Date: Wed, 8 Feb 2012 22:57:30 -0500 (EST)
From: Brian Legend <princejosh333@aol.com>
Subject: admire-me/chapter 11/the affect

				 Admire Me

       When we last left off Braylon ,Jade and, Korbyn did code red. Which
was a success. Then David struck them back with rumors, and pranks. Which
lead to a big battle of ugly words in the hall. Where we found out Ryan is
adopted and Keylan wears contacts. Now back to the story...

		       ******Chapter 11: The Affect

       Korbyn's plan `Swarm and Spread' was fantastic. It was a simple but
yet effective plan which I don't think Keylan could recover from. It was
funny watching Korbyn go all over the school putting printed out copies of
papers about Keylan in every locker he came in contact with.
       The paper said: If you have had any type of sexual intercourse, with
Keylan Sanchez, you should be tested. Please get tested at the nearest
clinic. Especially If you are experiencing any unnatural signs of
dizziness, nausea, or anything that isn't regular.
       Korbyn had the whole school thinking that the strong irresistible
football star had some form of an STD. Keylan couldn't hold his head
up. Even when he was around his new clique. Probably because as soon as the
copies went all over the school, the coaches kicked Keylan out of football.
       Football season was over already, but the STD, ruined his chance of
getting a scholarship. It was late in the week of December. And after the
Christmas break Keylan would have to go to P.E. with his head down.
       His dad was so upset, because Keylan fell short of his
expectations. his dad depended heavily on that football scholarship. He
thought Keylan's mistake of having unprotected sex costed him his
future. It really wasn't unprotected sex that cost him his future, it was
removing his protection I granted him by being in my clique.
       Now that he has no protection from me. His future was infected. He
should have made better decision about who his friends were. He should have
stayed one of the most popular good looking guys, but he chose a different
path. And Korbyn made his bad reputation consume him.
       Korbyn was so gleeful at his plan working. When he was happy about
getting Keylan back, so was i. Korbyn was a part of the team. Whenever he
won, I won.  Every day was harder than the last for Keylan.
       Jade's `Blitzkrieg' or `Blitz' was potent, and effective. I believe
it worked better than jade ever planned. Ryan was hit from all sides at
once. I didn't think Jade could come up with plans that could do so much
damage. I took time out to thank God, we were best friends.
       Jade went online and found pictures of a guy with an extra small
package.  When I say small, I mean small. Then he forwarded the picture to
everybody's phone claiming it was Ryan. People who didn't even know Ryan
were laughing at him when they saw him.
       Ryan's adopted parents heard the news, they couldn't bear the
embarrassment that came with Ryan's name. his adopted parents disowned him,
and he was transferred to another school.
       I think Jade knew what it would take to get Ryan disowned by his
rich foster parents. Now he lives somewhere else, and he probable has way
less money than he did before.
       Jade got multiple praises from Korbyn and I, for actually keeping
his word.  He literally made Ryan `history'.
       It was my turn, and David didn't stand a chance. He was baffled by
`Code Black'. It smacked him so hard his brother had to council him.it only
took a credit card, that Korbyn let me borrow.
       I didn't over spend. The price was only 29.99 for a special packaged
deal. I went online to purchase a gay porn magazine. And I shipped it to
David's address.  His identity was ruined at school, just as well as it was
with his parents.
       Everybody thought he was gay, but they were only believing the
deception I threw in with the magazines. His mom and dad were deeply
disappointed. they had to have David's older gay brother to sit down and
council him about being in denial of his sexuality.
       It was funny to see him tell everyone he wasn't gay, and yet they
just thought he was in denial. It was a trap, whether he said yes or no, I
had the public believing what I wanted them to believe.
       Code black was a major success. All of our plans were a definite
success. We left David's clique with nothing else to retaliate with. We
were so awesome, that the three man marching band David once had, was only
two man. Thanks to Jade getting Ryan transferred.
