Date: Fri, 11 Oct 2002 19:41:01 -0700 (PDT)
From: Already Chosen <alreadychosen06460@yahoo.com>
Subject: Who Would Have Thought chapter 5

This is a story about two college guys who fall for one another.  If you
are offended by two guys being in a relationship, having sex etc. don't
read it.  If you are under 18 don't read it.  If it is illegal to read this
in your state, don't read it.

For those of you who can read this enjoy!

Who Would Have Thought
Chapter 5
By Already Chosen

	So there it was, the decision had been made.  I was going to tell
Phoenix my little secret; a secret I had hoped to keep from him forever.  I
knew it wasn't going to be easy, but Zoe was right, I had to take a chance.

	After our 5-hour conversation I went home and tried to get some
sleep.  It just didn't happen.  I tossed and turned all night and every
thought I ever had about Phoenix popped into my head.  I was scared to
death.  Not only had I alienated him by telling my parents that the both of
us were gay, I was about to alienate him even more by telling him I was in
love with him.  But, the more I thought about it, the more I knew that I
had to stop worrying about him and start worrying about me.  This was it.
This was my time.  It was my turn to be a little bit selfish and pursue
some happiness.  I decided that I would tell him the next day.

	I got up the next morning completely on edge.  It seemed like I had
been doing that a lot lately.  I went through the morning motions pretty
mindlessly.  Everything seemed like a complete blur.  I don't remember
getting dressed, talking to my parents, driving to school, or even walking
to class that morning.  All I do remember, is walking in, seeing Phoenix
sitting there, completely clueless to what I was about to do to him, and
trying my best not to throw up all over the place.  He looked at me
strangely.

	"Hey."

"Hey."  I replied (I'm so witty).

"Feeling better?"

"A little." I lied.  Actually, my whole body felt like it was about to
explode.  "Listen, I have to talk to you after class today."

"Everything okay?"

"Yeah, pretty much, I just need to tell you something."

"Oooookay."

	That was it for our conversation.  I just sat there lost in my
thoughts until the professor arrived.  Class moved slower that day than
ever.  I just sat there completely on edge, not knowing what my future
held, but knowing it couldn't possibly be good.  Just as I was about to
scream from the anxiety of the whole situation, class mercifully ended.  I
packed up my stuff in the same daze I had held the whole morning.  I was
promptly snapped out of it by Phoenix.

	"So what did you want to talk to me about?"

	"Not here.  Lets go somewhere and I'll tell you what's going on."

	"Okay.  You're really starting to scare me, can we please get
whatever is going on out in the open already?"

	"Come on."  He just followed silently.  I don't think he really
knew what to do.  He was probably just as scared as me.

	I took him to a quiet coffee shop that I went to when I wanted to
think or write or just get away from everything.  We ordered coffee, found
seats, and lit cigarettes.  I took a long hard drag and mustered every bit
of courage in my body.

	"Will you tell me what's going on already before I kick your ass?"

	"Yeah...yeah, um...well...you see...the thing is...um."

	"Jesus Christ, spit it out already."
	"For the love of God, I'm trying."  Another deep breath, sip of
coffee, exhale.  "Okay, here it is.  I'm in love with you."

	His mouth dropped open.

	"Okay, not the reaction I was hoping for."

	"What do you want me to say?"  He just sat there silently thinking
to himself.  It was probably only a minute but it seemed like an hour.  He
finally took a deep breath and said: "Um, well I'm really flattered."

	"That's it. That's all your gonna say."

	"No, there's more.  First of all, I'm just not in the same place as
you are.  I have a lot of things in my head that need to be worked out
before I can be in a relationship with anyone, especially my best friend in
the world.  That's what you are, my best friend.  I love you more than
almost anyone in the world.  You're always there for me, and you are
probably the most important person in my life, which is why I can't be with
you.  I don't want to hurt you and trust me I will."

	"You don't know that."

