Date: Thu, 29 Jun 2000 02:44:06 -0600 (MDT) From: pete <pistonpolisher@webtv.net> Subject: The Ballad of JT Chapter 7 The Ballad of JT chapter seven Copyright Notice - This story is copyright by Pete Roholt and the author retains all rights. You may distribute, copy or print this story however you like, as long as this copyright notice remains intact and you do not change the story in any way. Also you may not charge any fee to anyone to distribute or access this story. Okay you all know the routine if you ain't supposed to read this don't. If you do don't get caught. If male to male affection and or sex bothers you get lost. This story is going to deal with being outed in high school, gay bashing, suicide and other intense themes (If my writing is up to it ) This is fiction it isn't true some scenes are based on my own experiences with names changed to protect the guilty. Sorry that is has taken me so long to update this. I lost my access to webtv for a while, now that I have returned I will endeavor to be more timely. Anyone who has written me I'm not ignoring you I will write as my time permits. It was really great seeing all of your emails waiting for me when I got back online. Any comments will be welcome pistonpolisher@webtv.net Please put nifty in the subject line so I know it isn't spam. The Ballad of JT By Pete Roholt Chapter 7 The bell rang signaling the end of classes for another week. It had been the week from hell. If it hadn't been for Lori, Jason and the twins I think I would have gone crazy. Other than those guys no one spoke to me all week. It was like I didn't even exist. I had been totally shunned by all the students in high school, well shunned except for being called every kind of name you can think of. I'm still trying to figure out how some of the names applied to a gay person. As I walked out the parking lot the guys started to call out insults again. It's funny but at the beginning of the week those words really hurt and now I don't even hear most of it. I just block it out, not saying that the words don't hurt mind you, but they don't cut as deep as they did. I went to get into dad's old Scout that he was letting me drive until I found something else to drive. My Ford was pretty much beyond repair besides all the vandalism that had been done they had put sugar in the gas tank ruining the engine. One of dad's mechanics said it would probably be about $1500.00 just to get a new engine and another $2000.00 or so to fix the rest of it. I could have done that I had the money, but I was thinking about getting something newer. Just before I got it started I heard someone call out my name. "JT, hey JT hold up for a minute." Jason called. "What's up Jason?" I asked. "Are you coming over tonight? After all it is friday night with the guys." After we had gotten older and started dating we had noticed that our quality time with the rest of our buddies went away so we had a big meeting about it and decided that friday night was boys night out. The girls did the same thing. Saturday night was for dates, but friday was guys time. "Jase the guys don't want me around." "Lori and I talked about that, we are going to have an intervention." "A what?" "An intervention. You know like when a friend is using drugs and everyone gets together to try and stop him and make him see what the drugs are doing to him. Only we are going to do it to try and help the guys see that you aren't any different than you have always been. That you're the same person that has always been there for them." "I don't think so Jase," I replied. "I think it would be better just to let it go." "Damn it JT we are going to do this. We need you there." "If I go they will just be more uncomfortable." "Look, Lori is going to have the girls up in the living room and I will get the guys into the rec room. I want you to be up in my room. Then if everything goes well you can come down and life will return to normal, but if not at least we tried." "Okay Jason, I'll do this for you, but I really don't think it will work." "Be at my place at 6:30, the rest of the guys will be around at 7:00 I don't want them to see you." "Okay Jason I'll be there at 6:30. See you then." "Later JT." When I got home I stopped to feed my horses and curry their coats. It always made me feel better to spend time with the horses. Horses don't judge you they are just happy to see you. "How was school honey?" My mom asked when I walked into the house. "SSDD mom," I replied. "Same shit different day." "Everyone still ignoring you?" "Yeah, Mom I am really thinking about taking Uncle Jerry up on his offer. Except for Lori, Jase and the twins it is like I am a non-entity. I am getting so lonely. I really miss Jimmy." "Oh hon," My mom said as she wrapped her arms around me. "It will get better I know it will." "I wonder how Jimmy is doing, I can't imagine what he is going through. I never even got say goodbye." I said as I felt my tears start to rise again. "I know I'm only 16, but I really think I loved him and not knowing how he is is just killing me. I wish I could have just one telephone call. They even give people in jail one call." Mom just held me a I gave into my tears. She whispered soothing sounds into my ears trying to ease the pain I felt. I slowly regained control of my emotions and breaking the hug I said, "Sorry for crying like that I just can't seem to hold back my emotions any more. I do okay all through school but when I get back here I just fall apart." "JT you can always come to me. Don't worry about the tears, I would be worried if you didn't cry." "Jason wants me to come around at 6:30 tonight is that okay?" I asked changing the subject. "Boys night out?" "Yeah, I don't want to go, but Jason made me promise." "Are the others going to be there too?" "Yeah, Jason and Lori have some big idea that they can talk the other guys into accepting me." "Well you can go, but be careful." "I thought I'd go wearing my pistol belt." I said grinning. "The boys can be a little rough." She just frowned at me as I went down to my room. I went down to my room and decided to take a nap. Ever since I was in the hospital I was tired all the time, I felt good... well felt okay but I could always take a nap. I set my alarm to go off at five which would give me plenty of time to get ready for the night. I stripped all my clothes off and lay down in my king size water bed. I kept the heat turned fairly high so it was almost like slipping into a warm cocoon. I think I was asleep the minute my head hit the pillow. "Oh Jimmy, oh baby yeah right there. mmm that feels so good baby suck on me I can't stand it any more. Please baby pleeeeease....." Oh man what a