Date: Sun, 2 Jun 2013 17:15:04 -0700 (PDT)
From: KD D <kd_stories@yahoo.com>
Subject: Alive in the lights-To The Stage CH.2
To The stage Ch. 2
This story is pure fiction and is not intended to imply anything This story
contains sexual Contact between to underage males if this is illegal to
read where You live then please hit the back button now!! Everything in
this Story is made up, the names and people are fake: they are not Real!
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Chapter two will take place about a month after the first chapter! Sorry
about the typo last time at the top is said chapter 2 it was ch.1
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Grey Alexander Holden Age: 16-Main Character
Victoria Holden- Age 35-Mother
Neil Holden. Age 40-Father
Tessa Palmer age: 19-Grey's PR/tutor
Zeke Anthony Holden Age 15: Grey's half brother.
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"Neil he hasn't left that room in a month!" I hear my mom tell my
dad.
She has been here for a few days; I haven't really said anything to
her. I haven't really spoken a word since I got home, nor have I left my
room. This is the only place I feel safe at, there is no one that can get
me here.
My cell phone lays on my bedside table I turned it off when I first
got back to my room, I have yet to even turn it on. I don't care if I ever
turn it back on again. I walk to my bathroom, and I try to avoid the
mirror but I can't.
My hair is too long and I haven't brushed it, there are dark
circles under my eyes from not sleeping because of the nightmares. I can't
count how many times Dan has rushed in my room to wake me up from a
nightmare. So I just don't sleep anymore maybe a few hours but nothing
more.
My collar bone sticks out from my chest; I have lost a lot of
weight. I look at the cast that extends to my forearm makes me sick,
because it reminds me of how they broke my hand.
I use the restroom, not even looking down at myself. I haven't
felt any sexual arousal at all. I think if I did I would feel sick to my
tummy. I walk back into my dark bedroom. I can still hear my parents
arguing.
"What do you want me to do Victoria!" My dad shouts.
"Make him come out of the room! He needs to at least see us, or
someone! He can't just stay hidden away in his room!"
"I can't force him to come out Victoria! He was raped, beat, and
tortured . We don't even know the mental state that he is in!"
Hearing my dad say that makes me wince, and I crawl back in my bed,
I try to fight of the panic attack that is threatening to overtake me. I
hate myself for having panic attacks I never had them before. I don't even
realize I am crying, and I hate the fact that I am.
I hear a light knock on my door. I pull my knees to my chest, as
the door opens. It's just Tessa. "Hey sweetie."
I just look at her, and watch her as she comes and sits at the edge
of my bed. "How are you holding up?"
I just shrug my shoulders. I don't know what she expects me to
say.
"So Dan is coming over tonight, he wants to see you. Think you
would want to have dinner with just me and him? Please Grey? I can't sit
here and pretend to know what you are feeling because I don't. I am
hurting for you though."
She reaches over to touch my cheek, and I flinch. I didn't mean
too it just happened. I can see the hurt in her eyes, and I let start to
cry more. I watch her walk out of my room. I can hear my mother bombard
her with questions.
I wished my mother would leave, I wished my father would as well.
I get up and lock my door. I don't want to see anyone else right now. I
don't think I can handle it. I let out a breath of air that I didn't
realize I was holding in.
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I jolt up right in my bed, sweating from another nightmare. I feel
the goose bumps rise all over my body. I feel the bile threaten to make
its way up my throat. I look at the clock and its already five in the
afternoon. I feel my stomach grumble, I find a shirt and put it on. I
pull my sweat pants on, and make my way and unlock my door.
I don't hear my mom or dad arguing maybe they have finally left, I
make my way silently down the hallway. I don't hear or see anyone I can't
explain it but this makes me more nervous than having people here. "Don't
be stupid Grey they have no idea where you live, no one does except for a
few people." I have to tell myself.
I make my way through the living room, and into the dining room, I
breathe a sigh of relief as I see Tessa, and Dan sitting at the table. I
see Tessa look up and smile at me.
"You actually came down." She says smiling at me.
I tip toe over to the third chair with food in front of it. I look
over to make sure it was okay, and Tessa nods. I slid into the chair, and
look down at my plate. It has a steak and mashed potatoes on it. I feel
heat creep up my body feeling like I am on fire. I can feel their looks on
me. I go to get up, but Dan finally says something.
"Sit back down."
I look at him and I feel fear creep up my body, and I try to hold
back the tears. "Grey sit back down, and eat with us please." He says in a
softer tone.
I sit back down carefully, "It's okay Grey." Tessa says giving me a
weak smile.
I cut a piece of steak and take a bite. It's actually really good.
