Date: Fri, 9 Nov 2012 07:51:56 -0800 (PST) From: KD D <kd_stories@yahoo.com> Subject: ALive in the Lights CH.9 Alive in the Lights ch.9 This story is pure fiction and is not intended to imply anything. This story contains sexual Contact between to underage males if this is illegal to read where You live then please hit the back button now!! Everything in this Story is made up, the names and people are fake: they are not Real! Please do not copy or paste this anywhere else, but please feel free to email ---------------------------------------------------------------------- One more chapter till part one ends! ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Grey Alexander Holden Age: 16-Main Character Victoria Holden- Age 35-Mother Neil Holden. Age 40-Father Tessa Palmer age: 19-Grey's PR/tutor Kaiden Ryan Barens Age: 16 Zeke Anthony Holden Age 15: Grey's half brother. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- I put my head on Kaiden's back and wrap my arms around his waist, it's been a week since my song came out and it is still number one. "It's so peaceful here." Kaiden says putting his hands over mine. "Yeah it is, there are no photogs, or people wanting to take my time away from you." I say kissing the back of his neck. We have been sitting on the beach for over a few hours I woke Kaiden up to go watch the sun rise on the beach behind the house, I loved that my dad picked this because the part of the beach we are on has hills and it's just enough to have it covered where no one can see us. "I wished we had some more alone time, we haven't had any...only to shower and that was cut short." Kaiden says. The guilt sets in, "I'm sorry, I want more time with you babe. Just it's good to get to know my brother, and see you fit so great with them. We will have more time soon, I talked to Ms. Anna yesterday she said she went to the house and that they are done fixing it." "That's awesome I talked to Tyler last night, they are back home as well was asking when I was coming back." "Well are you wanting to leave?" I ask. "No, I love being wherever you are. I do miss my family even though they don't miss me." he says sadly. "Well I would miss you." I tell him. "You better miss me!" He turns and kisses me on the cheek. "Holy shit!" I hear, and it feels like my heart is covered with ice instantly. "Fuck!" I say getting up and chasing after Zeke who bolted out of sight. I don't mean to tackle him, but I do. "Get the fuck off me!" he yells. He lands one good sucker punch to me right in the eye, but I don't get off of him I grab his wrists. "Just stop." He struggles still, but he doesn't try to hit me anymore. "Get the fuck off me! Leave me alone!" "Zeke, just shut the fuck up! Let me explain." I tell him. "I can't believe you are gay! You are a fucking queer what are the odds I get a brother and he is gay." "You know what forget it. Yeah I am gay no I didn't tell you because I was scared you would act just like you are. Immature and childish plus I really don't need this getting out, but my life is so fucked up already I don't care anymore." I tell him getting up and looking down at him. He doesn't say anything he just looks up at me, "You and him...you both like each other?" "Yes, we are both gay, and happen to be together. Yes your mother knows and so does our father." "But, you are Grey Holden." He says getting up. I just shake my head, "Yeah I'm Grey Holden and I am gay. I am a flaming homo." "Boys that's enough." My dad says walking up to us both. "Zeke this is a tough issue, we decided not to tell you just yet." "So now it's a tough issue dad? I didn't know me being gay was an issue.." I retort. "Grey, that's not what I meant." "Sure the hell sounds like it." I tell him getting more upset. "Why didn't anyone tell me?" Zeke asks. "Wait Grey you didn't tell Zeke about us?" Kaiden asks walking up. "No I didn't tell him yet." I tell Kaiden. "Why not are you ashamed of us?" He asks. I can hear Dad and Zeke talking and it isn't sounding well at all either. "Babe it's not even like that. I just wanted to know him first before I tell him about us." "He is old enough to understand that you are gay." "Yeah, but its just not everyday Grey Holden just announces that he is gay to his half brother he barely knows less than a week!" "Oh now it's cause your Grey Holden should have known it was because you famous." Kaiden says pissed. I try to grab his hand but he yanks it back, "Don't touch me." "Babe come on, it's not like that. We have talked about this, it's complicated ok, you know