dream hmmm yeah I like dreams like this. Then I felt a tooth dig in to the ultra-sensitive skin on my cock which jolted me awake. I looked down and I saw a blonde head bobbing up and down on my swollen member. "WHAT THE FUCK... Dallas what are you doing?!?!?!? Jesus Christ Dallas!" I yelled at him. Damn I was mad. He sat back up and looked at me with fear in his eyes. "I'm sorry JT I don't know why... I... I...." "What in hell do you think you're doing? Just come in here and do this, damn this is like rape or something!" I looked at Dallas and he stared back at me then I saw his tears start and he said "I'm sorry JT I don't know..." Then he took off for the door. Thankfully the lock on my bedroom door is sticky and hard to open so I was able to catch him before he got away. I grabbed him by his shoulders and turned him towards me. He was crying so hard that he was shaking. I pulled him into my arms and held him, "Hush little guy it's okay I don't hate you, but that was a stupid thing to do." "I'm sorry JT I came in and you were laying there with a huge hard on and... and... and well I guess I just couldn't resist. I just wanted to make you feel good. I guess I... I didn't think." He whimpered. "Hush it's okay everything is okay, but we gotta talk." After he quit crying I got him to come back and lie down in bed with me, but I put my boxers and a t-shirt on first. "Dallas I really like you, no I love you you are my cousin and as close to me as a brother. You a really attractive guy, but to come in and do this without my knowledge that is just wrong. Sex isn't about just getting off, it's about tenderness and love and what you were doing to me can be a great thing, but not when it isn't consensual." "JT, I realize that now. I just...." "No it's okay Dallas. I shouldn't have compared it to rape, but I am in love with Jimmy. This is cheating on the guy I love and... and... shit." I said as I started crying. "I'm sorry JT. I'll just leave." He said as he got out of bed. "Damn it Dallas get your ass back here!" I shouted through my tears. Then softly I said, "Please don't leave me." He came back and hesitatingly sat on the edge of the bed. I was still crying and he slowly laid down and put his arms around me. He held me as I let my feelings go. I guess I must have fallen asleep again because the next thing I knew the alarm was going off. I quickly shut the alarm off and looked at the boy that was holding me. Dallas sleeps like a log and didn't even hear the alarm. He is so cute, I really felt bad for telling him off. I shouldn't have done that, but he shocked me. I knew that he was wondering about guy sex, but actually giving someone a blow job was a big step. I could feel two sides of me arguing. Devil: Will you ever see Jimmy again? Angel: What would Jimmy say? Devil: It felt so good until he scraped it with a tooth. Dallas is so damned cute. It might be a long time before you see Jimmy again do you want to stay faithful to something that doesn't even really exist any more. Angel: How would Jimmy feel? Devil: What the hell you've already cheated so you might as well. Angel: But he's your cousin isn't that wrong. Devil: Incest is best. Angel: You don't want to take advantage of him if he isn't gay. Devil: Straight guys don't give blow jobs Angel: You don't want to violate the trust the your aunt and uncle have in you. Devil: You didn't initiate it, he did. Angel: Do you love him? Devil: Do you love him? I traced my finger around Dallas' face then kissed his forehead and woke him up. "Mmm huh? Oh hi JT I guess I must have fell asleep." Dallas said then remembering what he had done, "I am so sorry for earlier I..." "Shh Dally, It's okay I'm not mad." "Thanks JT, but you know I hate it when people call me that." "Dally, if you really want to have sex with me I'll do it. But I want you to really think about it. I mean are you sure you don't want to wait for someone special? That first time will only happen once. I also want you to understand that I am in love with someone else. I do love you like a brother, but that is all it will ever be." "JT I have thought about this for a long time. I was pretty sure of what I felt before you were bashed, but after we kissed I knew. I know what I want, and what I want is to make love with you." I leaned in and staring into his eyes I kissed him. I closed my eyes and brushed my tongue against his lips, gently forcing my way into his mouth. His tongue entered my mouth and we played tongue war with each other. I pulled my mouth back sucking on his tongue then dove back for more. Just before I broke the kiss I sucked on his lower lip stretching it way out until it left my mouth. I sat back looked down at him and smiled. "Wow what a kiss." He said gasping for breath. I took a hold of his shirt and pulled it over his head. Revealing his tight smooth stomach and chest and dime sized nipples. then pulled his jeans and shorts down in one quick movement. His six inch cut cock slapped against his belly. I stood and shucked my t-shirt and boxers and lay down right on top of him going directly back to his mouth. My hands found his tiny nipples and I squeezed them with my fingers. Our crotches rubbed together dry humping each other. Having already been near to having an orgasm earlier it didn't take me long to build up momentum, but I wanted it to last for Dallas. I pulled back and said. "Dallas just lay back and enjoy." I started kissing him on his eyelids and worked my way down to the tip of his nose. Then I sank into his sweet mouth once again. I let my mouth wander down his young smooth flesh taking time to lick both of his arm pits and suck on his nipples. I tongued his oh so slight six pack and found to my delight that he did have a treasure trail only the blond hairs were so light you could barely see it. I took special care to lick as close to his boyhood as possible without actually touching it. I made my way down his right leg pausing to lick behind his knee then down to his foot. I suckled on each of his slim toes. Then I did the same to his left leg in reverse order finally coming to my prize. His cock was twitching in anticipation and precum was oozing out. I sucked his testicles into my mouth and savored their flavor each in turn then slowly laved his boyhood as I slid my way to the top. I swallowed his cock in one quick swoop. I only made two passes before he grabbed my head and rammed his dick as far into my mouth as he could and I felt his cum hit the back of my neck and I swallowed it as greedily as a young calf sucking on his mother's teet. When his erection began to fade I pulled off and looked at him he was nearly asleep with a look of wonder on his face.