Date: Fri, 04 Aug 2000 01:14:52 CDT From: Boy Interrupted5 <boyinterrupted5@hotmail.com> Subject: Blakes Love CHAPTER 2 Thanks to everyone who emailed me with there comments to Blake's Love 1. It's really inspired me to write more. PLEASE go to my Website http://www.GTHQ.homestead.com, and SIGN MY GUESTBOOK! Email me with comments at BoyInterrupted5@hotmail.com. Once again, thanks for everyone that sent me mail for Blake 1, and I look forward to reading more comments about Blake's Love 2. ________________________ Blake's Love 2 ________________________ Well, let me guess, you wanna know what happened over the rest of our weekend, right? Of course, well, let me put it to you this way...nothing sexual. I know, I know, I burst your bubble. It just wasn't right for us at that point. It's July 4th now, and I have a date with Chris this afternoon. He says it's gonna be great... "Hey Chrissy Boy, I see Mommy finally got you a car," I said jumping into his new Chevy Malibu. "Yeah, she said I deserved it." "Bout time dude." I said pecking his cheek. He didn't have to look at the floor anymore, that's a major accomplishment, considering a month ago, his eyes were usually glued to the carpet. I really think that our relationship is getting better and better everyday. I mean, I really think that I love Chris. I dunno how to explain it really, but when you've grown up with someone for almost your entire life, you have feelings for them. Since I'm gay, I guess my feelings are more present, and I'm really glad that Chris feels the same way. "Chris, I have to go to my brother's house next weekend, it's his girlfriends birthday, and my mom wants it to be just family," I said, telling him in advance so he didn't make plans with me. "That's OK, I'll miss you though" "Awe, that's so sweet Chris, thanks for understanding though." "No prob," he replied. I really was looking forward to seeing my brother, but I would miss Chris, we were together everyday since we found out about each other, I mean EVERY day. I guess it wouldn't hurt to be apart from him for a few days though. I was supposed to be excited, according to my mother, to meet Jamie's girlfriend's brother. He was the same age as me. He went to Wellingger High's rival school, so it wasn't like I was running people over to meet him. New friends are nice though, right? Sheperd's High was my High School's rival ever since they were built, it's just been natural for everyone from each of the schools, to hate each other. His name was Charlie, and he was going to be a junior, just like me. "I'm supposed to meet some of Jamie's girlfriends relatives when we go out there, there's a dude that's our age named Charlie, so at least I'll have someone to talk to," I said. "He goes to Sheperd, doesn't he?" asked Chris. "Yeah, I hope we get along, my bro will be pissed if we start any trouble up there. The way things are going, I think he's going to propose soon. He would hate for us to get off on a bad start." "Chris, want me to ask if you can come? I'm gonna be so lonely out there." "Nah, I'm gonna go up to the mall next weekend, I was gonna invite you, but you go ahead, I really do need a few days alone." Chris said. "Dude, are you OK, you aren't having regrets about going out with me now, are you?" I asked. "Of course not babe, I like you so much, I just really think my mom is gonna find out if we aren't careful. I need some time to think, whether or not I'm going to come out to her. I mean, maybe it would be easier that way," Chris said rather seriously. "Well, don't do anything without me by your side, OK?" "Of course I won't Blake," he replied. I really didn't know what to think. I mean he should tell him mom, but I don't think he should have to go to the mall to think about it. I worry too much at times though, I guess if I just went with the flow and didn't worry so much about the future, shit would be a lot easier for me. I trust Chris, and I know that he would never do anything to purposely hurt me. That's a given. After we got done eating at a small Diner just outside of town, we decided to take a trip to the Creek, Wellingger Creek. That is what are town is named for, after all. We parked and got out and walked to the bank, were they had some picnic tables set up. It looked like someone had a 4th of July BBQ there earlier, because there were red, white and blue ribbons and confetti all around. You could here the 4th of July parade going down Main St., and the echo of firecrackers some kids were setting off around the town. It was now 4:30, and in approximately 5 hours, the big spectacular fireworks show would begin. You'd think that with my