Date: Mon, 8 Jul 2002 22:25:11 -0700 (PDT)
From: Courtney Hoff <yknott2000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Protect My Heart, You Can't

Disclaimer: Warning, this piece of pure fiction is intended for mature
audiences only, and contains graphic sexual contect between two males. If
this sort of story is illegal, or it disgusts you, read no further.

Another warning: This story is written by a realist. So expect real
outcomes.  True, this is all fiction, but it can easily become a reality,
and probably has.


			Protect My Yeart, You Can't


	The soapy water flowed over his shoulder, rushing down his back and
twirling around his small pectoral muscles, continuing down to get lost in
his developing six-pack at his abdomen. Thoughts ruminated through Kevin's
mind as the shattering sounds of water rushing from the shower faucet and
slicing to the porcelain tub at his feet.
	The shower is of average design, with a sliding glass door that
distorts images with a mosaic of squares. With his back to the on-coming
spray of water, the short young man closes his eyes.  What have I done? He
asks himself internally.  I just met him online two weeks ago and here I am
at his apartment? This isn't safe in the least; you're lucky to be alive.
	Memories of last night cut through his mind like a painful stab of
a sword.
	It had been his first sexual experience. Not with another man, but
ever. Seriously ever! He's never even masturbated his entire life. And
there he goes, spoiling his pureness for one measly blow job. Sure, it felt
amazing at the time, but the following guilt was enough to make his heart
shatter.
	His scrubbing ceases as Kevin falls deeper into thought.
	Although, despite the loss of his innocence, it had truly been
worth it.  What is a male's virginity worth anyway? It's the female that
counts, not him.  Try to think of the bright side. Use optimism and see
this occurrence as a breakthrough. Now that you've lost your very first
batch of sperm, a new world of sexual gratification is at your feet.
	That's true, Kevin though. He felt his self-esteem grow again, and
the shadow that just cast itself over the sliding glass door does not
bother him. It might have if the man had approached any second sooner.
	The low rumbling of the sliding door opening did not send shivers
down Kevin's spine as he has excepted. In fact, with this newfound view of
this whole thing, he finds himself taking a small step forward, to make
room for his new owner.
	Clad in nothing more than his birthday suit, the taller, more
muscle- bound man steps into the shower behind the teenager. His black hair
and tanned body is immediately drenched, and his large body creates a
shield, blocking all water from reaching Kevin.
	"Good morning, Nathan." Kevin says at last, reluctant to turn
around to face him.
	To his surprise, Kevin feels the large man's muscled arms slither
up his wet back, sending tingles through his body, and up around his
shoulders. One arm continues up, moving around the small shoulder and
snaking down over Kevin's breast bone. The other arm gently glides down and
wraps around the kid's waist, resting with an open hand just inches above
that tired pelvic bone.
	"Good morning, babe." Nathan says with a slow ring, and he holds
Kevin close to him, chest to back, leg to leg, penis to rear.
	Feeling blush coming to his cheeks, Kevin looked down to see his
newly formed erection. The skin-to-skin sensation is far too
exhilarating. He didn't see the man's gaze, but Nathan must have seen it as
well, for he chuckled softly into Kevin's ear and whispered to him: "Look
who's up early."
	Following that comment, Nathan slowly glides his lower hand down to
engulf the younger man's erection in his thick fingers. He begins to tickle
the skin with small strokes, at which Kevin shudders and leans his body
back against his master's chest.
	"Is he asking for attention?" Nathan asked, streaking his nose
against Kevin's.
	With soft pants, the younger shakes his head and answers,
"Actually, he's trying to introduce you to his other friend."
	"Oh? Who might that be?" Nathan asked, looking into Kevin's eyes.
	With a trembling hand, Kevin placed his smaller fingers over the
man's hand that grips his erection, and slowly pulls it free. Nathan allows
his friend to guide him gently, twitching his fingertips to stimulate Kevin
more so as he directs the large hand down over his scrotum.
	Kevin, gripping Nathan's hand with caress, glides the man's fingers
down between his legs, and holds those digits against his anus. This action
somewhat surprised Nathan, and this shows in his furrowed eyebrows and his
gentle question.
	"Are you sure?" He asked the young man in his arms.
	Kevin nods with a serene smile easing onto his lips.
	The two cooperate with each other's movements and Nathan turns the
teenager around, slowly lowering him to the shower floor as water rained
down all about them. He looked into the boy's shimmering blue eyes as they
peered into his own.
	Kevin lays fully back into the curve of the bathtub, and relaxes
every one of his limbs, granting full privileges to Nathan, who gently
raises both of Kevin's legs. He stops when Kevin is in a half-Human Pretzel
position, his feet propped against the wall and sliding glass door.
