Date: Wed, 4 Nov 2009 03:27:21 +0000
From: war mac seoige <backtoblackwriter@gmail.com>
Subject: Back to Black (high school)

This story is a work of fiction.It contains sex between men if you
don't like it please leave now.
Hey this is my first time writing anything so any feedback would be
greatly appreciated im a stuck on where to take the story so any ideas
would be great thanks.  Thanks Hope you enjoy my story !!!!!!!!


As i stepped off the bus eireann coach outside the tiny tidy town i swore I
would never return to a cold spine thingling chill ran down my back as if i
was touched by a ghost.Maybe it was my nerves or maybe it was the cold sea
breeze,i was on the west coast after all.The town i speak of is in galway
just outside the gaeltact.Oh great that reminds me , i havent spoke irish i
two years i hope somebody talks to me in it,scratch that i hope nobody
talks to me at all.As i walked up through the town i felt everyone eyes
apon me , i felt my chest tighten it was if somebody was sitting apon it.

Just then BAMMM !!! i hit the floor.I push my fringe out of my eyes to see
what knocked me to the ground,it was Ashley they called her Ash for
short.She is 5'6 black hair with a purple fringe and her body
well........ um you could say she was pleasently plump.Ash was my
bestfriend when i lived in this hell hole town,the only girl who knew i was
gay,ha you could call her my fag hag.

Where was i oh yeah Ash grabbed my arm and helped me up "i am so sorry i
wasnt looking where i was going mister,OMG Danny ?!? , it cant be can it
?,Is it really you ?" she screamed so nearly the whole town could
hear. "Yes "i said as i grapped her and pulled her into the nearest
laneway."I forgot how loud you where Ash" I managed to sqeezed out before
she grapped me into a big bear hug."wow Danny you look umm diffrent,look at
your hair its so long and could u not find a pair a jeans in your
size,there abit tight aint they ?? " she chuckled as she realsed me from
her grip."I also forgot how strong you where Ash" I said as i tried to
catch my breath."Danny im still shocked,after what happened i didnt know if
i would see you again .....".

SHUT THE FUCK UP ASH,I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT THAT !!!!!!!!! " I yelled at
her and ran away.She chased me but being a "Big" girl she gave up halfway
to my house."Danny im sorry,i am hear when your ready !! " she shouted
through her gasps for air. " Come around anytime,I mean it anytime Danny
!!!! " was the last thing i heard from her as i pulled the evenvople from
my bag and fished out the key for the door to the house.I opened the door
and slamed it behide me.It was to much for me to take i broke down crying
and sat with my back to the door.

Maybe i should explain abit more about my past.When i was five my dad left
me and my mam and then two years ago my mother got sick and passed
away.Being confused about my sexuality ,my mother dying and not been able
to express my love to the boy i have loved and still to this day love was
to much.I took my mams pain meds and knocked back a litre bottle of vodka
hoping it would take the pain away.I was found by my neighbour and rushed
to the hospital.As i was 16 the state got involed and not having any family
i was sent to a home in Dublin.I turned eighteen two days ago and now im
free from the state.When my mam died everything was left 2 me and her
inturance money will pay for my bills and food for the next few years.Well
until i can find a way out of her without selling my house.My mam wouldnt
of wanted it that way.

I pulled myself up and headed to the bathroom.I rinsed my face with cool
water and looked at myself in the mirror.I guess Ash was right i do look
ALOT diffrent for one my hair is jet black and cut into a long emoish
style,not saying i am emo i just like the look i love all music.Ive lost
all my puppy fat and was taller.I am now 5'11 and i was 5'9 two years ago
and i am 10 stone slighty toned,i wouldnt be mister gym body but i was
happy with what i had.I wear contacts now because i fucking hate my
glasses.Like i said i like the emo style so i wear skinny jeans,bright
colored tops and even brighter colored Hi Tops.Saying that i also wear
baggy jeans while i skate.

As the cool cold water ran down my face i though of all the people who will
suddenly be back in my life again.Some good and some bad.One of them i
really wanted to see or did i ? would seeing Ethan again bring back all the
pain i had before or would it be the best thing to happen to me in the last
two years.Ive seen Ash oh shit yea Ash um I better go say sorry to her.She
was my bestfriend and hope can take that place again.Then you have Ciara
and Paul the twins,you know the way they say good things come in two well
they havent met these two.Paul an attention seaking flaming gay who
everyone one felt sorry for because he was and only gay in the area.Boy
where they wrong and then theres Ciara the cunt,the whore ,the slut yeah u
get what i am saying.In third year she got a crush on Ethan and was always
around which meant Paul was around pining after me EW.

I got had a shower and then got changed into some bright blue boxer
briefs,baggy jeans and my big DC hoody and my Hi Tops and headed for Ashs
house.I stuck in my headphone belonging to my Ipod and walked towards the
house.Ash lived outside the town abit.She was well off then most people in
the town and lived in a huge house beside the woods.Just as i reached the
door i heard thumping music over my Ipod which was hard as it was at full
blast.I took out my earphones not realsing it being in my day dream the
garden was full of cars.FUCK i thought to myself theres a party and then
looking at my watch it was 1 am FUCK i said out loud.Just as i was about to
turn around the door was flung open and BAMMMM !!! for the second time i
was floored today but my somebody diffrent and that somebody was right on
top of me.I pushed my fringe out of my face and said " what the hell ?"
then all of a sudden i saw who it was.It was Ethan I didnt realise at first
as he looked different but in a good way."holy shit sorry dude " he said as
he hopped off me.I wasnt ready for this,i needed more time!!. "Danny ?" man
sorry dude i must be really drunk you look like my old best friend,well
abit better looking haha ".

