Date: Mon, 31 May 1999 16:28:12 CDT
From: adam michaels <shprekr@hotmail.com>
Subject: Alex Michaels MAN 2

I could get used to waking up next to Jason, being so close, smelling him,
feeling him ... waitasec where is he?
	"Oh, hey Al" Jason said looking into this room through the kitchen, and
that was probably the first time he called me...
	"Al?" I asked.
	"And why not?" he said with a smile.
	"Ok" I said turning to face the opposite direction "Jay"
	"THAT'S IT!" he yelled and jumped right on my back "Your goin to pay, you
know I hate being called that!"
	"Exactly my point!" I said flipping him over on his side and bringing his
arm behind him "Now do you still have a problem with that?" I said with a
triumphant smile.
	"Nope, no problems here" he replied.
	"That's good"
	I let him go and dragged him closer.
	"You know we can't lay in bed all day right?" Jason said snuggling in
close.
	"And why not?" I asked acting puzzled "Who is going to know?"
	For a recap Jason has been one of my greatest friends for a while now and I
have recently realized that I've loved him from afar. Lately he has been
distant but he came over to my house because I was feeling pretty depressed
and wanted to help me through it. (Isn't he a sweetie?) Later on last night
he made a move on me thinking I was drunk, which I usually am around him,
which makes me wonder how often he has done that. Anyway we shared our
feelings for each other, and here we are.
	At that same second the phone rang. We exchanged looks of disappointment,
and I got up to answer it.
	"Hello?"
	"Hey, Alex" Sam said on the other line. One of my greatest
friends.	"Hey..."I said looking towards Jason and mouthing out the name Sam
he nodded his head.
	"What's shaking hot stuff?" she asked.
	"Can I call you back?" I asked a little sickened with my own rudeness.
	"I just called Jason's and his mom said he was at your house" she implied.
	"Um ... yeah"
	"Did you tell him, huh? Did you? Did you?" she said at a quick pace.
	"Um..." The last thing I wanted to do was betray Jason by telling his
secret. We haven't even talked about it yet, so I don't know what to say.
"No, not yet, why do you think I am going to?"
	I could have sworn that I heard her talking to someone else.
	"Who else is on the line?" I asked while my stomach dropped, if she told
anyone I would just die.
	"Jeff is over here, but he isn't on the phone"
	"It's not even ten o clock what is he doing over there?"
	"Is that jealousy, I sense?" she asked, high pitched.
	"Nope, that's sympathy" I replied.
	"What do you have against Jeff?" she asked hurt.
	"Nothing, I don't know him at all, I was just messing withya"
	"Sooooo do you AND Jason want to go to the tennis courts with me and Jeff?"
She asked.
	"But you and Jason hate tennis" I said (I love tennis by the way) "Is Jeff
any good?" he was on the team but he didn't make state with Kyle Sneaky and
me.
	"He is really good but he was sick when the tryouts for state were held. He
said he watched you play, he is challenging you"
	"Oh, a challenge, eh? Did you tell him about my aces month?" I said
proudly. By then Jason was getting a little antsy, he had his new pair of
cloths he brought with but I on the other hand... was not wearing as much.
	"He said that was the game he watched"
	"Tell him he's on and he shall lose!" I said followed by maniacal laughter,
and hanged up.
	"Hey, Jason let's go play tennis" I said. "
	"Play tennis? A second ago you were saying how you wish we could sit in bed
all day." He said.
	"Well, I was challenged" I explained.
	"And heaven forbid you turn it down" he said agitated.
	"And you are one to talk, remember the 4 by 400 relay dare you have with
that guy from the rival school?" I said already throwing some cloths on and
packing my tennis stuff.
	"I guess you are right. Hey Alex was that our first fight?" he asked with
an evil look in his eye.
	"Don't worry I guess I owe you some make up sex later" I said accompanied
with a wink.

	Later at the tennis courts it was Jeff's serving game and I was kicking his
ass 40-love. It's not that he wasn't good it is just that I am so much
better. I must admit Jeff is a nice piece of meat, I would never let myself
admit it though since I love Jason so much. I loved the pop flies I kept
returning to his court because he would jump up and his shirt would rise --
and I could see his wonderful abs! I brought myself back to reality, Jason
was watching on the bleachers with Sam and he had an aura I had not seen
before, I think it was the fact that he wasn't beyond my reach now he is
mine almost as much as I am his. I gave him a smile that hinted of an inside
secret that we shared. Then got ready for another game to win.
	"You are pretty good you know that?" Jeff said.
	"I've been told," I said smugly. I am a cocky s.o.b and I wouldn't have it
any other way. "Had enough losing yet?"
	"You just wait and see who wins the next game--" he trailed off. I am
surprised that he isn't getting mad about what a dork I am being.
	This was my serve game, and I want to make aces.