	His chest rises and falls with both fear and arousal as Kevin
stares at Nathan's hard, hairless chest and throbbing red dick. The thick
forest of pubic hairs surrounding Nathan's loins travels upwards to his
naval. Kevin's eyes continue up past the finely toned abs, up through the
entrancing pecks and dark brown nipples, and finally rest at the man's
dreamy eyes.
	I can't believe I'm doing this, Kevin thought as Nathan leant
down. But his thoughts of doubt are all vaporized into oblivious when he
feels the wet, massaging feeling of Nathan's tongue slipping into his
anus. This kind of thing would normally have disgusted Kevin beyond
belief... but it just feels way too good.
	A groan of pleasure escaped the boy as Nathan removes his tongue.
The man grins impishly at this. If the kid is pleased now, wail until I get
in there, he thinks.
	There is no hesitation--which Kevin would have rather had, to
prepare himself. Shortly after Nathan's tongue is removed, he grabs
ferociously onto Kevin's hips and plunges his erection right into that
small ear entrance.
	The scream Kevin emits is loud. very loud. He closes his eyes
tightly as the sharp pain shoots through his body. It's almost to the point
that he would rather push the man off.
	Nathan knows what the boy is going though, but the best way to
endure this is quickly. Like pulling a band aid off a hairy leg. He feels
terrible at the pain he is delivering, but knows the tables will turn
eventually.
	And they do. After the first five or six thrusts of Nathan's hips,
Kevin begins to feel the lurid feelings of ecstasy. The next thrust impels
more pleasure.  The next, even more. Before long, Kevin's cries of agony
has converted into shouts of pure sensation.
	Kevin reaches around and grips onto the tanned man's back, legs
twitching in the air above him. Nathan grins down at him, and increases his
thrusting pace until his hips feel like the pitons of a racing engine. It's
very shortly after when the man rolls his eyes back into his head, and, in
unison, he outbursts a cry of pleasure as his dick outbursts a load of
semen into Kevin's rectum. The feeling was so great that Kevin shot out his
own stream of milky love juice up in the air, only to fall back onto his
chest and be rinsed away by the raining drops of shower water.
	The feeling was inexplicable.
	Kevin lay there in the tub with his eyes closed with shock and joy,
and embraced Nathan in his arms with a passion. The man allowed Kevin's
legs to relax, and released them, but did not pull out. He held onto the
boy, too, wrapping his tan arms around his shivering body.
	It was near silent in the shower. Their pants were drowned out by
the water's roar, and neither of them had their eyes open. Kevin felt the
man's full weight on his chest, and soon found it hard to breathe. Had he
fallen asleep?
	With a gentle smile, Kevin opened his eyes and looked down at
Nathan, reaching up and stroking his hair. "That was so amazing," he
exhaled.
	To his dismay, Nathan did not respond.
	How rude! Just fuck me and fall asleep, huh?
	Kevin scowled and shook Nathan by the shoulders, "Nate?"
	Still no response.
	"Fine," Kevin narrowed his eyes in disgust and moved out from under
him, sliding the slowly weakening eruption out of his semen-lined ass. With
great upset, his own penis had fallen flacid, and he stood over Nathan,
looking down at him.
	"Cut it out. You're making me angry."
	Still, Nathan did not look up. This is a very stupid joke.
	Angry, Kevin opened the sliding glass door and stepped out of the
shower. While grabbing onto a towel, he says quietly to Nathan, "I'm going
home. Don't ever contact me again if you're going to use me just for the
sex. No matter how great it might be."
	While drying off, Kevin walks from the shower and towards the
bathroom door. His elbow taps against a small tube of pills, and sends it
crashing to the floor. Being the nice guy he is, Kevin turns around to pick
it up. While kneeling down to lift the little container, he reads the
label.
	With frightened eyes, he slowly look back to the open shower, at
the tan back and curved butt that's laying face-first in the shower.
	"This is AZT..." Kevin whispers.
	"I'm sorry, bro..." Nathan finally stutters out. It's obvious in
his voice that he is crying.
	Kevin stands up, throwing the pills back down to the ground.
"You're sorry!?"
	"I should have told you, but you'd run away... I'm sorry.. I'm so
sorry."
	Kevin's emotions are filled with both fear, anger, and depression
as he turns around and runs out of the bathroom. While dashing through the
apartment, he collects his clothes and puts them on without fully drying.
	With tears welling in his own eyes, Kevin bursts out of the man's
apartment, and dashes madly down the street. Before making it to the next
block, his knees give way, and the sobbing young man drops to his knees,
collapsing and weeping on the cool morning earth.

			The End.


Let that be a lesson or two for you!

#1. don't go out with someone you met online, especially if you're a minor
(in that case, you shouldn't be here in the first place.. but hey, I
shouldn't be hypocritical)

#2. NEVER have sex without a condom!! You never know who's infected...
...and there is no cure.