	"Trust me.  I do.  I have never had a relationship that's lasted
and the reason they haven't lasted is because I've fucked them up.  Once I
feel like a guy is getting too close, I find a way to fuck it up just so it
isn't too real.  I then, turn the whole thing around on him and he becomes
dead in my eyes.  I don't ever want you to be dead in my eyes.  I just
couldn't handle that."

	"I see.  Well, I guess you have your mind made up.  I guess I just
exposed myself for nothing.  No, I take that back not for nothing.  I
needed to do this and I'm sorry.  I should have thought about how this
would effect you and me and us."

	"Don't apologize for anything, there is nothing to apologize for.
If anything I should be the one saying I'm sorry.  You have loved me in
every way possible for such a long time and I have done nothing but take.
I saw this coming and I should have done something to stop it, but I
didn't."

	"What could you have possible done to stop it?  You can't control
my emotions."

	"I don't know, I just don't know.  I guess I just feel, well, I
don't know what I feel.  I feel everything right now.  I mean, I know that
there is definitely an attraction and sexual tension between us, but I just
can't be with you like that."

	I didn't know what to say to that.  I was completely dumbstruck.
So he couldn't be my boyfriend, we couldn't try and have something, but he
was admittedly attracted to me?  I decided it was time to stop this
conversation.  It was just too much.

	"Look, I think that it is pretty clear that nothing is going to
come of this.  So, I just need to know, you aren't going to feel totally
weirded out are you?"

	"No, we're cool."

	"Good.  Now, lets get the hell out of here."

	I tried to play it totally cool and pretended like I wasn't
completely hurt.  I put a big smile on my face and suggested we hit the hot
tub at my house.  We both needed to relax a little bit.  I took him back to
campus to get his car and we headed to my house.

	We got back to my house and I turned on the jets.  He got us a
couple of beers and some towels.  We got out to the deck and I shucked my
clothes (he'd gotten me completely comfortable with jumping in the hot tub
naked), and I jumped in.  He came out to the hot tub and kind of stopped in
his tracks, but then did the same.  We both just sat there in silence, not
really sure what to say to one another.  Then, out of nowhere he spoke.

	"Remember what I said about the whole sexual tension thing?"

	"Yeah, why?"

	"Well, what would it hurt if we acted on it?"

	"Um, I don't..." and before I could say anything else he was on top
of me.  I was completely taken aback and didn't really know how to react,
and then I realized I was kissing Phoenix.  I WAS KISSING PHOENIX.  Well
really Phoenix was kissing me.  Then I thought to myself "what the hell,
kiss him back, this is what you wanted isn't it?"  So, that was it I made
the decision.

	We continued kissing in the hot tub for a long time.  He was the
best kisser I had ever had in my life.  It was completely sensual, filled
with electricity and a magic I had never felt in another kiss.  He knew
exactly what he was doing, just the right amount of tongue, a little nibble
of the upper lip, absolutely perfect.  I was in heaven.  I never wanted the
moment to end.  Slowly he started to work his way down my chin with gentle
little kisses onto my neck and eventually worked his way back up to my ear.
He nibbled on my ear forever.  The feelings running through my body at that
moment were amazing.  Every part of my body tingled.

	"Let's move inside," he whispered slowly and seductively into my
ear.

	I didn't say anything I just got out of the hot tub, took his hand
and headed to my bedroom.  What had been slow and sensual in the hot tub
turned totally animalistic when we got to my room.  He slammed my door,
threw me on my bed, and before I knew what was happening he was on top of
me.  He started working every part of my body like there was no tomorrow.
He started with my neck and moved his way down to my chest.  Then, it was
on to my nipples, which were already so hard they could have cut glass.  He
sucked each one ferociously and bit each one a little harder than was
necessary, but it still felt wonderful.  After what seemed like forever on
my nipples he moved down my torso, spending a good amount of time on my
belly button.  I never knew the belly button could be an erogenous zone,
but the way Phoenix worked it, it certainly was.  He then licked his way
down my treasure trail.  I could have cum right then and there and he
hadn't even touched my cock yet.