       All of this happen in less than two weeks. We were still hanging on
to December's cold weather, still waiting for Christmas break to approach.
       We had all the right reasons to do what we did. I've been called:
evil, devilish, crazy, maniac, disturbed, and sneaky. That's not half of
what I've been called, but I will be all of those if it means I won't allow
someone to cross me. There is only one way to sum up what I am... I am an
Alpha! People need to live with that.
       My new clique cackled victoriously whenever we passed one another in
the halls. It was good to see us all happy.
       Jade met with me in the bathroom. Before we locked ourselves in the
stall we made sure the restroom was empty of all boys. Jades eyes looked at
me knowingly, he saw something in me and he was making it obvious by
staring at my lips.
       When his eyes moved up to my nose he finally was able to
exhale. Before staring me head-on in the eyes. There was nothing that could
come between our Alpha and Beta connection. I could feel us all over the
bathroom.
       Jade's lips came closer. He knew he wanted me, and I was standing
before him. Letting him know: if he wants me, he can take me.
       Not sure if he was making the right move. he timidly tilted his
head, slowly closing his eyes as if he was lost in his own imagination of
something...of someone.
       He kept locking up, as if he was scared to touch his Alpha, as if he
wanted to give me the touch and kiss I've long for, but he was afraid of
ruining something.  That is how deep his care ran for me.
       As adorable and suave as Jade was, I had to take charge. Suddenly
pulling his beautiful face in my delicate hands, our lips met.
       The old familiar tingle came back, reminding me of the night we
first kissed, the night he had a nightmare, and I was there for
him. Everything felt so right.
       Then out of surprise, Jade broke the steamy kiss. I wanted it to go
on longer. Wiping his mouth I asked him `what was wrong?' I thought I was
who he wanted.
       Jade held his head down, looking at the bathroom tile floor. For
some reason he couldn't look at me. Which was not like him. It was so
weird. Then he told me what made him react the way he did.
       Jade told me he was in a relationship with someone already. I had to
catch my breath before asking "who?" it came out limp. I sucked it all
up. He couldn't see me weak.
       He told me tonight when we go to his house, at the celebration
between our clique, he will invite the guy over. I couldn't wait. The
suspense was rattling my nerves.
       *Later*
       "Let's go see how their lives are holding up." Korbyn said offering
us. Taking Korbyn's offer I didn't see anything wrong with picking at David
and Keylan. I don't have a problem with that. It's not like we have
anything else important to do.
       Rising from our lunch table. We strided pridefully to their
lonely,cold,lifeless table. It sure looked depressing not seeing Ryan
there, but that was a consequence that had to be accepted.
       "How are your lives holding up?" I nastily teased,
       David immediately sprang up to his feet, at my comment. Stepping to
my face. "You already know that answer!" he looked like rage was flowing
all over him, he didn't waste any time.
       Before I could make another smart remark. His hands turned into fist
and he pulled it back swiftly aiming it at my face...
       I was stuck. I was stuck in place. Of all the things I could come up
with. I didn't know what to do if it came down to physical action. I didn't
think it would happen this way.
       Time had stopped. I was about to get knocked out. I should have left
this situation alone. I should have let code black handle him and let him
suffer from that alone. David had had enough of my games. I could only
stand there and think: `I'm a goner!'
       The colors of the world went back into place, and I could hear time
ticking down. David was in motion of swinging his fist was close. I knew
this would be a harsh lick, and would leave me with a black eye-
       Air blew past me, in a gust. I closed my eyes and flinched-
       SMACK!
       After the fist connected I opened my eyes to see how bad everything
was.  Suddenly I saw the whole scenery changed. It was exactly a different
way than I had pictured. I thought I was a goner. My face had no pain, I
had no marks, or swelling. It was almost amazing.
