Date: Thu, 26 Feb 2004 16:31:28 +1100 (EST)
From: half_desent_guy@yahoo.com.au
Subject: All For Brendon/Chapter One

This is a erotic story written for the enjoyment of males. Anyone who reads
this story i beg you please to send comments to me at
half_desent_guy@yahoo.com.au.  This story is half true. The other half is
pure fantasy on my behalf. I mean a guy can dream cant he. While i ask you
to write comments to me all flames will be gracefully ignored. Now for the
legal bullshit. Please do not read this if you are under the legal age
where ever you may be. (Or if you are under legal age just be extra careful
that you dont get caught otherwise we couls all be in serious shit) Oh well
with all that crap out of the way. Please enjoy my story and remember to
send in comments.



			      ALL FOR BRENDON
				CHAPTER ONE


My life had been pretty hectic as it was up until that point anyway. But i
had always managed to keep it under control. Well fairly under control. I
had a loving girlfriend. An awesome group of friends, a fairly decent
family.  All in all i really only had one sizeable problem, and that was my
past. But well leave my past alone for the moment. Anyway as i was saying
my life was over all pretty good i could nt really complain. It was
uncomplicated basically care free and i loved everything about life that
was until all that changed with the simple appearance of 1 simple boy.

I guess i should probably itroduce myself. My name is Jamie Griffin. At the
time this story takes place i was sixteen years old. I have short curly
blonde hair. My girlfriend who i loved dearly was Denise Crawford. Everyone
called her Dee she was the same age as me. She had long straight black
hair. I loved everything about her, she had stunning looks that had most of
the school chasing her and and had them all jealous of me. We had been
going out for a little ove rtwo months, and im the first person to admit i
was nothing special.

Anyway back to the events that changed my life. I was in grade ten and was
already aware that the next year i would be attending uni. So i had been
basically just cruising through the year looking forward to it. It was a
friday afternoon a beautiful day as usual and me and my friends were
sitting eating lunch in our personal spot. While it was never really
official all groups had a reserved spot. If a member of a group went into
anothers territory without permission he or she could expect trouble. I
basically got along with all groups so me and certain of my friends had
free pass to all groups basically. But we had our own group which we
preferred.

Our group while not the most popular one in the school had a special bond
that only the members understood.  We were always there for each other no
matter what. We had been through a lot together. We basiaclly had a core
group of about thirty kids spread over all the year groups. As well as a
group of twenty or so others who regularly floated in and out of our group
as they saw fit. We allowed these drifters cause most were ex full time
 members.

Back to this day about half way through lunch i spotted a year nine girl
who had been a member of our group once but had turned her back on us.
Anthea Jameson was walking towards the library walking very close with a
boy who looked to be about the same age as her. I had never seen the boy
before and from the way they were walking they seemed very close. While i
thought in no way that i was gay i instantly realised that this boy was red
hot. He was short for his age with curly blonde hair like me. I shuddered
because he looked so cute.

I turned back to my group and saw dee looking at me starngely. "Who was
that" I asked her she could only shrug her shoulders. I decided to ask
someone in Anthea's year. I walked up to Chris Warlock and said "Hey Chris
whos that with Anthea do you know." Chris spun around suddenly he
apparently hadnt known i was there.  "Oh shit man you scared me." I just
smiled at him and he looked angry. Then he softened and looked in the
direction of Anthea. His face took on a look of confusion as he
concentrated then he shrugged his shoulders.  "I dont know dude never seen
him before."

I looked at the two as they entered the library. I didnt understand why at
the time but i felt i had to follow them and find out who the kid was. I
looked to Dee and pointed to the library to tell her where i was going. She
looked at me confused. She came up next to me and whispered "Why are you so
intreseted in the kid." I shrugged my shoulders and said quietly."I dont
know i just want to find out who he is." She looked as though she still
didnt understand but she shrugged her shoulders again and said"All right
babe ill see ya in Science. I gave her a quick kiss on the lips then made
my way to the library.