	When he finally reached my cock, it was aching to be sucked.  I
wanted to be in his mouth more than anything at that moment.  He began by
licking up my shaft.  The feeling was incredible.  I had never had anyone
suck my dick like that.  Phoenix was an expert.  Before I knew it, he was
engulfing my entire 7" dick down his throat.  He bobbed up and down like
his life depended on it, his tongue swirling around the head the whole
time.  I was writhing with pleasure.  I had always been quiet in bed but at
this point I was screaming in ecstasy.  I couldn't take it anymore.  I
wanted him inside of me.  I wanted to be one with him.

	"Phoenix," I panted, "I want you to fuck me.  Fuck me like you will
never have sex ever again, please I'm begging you."

	He lifted his head up and just grinned the most devilish grin I
have ever seen in my life.  I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a
condom and some lube.  I tore the wrapper open and proceeded to perform my
signature move.  I took the condom in my teeth and carefully put the condom
over his beautiful penis with my mouth.  He grabbed the bottle of lube from
me and slicked my hole.  He slowly slipped one finger into my waiting ass,
then another, and finally three.  I was moaning from the sensation.  And
there it was, I felt the head of his cock waiting to enter me.  I couldn't
wait.  I had never been this forward in bed, but I thrust my body forward
and took his whole cock all at once.  There was no pain, just the most
wonderful feeling that I had ever experienced.

	He didn't even give me a second to adjust; he just started in,
pounding my hole like there was no tomorrow.  We were a mixture of sweat,
moans, screams, and absolute pure sexual abandon.  I had never been fucked
so hard in my life and I loved every second of it.  My head was hitting the
headboard, the bed was creaking and the whole time I just begged him to
fuck me harder.  He fucked me so hard I thought I would never have sex that
good ever again.  After about 20 minutes I felt a stirring in my groin,
that unmistakable feeling.  My body began to tingle, my heart felt like it
was going to beat out of my chest, my whole body convulsed, and I came like
I had never cum before.  There was cum everywhere, in my hair on the
headboard, on the wall, even on Phoenix's chest.  I hadn't even touched
myself.  Right after I came Phoenix screamed, and let his load go.  We both
collapsed onto the bed, spent and satisfied.  We looked at one another,
kissed a slow and passionate kiss, and drifted off to sleep.  We slept in
each other's arms all afternoon.  Every once in a while he would move a
little or make a cute little noise, but other than that it was probably the
soundest most relaxing sleep I had ever had.  That was until about 5
o'clock.

	All of the sudden I heard the garage door open.  I woke with a
start.

	"Shit, Phoenix, wake up!"

	"Huh, what, what the hell is going on?"

	"Phoenix, wake up my fucking mother is home."

	He jumped up quicker than I have ever seen him move.  "Oh shit, I
need my clothes.  Shit, where the fuck are they?"

	"They're out at the fucking hot tub.  What the fuck are we going to
do?"  At this point I was pacing around my room aimlessly not knowing
whether to cry or hide.  Phoenix became the voice of reason.

	"Alright, alright, calm down.  Put on some clothes, sneak out to
the hot tub, get my clothes and come back here.  She'll never know anything
if you get there and back without her seeing you."

	"Okay."  I rushed around and threw on a sweat suit.  "Wait right
here, I'll be right back."

	"I'm as naked as the day I was born.  Where do you think I'm gonna
go?"

I ran down the hall.  No sign of her.  I was doing okay.  I just had to get
to the hot tub and get his clothes.  Out to the kitchen, through the family
room, out the patio door...Yes!  Got 'em.  Now I just have to get back to
my room.  I checked to make sure the coast was clear.  She didn't seem to
be anywhere in sight.  I made my way back through the family room and into
the kitchen...right into my mother!

	"Hi honey."

	"Hi Mom, what's up?"

	"Nothing.  How are you? What is all that mess?"

	"Oh this.  This is uh...um...well, its Phoenix's clothes."

	"Why do you have Phoenix's clothes?  Why aren't they on Phoenix's
body?"

	"Because..."