       Mitch had gave David a strong hard hook, to the face. Knocking David
on the floor. When I looked at Mitch I wanted to say thank you. He got out
of his seat to save me from being on the floor. Mitch possessed so much
anger in his indigo eyes I was almost too scared to look him head on. I
glanced down at his saggy pants, checking out his underwear. It was the
only place I could look without feeling his anger.
       David was on the cafeteria floor, holding a red blotch on his
face. He rolled on the floor kicking in pain. C.J. came and stood beside
Mitch. They both were looking at David on the ground.
       "Stay on the ground." C.J. said when he saw him trying to crawl to
his knees.  Then he kicked him in the ribs, back to a laying position.
       A teacher came walking over. She saw Mitch and C.J. standing over
David.  Putting the pieces together she thought she knew who started the
whole commotion. "C.J. and Mitch, get in the office!" she yapped, they both
pulled up their pants slightly heading out the cafeteria. "you two can't
stay out of trouble for nothing."
       My clique was fleeing the scene." That was close." I said to them on
our way to the table.
       As I sat down, Mitch crossed my mind. It was a quick second, almost
as quick as the second he jumped up from his seat to save me.
       Jade's House
       We didn't have a bash or a party. It was just us three. We called it
our celebration. It wasn't many people but it was fun. It seemed like the
pieces of my life were coming together, and the pieces were fitting
perfectly. After filtering my life from the pretenders, losers,
want-to-be's, and haters. I only allowed the good in. I learned the only
thing that comes from good, is good.
       We were on the living room floor bunched together watching movie
after movie. Laughing and eating bags of popcorn. I had to get use to
Korbyn being around. I still hadn't taken him out of the frienemy
category. At the same time, he was almost becoming one of us. An actual
member. Sometimes I would stop watching the movie to see what he was doing,
or to be sure he wouldn't fade and turn into someone else. I couldn't
believe he was still with us. I guess he is with us although we have our
side debates.
       A knocking on Jade's door made us all scramble on the floor. Jade
ran to the door, as Korbyn and I stood up. "He is here." Jade whispered
from the door. Korbyn looked half lost because he didn't know what Jade had
told me earlier in the boys restroom. I know we were a clique but there
were some things Korbyn shouldn't know.
       As Jade's hand twisted the door knob. My mind was racing. I couldn't
wait to see who this guy was, the mystery I couldn't solve. The guy who was
having a relationship with Jade. The door opened completely, and in
walked...
       Mitch! He walked in holding a baby. I knew it had to be his
daughter, wrapped in pink bundles of blankets.
       That wasn't the main concern of mine. I couldn't believe Jade was
talking to Mitch behind my back. I thought I made it clear to him that
Mitch and I use to talk. I think Jade will have to be punished for
crossing-
       I suddenly stopped my madness from uprising. When C.J. walked
through the door behind Mitch. He whispered something in Jade's ear while
the door was being closed. The way C.J. eyes met Jade's I knew Mitch came
for other reasons...not because Jade was talking to him behind my back.
       Korbyn must have known he was the odd man out. He wore a bored look,
yawning "Jade, can I crash on your couch?" he asked.
       "yeah." Jade replied taking mini steps to his room, trying to get
C.J. to sneak back there with him without Korbyn noticing any signs of
weirdness. I watched the two of them walking out, and all I could say was:
They made a cute couple.
       When they finally made it to Jade's room, I was sitting on the
opposite couch across from a snoozing Korbyn. In my head I could probably
guess what C.J.  and Jade were doing in there. When Korbyn slipped away
from the room into sleep.  There was only Mitch and myself in the living
room. Sitting beside each other. He thought it would be nice to sit by me
on the love seat, holding his daughter.
       He played with her by bouncing her on his thighs. "Go to daddy." He
told his daughter. It never registered to me what he meant, until the
babies eyes landed on me.
       Unless I'm assuming things. Yeah that could be just assumptions.
