson inspector and I jumped at it.  Turns out I have an uncanny ability to
"sense" what caused a fire.  Of course, being analytical, as Paul pointed
out, I'm very careful and document my findings thoroughly.  I'm confident
in court and can honestly say that I've contributed to the conviction of
more than a few arsonists.  Most arsons are insurance frauds, but every
once in a while one will be an attempt to cover up a murder.  Some arsons
are crimes of passion or spite.  It's a fascinating field.

Paul and Jennifer bought a condo in the city.  Marianne and I bought a
three bedroom rancher in the suburbs.  They bought a BMW and a Miata.  We
bought a Ford F-150 and a Jetta.

 Everyone was on shift work.  It was difficult to get the four of us
together.  The girls talked on the phone several times each week but I Paul
and I rarely talked.  We saw each other at the occasional family
get-together.  We'd sit and have a beer and shoot the shit about work, but
Paul seemed distant, and I guess I kept a protective wall around myself
too.  I was a little depressed about this turn of events.  I still wanted
to be close to Paul.  I just didn't know how to cross the divide growing
between us.

Both couples had kids not too far apart.  Paul and Jennifer had a little
boy they named Ryan John.  Marianne and I had a little girl we named
Rebecca.

I must say that at nearly 30 years old I had a good life.  I had a job I
loved, a wife that I was proud of, and a daughter who was the apple of my
eye.  I missed being close to Paul, but otherwise I was content.

Little did I know that my comfortable little world was about to come
crashing down around my ears....