I take a few more bites before I feel embarrassed and look up and see Dan
staring at me.
"Don't stop eating baby boy, it's just the first time anyone has
seen you take more than a bite or two from a plate."
"I'm sorry." I croak out.
"Don't be, it's not your fault!" Tessa says.
We don't really speak until we are all done eating it's the first
time I have ate everything on my plate. I feel so full that I want to
explode.
"Grey Tessa and I need to tell you something." He says looking at
me.
I just look at him, I am scared to hear what he has to say. I nod
for him to continue.
"Tessa is pregnant, and I asked her to marry me."
I look at both of them, "She's pregnant?"
"Grey, I am pregnant. I have known for a few weeks I wanted to
tell...we wanted to tell you, but you shut us off." She says.
"I also asked her to move in with me." Dan says.
That's when I break; I get up and take off out of the dining room.
I don't even fight back the tears. That's was his plan to leave me all
alone. I was going to be alone.
I hear someone following me into the living room, I start to panic
when a hand grabs my shoulder. "GET OFF OF ME!" I scream and collapse onto
the floor shaking.
"Grey stop, it's just me." Dan says sitting on the floor with me.
"I need you to talk to me about this Grey."
"You don't want to be around me anymore, you want me to be alone.
I'm sorry I didn't want any of this to happen to me. But I can't Dan
please, please, Please I don't want to be alone I am so scared." I scream
out crying.
"Come here." Dan says.
I move closer to him, and he grabs me into a hug, "I don't want to
leave you alone at all. In fact if you would have stayed we want you to
move in with us."
"What about the house here?" I ask.
"You can keep it, use it as a vacation home, just we don't want to
leave you here. I found you that night Grey, and I was so scared and
angry. I wanted to hunt them bastards down for what they did to you. I am
always here for you I can't leave you here alone.
"Have you found a place yet?" I ask.
"Not yet was waiting until you gave us an answer."
"Would you move in here until you do find a big enough place for
all of us?" I ask him not sure of what he would say.
"Yeah, that could be a good deal. Grey I'm not looking to stay
here in Kansas if that is okay. I am looking more towards California I have
family down there in a little beach town it is quiet and not very busy it
is right out said of Laguna beach.." He says looking at me.
I don't say anything at first. I don't know what to think can I
just up and move to California? I don't see why I couldn't but what about
Kaiden? I haven't seen him in so long. "What about Kaiden?"
"Grey, he tried to see you but you wouldn't see anyone this last
month. Grey I can't tell you what to do. Tessa and I would really like you
to move with us. Be a part of our family it wouldn't feel right without
you." He says.
"Dan is right Grey, you are like a little brother to me, and I want
you to come with us. I want our baby to know his uncle Grey, and we both
want to be there for you to get through this rough time you are going
through." Tessa says entering the room.
"You weren't going to look for a house where you? You already have
one!" I say.
Dan gets a guilty look on his face, "I do have a house already
Grey."
"Then why would even say you would move in here!" I yell.
"Because I would do whatever I needed to until you made up your
mind." He says trying to touch my shoulder.
"Don't touch me!" I say flinching back.
"You were going to leave me along weren't you!" I say accusingly.
"No Grey we weren't. We wanted to stay until you decided what you
wanted; we want you to come with us Grey." Tessa says.
I just can't deal with this right now, I feel like my chest is
going to cave in, I feel that I am going to throw up every ounce of food
that I ate. I take off up the stairs and to my room, I can't be the center
of attention right now it's too much.
I slam my door and lock it, I barely make it to my bathroom and I
start to puke the food back up. I am crying and feeling so stupidly weak
and dumb. I move towards the sink and rinse out my mouth, and splash my
face with water.
I look up and meet my own eyes in the mirror, I don't even
recognize myself anymore, I look sick I hate it! Before I realize what I am
doing all I hear is glass shattering as I hit it with my cast.
I go back to my room, and I see pictures that I have had up for so
long, I am not that boy in any of them. I take them and fling them into
the wall hearing the glass shatter and the frames split, I do this to about
7 other pictures that are hanging in the room.
After the last one hits the floor I feel exhausted. I am exhausted
I walk back to my bed and cover up, I can't help crying and I don't even
try to stop crying, I just cry and cry until I can't focus anymore.
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(Kaiden's POV)
"He is in his room, it is probably locked, so you might have to knock
if he will even open the door." Tessa says giving me a weak smile.
"Nah, I can open up a locked door no problem. Congrats to you and
Dan by the way."
"Thank you, look at you! You have gotten big, not like big but you
have grown up so much taller than you were and shorter hair." She says
smiling at me.