       "Go to your second dad." He told her again. He should stop that,
because I can't be the other dad. My feelings for him were done. Those
feelings had evaporated. We can hug, but that is as far as I will go with
him. After knowing about Shunda I couldn't see myself going any further
with him. It was too disgusting to think, he once laid with Shunda.
       Mitch handed the baby over to me, and I took her bundled pink
blankets in my arms. I cared for his child, but I didn't want him to think
my inner feelings toward him would change. I let him know I would prefer to
be the baby's uncle instead of a second Dad.
       Besides that, we had a warm touching conversation as friends. It was
a long nice talk that almost made my heart melt. He was so sweet. It was
like his feelings for me never left. He let me know he wasn't confused
about his sexuality. He only goes one way. Shunda was a mistake. Then
in-between words he would try to kiss me, but I wouldn't let him. He tried
to say: Him and I, would make the perfect family. I kept resisting his
attempts.
       I distracted myself by trying to mentally count up the months Shunda
was pregnant. Something wasn't adding up right. If this really was his
child. I didn't want to make him mad by asking him questions, or telling
him what I thought about him being a dad.
       This went on for two hours. It was like he was trying to convince me
to be with him. I wish Jade would come out of his room already. so I can
have an excuse not to continue this. I had a clear idea what Jade did in
his room. I wanted to tell him bye but I didn't want to disturb his
romance.
       "Can you take me home?" I asked looking at Mitch. I didn't want to
put up with this anymore, I couldn't stay here. Everybody was having a good
time except me. I didn't have romance after all this mess. I would hate to
violate Jade. so I gave him his space. I gathered myself and walked out to
Mitch's Jaguar. It was a cold night in December, and I still had no one.
       Mitch drove me home. For some reason he wanted a kiss out of me. I
told him `no.' what did he think this was? We aren't together. Plus I
didn't want to lead him on.
       When I got inside my house I prepared for bed. I showered, and
changed into something comfortable. As I prepared for bed I remembered, I
never found the guy I wanted. The lonely feelings started to come back just
like they did before. I tortured myself thinking of how Jade had a
boyfriend and I didn't. Then another thought came, saying; maybe I should
have stayed with Mitch.
       Maybe I should have...yeah I should have.
       Wait what am I saying. I really should have got with my Beta before
he got with C.J. I started to get mad. I began to see all the chances I had
to be with someone and I turned them all down. I still don't know why
things waited so late to become so clear.
       Braylon calm down... in due time someone might care for you. Maybe
he didn't come as soon as you wanted, but he will be around. I kept having
to coach myself through the loneliness. Hold on Braylon, everything has a
time.
       ***** 3 Hours Later
       Knock, Knock, knock, Knock! I jumped out of my sleep to the glass of
my room window rattling. A shadowy figure was knocking repeatedly on the
window. My mind started racing at the scary possibility of things it could
be.
       I rolled out the side of my bed, sticking close to the floor. The
way the knocking hit the glass. I knew it wouldn't be long before the glass
was broken. When the knocking kept coming, I thought it could be David for
revenge. He had a good enough reason. Especially what happened to him in
the cafeteria. Then I thought he wasn't the only person who hated me. He
wasn't the only person who probably wanted me dead. I have ruined tons of
people in the school, and out of all those people how could I leave out
Keylan...most of all Ryan.
       It may be Ryan. Since, he transferred to a new school. Who would
think he broke into my room and murdered me. He was suppose to be out of
town. So they would never guess him. Maybe David still had plans for my
life after all. Who knows the knocker could be some random stranger/serial
killer picking out his prey.
       My heart pounded I became disorientated at who it could be. Too many
possibilities.
       Knock, knock, knock...
       I crawled on my room floor, keeping low to the ground. I kept moving
my knees until I got to the window sill. I lifted a single blind to peek at
who the knocker was. I should have crawled out of here, but I think I
wanted to know who was up to this. That way, I will know who to get
back... If I lived.