family living in such an upscale town, that they could afford to give a better show of fireworks. But it was only as good, or worse than Sheperdsville's show. Sheperdsville, where the rival school is located, is were my brother moved in with his girlfriend. It's a very nice town, but nothing compared to Wellingger Creek. "Hey Chris, wanna skinny dip," I said jokingly. "No, but I want to do this" He reached over, in broad daylight, and frenched me in view of no less than 10 people. I mean, I loved the kiss, but when the little girl on the picnic table next to us started screaming "EEWWW, EWWW," it was a tad embarrassing. Chris just grabbed my hand and drew me into the trees that lined the creek. Some places were thicker than others, and once we found a nice clear spot in the thicker brush, he just went for it. He grabbed me by the arms and just shoved me to the ground, not hard, but with force. He got on top of me and just kept kissing me, and kissing more. It felt so great to just make out with him, it was the first time we actually made out. We'd kissed many times, but never repeatedly, and never with such passion. For 15 minutes we just laid there, kissing. I wanted to "do" him so bad, but it just wasn't the right time. I wanted our first time to be in a much more hospitable location. After we stopped kissing, we just sat there and held each other for the rest of the day. At 8 o'clock, we got back into his car and drove up to the park in "downtown" Wellingger Creek, which is nothing more than Town Hall, and the Post Office. The fireworks would be starting in about 45 minutes, and we wanted a good spot. We got in the first row of seats that were set up. We made sure that we could hold hands secretively, by pushing our butts closer together, and hiding our hands in-between them. I know, it sounds gross, but people will do crazy things for the one they care about. When it finally got dark the fireworks started. It was actually a better show than usual. Throughout the entire show I had a boner, and if I was correct, Chris was popping some wood too. By now, I bet you are thinking I'm a prude, too scared to make any sexual advance. It's not that, it's just that I want it to be special. Even though the hot tub and candles made the perfect scene for passionate love making, the time wasn't right, and who wants there first time to be in a bunch of bushes. I'm gonna make it perfect, it is going to be perfect. I just have to think of how to make it perfect somehow. After the fireworks completed, Chris' mom said he had to be home, so he dropped me off at my house, and we kissed a few times more. He was really being open about liking me today. I said I would call him tomorrow morning and try to make some plans for the day. I went inside and was really exhausted, even too much to masturbate. So, I just gave my mom and dad a hug goodnight, and went to bed. No dreams...... I hate it when I wake up, and the whole time you were sleeping was a waste. That's why I love dreams so much, I like to try and make stuff out of them. To figure out what made me dream it at that time, on that particular night. Better luck next time, I guess. I called Chris at about 10:30, his mom said that he went to the mall early this morning. After I hung up the phone, I went back in the bed and cried, I cried and cried and cried. This was the first day that Chris did something without me, and didn't even bother to call. I decided to get in my Impala and go to the mall. I wanted to know if he was up to anything. I had always trusted Chris as a friend, but now that we were together, and he went behind my back, I was nervous. I mean, don't get me wrong, I don't think he's cheating on me, but I want to know what's up with him. Ever since we started going out, he's been different. I dunno if it's because he's finally realizing he's gay, or if it's me, or if it's something I totally have no clue about. when I got to the mall, I parked next to his car, he always had a thing for parking as far away from other cars as possible, so I knew where to look. Easy finding a parking place that way, I guess. I sat there for about 15 minutes, thinking maybe he was almost finished and would come out. I mean the mall in a pretty big place, and I would have a hard time finding him. I didn't want to miss him coming out or something. But, I got out anyways, and went to the food court. I got some eggrolls at the Panda Express, my favorite restaurant in the mall, and sat at one of the tables by the window. This way, if he left the mall, I could see him leaving and run after him. I really don't think he did this secretively, or we would told his