Date: Sun, 10 Jun 2012 10:14:32 +0200
From: Shawn Edwards <shawnedwards92@gmail.com>
Subject: With all my heart 1a

I parked my car in the garage which was just under our two storey
residence. My room mate and i would have the upper storey with our own
entrance so we wouldnt bother the other two who were downstairs by
barging into their space whenever we wanted to enter ours. My name in
Sean and i am a freshman in college. I am 19 years old and like many
other freshmen i had found myself at the University of North Texas in
Austin looking for a new beggining since my high school years were at
the least sour. I wasnt a geek or a nerd. Neither was i a jock or a
famous sports person. I was just me. In the midst of being popular and
unpopular at the same time. I was quite attractive and the girls found
me hot. With my 6ft frame and cute boyish looks they had to love me.
The problem is , i didnt love them.

                                I stayed in my car, afraid to get out
and start college life. All i wanted was some time to think about my
life. I knew it was time i found somebody to love. Like hell i was
lonely but still i couldnt find somebody. All the good ones were taken
or straight and because i kept to myself in high school nobody had
realy approached me. I wanted to change that. I wanted to show college
a side of me nobody had ever seen. If i did that then maybe i would
find somebody to love and be happy. I saw myself with a guy in the
near future and though my parents didnt know about my sexuality i
would care less when i had found that right person for me. I knew i
wanted sex. That was part of the reason i needed somebody. I wanted to
lose my virginity. All my friends back home either gay or straight
nolonger were virgins. Why was i still a virgin? Why was i still
alone? Damn! It beat me. Those questions were quite unanswerable yet
they rang over and over in my mind. I pushed my thoughts away and
finaly got the courage to leave my mazda 6.
"Hey," i heard a voice from behind me.
                              "Hie," i looked back and nearly stopped
breathing.                                        "Im Joe, your new
roommate, let me help you get your stuff,"
                         "Im Sean and thank you, its all in tha boot,"
i said after an awkward moment of watching him. He wasted no time in
opening the trunk to take my stuff out. Lord knows i wanted to help
but i couldnt. I just took that oppotunity to get a load of him. Joe
was African-American. His skin was chocolate dark and he stood 6ft 3in
tall. He hard short black hair that looked as though it was dyed i was
cut in a nice cut. One of them black styles i had never seen before
but i liked it there and then. His hair was beautiful. It wasnt kinky.
It was shiny and curly and it flowed. Damn everything about him was
fine. He had this long face and square chin with chiselled jaws. His
eyes were deep brown and almond shaped. His nose was long, not short.
His lips were to die for they were sort of oval shaped with the bottom
lip thicker than the top lip. I could see myself locked in those lips.
My dick started throbbing that instant. I went from his face down to
his physique. He was so muscular and the verse he wore made the biceps
stick out. His chest and washboard abs were amazing they could grate
cheese. If this guy was straight then i was getting a sex change.

                                                        I stared
lustfuly and like a puppy when he flexed his biceps as he lifted my
last suitcase. Damn that nigga must have been from the motherland. His
legs were good and hairy and his melon butt stuck out from the gym
shorts he wore. I could see myself wrapped around those arms and
playing and rubbing those muscles. My dick was now rock hard and it
became painful when i thought about his own.
"Are you gon help me here bro?" Joe asked with a smile that revealed
his shiny white teeth. His dark skin made them more white.
                                                       "Yeah sure, im
sorry i just have a lot on my mind," i said awkwardly. Hiding the fact
that it was him on my mind. Damn his smile melted even the biggest
iceberg.                                         "Cool bro," he said
and continued unloading. Yeah i was a rich bitch and i had so much
stuff i didnt need.
                                                               I
unloaded the last box and closed the trunk then we began taking them
up to our place. I continued with my thoughts and when i thought about
his dick my own throbbed again and i hid it. I knew his was big and i
had two theories to support my claim. One he was black and black men
were packin. Two he had good and nice legs. It was said that men with
good legs had it good between them. That being said if it wasnt big i
dont know what was. We finaly finished unpacking my stuff and
arranging it. The rooms were to die for. It was like having your own
condo. There was a living room. A kitchen, seperate bedrooms with
seperate toilets and baths inside. Though that was good i wasnt happy
because i wouldnt get to see his dick and prove my theories right.
When we was done packing Joe left me alone and i closed the door. My
room was big with a study desk and chair in the corner. I would give
the bathroom a testdrive but i had to email the people home namely my
best friend Jane and my family back in Corpus Christi.