       I recognized a hoodie draped over the head of the killer. And I knew
who the knocker was. It was Mitch. One thing I knew about him was his
obsession for hoodies. I was glad he came. I was thinking about him hours
ago before falling to sleep. I can fully apologize for not taking his offer
to be with me. He wasn't a bad guy, and him coming to my window was so
amazing. I wonder if-
       My knees wobbled and my arms wouldn't move. Lifting the window had
all of a sudden became one of the worst things I've ever did in my
life. The instant I lifted the window, was the same instant I regretted it.
       The stranger unveiled his hood, showing his complete face to me. I
thought wrongly. It wasn't Mitch... it was my doom.
       My heart stopped when Golden spikes came from under the hood. As he
gave me a breathtaking stare. The black hooded Hollister model was the
knocker. No one close to who I thought. Someone far out of range of
possible suspects.
       Korbyn!
       He would not release me from his stare. "I heard everything." He
muttered with a stoic face. His expression was not showing. I couldn't pick
up anything good.  What was this about?
       "You heard what?" I tried to stall, trying to appear unafraid. "And
why were you knocking on my window?" I tried to go along not showing him
emotion either.  "You almost gave me a heart attack."
       Korbyn lifted his reflective blue eyes up to mine. "I heard
everything you and Mitch said. The baby, the family...and I jolted out of
there when I saw you leaving with him." Korbyn was viciously saying. He was
trying to retain his emotions but he was failing.
       A lonely tear dripped in one long stream down his left side. He
covered his face with his hand to hide the escaping emotions.
       "Korbyn, the only thing Mitch did was bring me home." I told him,
watching his hand remove from his eyes. He looked up at me.
       Then he answered, "Is he in your room right now? Did you sleep with
him?"  he came off as if he was accusing me of something. I knew he was
trying to maintain a low voice and his composure, but when that tear fell I
knew it meant something different.
       "No! Why would he-"
       "I followed you both here. So where is he?" Korbyn jumped in before
I could finish my statement. He kept going on like he was convinced Mitch
was in my room.
       "He went home.. I went to sleep `alone'." I almost spat trying to
tell him.  Then a thought came to me. "Hey, weren't you sleep on the couch
when Mitch was talking to me."
       "I was pretending." He told me in a solid breath. "I knew those guys
were there for more than what you and Jade claimed. So I took it upon
myself to find out."
       What was he inspecting me for?
       "Well all you found out was he took me home." I gave an attitude.
       "You are so stupid." He said scowling. "What does it take for you to
see?" he added baring his braces at me.
       This is what I'm talking about. One minute Korbyn is a friend, then
out of nowhere he turns into the enemy. If he came by to be enemies with me
again, that was fine. Or if he wanted out of the clique he should have said
so sooner.
       "Okay, you know what. I'm no having this. I don't care who you are
anymore, or why you came. Don't come on my territory trying to insult me."
As I was going off, he just gave me the same stare he held since I first
lifted the window. His hands were stuffed inside the black hoodie, trying
to keep warm in the windy winter. "Listen to me. Don't disturb me
anymore. If anyone is stupid, it has to be you! Who knocks on someone's
window at this time of the night?..." I gave him time to answer. When he
didn't. I kept going. "Only idiots. We are saving this conversation for
another day. Because right now, I'm sleepy and if you thought you could
just come up-"
       My rain of venom came to a stop. It was another unexpected event.
       His admirably soft lips caressed mine. it was a swift sweet
everlasting taste.  My lips were quivering from the softness, and the pull
he had over me. The outcome of this was not in mind. How did that just
happen?
       "Shut up." He whispered, letting his lips brush over mine saying,
"you've always been sexy when you're fussy."
       Is this happening?? I started question myself over and over again. I
didn't know how to take this.
       "Why did you always argue and fight with me?" I asked him.
       "For one, I liked to see you fight back. The feistiness was an art
to me. It was the only way I could communicate with you. I wasn't sure how
to get your attention. Because everything else I thought of was useless."
