Date: Fri, 15 Apr 2011 05:16:07 -0600
From: Andrew Lorenzetti <andrewgay41@hotmail.com>
Subject: Broken Tears 12

Broken Tears - Chapter 12 By Andy Lake

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Stop if the idea of sexual intercourse between same sexed couples disgusts
you, and if that's so, what the fuck are you doing here???

Thanks, Stephen, for editing and being available.

All usual disclaimers apply. If you are not supossed to be reading this,
then you shouldn't, but I know I can't stop you. *sigh*

All the following characters are fictional, all made up by myself, thanks
to my twisted, yet erotic, imagination.

I'm the author, so obviously, I own the story and copyrights. It can only
be spread with my permission or downloaded for personal pleasure.

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Recap - So, last time Ty and Jeff broke up because Jeff was cheating on Ty
with
        with Cale, who is Ty's best friend. Short after, his dad revealed
his
        true distress, which was dealing with Ty's sexuality, so he hit
Ty. Ty
        left home and decided to take the chance to move with Li to
California
        for good.

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Guys, in this chapter there are a lot of POV switches, at least six. That
way you can see what's going on with everyone after Ty left. Enjoy!

*********************** Aftermath - Chapter 12 ***********************

{ Jeff's POV }

I took Tyler's song and shoved it in my pocket. I turned around to see Mark
standing at the door looking at me with a really sad expression.

"Go" He said without even meeting my gaze.

"Mark...Don't. Please, I lost him. I can't lose you, too. You are my best
friend...Please." I begged into deaf ears.

"I told you to break up with Ty, and you told me you had already stopped
going out with Cale. You promised you wouldn't hurt him, and see what you
have done? Now get the fuck out of my life!" He screamed at me. He was in a
rage like I've never seen before.

"I know I hurt him, but don't blame it on me that you failed on your
promise as well." I said bluntly. He looked shocked at my words, and then
anger filled his face as he lunged towards me and pushed me to the
floor. He looked at me and started to punch away, and I groaned in pain as
his fists connected with my face. I didn't fight, but I just laid there and
took it.

"FIGHT BACK!!! FIGHT BACK, YOU FUCKER!!" Mark said in a rage as he kept
punching. The punches slowed down as he started to sob, and I wrapped my
arms around him as he cried.

"I'm sorry Mark...I really am." I said soothingly.

"Why did he have to go?! I was so stupid! I promised he wouldn't hurt
anymore!" He cried on my shoulder.

"I promised the same." I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.


>>>> Two Months Later >>>>

Well, time went by slowly since Ty left, and I could never stop thinking
about him. It was way too painful for me, and it was killing me slowly. So,
I decided to give my relationship with Cale a try, and guess what? As soon
as we started kissing, guilt ate us up.  We couldn't even kiss without
feeling a sour taste in our mouths. It was way too hard for me to forget
what I did, and it seemed like without Ty, everything became dull. His dad,
well, he went away a week after Ty left. He wanted to go to a retreat to
sort his head out and come to terms with Ty's sexuality. Well, I know that
you are going to hate this, but Mark and I are still friends.  He was so
depressed when Ty left, and I was there for him, and we are as great
friends as before, but I know he still blames me for what happened. Jenni
on the other hand, she went ballistic on us telling us we were assholes and
what not. She left Mark, but now they are back together. Jenni is the only
one that Ty contacts out of all of us, and well, they seem to chat for
hours. I wish I knew what Ty's doing and how he is coping with everything,
but I don't think I would be able to face him. Now back to the people...

Cale, well, he changed as soon as Ty left. He became really secluded and
was almost always alone. He seemed more stonerish than before, and I swear
once I saw him buy pills from a guy. I guess the pain is really eating him
up. I tried to talk to him after we gave our relationship a try, but he
just asked me to stay as far away as possible. Now Dina, Trev and Jermz,
well, they simply gave us the cold shoulder and were really hateful towards
us just like Kyle. I barely knew him, but everytime I saw him, he would
glare at me. Well, in these few months, I've been slacking off in school
and barely even paying attention. I started to go to the gym, though, and
release some stress. I saw this kid, Brandon, there. He knew Ty from
theater, I guess, and well, he worked out non stop. He was always on the
weights or treadmill, or another machine in the gym, and when you thought
he was about to give up, he would say "Ty needs me stronger." I heard it a
couple times when I worked out close to him, and he seemed very lost and
with a look of pure determination in his eyes.

Well, as for me, I cried myself to sleep almost every night and hate to
admit it. Ty's look when he left, he looked so bad, so heartbroken. He
wanted to stay, but he was leaving because of his dad and because of me. I
knew I fucked up big time, and I guess I was the worst asshole in the
world. Sometimes I still wonder why the hell I was that heartless. I knew
Ty would find out. It was bound to happen. Was I sabotaging my
relationship? Maybe. Since I never felt anything as strong as I felt for
Ty, I would go days going crazy over him, and when he kissed me, everything
was alright. The night that we made love was magical. I have no regrets
from my relationship with Ty, well, just breaking his heart. I still don't
think I will forgive myself, and I think I'm destined to be alone without
the only person I've ever loved.