In the corner of my eye, Jason and Sam are having a heated argument. Every
time I try and catch a peek at them the ball would sail back into my court.
I already lost my aces and am losing the game. By then I could see that Jeff
knew they were fighting and was trying to keep me inattentive and oblivious.
"That's game!" Jeff said with pride.
"Wuh? It was?" I said in disbelief. "I will be right back"
	Walking towards the two they both stop talking and look at me.
	"Well?" I asked.
	"It's nothing, really" Jason said.
	"Bull! He has been bad..." She quieted down "he has been bad
talking my friends, like Jeff in particular"
	"Is that true?" I asked Jason.
	"He ... I just don't like him ... that's all" he explained.
	"What do you mean 'that's all'?" Sam shouted.
	By then Jeff was growing curious of our conversation. And was stepping
toward us. He had a hurt look on his face and apparently heard what we were
saying.
	"What's going on guys?" Jeff asked.
	"Nothing much, why don't you play a game against Jason" Sam suggested.
	"Sure, lets go" Jeff said. They walked off and started.
	"I know," she said calmly.
	"Kn- know what?" I asked and already knew that she was catching on.
	"You are a couple aren't you?" she quizzed. "I can tell by the way he looks
at you with love, and the way he looks at Jeff with jealousy"
	"Is that why he doesn't like him?" I asked.
	"Of course, and it pisses me off that you haven't told me till now!" she
bellowed.
	"It was only last night! When was I supposed to tell you?" I responded to
her anger in kind.
	"I'm sorry, it's just that you were so sure you wouldn't say
anything--" she trailed off "I kind of found someone for you--"
	"NO nononononono" I started to stammer. "Jeff?"
	She nodded her head solemnly, I didn't know what to think by then. She told
someone that I was gay and then said that I was interested. That would
explain why they have been hanging around so much.
	"I don't know what to say..." I said.
	"I'm really sorry," Sam said.
	"I am leaving," I said and fishing for my keys. I went right to my car and
started it. In a second I was down the road and gone.

	It took me a while to realize that I left Jason but hell if I was going
back there. I thought that Sam and me were the greatest friends, I helped
her through her anorexia and I don't know how many botched relationships.
The nerve of Sam doing this and betraying our relationship.

I guess you could say that I never even saw the other car coming...


"Mr. Michael's you have some more visitors" A nurse said. I vaguely remember
yesterday, I remember a fight, a car wreck, and ambulance ride and then
yesterday my parents coming home early and telling me about surgery.
"Alex? Are you ok?" It was Jason.
	The hospital room was unfamiliar to me. I was centered with my I.V. in my
arm and a parent on each side. A TV hanged on the wall and the big oak door
looming over the room. The walls were a sterile white.
"Jason" I said with practiced little expression, then a smile sneaked up on
me. I laughed a little closed my eyes in the pain in my side that the
laughter brought "Where were you last night?"
"I was going to come--" he trailed off, I took me a while to figure out why
he was insecure all of a sudden.
"Mom Dad, could you leave for a few minutes?" I asked. I could tell when
they were gone because Jason's hand wrapped around mine.
"I was told that you weren't going to be awake until today"
"Sure I bet that was it entirely" I said knowingly that it wasn't.
"And I didn't know what to think of your parents. Now that we, I mean that
you, well, you know..."
Again my side split because of his articulate choice of words made me laugh.
"Please, don't. It hurts to see you in pain" Jason said.
"Just imagine how much it hurts me," I said. "Give me a kiss big guy, I
heard that if your lover kisses your pain it will make it all go away"
"But you have bruises all down your side" Jason said.
	"Then we might be here awhile" I exclaimed with a grin. "Now where is my
kiss?"
	"Nurses are walking by every few minutes, they could see us"
	"I will blame it on the big blue pills, now get down here"
	He gently let his lips brush against my chin and then raised them to my
mouth.
	"Remember when you get out of here" he said breaking lips. "You owe
me some steamy, hot..."
	"Alex?" It was Sam. Interrupting something far more interesting.
	"Hey, Sam" Jason greeted.
	"How are you Alex?" She asked, with sad eyes.
	"I think I am going to be fine, the latest clear thoughts I have had
started about ten minutes ago though"
	"Was I interrupting something?" she asked already knowing the answer.
	"Nah, I was just checking for ticks that's all" Jason said.
	"You two are both nuts!" Sam said. "When are you getting out of here?"
	"I think tomorrow, it wasn't that bad of an accident" I remembered.
	"I really am sorry," she said.
	"I am going to go get some coffee or something" Jason said and went out the
door.
	"How can I stay mad at you? Every time we fight something bad happens.
Obviously the car accident, but remember that one time I took your lunch
money and then the earth quakes?"
	"Don't be nervous Alex. I know you well enough to know that you always
crack jokes when you're nervous" she explained. "You will be good as new in
no time"
	She had a seriousness that she has complete control over, when she wanted
to be funny and spontaneous she could, and when she needed concentration or
was helping someone she could be in that stage.
	"Thanks" I guess I was really stupid to think that a friendship like ours
comes around every day.
	"It appears as though we scared Jason off" I said.
	"I can go get him," she said not waiting for an answer. My parents walked
in right after she left.
	"We need to talk" my mom said.
	"You were saying Jason's name in your sleep last night" my dad said.
	"And we aren't implying anything but..."
	"Yes" I said. "Yes, I am"
	"We totally support you with your decision" my dad went on "And you and
Jason are...?"
	"Yes" I said. "Yes, we are"
	"On another subject do you want us here tonight?" my mom asked, "We don't
have to stay, someone your age usually doesn't have their parents here as
long we have been"
	"Alright, yeah I think I do need some time to think about stuff"
	"Ok, visiting hours are over. We will see you tomorrow, pleasant dreams"
	"G'night mom-dad" I said.