While i didnt make it a habit of going in the library during lunch too
often. I still knew a lot of people who did. So on my way to the back where
i knew Anthea and the new boy would be. I got caught up talking to friends
and what should have taken thirty seconds ended up taking three minutes.
But when i finally arrived at the bookcases where they were, the look on
their faces when they saw me was priceless. "Oohh how sweet Antheas found
herself a little boyfriend." Anthea was throwing thunderbolts with her
eyes. But the newbie stepped in front of her and calmly looked at me and
said. "Look dude why dont you just fuck off and leave be." I had to admit
the kid had guts. I laughed at him." And who the fuck exactly are you, her
bodyguard?"

Anthea looked as though she was going to say something. But the kid stepped
in before she had a chance again. "My name is Brendon, and no im not her
bodyguard and no im not her boy...." He was cut off by Anthea grabbing his
neck and pulling his face to hers for a long kiss. I nearly threw up. When
he broke the kiss he looked shocked. I decided it was time to kill this
conversation."You were saying look kid dont get cute otherwise youll get
hurt." For a moment i shat myself as i realised i had called another boy
cute. I could see he had realised what i had said as well but thankfully
decided to let it go. But when we looked at each other in the eyes i could
tell we both felt some sort of spark. I walked away feeling both a bit
confused and a bit scared.

The next night i was on the phone to Dee talking about what had transpired
in the library. She thought it was good that i abused Anthea. I thought so
too but i felt strangely guilty about the way i abused Brendon. When i told
dee this she still couldnt understand it. She said that it had all been a
bit of fun. I agreed and shortly after we hung up.  By Monday morning i
still felt guilty about the things i had said. So i decided i would
apoligise. While i only wanted to apologise to Brendon i figured i had to
apologise to Anthea as well. I saw Anthea first so i said i was sorry. She
said whatever. Then i asked her if she had seen Brendon.

She said she hadnt and that i should leave her alone. I ignored her and
went to try and find him. It was just before the first bell went that i
finally saw him get off a school bus. When he saw me he frowned and tried
to sneak past me. I tried smiling to calm him down but it didnt work so i
let him walk past me. I caught up to him when he stopped at his locker.  I
casually leaned against one of the lockers next to his. He looked at me
nervously then went back to opening his locker. "Look Brendon im sorry
about Friday." I stopped and waited for a reaction.  When he said nothing
and kept at his locker. I assumed he was still pissed so i stood back up
and got ready to walk away but first i said."Well thats all i wanted to say
i guess youre still pissed at me so ill leave now." As i walked away i
heard him punch his locker then he said in a shaky voice. "Hey Jamie im not
pissed at you. Im pissed at my locker it wont open."

I stood there in shock, he smiled his killer smile and i almost knew right
then that he was making me feel things for him like i had never felt for a
boy before in my life. I walked back to him and asked him for the
combination.  He told me and without even trying got it open. For a long
time i thought he had faked it to get me to stay but i found out later he
really hadnt been able to open. Once he got what he needed from his locker
he closed it and leant on it as he looked at me. I avoided his eyes as i
asked him if he wanted to hang out during the morning break. He eagerly
agreed. then we split up.

When i talked to Dee during first period she didnt like the idea of Brendon
joining us during the break. She told me that she didnt trust him. That he
looked like he was only going to cause problems. I smiled at her and told
her not to worry so much. But at the break i learnt that the restof my
group agreed with Dee and that they didnt like him either. Towards the end
of the break I had had enough of listening to them and Brendon and i walked
away from the group to go somewhere else. Dee was calling after me and when
i looked at Brendon i could see we were both thinking the same thing. We
took off in a sprint to get away from them. Dee was pissed at me, and she
was even more pissed at Brendon. During lunch when i didnt sit with them
and eat Dee and the rest of our group sat down and wrote a letter to me
explaining that Brendon was trying to break the group up. They all but made
me choose between Brendon and the group. I chose Brendon. While i still
didnt understand why i was becom,ing so attached to someone id only met a
few days before. I knew that i wanted to keep Brendon.

Over the next week Brendon only grew closer and closer to each other. We
had hardly anything in common yet we would spend all our breaks in deep
conversation with each other. Almost as though the rest of the world wasnt
there. Dee and i were on the verge of breaking up, cause i was always with
Brendon. In that week i found out that he was a foster kid. And that he had
a foster brother at the same school as us. And that he had a kid brother
(real brother) that he was forbidden to see. We all but exchanged life
stories and we grew stronger and stronger no matter how hard my group tried
to break us up. Everytime i was near him i felt something i had never felt
in my life. I was so afraid of what i felt.