I like you so much. Just I can't announce to the whole world I am gay. I mean Zeke didn't handle it well at all." "Well how should I handle walking up on you and him kissing, you should have told me!" Zeke says. "That's enough all of you!" Janet says now joining into the whole debate/argument. "Mom, you knew about this?" Zeke asks. "Yes, I knew. That is enough Zeke he is gay accept it, and you wont be saying anything to anyone. You won't be the cause of more stress to him. I have listened to this long enough, it's hard enough that he is famous, and his mother is throwing secrets out left and right he doesn't need his own flesh and blood helping along." Now I have made some breakfast you all will come in and eat." She says with authority. We all follow her into the house, Kaiden takes the seat away from me this time, and Tessa is just now getting down from her room. "Okay I obviously missed something." She says. "Yeah, it's called Grey never bothered to tell his own brother that me and him were dating. Instead his brother had to walk up on us when I was kissing his cheek." Kaiden says. "What do you mean were dating?" I ask. The whole table is silent, all eyes are on me and Kaiden, "I don't think I can do this Grey. You are clearly not ready and I cant be the closet boy anymore...I like you so much, but I don't have a place in your life right now." He says getting choked up. "So we are done just like that?" I ask not believing this. "Grey, I just don't feel apart of your world I mean I'm trying to figure mine out, and yours is getting shaken up every day." "I didn't mean to break you both up, I just didn't know. I don't care I just need to get used to it." Zeke says. "Just shut the fuck up Zeke." I snap at him "Grey Alexander!" My dad yells. "You don't say shit to me, you are one of the main reasons my life is so fucked up. You let mother control me while you were away so much of my life, and you weren't even acting you were here with them. So if anyone should be upset it should be me you were never there for me! You never even went to one of my concerts even when I had them so close to you, and I sent you all the shit to get backstage to V.I.P. entrances and not one was used." I yell at him I am almost in tears but not the sad kind I am just so pissed. I shove myself back from the table and walk back outside; I don't hear anyone say anything as I walk out. I sit on the grass and laugh at how insane I feel. I cry more and laugh when someone sits right beside me, "Just go away." I croak out. "I don't want to." Zeke says. "Well I want you to." I tell say not looking over at him. "I just wanted to apologize, I didn't know it was rough to be you. I figured you had the most perfect life out of everyone." He says. I just laugh, "No not even close to it. In my life there is no such thing as family time, I have a stark raving crazy money hungry mother, and well our father who tries just doesn't do the right thing at times. This is just on my down time, lets not even get into the touring part where I'm on the road and working non-stop where it's hectic I barely sleep, and I have school too." "That sounds rough, I just have school and well mom is always around and dad is to at times." He says. "Hey at least you have school and friends to go hang out with, I don't even have that." I tell him. He doesn't say anything, I didn't expect him too. I feel my phone go off, I don't even bother answering it, I am not in the mood to deal with the label or worse if it was my mother. "I really am sorry about you and Kaiden I didn't mean to start a fight between you two." I shrug, "Don't worry about it. I figured it was way to good to be true for me, I just want him to be happy." "Grey, I need to talk to you!" Tessa says coming out of the house. I just roll my eyes, and get up off the ground and make my way over, "What?" "I just got a phone call." I cut her off, "Look tell the label I'm not doing anything else with media, they have to make good on their promise to me." "It's wasn't the label, it was Ms. Anna's daughter. Anna passed away this morning she had a stroke and didn't make it." I just look at hear, I feel as if my heart has been ripped out of my chest, "No you're lying I just talked to Ms. Anna yesterday." I tell her backing up. "It happened early this morning. Grey are you okay?" She asks moving towards me. I just shake my head, and I take off running, I don't stop till my feet hit the water of the ocean. I still don't believe this, I can't believe this it's not true it's not fucking true! I