Date: Mon, 5 Dec 2011 20:09:08 -0500
From: John xxx <jt6355x@gmail.com>
Subject: There's Always Hope Chapter 2

Thanks to all who are back for the second chapter! Hope you enjoy! I didn't
get as far as I wanted to on this chapter but I'm looking to have the next
one out VERY soon.

Victors POV: Today was interesting to say the least. I'm definitely not
looking forward to move out day, that's for sure. At least I won't have to
worry about that for a while.  I'm just glad everything is settled and
somewhat organized now. I sat down on the futon and flipped open my laptop
to check in with the world of social networking. I just finished unloading
all my clothes into the wardrobe/dresser and it was definitely time to
relax. As my laptop was starting up I looked up at the T.V. to see what
Tyler was watching and noticed he had on one of my favorite shows.

Victor: "Looks like we like the same type of shows" I said looking over at
him with a smile

Tyler: "Good, then we won't have to fight for the remote haha"

	That made me laugh a little, he seems like a pretty cool kid. He
has a very different personality...he acts quite a bit older. Very mature,
and I like that about him. So far I can't foresee any problems we could
have. We've been getting along perfectly fine so far...even though it's
only been a day. Although, there is one issue. It's an issue that I've had
for a very long time, and I can't seem to shake it. There's a feeling
everyone gets when they meet someone that sticks out. Someone that could
mean more than just a person you know. When you meet this person, your
heart sinks, a longing lingers in your stomach and you'd do anything to be
noticed by them. Some call this love at first sight, and some call it
lust. But for me, I haven't decided. And throughout the day today, looking
at Tyler, this feeling arose several times, and I tried my best to let it
go. This isn't the first guy I've felt this way towards, and I doubt it
will be the last. What makes it harder is I feel the same way about girls,
which makes accepting these feelings and thoughts really difficult. And
until what I want comes clear to me, I won't act on them.

"Want to play some xbox?" Tyler questioned snapping me out of my trance.

"Yea, sure" I managed to reply.

The rest of the night was really relaxing. We played some more xbox, met
some people and made a little small talk. As it was getting a little late
and we were just watching T.V., Tyler got up and started rummaging through
some drawers, getting ready for bed I assumed. He took off his shirt and
changed into some gym shorts. I couldn't help but examine his body. He
looked pretty muscular and toned. That feeling I had felt several times
earlier in the day started to develop in my stomach. I couldn't help it. I
just shifted my eyes back to the television screen and tried to ignore
it. He climbed up on the loft and threw me the remote

"It's all yours, I'm gonna catch some sleep"

"Same here" I replied.

I got up and started to get ready. After I had on my gym shorts I turned
off the lights, climbed on the loft and put any thoughts of confusion
aside.



Tylers POV: I woke up the next morning around 10am. It was Sunday and
classes didn't start until Monday which meant I had a whole day ahead of me
with absolutely nothing to do. I looked over to the other side of the loft
and saw Victor still sleeping. I sat there and stared for a second, once
again...I know I'm a creeper. He looked so happy in his sleep, I wanted to
know what he was dreaming. I wish I could read minds, it would make life so
much more interesting. With that last thought, I started sliding my legs
off the side of the bed onto the ladder in an attempt to climb down off the
loft. I was doing my best not to shake the loft (in an effort not to wake
up Victor) which made getting down a hundred times slower and harder. Once
I finally reached the floor I grabbed my shower stuff and headed to the
bathroom. I opened the door, headed in, and placed everything on the
sink. As I was taking out my toothbrush I heard the suitemates door behind
me fly open. I kinda jumped at first, didn't really expect that to
happen...  I turned around and saw who I assumed to be one of my suitemates
standing at the door.

"Oh shit, sorry bro, didn't know you were in here" he said with a kind of
embarrassed look on his face. At this point I was just in my boxers which
made the whole situation pretty awkward.



"No big deal" I replied laughing a little. I turned around and offered my
hand for a hand shake. "John" I said in an attempt to make a somewhat
formal greeting. Doesn't help that I was half naked.

"Blake" he said shaking my hand. And of course I started judging right when
I saw him. He definitely wasn't my type. He was on the darker side; half
African American I'd say. So shaking hands is as much bodily contact I
really want from him. And don't get the wrong impression, I'm not racist. I
like black people, just not in my bed. Besides that, he was a little
shorter than me and had a buzz cut.

"I was just going to take a quick shower, then the bathrooms all yours" I
said.

"Not a problem, take your time, and sorry for walking in on you, I feel
like a dick" He said exiting the bathroom.

"Don't worry about it, at least I wasn't completely naked haha. Maybe this
would be a good time to agree on a knocking policy?" I said jokingly.

"Sounds good" He said laughing, and then shut the door.

With that I brushed my teeth, shaved and hopped in the shower. I did my
best not to waste time knowing Blake probably didn't want to wait all
morning to get in. So I basically got in, cleaned everything and got
out. At home I would usually just sit there for a while and relax. No, not
masturbate. I know what you're thinking and you're wrong. I usually just
like to relax and have a little self-reflection time before beginning a day
of unknown stresses and activities. Getting out of the shower I grabbed my
towel, dried off, and threw on some boxers. I noticed the light and
T.V. were on in the room, Victor must be up. I hung up my towel and barged
into the room. Victor was lying on the futon in just gym shorts.