On a few seperate occaisons we had been caught by my friends in odd
positions but the always had strange circumstances. The classic was when my
best mate Mathew Cohan was walking past us when we were in the library.
Brendon had been reaching into my pants pocket to retrieve something i had
in there. And Matt walked past while Brendon was moving his hand around.
The look on Matts face made me and Brendon laugh. Matt looked shocked as he
turned around and walked away. Another time we had been talking and as we
talked Brendon was making strange faces when he stopped we were just
staring at each other seeing who would laugh first. Brendon let his face
got really close to mine. When Dee walked past she flipped as she thought
we were going to kiss. At the time I just laughed at the suggestion. But
she acted really weird around me for the next couple of days.

On the weekend i had invited Brendon around to my place for Saturday. He
had eagerly agreed and arrived at my place when we had said he should. We
spent the whole afternoon watching videos and playing the playstation We
were watching some movie on tv and a love scene came on. And i found myself
looking at Brendon, when he realised i was staring at him he sat up on my
bed and looked at me curiously. "Wat." I blushed and didnt say anything. We
jsut continued to look at each other. He bit his top lip and looked at me
through soft eyes. He looked almost scared of what i wanted to say.
"Brendon, why is it i cant stop thinking of you, why is it i never want to
leave you." Brendon began to weep slowly as he said in a quiet voice.  "You
tell me and well both know. Jamie i dont know whats going on, but i do know
that my heart tells me i cant leave you."

With that he suddenly leant forward and planted a slow lingering kiss on my
lips. To this day i dont think ive ever had the privlidge of kissing anyone
as good as Brendon. It was slow and gentle yet passionate all at the same
time. We held the kiss for a while it seemed like hours and i wish it had
have been. I felt his tongue on my lips and i opened them slightly and our
tongues began a loving caress. Kissing him felt so beautiful and so right.
He had one hand on my back and one on my neck not pushing but just gently
caressing. My left hand was on his cheek while my right was running through
his silky hair.

When we finally had to break the kiss to get our breath back i was suddenly
sent crashing back to earth by the realisation that i had just kissed a
boy. I scooted away from Brendon. I began to cry softly." No no
no..... This isnt right im not Gay. Im straight i have a girlfriend for
fucks sake......FUCK FUCK FUCK." I was crying quite heavily at this
stage. What the hell was going on. Why did i just kiss another boy. Brendon
tried to console me. "Hey Jamie sttle its gonna be all right." I stood up
off the bed and walked to the window when i reached it i looked back at
Brendon. "No it isnt all right im STRAIGHT." Now Brendon burst into tears.
I felt bad for doing this but it was all way too confusing so i did theonly
thing i could think of. "Brendon i need you to go."

Brendon looked at me shocked. I knew it wasnt his fault but seeing him
wasnt going to help me sort myself out.  "Please Brendon im sorry but im
not gay." Brendon got up off the bed with tears still straming down his
face.  "Yeah well i am." I was semi shocked i dont know why i mean after
all it was him that initialised the kiss. "Please dont hate me cause im
gay."

"I dont hate you Brendon i just cant deal with you at the moment." He
frowned at me but nodded and walked out my door. When i heard the front
door close i layed down on my bed and balled my eyes out.

TO BE CONTINUED

Chapter two will be coming soon please send in comments to me at
Half_desent_guy@yahoo.com.au.  I will reply to all comments I swear. Hope
you enjoyed the first enstalment.

With this story with each chapter im going to give a tip to young gay
boys/men out there who are experiencing problems. Ive been through it and
im only twenty so in a way im still going through it.

Tip 1- If youre afraid to tell anyone that youre gay whether it be a parent
or a friend. The best way is to gage their reaction to gays in general. Ask
them a generalised question about gays and see how they react. If they
abuse them then i suggest you dont tell that persone or at least wait a
while. If they appear to have no problems with people who are gay, then
pick an apropriate time and place and when you feel comfortable tell
them. I find the best tip on this subject is trust youre instincts.

Oh well until next time all the best and happy reading.

Kind regards
The guy who aint fully desent only half