mom to tell me he was still sleeping for something. Maybe I was wrong for being here, I mean, I don't want him to think I have to follow him to be able to trust him. At the moment, I just felt really bad for not trusting him in the first place. After I finished my eggrolls, I stopped in at Abercrombie and Fitch, my favorite store, it was one of Chris' fave too. Sure enough, I seen Chris, and not only Chris, but Melanie, one of our classmates at Wellingger High. They were over in the women's part of the store looking at some shirts. I stood in the glass, as I seen Chris drop his hands to her thighs from behind her, and softly kiss her neck, I seen her turning her head around to meet his lips, but she stopped on me. "Oh, hey Blake, Chris said you would be busy today, come over here and say hello to Wellingger Creek's newest couple!" She said too happily. What was I going to do, here I was afraid that Chris was meeting another guy, but worse, a girl, a GIRL. I trusted him, I really trusted him. "How could you..." I said, not really finishing. What was I supposed to say..."How could you DO THIS TO ME," or "How could you CHEAT ON ME" with his new girlfriend right there. I really was in shock, I couldn't even cry, I couldn't even walk away, or to them, like Melanie had asked me to. All I did was stand there, with Chris and his women staring me down, Melanie looking at me like I was deaf, because I didn't come over to her and Chris. I finally started over to them, I didn't know if that was the right thing to do, but I didn't want Melanie to think anything weird was going on. Chris knew, oh boy did he know. He was just staring at me, he must have thought I was stupid, that when I called his mother, and she said he went to the mall, without me, that I would just go about my business and not see wonder what was wrong. Going to the mall to think about telling his mom he was gay, MY ASS! Wait a minute though, maybe he could explain, maybe this was just a big misunderstanding. Maybe I deserved this. I was just baffled, Chris acted so sincere, so passionate when we made out just yesterday. But now here he was, with a girl, a girl that was trying to take my man, a girl I really didn't like in the first place. When I made it into the store, and over to them. I was shaking, and Melanie, in her Swiss Valley High voice, asked if I was OK. "Yeah, yeah, of course, I'm perfectly fine." I said. "Isn't it just great! Like, me and Chris finally hooked up, we have been talking about it for 2 weeks now. And this coming weekend, we are totally gonna go up to the city, and shop till we drop!" Melanie said annoyingly. "Oh, really, so that's what you ment when you said you had to go to the mall and think, huh Chris," I said. "Umm, yeah this is it, surprise!," Chris said, in a "scared shitless" voice. "Melanie, can I borrow your new boyfriend for just a minute, I need to talk to him privately, like now," I said. "Umm, sure, like, don't like leave me here like all day, OK guys." She said, once again annoyingly. "OK, we won't," Chris said. We walked over to the bench outside A & F, and sat down. I was so upset. I mean, I was falling in love with Chris, and now he was with a girl. that made it twice as bad. It was a girl, and not another guy. "Blake, please, I don't want this to affect our friendship at all, but I really don't think I'm ready for a gay relationship." "I only went out with you because Melanie dared me to, I had to do it in order for her to go out with me." Chris said. "Oh geez, Chris, I can't talk to you anymore. You asshole! For you to do this to me, your best friend, is, is....it's not right. "I never want to talk to you again, I was falling in love with you, and now you tell me this. You fucking asshole!" "I never meant to hurt you Blake, I didn't even know you were gay, I never thought you would really want to go out with me." .....Dreams That was the worst dream I ever had. The worst thing, is when you dream that you are waking up and it goes from there. It felt so real, so vivid. My heart was beating really fast now, and I was afraid to call over to Chris' house, cuz the one dream that I never wanted to come true, could. It was a scary feeling when I called Ms. Messerre, Chris' mom, and she said that he went to the mall. It was even scarier when I hopped into my car, and parked next to his in the parking lot, all the way at the end of the row. When I got inside, I didn't go to Panda Express for my egg rolls. I wanted at least something to be different from my dream. I was so shaken by the similarities between today and my dream, that I walked around the entire mall before I went past