	The night is pretty boring here. The medication is wearing off and the
nurse hasn't been around in quite sometime.
	"Mr. Michael's, are you ready for your enema?"
	"WHAT THE?" I shouted.
	"Quiet, the nurses might hear us" It was Jason. He must have told the
nurses that he is a relative.
	"What are you doing here?" I asked.
	"I couldn't stand to stay away from you for so long. I drove by your house
and saw your parent's cars so I assumed they weren't here" he answered
"Besides am I all that much trouble? Now slide over some, I need to fit up
there too"
	He actually did it he jumped on the bed, wrapped his arm around me and
scooted close. For a while it was silent we just cradled each other and
enjoyed the time together.
	"Your parents know now huh?" he asked breaking the silence.
	"Yeah and I guess we both knew they wouldn't think any less of us right?" I
thought.
	"Maybe you did, but I wasn't to sure"
	"Look at us, we have shared each others love for what? One day? Just look
at us, we are so happy together"
	"A day? It was years! I have loved you from afar for ever," he said. By
then tears were falling down my cheek. It touched my soul and warmed my
heart to hear what he was saying.
	"You are right you know. I have loved you forever it just took to long for
it to reach my head"
	"Don't you dare berate yourself. I am the fool. You were there and all I
could do was fantasize about you and hope that if you are drunk enough maybe
then I could be myself around you"
	"I guess we can call it even because neither of us would let on about the
other, but I think I knew all along that we were meant to be"
	"It seems like we have been a couple for awhile now, all the senseless
flirting and hanging around each other so much" Jason went on.
	"And about that drinking--" I said and getting up. "JERK!"
	I jammed my elbow into his chest. He lost his breath. "How many times have
you done it? What did you do to me? I have barely even thought about it
since last night, but you--you used me! Was it even for me? It was for you
and your dick, it had nothing to do with me! Who else did you--"
	"Alex calm down!" Jason said. He pulled me back and cradled me once again.
"It was only you, I love you. I thought that you didn't like me, I thought
that you would hate me if you ever found out"
	He was a wreck. "Jason, I love you. If you EVER use me like that again, I
will hurt you," I said, it hurt to say it, but that was the way I felt and
it needed to be said.
	"You are right, I am more sorry than you can possibly imagine"
	"Now get back down here sweetie"
	"You know those hospital scrubs you have on aren't leaving much to the
imagination"
	I blushed and closed the back to them, which were open again. He stopped me
and gave me a devious look that made my mouth drop. I guess you could say
that he had few thoughts going through his mind at once and one of those
thoughts are apparent right now.
	"I don't think this would be very healthy right now, me being in the
hospital and all," I said swatting his hands from my ass.
	"Do you really have a problem with that?" he asked the same devious look on
his face letting his hands roam around me.
	My breathing was getting heavy and sweat was all over my face. "I don't
know if this would be to-" he pulled me towards him and embraced me once
again "-would be to smart, I might over exert myself.
	"Don't worry you don't have to move that much" he got up closed the door
and turned off the lights. "I would like to ask if you fasten your
seatbelts we are taking off ... your pants"
	I laughed entirely and brought my hand across his cheek. "Careful we don't
want to pull my I.V. out"
	"I am going to pull something that is for sure" he crawled on top of me and
lowered his face to mine, gently brushing lips.
	"Holy--" that was all I could say.
	I am not sure exactly how he knows exactly what buttons to push and how,
but I am unbelievably turned on right now. He is looking me in the eyes with
a mysterious look again then returning back down to put his face where my
pants used to be.

	The next day I woke up with Jason resting on my shoulder. I am feeling
incredible the night helped a lot and I can't wait until I get out of here.
The soft breathing of Jason gave me butterflies in my stomach it was so cute
the peaceful innocent look on his face.
	"Mr. Michael's you have another visitor" a nurse said peaking into my room.
	"Alex I need to talk to you" I could not believe who it was.
	"Jeff" I replied with no expression.
	"I just can't stop thinking about you, I think that we should give
ourselves a chance to see if we can make something wonderful"
	His eyes averted to Jason sleeping on the bed right next to me. And then he
looks up at me once again with yearning in his eyes.

	To be continued...