"Thanks Tessa, yeah after Grey left I figured I needed to hit the
gym and just keep going with life, I am going to go see him now." I tell
her not sure what else to say.
I make my way up to his room, I haven't been down this hallway or
in his room in nearly a year. Sure enough his door is locked, I take the
butter knife I picked up from the table and jiggled it into the lock and
after a few seconds it pops open.
The first thing I notice is all the glass on the floor, I see the
pictures laying on the floor. I see one that sticks out to me I pick it up
and it's one of me and him out in the yard laughing. I remember Ms. Anna
took this picture. My eyes wonder to the bed and I see him laying in it.
I walk over to the bed and sit on the end of it. "Grey, hey wake
up man." I tell him shaking his leg.
He moves slowly at first and then he jumps yanking his leg away
from me, I jerk my hand back making eye contact with him, and I see the
fear in his eyes he looks like a scared little boy. I feel so sad for him
he doesn't look healthy at all. He is so skinny, he isn't wearing a shirt
and I can see his collarbone sticking out, and his hair is every which way.
"Hey man it's me Kaiden." I tell him.
It takes a few moments before it comes to him that it is me, and I
see him let out a breath. "Kaiden?"
"Yeah man it's me."
"What are you doing here? How did you get in I locked the door?" He
asks.
"Grey I have always known how to pick a lock, and I wanted to see
how you were doing."
"You know I was kidnapped and beat?" he asks.
"Yeah I heard on the news, how are you doing?"
"It that all you heard?"
I look at him confused, "Grey what are you talking about?"
"Nothing, just forget it. How are you?" He asks avoiding eye
contact.
"I'm great actually, Grey why won't you look at me?"
He pulls his knees closer to his chest, "They raped me...."
I don't say anything at first, I don't think I fully comprehended
what he had said to me, "Oh my god. Grey." I say reaching to hold his hand
he pulls away.
"Please, don't. I don't want to be touched." He says as his voice
cracks.
"They still haven't caught them?"
He shakes his head; I want to say more to him. I don't really know
what to say, what do you really say to someone who is hurting and has been
through what he has?
"I don't know what to say." I tell him in a whisper.
"Please don't say anything, we never told anyone but the cops." He
says almost begging.
"I wouldn't do that to you Grey."
"Do you hate me?" He asks.
"No I would never hate you Grey! How could I you were so good to
me."
"You never called or texted nothing!" he says his voice getting
louder.
"I was heartbroken Grey."
"No you had a boyfriend you forgot all about me!"
"NO GREY I DIDN'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND!" I yell back at him.
"You said you did."
"Of course I said I did. I was holding you back Grey, I knew I
was. I saw how much of your heart you poured into that record. You would
have never gone if I didn't lie and say I had a boyfriend then. I couldn't
let you miss out of something you made so beautifully."
"You don't have a boyfriend?" He asks confused.
"I didn't then know, but I do now. Grey I didn't mean to it just
happened. He moved here from Tennessee he is really nice, and he makes me
happy." I tell him.
"Do you love him?" He asks.
"I really think I do love him." I tell him honestly.
"Have you and him had sex?" He asks.
"Grey, I'm not talking about me and him right now. I came to see
you and talk to you."
"Tessa, and Dan want me to move with them." He says looking at the
sheets.
"They told me, sorry I was talking to them for a minute when I came
over. What do you want to do?" I ask him.
"I just want to stop hurting." He says choking up.
"I think everyone wants you to stop hurting, but it's going to take
time. You went through something very traumatic. You just have to take it
one day at a time. Have you ever thought about seeing someone that could
help you?"
"You think I am crazy?"
"No, I think it would help you out a lot. Grey I can't even touch
you, you wouldn't let anyone in your room for over a month. This is
probably the most someone has even gotten to talk to you since everything
happened. After you left I went to a therapist about my family, and all
the mess that I was in. It helped me man, I can't tell you what to do I
can just suggest to you what I would do."
I watch him, as he picks at his sheets. We don't say anything for
nearly ten minutes. "I'm sorry but I want to go to sleep." He finally
says.
I let out a sigh, I get off the bed and head to the door. I am
leaving when I hear him ask. "Did you ever love me?"
It stops me right in my tracks. "I did love you Grey, but I didn't
love myself so it would have never of worked out with us." I tell him
giving him a sad smile.
"Will you come back?" he asks.
"If you want me too." I tell him.
I was hoping he would say something else, but nothing I have lost
him back to his silent state that he keeps slipping into. I shut the door
behind me, and I lot out a sob. I can't believe all this has happened to
him, I feel so bad for him I wanted to hold him. I check my phone and I
see a text from my boyfriend, and it makes me feel a bit better, but I
still feel so bad for Grey.
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