Abercrombie and Fitch. I hid behind the large Sale sign and looked in. There was Chris, and Melanie. They weren't by the women's clothing, but by the cologne. I stood there and watched for a few minutes to hear was they were saying.... "Hey Mel, this one smells really good." Chris said first. "Yeah, it totally smells the best of like all of them." replied Melanie...annoyingly. "Do you think that he'd like it?" Chris asked. "Oh my god, who wouldn't?" She replied. "You really do care for him, don't you Chris." "It's too bad that you and Blake are getting serious, I mean, I like totally would go out with you if I had the chance." "Look, Melanie, I'm gay, I love Blake. He is the greatest thing that ever happened to me." "If I ever lost him, I don't know what I would do, but it wouldn't be something good that's for sure. Chris said. ....Do you believe this, Chris is buying me, lil ol' me A & F cologne. And he really cares for me. I couldn't barge in on them, I mean, now that I truly can trust Chris. So, I decided to go home. I got back in my car and left, I was planning on calling Chris' house again in about an hour or so. Hopefully he would be back. This was incredible. I just couldn't believe it, my dream left me so insecure. Now Chris had told Melanie about us, which I wouldn't personally do, and I know that he truly cares for me. I never felt the way I felt today in my life. The feeling of losing someone you care about in the form of a dream? What's that all about. It was freaky, and I never want to go through that again. I would really appreciate it if Chris and I could live the rest of our lives together turmoil free. That's probably impossible, but it's a wish that I want to come true. When I got home, I pulled my car into the garage, and went into Rosa's quarters to remind her we were leaving in the morning for my brother's house. Rosa. Well Rosa is forgetful. She's a great lady, and held as close to my heart as my own mother and father. To be honest, I will tell Rosa about me and Chris before my own parents. Rosa has been there for me since I was a baby, while my parents were making us richer than we needed to be. Some people would kill to be rich. I would give everything I have just to live a normal life, but then I wouldn't have Chris. So I guess I gotta stay how I am. I went up to my room and took off my shoes. I walked over to the computer and turned it on, I still had 1/2 hour to call Chris. I just signed onto my Instant Messenger and talked to a few of my school friends and other people I had met in chat rooms over the years. The time was going by so slow, and I wasn't sure what to say when I called Chris, I didn't want to lie when he asked what I did today. I guess I had to tell him, I wanted our relationship to be based on honesty. So, since I didn't trust Chris enough to let him go to the mall without me, I would have to fess up. It finally got to the time that I could call Chris, I got off-line and dialed his number. His mom usually would pick his phone up if he wasn't home, and that's what she had done earlier. It rang a few times and finally Chris picked up the phone. "Hey babes, whatcha up to?" I asked. "Oh, nothing, I just got back from the mall with Melanie, I'm coming over later so we can hang out or whatever." Chris replied. "Cool, I'll be here, but Chris there's something I need to tell you." "What's that?" "Well," I said. "I mean, now I know that I don't have to worry anymore. But when your mom said that you went to the mall this morning, and you didn't bother to tell me, I was worried. So, I went to the mall just to check up on you, I'm really sorry Chris." "Awe, Blake, you never have to worry about not trusting me, and I'm glad you told me, cuz now I know I can trust you to tell me stuff," Chris replied. I was really surprised he took it so well, I was expecting at least a minor argument. "Thanks hun, are you coming over right away or are you gonna be a little while still?" I asked. "I'll be over in about an hour or so, OK?" "Cool, I'll be waiting for you, and I'll cook us something for dinner so don't eat," I said. "OK, make something good." I will Chris, talk to you later, buh bye." "bye." Wow, I felt really good about that conversation, I told the truth and nothing bad happened. I couldn't tell you the last time that's happened to me. Now, I had to think of something for dinner, and I wasn't just going to through a pizza in this time. "I think I'll make a tuna casserole." I said to myself. Now, take this from me, tuna isn't the best think I could have thought of for myself, but it's Chris' favorite. So, I got all the ingredients ready, which wasn't