His lips were moving against my lips as he murmured the words.
       That explains every fight, and all the dirty looks. He didn't know
any other approaches. Tonight, after hearing Mitch talking to me. His
jealousy motivated him to try a new approach. An approach he probably
thought of a million times but denied it because of uncertainty.
       "So you've been my-"
       "Your admirer." He finished for me in an enticing whisper. He gazed
at me with a sorrowful appearance to the face. "I'm openly sorry if I
caused you hurt in any form. It wasn't my intention. My motives meant
something deeper." He grabbed both of my hands as he spoke and
pleaded. Another tear slid down. This time he couldn't stop it, and it hit
the skin of my hand.
       "It's...it's okay." I stammered trying to breathe. It was cold in my
room from the wind blowing through the open window. It was getting harder
to contain my feelings. It came to the point I didn't know if chills were
coming from the cold or from Korbyn,
       "I had to confess this to you. Now I probably can sleep better when
I'm alone." He slowly blinked back a flood of another tear. He then gripped
me in a hug for a long minute. Then as he pulled away he kissed me through
the open window again. like it was the last time he would ever kiss me.
       "Think of me while you are laying down, or...this short moment we
shared tonight." He was rubbing his hand over the gold spikes. "I want you
to think about what a relationship with me would be like." He exhaled,
stepping back from the window like he was about to leave.
       He felt around the pockets of his hoodie searching for
something. When he didn't find whatever it was. He shoved his hands into
his pants pockets. "Here listen to this song, while you think my offer
over." He gave me a piece of paper with something written on it.
       Those were his last words before he left me in my room to think. I
shut my window, blocking out the winter. I grabbed my phone and began
searching for the song that he wrote on the piece of paper. I thought I
could get a quick listen to it from my phone while I laid here to think
about our verbal fights, and all of our disagreements. I had to see if a
relationship would be the best thing with us.
       I found the song: Santeria by sublime.
       The song started to play while I thought. I already knew deep in my
heart having a relationship with this model of a guy was possible. The
night, wouldn't let me forget his romantic approach to my window. How many
risks it took him to do that. It took a better man to come to the home of
someone he never got along with and tell him how he truly felt.
       It was romantic for my enemy to morph into Romeo, then confess his
heart.  He was admiring me, because I moved in my own way. He came to my
window just to see about me. I still wish we didn't have to go through the
fights we did just to get where we were tonight. It's crazy but I didn't
want to take back those bad times.  They were moments that made tonight
even more spectacular than what it was.
       The song played out helping me realize I cared about Korbyn. No
matter how I put it, I admired him. I knew I wanted the relationship. I
knew It the minute he left me to think. The affect he left me with, was
inexplicable. A tear rolled from my left eye as I lay imagining my new
future with the admirable Korbyn.
       The first semester of school was ending. My relationship with Korbyn
headed off great. In public we were friends/flirters, but when we were
alone. Our emotions came out fully. Korbyn had this aura on him that made
me feel complete. I could feel that lonely black hole inside of me
closing. Our relationship was pleasing, I love how he made me his
priority. Even Jade liked the way we looked together.  Well... that's what
he said but I wasn't too sure. He seemed to give Korbyn a warning look
everytime they talked. Jade told me one day: `If he hurts you Braylon, I'm
going to kill him.'
       We still ran the school. Jade had C.J. at his side, and I had Korbyn
at my side. Nothing changed between my clique except we all were in a
relationship. What I loved the most out how everything turned out was: who
ever said anything about me in the stores, or whoever didn't like
me. Korbyn use his nasty comments to demean them for his Braylon. How could
I not smile at him?
       He always tells me `we were always meant to be.' I can only hope
so. All I can do is savor the happy days. Savor the goodness and savor the
precious time we shared.
       We were officially together. I was no longer alone, and knowing that
gave me a solid fulfillment. Everything I wanted in a relationship came in
the form of Korbyn. My admirer.

				  THE END

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