Date: Sat, 22 Sep 2001 02:40:15 EDT
From: BigFlamer21@aol.com
Subject: UGA Tales 4

I would like to start off this installment with a brief word from... me...
In light of the recent tragedies in New York, Washington D.C., and
Pennsylvania, I just would like to say that my thoughts and prayers our
with the victims, their families, the people working around the clock to
clear away the rubble, and also to our government who will in the end rid
this world of the people who are responsible for this attack.  I believe
that our nation will grow stronger in the weeks and months ahead, and I for
one have my American flag flying high.  God bless America, and God bless
everyone.


Well guys, this is the fourth installment of the UGA Tales, thanks to all of 
you who have been reading since I began, and to all those who just started, I 
hope you read the first three before reading this one.  Now for the 
disclaimers.  Same rules still apply, if your not of age in your state, you 
need to leave now or things could get ugly.  If you agree with Jerry Fallwell 
about anything, you should leave now.  But for all of those who are still 
with me, sit back and enjoy.



UGA Tales 4:

Well, after i got back to my dorm room from my date with Zach, it was real 
early in the morning.  I was so excited, I had just lost my virginity to a 
great guy that I had a really good time with.  I don't think I could quit 
smiling.  I didn't expect to see my roommate up when I got home, but when I 
turn the key to the door and opened it, there he was sitting on his computer.

"You didn't have to wait up." I said while making my way to my side of the 
room.

"I didn't, I have a paper due soon, and I wanted to get some research in, and 
this seemed like as good a time as any."  he said while keeping his eyes 
mostly on the computer screen cause I was undressing on my side of the room. 
"How was your date?" he asked with what sounded like a half laugh.

"It was great I said, we had a really good time."  I said not really caring 
that he knew it was a date.

"So, will you see him again?"  he asked

"Sure, I guess, if he calls me that is."  I said, and for the first time I 
realized that he might not ever call me, and that this could have been just a 
one night stand for him, and that he used me.  But then I got to thinking 
that he was too good of a guy to do something like that, and that he would 
never use me, and then I started to perk back up again.

"Why didn't you tell me you were gay?"  he asked, this time looking dead at 
me.

"You never asked."  I said sarcastically.

"Well, its not that I mind or anything, I mean to each his own, but it would 
have been nice to know earlier that I was rooming with a gay guy."  he said, 
then looked back at his computer.

"Look, I am not going to molest you in the middle of the night, I am not 
going to be checking you out all the time, and if you don't want to know 
anything about what I am doing when I am not here, I won't tell you.  I want 
you to feel comfortable living with me, and I don't want there to be any 
tension between us."  I said trying to make him feel better about my 
deception. "hey, I want to get to know you as a friend and a roommate, I mean 
we are stuck together at least until the end of the semester, we might as 
well make the most of it."

"Yeah, you are a really nice guy, and it could have been worse, I mean I 
could have been paired up with a real freak."  he said looking back at me 
"this isn't going to change the friendship, but I just would have liked to 
have known before... you know."  he said a little embarassed.

"What?, you mean the jerk off we had?, it was nothing, we were just two guys 
who wanted to get off at the same time, nothing wrong with that.  Every guy 
does it, and it doesn't matter if your straight or gay, and doing with 
another guy in the room doesn't make you gay."  I said hoping to make him 
feel better about the situation.

"Well, it is just that I have never done anything like that with anyone, and 
the fact that I did it with a gay guy just unnerves me thats all.  I do want 
to know about what you are doing when you are not here though, I don't want 
us to be afraid to share things with each other.  You can brag about all the 
guys you are banging, and I can come brag about all the classes I am failing, 
trust me, with this schedule of mine, I am not going to be able to get laid 
this entire semester, my excitement will have to come from your life."  he 
said with what sounded like interest.  "So, what happened tonight?"

"Well, we had dinner at Provinos, you know the restraunt down the street,  
the food was excellent, and the company was even better.  After dinner, we 
went to Boneshakers, its the gay bar downtown, I was a little nervous at 
first, but after he got a few double shots in me, I loosened up.  After we 
left the bar, we went to his place, and we had sex.  It was my first time, 
and it was fantastic."  I said with a little gleam in my eye.

"Wow, you had sex with a guy, did it hurt?"  he asked really interested at 
this point

"At first, it hurt, but after he got all the way in, I got used to it, and it 
was great.  I can still sort of feel him inside me, but for my first time, I 
wasn't dissapointed."  I said answering his questions not making him too 
uncomfortable, but he did have to adjust himself, I could tell he was getting 
hard but I didn't focus on it.

"Man, he did wear a condom didn't he?"  this came with real concern on his 
face, and I knew that he was really worried that I didn't have unprotected 
sex with this guy.