much. Some noodles, tuna, and cream of mushroom soup is all it took. Then you sprinkle some potato chips on top, and you're done. OK, sorry, I don't really think anyone cares on how to make it, but I thought I would share the recipe. I threw it all together and sat down to watch The Sally Show "Cheating wives take lie detector tests." Boy am I glad I'm gay, you hardly ever see a gay couple on any of those talk shows. When the casserole was finished, I just left the oven on really low to keep it warm. I still had almost a 1/2 hour to wait for Chris. I watched the rest of Sally and then turned it over to the news. I noticed that one of my dad's stocks had really rocketed, so that kinda helped me on the waiting for Chris thing. Finally Chris pulled up in his new car that he seemed to be flaunting, but I guess I did that when I first got mine too. He let himself in and joined me at the kitchen table to watch the rest of the news. Chris really didn't need to knock on the door anymore, he hasn't had to since about 6th grade. Once my parents and his mom became friends also, we pretty much could go to one another's house anytime. I really was at a loss for words when Chris came in. I mean, even though he said it was not a problem for me to have followed him, it still was a weird situation. "Hey Blake, I got you something," he said, handing me a small wrapped box. It was obviously the cologne he was looking at for me earlier. "Awe, thanks Chris, you are too sweet." I said unwrapping the present. I was right, it was the cologne, and it did smell great. Melanie may be annoying and a bitch at times, but she has good taste. "Oh, that smells great Chris, thanks." As I reached over and kissed him softly. He pulled me over to him and we made out for a little while. After awhile, I walked into the kitchen and pulled out the casserole. Chris was really surprised I made it for him. "Wow, Blake, this is really good, almost as good as my mom's," he said. "Oh, thanks, but I can't compete with Mommy, huh?" I said sarcastically. "Oh, shut up lover boy, it's great, OK?" "OK," I replied. He has his own way of being a Momma's boy, but I think I'll have him saying he's Blake's man in no time. I really wanted him bad, I have tried to come up with the right time to make my move, but I never can tell if he would want me to or not. He sure isn't making any moves. In fact, ever since the crying and attacking me naked incident, he hasn't tried anything but kissing me. I felt neglected, but I'm sure it's partly my fault, since my reluctance to make a move is showing through also. "Let's go over to the couch and snuggle a little bit, what you say Chris?" I asked. "Sounds absolutely wonderful to me, lets go," he replied. We got on the couch together and I was in front of him. He was on the back of the couch, and I practically had my ass on his dick. I could tell he was getting aroused, and soon started to stroke my hair. He stuck his hands up under my shirt and rubbed all over my chest, making my nipples uncomfortably hard. Maybe I wasn't being as noticeably scared to do anything sexual as I thought, but I was getting nervous with him all over me like this. I want to be with him so bad, but I also wanted it to be on my circumstances, not his. Maybe that's selfish of me, but that's the way I felt. he continued advancing by nibbling on my ear, and licking the back of my neck, giving me goose bumps all over my body. I was erect, and almost ready to crack when I jumped up and asked if he was thirsty. "Blake, what the hell, I was trying to be romantical with you, and now you get up." "For one thing, there's no such word as romantical, and second...." "Second what?" Chris asked. "Well, second, I'm not ready to do anything sexual yet, I know I had that evening planned when we first started going out. But if we had sex then, I don't think we would be the same as we are now. Instead of going out and having a good time, we would be in my bedroom fucking. Sex isn't always a good thing Chris" I replied. "Blake, I would still want to do fun stuff with you, like going out and having a good time. just because we have sex doesn't mean we become addicted to it." I think I'm falling in...in love with you Blake, and I want to show you how much I care for you." Chris said. "Chris, I think I'm falling in love with you too. "I think about you when I'm "pleasuring" myself, I think about you when I'm taking a shower. How you could wash me, and then I could you, and kiss you...Chris, I want to be with you really bad. I just don't know when or how, or even where I want it to happen yet." I said. "Blake, don't think that you saying that