                                  I opened my macbook and took a few
photos of the room with my cam and emailed them back home and to Jane
at Yale. When i was done i entered the bathroom and removed my clothes
to take my shower. There was a tub at the other end of the bathroom.
"Mind giving the shower a test drive together?" Joe asked.
                                                      I looked back at
him. He stood at the door of the bathroom with that smile on. I wanted
to say no. I knew i would get an erection and try to seduce him. He
would then find out im gay but how could i say no. Besides it was the
best way to see his dick.           "Yeah sure, why not," i said. He
wasted no time in removing his clothes. He was down to nothing in a
matter of seconds. We stood facing each other and i turned the shower
on. I was trying so hard to push the thoughts i had away. I would
exploit them when he was gone. When he soaped his face i seized the
moment to look down. It all started with a treasure trail that led to
the thick bush of kinky pubic hair. Then there was the treasure. I
knew i was right. He had the most glorious dick i had ever seen. It
was darker than the rest of his body. It was thick and 6in long yet it
wasnt even erect. It was cut with a dark head to match. His balls were
heavy and they hung the exact length as his cock. The were quite
hairy, dark and so big they wouldnt fit in anybodys mouth. Yeah he was
packing and though i tried to push away the thoughts i had i couldnt
anymore because they were now overpowering me. I felt my dick rise a
bit and i looked away from his dick. I didnt feel threatened though. I
was well endowed for a white boy. I had 5in of uncut meat and 4 in
hung balls. I was 8in when erect.
                                                   He finished with
his face and we stared at each other in awkward silence. I swore he
wanted to lean in for a kiss. We smiled while i stared in his brown
eyes and he into my ice blue eyes. What was more romantic than this. I
took a small peek at his cock. I swore it had grown a bit. I was now
questioning his sexuality. I knew we both wanted it but nobody wanted
to start the other. I wouldnt make a move until he did.
"Would you mind soaping my back? I will do yours," Joe said.
                                                     Oh yeah he was
making moves alright.
          "Yeah sure," i said. Then he gave me his back.          I
soaped my hands and began rubbing them on his top back,mid back all
the way to his lower back and the curve of his back that gave rise to
that firm black ass. I followed the curve with my slippery hands and
it felt so good. He had great skin. I stopped at the top of his ass
and gave it a gentle rub. Then stopped before i went to far. Lord
knows what i wanted to do. I wanted to extend my hands to his front an
play with that coarse pubic hair all the way down to that cock and
balls. When i stopped he faced me and i gave him my own back. I
enjoyed his strong african hands on my back as they rubbed it more
than i had done with his. He ran them all the way down to my tight
petite white ass and he rubbed it all. It was more like greasing my
ass. He took a handful of water and he rinsed my back then took his
time on my ass. I wanted to moan and tell him to go hard but it would
ruin the moment. I wasnt sure of his sexuality yet.

                  We now looked at each other with the water pouring
down on us. It was like standing in the rain with the one you loved.
Everything was in slow motion then and i swear i wanted it like that
foreverer. There was a knock on the door. I wanted to scream in anger
but i didnt. He smiled and told me he would get it. He took a drying
towel and wrapped it around him. I rushed out and quickly dried then
applied lotion. I didnt want whoever it was to get the impression that
we were showering together. I put on my clothes and as soon as i was
done i heard him call me. Who was it? Who would visit me already? I
rushed into the living room and found him standing besides a black
girl.
"Sean i would like you to meet my girlfriend of 5yrs Stacey," Joe said
with a broad smile on his face. A smile i had never seen him wear. A
smile of pride and joy. A smile of true love between him and her.
                                         "Stacey this is my roommate
Sean,"  he continued.                         "Nice to meet you," the
hot girl said. She was beautiful somewhere between a teen beyonce and
miss universe.              I smiled and we shook hands. I would be
warm to her. I would hide the fact that i was jealous of her and hated
her because he had the hot boyfriend who i thought would be mine. I
felt all my dreams disappear into oblivion. He was straight and that
shower and the eye contact were nothing but an attempt for him to bond
with his new roommate. Yep life is a bitch. I had to accept it so i
could keep my friendship with him strong. I left with a smile for my
room with a new feeling that love was near.