"Yes Mom, he wore a condom, I am not stupid you know."  I said laughing

"I just wanted to make sure, don't need you coming down with anything."  He 
said while he got up from the computer, and started to gather his things to 
go take a shower.  I could see that he had a sizeable buldge in his pants, 
but he was doing everything to keep me from noticing. "Well, I am going to 
take a shower, and then go to bed, wanna join me?" he said laughing as he 
left the room, I knew he meant it as a joke, so I just laughed with him, and 
started preparing to go to bed myself.  I figured he was going to the 
bathroom to jerk off, but I didn't let on that I knew anything was amiss.

Its funny that all this time, I was actually scared of coming out to anyone, 
especially the person that was randomly chosen to live with me for the next 9 
months.  Chris took it awfully well, I just hope that everyone takes it as 
well as he did.  There may not be anymore hot sessions with him, but just the 
fact the he knows, and accepts who I am is enough for me, and if everything 
else fails, at least I'll have someone to talk to.  


Three Days Later:

Well, it had been three days, and I still hadn't heard from Zach.  I was 
worried that this would happen, he just met me, fucked me, and threw me to 
the curb.  I was really depressed, and my depression was showing at work and 
at school.  I didn't have his phone number, so I couldn't call him, and I 
didn't know well enough where he lived considering I was kinda preoccupied on 
the ride to his house.  I had talked to Chris about what was going on, and he 
seemed very concerned with me, and how I was holding up.  I had a huge paper 
coming up, and all of my spare time was spent working on it, so that tended 
to keep my mind off of the situation, but when I wasn't working on the paper, 
my mind would always wonder back to Zach, and I would get upset and pissed 
off all at the same time.

I was working on my paper when the phone rang.  Chris got up and answered it, 
and I knew who it was, because when he handed the phone to me he had a kinda 
"It's him" look in his eye.  I grabbed the phone from him, and said "Hello."

"Hey, its me, Zach, I'm sorry I haven't called in a couple of days, I have 
been really busy lately."  He said sounding a bit apprehensive.

"Thats cool, I am really glad you called, I mean I had such a wonderful time 
the other night, and after you didn't call I got a little worried.  Your 
forgiven."  I said slightly smiling to myself for throwing a bit of 
flirtation into the conversation.

"Thanks, you remember me telling you about Scott my ex."  He said still 
apprehensivly.

"Yeah, what about him?"  I said worried at the drastic change in the 
conversation.

"Well, I don't really know how to say this but, we kinda got back together."  
He said this and my heart dropped.  I couldn't believe this was happening how 
could he get back together with his exboyfriend less than three days after we 
hooked up.  I was devestated.  "Look, I am really sorry about this, it just 
kinda happened, I know this is sudden, but I did want to let you know that I 
really had no intention of hurting you, it just.....happened. Sorry."  After 
he said this he hung up the phone, he didn't even give me a chance to say 
anything, he just hung up.  I didn't know what to do, I just sat there 
holding the phone to my ear as if we were still talking, but all had heard 
was the operator telling me to hang up and dial again.  I didn't take her 
advice until the annoying beeping sound started, and it was hurting my ear, 
so I hung up the phone, and then sat back down and acted as if everything was 
o.k., but Chris knew that everything wasn't o.k, he could tell by my 
depressed body language.  I didn't even blink until he said "What happened?"  
I snapped around and looked at him, and I just stared a hole right through 
him, and that is when the tears started.  Chris got up off his bed, and 
walked over to me, and put his arm around me, and just let me cry.  After 
about 5 minutes of crying, I finally composed myself enough to tell Chris the 
entire conversation.

"That bastard, how could he do that to you?"  He said tightening his grip 
around my shoulder.  

"It was obviously easy enough for him, it was like he had it planned out, and 
he didn't even give me a chance to respond."  I said still wiping away a few 
remaining tears.

"Sorry man, but at least he called, and now you can stop wondering, its 
probably for the best anyway, if he hadn't hurt you early, he would have hurt 
you in the end." This statement brought about more tears, he just continued 
to hold me until I got really tired, and just wanted to lay down and sleep.  
I got up, and got into my bed, and started to drift away, and the whole time, 
Chris was sitting on the side of his bed, and I guess he waited till I was 
asleep before he took his worried eyes off of me.


**Alright guys, that is the end of Chapter 4, I hope you enjoyed it.  I am 
going to take a break from the regular story line, and the next couple of 
chapters are going to be more drama than anything.  You will hear about my 
coming out to my best friends back home, and to certain members of my family. 
 I hope I don't bore you too much, but just stay with me, I think it will be 
worth it.  Thanks to everyone who has written me with your appreciation of 
the stories, and I still hope to hear from more of you, its always great to 
hear what you have to say.  So, until next time, goodbye.