affects how I feel about you. Whenever you feel ready, I am. I feel so light headed when I'm around you, you take away all my senses. I don't know how I lived 16 years without holding you, and kissing you," Chris said. Chris was really falling for me more than I thought. I mean, I knew that he loved me, but I didn't think he loved me as much as I loved him. But, he was showing a good job of it now. "I feel the same way Chris. Don't think I'm gonna make you wait all that long before we go all the way, I just don't want it to be here or now." I replied. "Baby, I love you, and I can cuddle with you, and not touch any place that you don't want. I never touched anything that's involved in sex. I want you to get back over here and let me hold you, and just be with you for the time I can, you are leaving tomorrow morning." Chris said. "OK, you think you can handle not being sexual though, I mean, trying not even to get hard?" I said. "Wow, are the demanding little shit today aren't you? I can't promise you that, but I can surely work on it." "That's all I need to here. Baby, I wish you would come with us tomorrow morning. I'm gonna miss you so much," I said. "Hehe, you'll only be gone for 3 1/2 days, I think you will be alright." Besides, I really do want to have some time to think about me telling my mom, and the rest of my family." "Chris, I really wish that you would wait to tell anyone anything until I get back. OK?" I asked "Of course, I want you to be there, and if you aren't ready to come out to your family, my mom will surely understand. If my mom takes it the way I think she will, we have nothing to worry about." Chris replied. "OK, just don't tell anyone else that we go to school with, I mean, Melanie, she's too stupid to know we'd beat her ass if she told anyone. I wish you would have waited to tell her." "Blake, how do you know I told her, I never told you that I did?" Chris shot out. "I over heard some stuff at the mall this morning, I'm sorry about that again," I said. Now, I really felt back. Chris didn't know that I was listening to them when he bought me the cologne, and I wanted him to think he was surprising me. That's why I didn't tell him about me hearing them in the first place. "It's OK Blake, don't worry about it. I understand how you felt, and I might have done the same thing if I were in your position," he replied. After awhile, our conversation dwindled and he just held me, until we had to go to my room. My mom would be home any minute, and my dad went to a golf outing, and I had no idea when he would be back. While in my room, we talked about what we would do once I got back from Sheperdsville. At around 10 o'clock, Chris decided to go home and let me pack my stuff for the trip. I really was lucky that I worked for Shultz Hardware, any other place around town would probably not let me change my hours to go on the trip. Mr. Shultz was a good man. If I didn't have to work somewhere, I would probably volunteer my time at the hardware store. I packed all my clothes and a few computer games with my laptop for the weekend. We would be gone Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and then come home on Saturday. I don't see why we had to stay at my brothers house. It's not that hard to drive there for the day and come back, but my mom and dad insisted that we all go for the weekend. After I was finished packing, I went down and said good night to my parents and went to bed. When I woke up the next morning, just to make sure I was really awake, I pinched the hell out of myself. I was definitely awake. I took my suitcase and other stuff downstairs and set it with my parents. I guess we were taking the Cadillac to my bro's, cuz it was pulled up front. I didn't call Chris, cuz I knew I would get upset and he understood that. So I instead helped load the car and got in, ready to go. I really hope I don't go crazy without Chris. I do know that I'm gonna miss him a lot though. I can't wait to get back. _________________________________________________________________ Well, that's Chapter 2, sorry it took 2 1/2 weeks longer than it should have. Please understand that I do have a life, and don't sit in front of my computer all day long. I will have Chapter 3 of Blakes Love up as soon as I can though. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and the more feed back determines how much more I write. Please email me at Boyinterrupted5@hotmail.com and go to http://GTHQ.homestead.com to view my Website. SIGN MY GUESTBOOK PLEASE! No one has signed it yet, and I've had many unique hits. Once again, I hope you enjoyed it, and that you look forward to Chapter 3.