"Good morning" he said giving me little nod.

"Hey" I said heading towards my wardrobe to grab some clothes. I shut the
door behind me knowing Blake was probably wanting to get in. And I was
right because just as my door shut, I heard two knocks and his door
opened. Hearing the knocks made me laugh a little. I told Victor about
Blake walking in on me and that we agreed we should definitely knock before
entering. He laughed a little at the story. After I was dressed I sat down
at my desk and shot a quick glance over at Victor. I had an over powering
urge to go sit down next to him and wrap my arms around his gorgeous
body. To give him a kiss and look into his eyes.  A wistful feeling shot
through my body knowing I didn't have a choice but to ignore the urge. I
opened my laptop and tried to forget about it. After about 10 minutes of
watching T.V. and refreshing my news feed on facebook, Victor got up and
headed to the bathroom with a towel and doc kit. I was getting a little
hungry but decided to wait until he was out to head to the cafeteria. I
figured he might want to go with. After about 10 minutes Victor came out of
the bathroom wearing nothing but boxers. Definitely a bitter sweet
sight. Sweet because he's hot, bitter because I can't touch. I
know...depressing. While he was putting on some clothes...and I was raping
him with my eyes...I managed to ask...

"Want to grab a bite to eat?" full voiced with no nervousness...I was proud
of myself.

"yea, sounds good" he replied, giving me a quick look of approval. With
that, I got up and slipped on my shoes, grabbed my wallet, and keys. On the
way to the cafeteria we actually got a pretty good conversation
started. And it flowed right into our meal at the cafeteria, which happened
to be a really nice cafeteria by the way. We talked mainly about our
classes and what we were expecting tomorrow, which was our first day of
classes. Both of our schedules were relatively the same. We had two classes
together. Our major based class and a public speaking class. And the rest
of our classes are around the same times. After we ate, we decided to go on
a little tour of the campus to see where our classes were. It wasn't too
big of a campus; you could walk from one end to the other in about 35-40
minutes...which was a bonus because walking is about the only
transportation. After we found the general location of all of our classes,
we headed back to the dorm. The walk was definitely nice; everything we
talked about made me like him more and more. As we were about 50 yards away
from the halls door a group of girls walked by us heading the other
way. Victor kinda a nudged me and said

"I'd say they were pretty decent haha" he said with an amused look on his
face.

"yup" I replied.

I casually looked over my shoulder and nodded my head in agreement.

That comment completely ruined my whole day. Yea, they were definitely
attractive, and I wasn't going to deny it. But hearing Victor say that
killed a little bit of the hope I had inside me. I wanted him to give me
signs, anything to make me think he might be bi, or bi-curious. But that
statement was definitely counterproductive. We didn't really talk much the
rest of the way to the dorm. Whenever I'm mad, sad, or pissed off there's a
few activities I usually turn to: working out, driving, watching a movie,
drinking, or singing and playing the piano. Yes, I am a musician. I've
taken 11 years of voice lessons and a year of piano...and I'd say I'm
pretty good. But back to the story...I decided to go workout. So when we
entered the room I pulled out some gym shorts and a shirt and headed into
the bathroom...knocking twice. When I exited, Victor was on the futon
watching some T.V... I told him where I was going and headed out of the
room.

Victors POV: The first day on a college campus seemed to going pretty
well. Tyler and I woke up around 10 in the morning and grabbed something to
eat. We talked quite a bit and I was learning more and more about him. He's
a shockingly mature kid. He acts like he's well over 20. After we ate we
decided to travel about the campus and find where our classes are...knowing
they start tomorrow. It was a pretty nice campus, nothing was too far away
or too hard to find. I was having a hard time blocking out the feelings I
was having yesterday for Tyler. I just can't help it. The way he looks at
me is so intense like he's hanging on every word I say. While we were
walking side by side our hands would brush up against each other...I don't
know why but it gave me goose bumps throughout my whole body, I couldn't
fight it. I wondered if he was maybe feeling the same way. He's been
nothing but really nice to me, but I'm not noticing anything out of the
ordinary. As we were walking up to the hall entrance, I noticed a group of
girls walking our way. I thought they were pretty hot as they were going by
so I nudged Tyler on the shoulder and said...



"I'd say they were pretty decent haha"

"Yup" He replied, he turned around and nodded his head in agreement. He
almost looked shocked, like he couldn't believe what I just said. Mixed
with that, he almost looked...a little hurt. It was a very brief expression
but I swear I saw it. It was really weird, usually whenever I'd point
something out like that to a bud he'd throw out a phrase like...'ya, I'd
tap that' or `I call the one on the let'. But not a `yup'. Was he really
hurt by me pointing them out? I kinda regretted saying it. We didn't really
say much the rest of the way back to the dorm. Once we got there Tyler
threw on some workout clothes, told me he was going to the Rec center and
headed out the door. A lot of thoughts were racing through my mind. Did he
not think those girls were attractive? Did he maybe know one of them? Or is
he...gay?



Thanks for reading the second chapter!! If you have ANY comments or
suggestions I ask you to please shoot an email to jt6355x@gmail.com , it
would be much appreciated. The more people I know are reading it, the more
motivated I am to write the next chapter. I'm going to start on the next
chapter very soon and hopefully have it out much quicker than this one.