Date: Mon, 25 Aug 2008 16:09:05 EDT
From: DePeriF@aol.com
Subject: "The Compliment Of Being Desired By A Man"

		 The Compliment Of Being Desired By A Man

This is a statement of the author's feelings and erotic needs.

I am a 68 year old married bi-sexual male, and I've been married to the
same women for over 40 years.  For the past six months I have been having
sexual experiences with men and providing them with oral sexual pleasure.
I've been with 21 men, and I have successfully brought 20 of them to sexual
climax and eagerly swallowed their ejaculate.  It has been and continues to
be a journey of discovery and thrilling experiences of intimacy with my
same sex.  I've written 18 stories on the Nifty Erotic Stories Archive, and
many of the stories are about many of the thoughts, needs, desires,
feelings, and future hopes concerning my continuing indulgence in
male-to-male sexual intimacy.

Intimacy....that's what I've come to strongly realize it's all about. When
I'm peforming oral sex on a man and eagerly ministering to him in order to
trigger that wonderful and profound involuntary response from him....his
immeasurably pleasurable ejaculation, I'm so very much engrossed in my man
and his feelings that I'm aware of almost nothing but him.  I'm empathizing
with him and trying to feel what he's feeling, and intellectually I know
what he's feeling because like him, I'm also a man with the same physical
and psychological makeup and design.  But above all else comes the stark
reality of desire. I sexually desire the man I'm sucking off. I find him
the object of my affection, concern, care, and need to give comfort and
pleasure to. What a wonderful thing for him to have happening to him! And
what a wonderful thing that he should be so wanted, needed, and desired in
such a manner.

So looking at it from the prospective of the man being serviced I am struck
by what a compliment, honor, and tribute I'm being granted by being desired
so much by the man working my body...pricipally my penis, to bring me to
that exquisite height of pleasure....my orgasm.  The man who wants to give
me a blow-job, or who is giving me a blow-job, is feeling such needs for
intimacy with me that he's will- ing to place his hands, lips, tongue, and
entire mouth on the most private and intimate parts of my body.....my
crotch, testicles, and penis. He's also, in many cases, willing and
desirous of kissing much of my body, especially my lower body...feet, legs,
knees thighs and inner regions of my thighs to feel and taste my body's
essences.  And on some occasions, the man I'm intimately loving and being
loved by in this manner, is desirous of kissing me with passionate and
intimate kisses of my upper body...chest, nippples, shoulders, neck, face
and my mouth. The mouth kisses are often proof of a more profound intimate
need my partner is expressing. He wants not only my sexual fluid...my seed,
my semen, but to experience the intake of my saliva and the warmth,
wetness, and taste of a man's mouth, and to feel that man's emotions
through his breathing and expressive sighing mouth-to-mouth, along with the
intimate eye-contact that is sure to occur and result in a most intimate
touching of souls amidst such wonderful sensual passion. The man's embrace
of my body, and the closeness and heat of his masculine sensual
desire....these are such profound aspects of man-to-man sexual intercourse.

While all this is happening, I'm aware of how desired I am by this man.  He
wants me!  He wants to taste me personally, intimately. He wants my spit
inside his mouth to swallow, and he's on his way now to obtaining the most
profound and personal gift a man can bestow upon another man...the gift of
his seminal fluid given amidst and as a result of possibly the most
wonderful feelings men can have......the feeling of ejaculating
sperm...seminal fluid or cum.  What makes the man who's cumming feel so
wonderful, even more than just the ejaculation, is that a man like himself
is on the receiving end, with open mouth and active lips and tongue, to
swallow the masculine essence of the giver of the "gift."

When that moment of extreme joy and pleasure arrives and I'm about to cum
into the mouth of my man, I'm swept by the strongest of emotions and
feelings of empathy with him.  We're about to become one!  I've now been
swept onto a path of falling in love with my cocksucker....that's right,
I'm feeling a real love and closeness for him for giving me such pleasure,
taking such intimate parts of me into his mouth, tasting the most private
of my body parts, savouring the most intimate fluids of mine, and for
wanting to do so and receiving pleasure from my pleasure and loss of
control of many of my physical faculties, and, sometimes, mental faculties
as well.  I'm trusting my lover with my pleasure, my body, my most urgent
and deep needs. I'm relinquishing control of my body to him as my
ejaculation starts and overwhelms me...and hopefully him. While I'm
ejaculating I know nothing but how wonderful everything is. A man is
receiving me in the most spiritual and sacred of ways. I'm becoming a part
of him, as he wants me to be...accepted, wanted, needed, remembered,
cherished, and in those moments, sometimes loved.

I believe that all men who give oral service have many of the needs
described in this article, and that some but not all men who need to be
sucked off have the feelings and needs I describe as well. It is true that
some men who enjoy being sucked off only relish the control they think that
they are placing over the cocksucker.  But the truth of the matter is that
the cocksucker is the one with the control.  He's often supremely needed by
the man being serviced.  The man being made to cum needs it badly...wants
to get off, and must have it without any delay or interruption once the
cocksucker begins his ministrations.

When my lover is reacting to my seminal spurts inside his mouth while I
caress his head and shoulders, I'm in total surrender to bliss and intimacy
with a man. When I see his Adam's apple move signifying his success at
swallowing my seed I feel all the more close to him....a bond of
inexplicable joy.  A man has the most sacred and intimate part of me now as
a part of him!  It's simply wonderful beyond description.  After he's
finished pleasing me and, as often happens, squeezing the residual semen
from my softening penis, I look at him with a sense of personal warmth
knowing that such a connection with another man has now been established at
such a deeply intimate level. After my completion with a man, the calm and
satisfaction is of such value to me that all of the efforts to assure
descretion, make arrangements to meet, and spend the time is well
justified, and I will do it again with the same or with another man.

These are the thoughts, feelings, desires, and views of a fairly recently
acting bi-sexual.  Not all of the readers will agree with or understand
these tenets put forth in this article, but for those who do I express my
thanks and continued empathy with you in your ongoing quest for perfect
intimacy and sexual joy.

All comments are appreciated.

Frank
deperif@aol.com