Date: Sat, 23 Jul 2005 22:06:33 EDT
From: NEL114@aol.com
Subject: anybody just not him chapter 7

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Chapter 7: Tony

Who is he

Who is this boy
Walks in and makes everything alright

Just one day
He  makes everything feel
And he makes me forget
I don't know what it is to feel pain
I don't know what it is to feel alone

Who is this guy
My green eyed angel

With him I smile
With him I share my deepest secrets

Who is he
I love him
I ha-love him

Love and hate
Love and-

Who is he
He is not the guy I've craved for years
But-

The moment I saw those eyes
And the comfort they bring

I forget
I forget hate
I forget the knife

His kiss
His smile
His hug

For him I would die
For him I would cry
I love him

He'll protect me with his life

Who is he
Tony...


Chapter7: Tony

I'm not allowed to be happy so why  do I even try. He was something new,
something I wanted so bad, something I felt like I needed. I took a chance, I could
've lied but I didn't . I should've lied but I didn't. now me and him are
both in for it, only his second day and I fucked him over. I bet he wont say I'
m `fuckin' gorgeous' anymore. More like you `fuckin' retard'

" I KNEW IT!! I fucking knew it."

Tony and I broke away from the kiss. I was scared as hell to even look at the
person. But as they kept talking, I knew who it was. Me and him aren't
friends far from it actually, now he has this on me. Chris.

"..." I couldn't speak, I couldn't find my voice. I mean what do you say
after something like this. `Um did I give a good show`.

" So the fuck what!! And what'cha you gone do about it." it was Tony. He was
pissed. Hopefully not at me.

" Hold up FAGGOT, who the fuck you raising you mutha fuckin voice at?" it was
Chris. D's ex boyfriend. I really couldn't stand his ass. They always seemed
to be arguing about something whenever I was around. He's Tony's complexion.
Well was, Tony's skin was now blood red.

" Chris, what the hell do you want? Why are you on this hall any way." I
grabbed Tony's hand. Hopefully that would make him calm down a little." didn't D
tell you to stay the hell away from her." he knows me and D are always on this
hall. I should've been a  little afraid but the fact that it was JUST Chris
made me fell better. Scared of that scrub, I think not.

"  Hold up buddy boy. I'm the one that caught you tongue fucking wit some
dude." then " you should really be a little nicer to me." he smiled and grabbed
his crotch. Oh hell naw, no this nigga just didn't. he think just because I'
m... gay that I will suck his little Vienna sausage. Tony was growing angrier by
the second. I knew that if Chris kept running his mouth that his pretty ass
was going to end up hurt.

" I SWEAR TO FUCKIN GOD!!!" call me evil, but I let him go. He was speaking
through gritted teeth and shaking. I didn't want him to take it out on me.

" Aw bitch boy bouta cry." he laughed. He really is a dick, if he was
somebody else he would've had the brains to just shut the fuck up. But no, I don't
know what she ever saw in his ass.

 That was it Tony jumped out at Chris. It was a pretty scary thing, this boy
that I had just kissed. A sweet gentle kiss and now he's about a to break Chris
's face. BAM! That was Chris being slammed into a brick wall, not too lightly
either. I swear he broke something or a lot of something's.

" YOU WANNA TALK SOME MORE SHIT BITCH!!" Tony had him by the shirt with one
hand and the other pulled back. I was too afraid to get up. Now, I have seen my
share of fights and even been in a few but this. " I GOT YO FAGGOT!"

" NIGGA GET YA FUCKIN HANDS OFF ME!" that was an empty threat, but I guess he
had to try.

" WHO BOUTA CRY NOW!! FUCKIN PUSSY!" he knocked the shit out of Chris, I
swear there was teeth flying. That boy really should learn to keep his mouth shut.

I was still sitting in the same spot when this all happened. Still there,
were he kissed me. Where I always fall asleep and dream...dream of Derrick. Where D
always asks me if I'm ok. The same spot.

Thank god D and Eric showed up. I'm surprised security didn't come although
I doubt they could even break Tony's fist from Chris's face.

" damn what happened." it was D, she was to me while Eric was trying to break
up the fight, If I could call it that. It was murder, Chris couldn't handle
him. Tony was completely different from the guy I knew. Wait. How much did I
know him, it hasn't even been a fucking day yet. Would I even want to be friends
with a guy like that.

I looked back at him. Eric couldn't even get him off of Chris, hopefully hid
dumb ass will learn to keep his fucking mouth shut. I know that Eric couldn't
and he was way stronger than me, but maybe I could calm him down.

 Danita shook me, " VINCE!? You ok." I wanted to say something but I couldn't
take my eyes off of him.

Then instinct took over, I smiled and said, " I'm cool." I really should feel
bad lying to my friends all the time. `time to break this up' I though to
myself.

I walked over to Tony, Eric and Chris. Eric was to holding back Tony's arm
while Tony's other arm kept Chris against the wall who was too afraid to do
anything...

" Eric let him go." I said calmly. I have too much control over my emotions...
its scary. I don't cry, I don't frown. I  appear to be happy. I'm the happiest
when I'm at my lowest. But in the end the control takes its toll and those
emotions I lock away come back. The only way to make them go away is to cut. I
thought I was over it...guess not.

" what are you crazy!?" Eric said going into protective mode.

Danita joined in " for real, he'a swing on you too."

" its cool trust me."

I walked the rest of the way and put my hand on Tony's shoulder. Eric still
didn't leave, I guess he wasn't convinced that I would be ok. " Eric..." with
that he backed off. I leaned to his ear and kept whispering " its ok. Calm
down." then I looked further at Chris who looked scared shitless. `Should I even
stop this, he's getting what he deserves. Its his own fault' I thought to
myself. But deep down I knew it wrong to not even attempt to stop this.

After a while of me trying to calm him down he finally let Go. Chris dropped
to the ground. Danita and Eric rushed over to help him up. I guess she still
had feelings for him. To love the person that you hate the most.

If I saw derrick getting beat up would I help him? Or would I watch and let
it happen. Even though I hate him, I still love him. Maybe that's what she felt
for Chris.

After he dropped Chris I moved in front of him to see him better. His head
was hung and his arms fell to his sides. He was crying, well not crying but
tears covered his face. I know those tears, they were angry tears. The same kind I
shed this morning. I know what he's feeling. I don't want him to feel that
way. I hugged him, hoping that he would feel a little better. I wrapped my arms
around his waist mainly because I couldn't reach his shoulders without
standing on my tip-toes.

Danita already knows, but Eric. I guess he would find-out sooner or later,
just didn't know it would be so soon. But I could care less, he needed this.
Tony needed this. If I  had a hug like this in the morning maybe I wouldn't have
cut today, or ever...

 I felt his muscles move under my fingers, as his hands moved around my body.
I was relieved, he didn't hate me.

"  You ok." I already knew the answer, I could see it in his eyes. He was
sad. So I hugged him tighter.

" not to break ya'll little moment or whatever but what the fuck is goin on"
maybe he's just angry because of the fight or something.

" um Eric..." thank god D was here. Maybe he wouldn't be as upset.

" Yo fuck Saturday, we need to talk right mutha fuckin now." was he ma-mad...at
me?


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