	"Phoenix" she called "can you come here for a second."  Now I was
really screwed.  How was he going to come out here if he didn't have any
clothes?  I sweated for a good thirty seconds trying to figure out how the
hell I was going to get out of this one.  When all the sudden Phoenix came
bounding down the hall...in a pair of my pants and a shirt which were both
entirely too big.

	"Hi Mrs. Connor, How are you?"

	"I'm fine Phoenix, how are you?"

	"Pretty good."

	"Why are you wearing Adam's clothes?"

	"Oh because uh, well, you see, I uh had a little accident.  I
spilled water all down the front of my clothes testing out the water in the
hot tub."

	"I see.  Just be careful next time you do that."

	"Will do."

	Okay, so it was a lame excuse but it seemed to work.  Phoenix and I
were both really freaked out by the whole thing.  We had really pushed it
to the limit.  He decided it was time to go home.  I walked him to the
door.  I know it sounds crazy but he seemed weird even on the short walk to
the front door.

	"I'll talk to you later?" I asked.

	"Yeah, I'll call ya."

"Alright, well, bye."

	"Later."

	Later huh?  I thought that was a little strange.  He was usually a
lot more affectionate when leaving.  Usually, there was an I love you or a
hug or a kiss on the cheek or something.  Today, nothing.  Immediately my
over-active mind began to spin.  I wondered what the hell was going on in
his head.  I immediately began to regret the best sex I had ever had.  I
wished for us to fuck like bunnies, we had, and now I regretted it.  And
what do I do when I regret things or need to air my dirty laundry?  I call
Zoe and that is exactly what I did.

	"Zo?"

	"Yeah babe, what's up?"

	"I told him."

	"Omigod you did?  What did he say?  Tell me everything now."

	I knew this was going to be a long one.  I sat down with a
cigarette and began to tell my tale.  "Well, I told him.  He freaked.  Told
me he wasn't interested.  We decided to go back to my house and have a hot
tub and then we fucked our brains out."

	"You did WHAT?"

	"You heard me, we had sex like I've never had before in my life.
My ass is sore, and I'm probably gonna walk bow-legged for a week."

	She chuckled a bit at this.  "Well isn't that just fabulous.  So,
how is he now?"

	"Freaked the fuck out.  He'll probably never talk to me again.  I'm
starting to freak out myself.  I don't know whether to laugh or to cry.  I
think I screwed this friendship up pretty good."

	"Well duh, I could have told you that you would do that by having
sex and trying to pretend there were no strings attached.  Why don't you
tell me before you do these things?"

	"Oh yeah, that would have been just great 'Wait, Phoenix, stop
sucking my dick for a second so I can call Zoe and ask her if it's okay
that we do this.'  I'm sure he would have just loved that.  Come on Zoe, it
was a heat of the moment kind of thing."

	"Well, your little heat of the moment thing may have cost you a
friendship that you aren't so willing to give up."

	"Hmm.  I guess I didn't think of that when it was all happening."

	"Yeah, well maybe you should have."

	"So what do I do now?"

	"The only thing you can do is wait.  See what happens.  If he
starts to pull away you have two options.  You can either fight and try and
get the friendship back or you can decide to just let it go.  But I'm gonna
ask you this: was the greatest sex of your life, worth losing one of the
best friendships of your life?"

	"Probably not."

	"Well, then it looks to me like you are in for the fight of your
life to get him back."

	"I guess so."

	"Listen hun, I gotta go to work.  I'll call you when I get out.
Love ya."

	"Love you too.  Bye."

	I hung up the phone more fucked up than I had been when I woke up
that morning.  I knew what lay ahead for me and I knew it wasn't going to
be pretty.  I just hoped I could get through it.

Well there it is folks, chapter 5.  I hope you all liked it.  I'm starting
to get into a rhythm again so the next few chapters should be coming fast
and furious, but I have a mission for all of you.  First, keep sending me
your comments, they are what keep me going and second, I want to know what
you want to see happen between Phoenix and Adam.  I don't know if I will
use any of it, but its good to know what your readers want.
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