Date: Tue, 24 Oct 2000 01:25:24 EDT
From: ZLATAZOBO@aol.com
Subject: Anything to turn you On... Part XXXI

        Welcome again! Here are the legal statements. If you are not yet old
enough or if it is not legal to read this type of material where you live,
please leave now. If the subject of homosexual relations offends you please
read no further.
The Author reserves all rights. copyright 2000.
    The Author is Terrence 'TJ' Julian with input from Andrew Simon van Ryan.
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    You may wish to read my other story, 'Boys Dare not Dance!", which is a
collection of short stories about Andrew and myself, mostly from our teenage
and early twenties years. On behalf of Andrew and myself, I hope you have
enjoy our story!
                                                    Terrence 'TJ' Julian


		 Anything to Turn You On...
				     Part XXXI
			      by Terrence 'TJ' Julian
			     Copyright 2000. All Rights Reserved

	The rest of the day and part of the evening went by with no further
surprises. Still, I could hardly wait to tell Andrew of his Father's
statement to me. When it was finally time to leave, Ronnie pulled the limo
in front of the van Ryan's home. We piled ourselves into the back and while
Andrew and Skippy said good bye to his parents, I whispered to Polly
	"Wait 'till you hear what Andy's Father said to me!"
	"What?" she whispered back. Her curiosity showed in her eyes. I
simply put a finger over my lips in a silent 'Shhhh.'
	Finally, Andrew handed a nearly asleep Skippy through the door to
me. He said one last good bye before seating himself. Ronnie closed the
rear door and entered the drivers side. Once we were away from the curb,
Polly couldn't wait any longer.
	"Well, what did he say, TJ?" she asked.
	"What did who say?" Andrew questioned.
	"Your Father." I said. "When you and Polly went with your Mother,
your Father told me something very interesting."
	"And that was...?" Andy asked.
	"He asked me to inform you that your Mother doesn't know about our
relationship and that it would be best if you didn't tell her." I stated.
	Polly gasped slightly as Andrew slowly frowned. I sat nodding my
head as if to say 'Oh, yes he did!' Andrew swallowed hard. Gazing at me he
spoke.
	"You mean to tell me he knows I'm gay and that we're a couple?"
Andy asked.
	"Yes." I replied.
	Polly was holding her hand to her mouth, frozen in shock. Andrew
turned to stare out the window. I sat quietly waiting. After a moment,
Andrew turned to me again.
	"It figures!" He stated. "I've been so concerned about their
reaction and the whole time they've both known. The real reason each one
doesn't want me to tell the other is they don't want to discuss between
themselves!"
	I considered what Andy had said and something clicked in my head.
	"Andrew, you're right. If they had to admit to each other their son
was gay, it would be devastating." I remarked. "They can individually
accept the fact that you're a homosexual, but they can't discuss it
together because each of them feels it's the other one's fault. Neither one
can accept you're sexuality without placing blame for it on someone. So,
each has silently blamed the other, thereby rejecting their own feelings of
guilt over your homosexuality."
	"I believe you're right, TJ." Andy replied. "If they had to talk to
each other about me, they'd start accusing each other of causing it."
	We rode home in silence, only speaking to point out a changed part
of the landscape here and there. Most of the area was unrecognizable as the
place where Andy and I had spent our High School years. Pulling into the
driveway, Andy asked "TJ, Would you like to go see the old school?"
	"Right now?" I asked.
	"Sure, why not?" He responded.
	"OK, if Polly doesn't mind watching Skippy" I said.
	Polly gave me a look and uttered "PPsshhhhtt!" at me.
	She climbed out of the car and took the sleeping boy with her.
	Andy gave Ronnie the directions and he drove us down off the hill
to the school where Andy and I had met years before. As we pulled into the
parking lot, I looked at the little retaining wall where I used to hide and
watch Andrew as he walked to his friends car after school. The memory made
me smile, thinking of how I adored him back then and knowing how I still
do. Ronnie stopped the limousine and let us out. We walked out onto the
deserted campus and both of us remarked how little it had changed. We
wandered down the sloping walkway past the administration building and out
to the center plaza.
	"It looks the same. " I repeated. "Hasn't changed at all."
	"Yes, I agree." Andy sighed. "TJ. Tell me something. Am I the same
person I was when you first met me?"
	I paused and studied Andrews face. He was busy studying the
buildings, as if he was expecting something.
	"No, Andy." I said. "You've changed. Time changes everyone, but
gladly, we've both changed and changed together."
	He stopped gazing at the buildings and looked at me. Our eyes
locked up in one another and we smiled.
	"My dearest Terrence." He said. "I love you so much. What would my
life have been without you?"
	"Fortunately, we'll never know the answer to that question, will
we?" I said and leaned over against him.
	"No, we certainly won't!" He said as he put his arm around my
shoulder. "I love you forever and always, TJ!"
	"I love you too, Andrew." I sighed. "I promise 'till I die........"
			             The End

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	Andy and I will be celebrating our Twenty Ninth year together next
month (November, 2000). For those who have read our story and those who
will, we wish all of you Happiness and a Lifetime of Love.
					  Love to all,
			               Terrence Julian and Andrew van Ryan