I stood there frozen to the stop not knowing what to do or say but i didnt
have to Ciara the bitch comes out the door after hearing the crash
screaming " What the fuck did you do to my boyfriend you dick !!!! " .Still
frozen all i could of think was run Danny just fucking run!!!.I turned
around and then she grapped me.She was very drunk you could smell it off
her. "Didn't you hear my dickhead".Then she seen my face and the game was
up she knew exactly who i was."Danny what the fuck are you doing here,arnt
you suppose to be in the madhouse or something ??" she said while she
cackled like a witch.Just then Ethan turned around and said "lets go back
inside babe,its cold out here"."Fine she said and stormed into the house.

Ethan then came up to me and punched me in the shoulder and said "good to
see ya buddy,come inside i wana talk to you after i calm down Ciara,god
shes a bitch sometimes.Are you ok ??" He said as he waved his hand in front
of my face.I was to busy looking at him now that he was in the light.He
hand curly brown hair with highlights that wear fading out down to his ears
he hadnt grown much he was about 5'8 .He still had his braces on which i
though was cute.He was wearing ripped jeans and a black hoody and flip
flops haha he looked like something from "home and away". Just without the
mad toned body and a tan. "Danny" he said again.I jumped and laughed ha
"hey sorry its just been awhile". "Come inside dude,its freezen outside".I
didnt want to go into the house and face all them glaring questioning eyes
on me but Ethan asked me to so i sucked it up and said "OK dude,but i need
a drink".

As i entered the kitchen it seemed that it there was only Ashs closets
friends where invited.Then Ash saw me and ran and picked me up "Danny,im so
sorry about earlyer!! " she yelled. " its ok,lets forget it happened". " So
you going to offer me a drink ? I said cheekly while i pushed her off me. "
Sure sure so um Jack Daniels and coke,or have you changed from the days we
use to rob it on my dad" she giggled. " yea that would be great i need a
hard drink".All of a sudden Paul bursts into the room as per usual looking
to make an entrance. " Whats up bitches ????" he squeeks in his put on camp
voice which i really hated. "Well Hello,Who do we have here then ??" he
said as he eyed me up. " Paul dont be stupid,you know thats Danny" i heard
hissing from the corner of the room.When i looked in was Ciara knocking
back another bottle of wine. " Danny ? Danny ? Danny ?,Oh yeah i thought
you died hmmmmmm........ well it would of been a waste if you did.Your so
Hot" he said in a voice which i think he was trying to be seductive.After
that i felt like i was going to vomit and turned to Ash " I'll be right
back got use the letris " one of the only Irish words i could think
off.With that i head upstairs to the bathroom.Not knowing Paul was
following me !!.Just as i was about to close the bathroom door his foot
stopped he and he pushed his way in and locked the door. " I rememeber you
Danny,I know your gay,I think your so hot" and with that he went in to kiss
me but he got more than bargined for . I kneed him he the balls and he
screamed and dropped to the floor.I walked over him and unlocked the
door.With that everyone ran up the stairs to see what happened.Ciara
started to scream abuse at me "you should of died,why did you come
back,nobody wants you here!!!".Ash screamed " this is my house and i want
him here".With that i pushed passed everyone went downstairs,grapped the
bottle of Jack Daniels and went out into the back garden.

I walked to the end of the huge garden and sat on the swing set that backed
onto the forest.I took a swig from the bottle.Then i noticed somebody
walking towards me in the dark.I couldnt tell who it was " fuck off i dont
want to fight with anyone " i yelled at them. " Danny its Ethan,can we talk
?"  Ethan oh fuck !! what do i do. " Um sure,guess so" i said while i
looked at the ground trying not to make eye contact.He sat on the the other
swing. " So you going to share that ?" he said pointing at the bottle.I
handed the bottle without saying anything or looking at him. " So Danny
dude,I am happy to see you.As you can see after you left things kinda got
mad".

We talked for which seemed like hours about the past and the good times.We
finished the bottle of Jack Daniels and Ethan started to talk about how
tall i was and that he could still take me in a fight.I said " sure you
could" and with that he had me pinned on the ground but i fliped him off
him and i got on top of him.Then I noticed it.A faded red ring around his
neck.I went to touch it and he started to cry. " Ethan what happend" i
whispered in his ear as i helped him back onto the swing.Then i sat on his
lap like we use to when we where kids. " Danny i havent told anyone
this,nobody at all.But when you left i heard terrible rumours that you
where dead.I was so upset i couldnt go on anymore so i tryed to hang myself
and my brother found me.When i told him he kicked the shit out of me and
told me to say that i was in a fight and for me to go out with Ciara if not
he would tell everyone i was a fag and would kick my ass every day of my
life if i didn't" Ethan said through the sobs.