yell out too no one but the ocean. I walk back up to the shore I just can't process anything everything is barging into my mind all at once. I can't stop the crying, I just let it go. I feel someone pull my around and just hug me. "Just let it out baby." Janet says as she hugs me. I do let it out, the sobs rack my chest, and I grow week in the knees, and I fall to the ground and she holds me and goes to the ground with me. "It's going to be okay..." she coos into me hair. I can't talk right away I just lay my head into and keep crying, all this sadness is just breaking out of me. I have tried so fucking hard to keep it from getting me down but it's hitting me like a jackhammer now. She keeps stroking my hair, and telling me that its okay, but it's not. "It's not okay!" I yell out between sobs. "It's not going to be okay. Ms. Anna was always there for me always! The only steady parental figure in my life and the sad thing was she was only paid to watch the house! Now she has been taken from me, my mother is a psychotic bitch, my father has a new family and his own agenda." "Grey you have us. We are here for you." She says. I push myself up, and look at her. "I don't belong here with you, Zeke, and my dad. I would never fit in this little family." "Baby don't say that." She says holding my hand. "It's the truth, I don't belong here. Fuck my boyfriend doesn't even want to be with me." I let go of her hand and walk off back up towards the house, I can't even think straight as I walk into the house Kaiden is right there and he tries to hug me and I stop him. "Don't hug me, you don't belong in my life remember." "Grey, I was mad. That's not fair!" He says. "I'm leaving back to Kansas, if you are going then get your stuff. I can have someone drop you off at Tyler's house. If not you can stay here." I tell him. "I want to go with you, I don't want to go back to Tyler's." He tells me. "I need to be alone, I need to get away from everyone and everything." I tell him as I start packing my things up. "Babe don't do this to me, don't push me away." I stop packing and look at him. "Push you away? You broke up with me remember?" ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- (Kaiden's POV) I know he is upset, Tessa told us all about Ms. Anna which is sad that little old woman was so amazing. I just don't know what to do, I know he is hurting and upset. I know I messed up this morning and that I overreacted to something so stupid, I know he wants to be with me, but I know I hurt him. I just back off and let him pack his things up, I already packed I figured we would be leaving back to Kansas tonight. I go back down stairs were everyone else is waiting. "Is he okay?" Neil asks. I just shake my head, "He is pushing me away he wants to leave." "I figured as much that's why I have my plane ready for him." Neil says shaking his head. "He is so angry, I just don't know what to do. He says he wants to be alone." I tell him. "That's exactly the opposite of what he needs." Janet says. "I know, but he's upset, and hurt." I tell her. He comes down the stairs with his suit case, "I'm leaving." "I wished you would stay son, I think it would be best for you." Neil says. "You don't know what's best for me, so don't try to think you know now." He says harshly. Neil doesn't say anything, he just shakes his head. "Grey I'm not going to do this with you." "Are you coming or not?" He asks heading towards the door. I follow him, and I shouldn't have been surprised that there was a limo waiting for us, "Your dad has his plane ready." I tell him. "I don't need his I have my own." He retorts. I just follow him into the limo, he doesn't say anything once we get into the car, I start to text Tyler. Me: Hey I am on my way back to Kansas Ty: Really today? Me: Yeah some things have gone down. Ty: are you okay? What's happened. Me: I broke up with Grey, and someone close to him died. I tried making up with him, but he isn't having it so we are on our way back. Ty: I'm sorry, why wont he listen to you? Me: He's pissed off at me, hurt, and upset. Ty: Let me know if he does anything to you I will handle him! Me: dude just let it be, I hope he will just cool down in a few days. Ty: Okay well I guess I will see you when you get here be safe. We arrived at the airport, and we boarded his private plane. I thought he was going to sit next to me, but he took the seat opposite of me, and he put in his headphones and took out a tablet and started to write. I was somewhat hurt that he was ignoring me now. I just shrugged it off, I tried to find something to watch, but I failed at that I looked over, and I could see him wiping his eyes. I wanted to hug him but I didn't get up I just let him be. I really wasn't sure when I fell asleep, but I woke up to us landing. I stretched as we landed and Grey was just getting up as well. He avoided eye contact with me as much as he could. I followed him out of the plane and there was a car waiting for us. Again he sat all the way on the other side of the car, "So are you going to just keep ignoring me?" "I don't really have anything to say." He mumbles. "The great Grey Holden has nothing to say? Someone alert the media on this one." I snap back at him. "No, you said we were done so we are. You don't get to just break up with me than act like it was nothing, you said shit that hurt." He says not looking at me. "Well you should have told your brother." I counter. "It was my decision when to tell him, I wasn't ready. Just cause I was dating you doesn't mean I want to come running out of the closet. I told you when we started dating that it wasn't going to be easy, and you said you were fine with it!" I don't say anything back I know that I said I was fine with it but I wasn't. I wasn't happy with myself that I got jealous of him spending time with his little brother, I wanted the attention I guess I'm just pissed I was selfish. We don't talk for the whole way to Tyler's house and he puts in his headphones again and this again pisses me off, I snatch them out of his ears. "You don't get to keep ignoring me!" "You don't tell me what I can, and can't do." He says glaring at me. "Look I'm sorry, I got jealous, but you could have talked to me about not telling your brother. I like you, but things just get complicated so fast in your life and I don't know what to do." I tell him. "So you become a dick, because you cant handle the fast pace of my life?" He just pisses me off so much, "You know what FUCK YOU Grey! You can pull the teen super star act with me if you want but I saw the real you, I know you're hurting about Ms. Anna so am I she was a wonderful lady. I know you are pissy about your mother acting like that but you don't have to be a dick." "You don't know anything how I fucking feel! Anna was the only fucking constant thing in my life and I don't even have that now. You were supposed to be my constant, but we say how that played out!" He yells at me and I can see the tears start to stream down his face and he turns his head to look out the window. I want to say something but I don't, I just tell Tyler we are almost there. I just look out of the window as well. The car pulls into the drive way, and Tyler is standing at the gate waiting on me, "I could have loved you." I tell him. "No you couldn't. You can't love someone else when you don't love yourself." He says back to me. It hits a nerve in me, because it's pretty much true I don't love myself not how I really should. It also pisses me off that he knows me so fucking well. "Fuck you." I tell him slamming the door. I am crying by the time I get my shit out of the trunk of the limo. Tyler is already by my side, "What the fuck did he do?" "Nothing he is just a fucking asshole." I try to stop him, but he is throwing open the door and grabs Grey by the shirt, "I told you don't fucking hurt him asshole!" "He broke up with me so fuck off, and get you hands off me." He spits back. Tyler hesitates for a minuet, "you still don't have to be an asshole." "You need to get your hands off of me." Grey says. All I hear is a pop, and I see that Tyler hit Grey. "What the hell did you do that for?" "I told him don't hurt you." Tyler says backing up. I run around to the side of the car, and Grey is holding his face, and he is crying. I bend down to see if he is okay, "Just leave me alone." "Let me see your eye." I tell him. "Just leave me alone." "Come on do what he says." Tyler says putting a hand on my shoulder. Grey gets back into the car and I feel so horrible, I feel like the biggest asshole, "You didn't have to hit him! He is having a really bad day." I tell Tyler. "Sorry, I didn't mean to but he just pissed me off how he upset you." "He was right though I was being unreasonable and insane about things." I try to tell him. "I just think its better if you don't talk to him. Come on lets go in." Tyler says grabbing my bags. One more Chapter and we reach the end of part one! Thanks KD email- kd_stories@yahoo.com Like the fb page to stay up to date on the next posting! http://www.facebook.com/pages/KD-Stories/287283501292852