[ Caleb's POV ]

"Brian I need some more, man, please." I begged to Brian, the school drug
dealer.

"Yo, Cale, I don't think so, man. I don't want you to die of an overdose or
some shit. You look like you goin' through some tough shit, but dude, get a
shrink or somethin'." Brian said as he walked away.

Drugs, I need them. They are the only thing that can numb the pain, and the
worst pain I ever felt was due to Ty. He was the best of friends. He always
made sure there was a seat for me next to him at school. If I was late to
lunch, he already had a tray with my favorite food. When I told him I was
going to be late due to track practice, he always showed up with some
lunch. He was just the best friend in the world. He was always supportive
of me and always made me feel good about myself. I knew I shouldn't have
made any advances on Jeff. I knew it was a mistake, but since I saw him I
lusted over him, and well, since he was a little blue ballish, it was easy
to get him to bed. And after that time, he started giving me flowers and
stuff like that. I was aware of the relationship between him and Jeff, but
still, I wanted Jeff and ended up loving him. It was all so smooth. Ty was
never going to find out, and we would live happily ever after.

But no, Ty found out. He fucking found out. He saw us kissing and heard us
talking, and the look on his face, it was horrible.  That look, that
fucking look still haunts me at times. He looked pale, dead, and tears were
running down his face non stop like fucking rivers. After Jeff chased after
him, well, he came home to me, and we talked. He ended stuff with me and
left to get Ty, and well, Ty kinda blew him off. There was some issue with
his father, but I don't know much about it. After the episode with Ty, I
went to Li's goodbye party, and well, she practically told me to fuck off
and never come back. People thought she was crazy, but if Li turned her
back on me, everyone was bound to do the same sooner or later. And after
that day I was a wreck. Jeff and I gave our relationship a try...BIG FAIL!
Now I feel that I don't even love him, and after that, I chose drugs as my
lover. Drugs made every single thing bearable and made everything numb.

"Hey, are you ok?" Kyle said as he came to me. I was sitting on one of the
benches in the cafeteria.

"Im fine, Kyle. Now fuck off." I said melting in the chair.

"No...You are going through some tough shit, dude...You need help, and I'm
your friend." He said with a friendly smile.

"I don't need anyone, so get the fuck away from me." I stood up and walked
away. I hate everything I did, and I will never be able to forgive myself
for all the damage.


>>>>>> 10 months after Ty's departure >>>>>>>>

[ Brandon's POV ]

"He needs me stronger!!" This has been my life for five months now. I've
been working out non stop. I grew a 6 pack, a very nice set of pecs, and
broad shoulders from the workouts. "Ty needs me stronger." That was what I
thought at first. I thought that Ty needed me to be tough so I could keep
him from hurting, but after a few months, I started self therapy. I am not
gay, never was.  Ty just brought out the protective side of me. Yeah,
that's it. That's all there is to this. I kept on thinking that, and a few
months later, I had it printed in my mind. Ty is a fag. I hate fags, and
that's the end of it. Besides, since I grew muscles, all the girls got
giggly around me and were always trying to touch me somehow. I am 16 now,
so I get a lot of girls, and I lost my virginity two months ago with this
hot girl in the class. It was hard to get a boner, but it was because I had
a beer. Yeah, that was it.

"Brandon, man! Are you going to try out for the team this year?" My bud
Ashton asked as he walked to me and patted me on the back.

"Yeah, man. I will get on the football team and on Lacrosse. I know it. I
have to man!" I said with determination on my face.

"I know you will. You are practically a brick wall now, dude." He said with
a teasing smile on his face.

"I know. You are getting there too, man." I said with a punch to his
arm. He laughed as we walked to the cafeteria, and as soon as we entered,
Cale burst out. That kid is kind of wierd now. He grew his hair longer, and
he seems so damn pale. I swear the kid is a stoner. It's the only answer to
why he looks like he does now, poor guy. Since Ty left, many things at
school changed. Mrs. Cadburry talked about him every class. She was like, I
know if Ty was here he would do it better, but Ty left, and that is for the
best. I hope he never comes back. He would just fuck up my mind more than
it already is.

Well, talking 'bout me again, my popularity blossomed. I became the man
everyone wants to be or date. I sat with Carly and her friends at lunch,
and she's like head cheerleader, so it's cool! And now that we are in 10th
grade, we can be in the D wing with all the seniors. It's better than
middle school.

"Hey, baby." I said to Dina. Dina is this girl I'm dating now, and she is
the sister of Mark's girlfriend, Jenni. Let's say Dina is one of the
hottest girls at school now. She has light brown skin, full lips, long
black hair that is curly at the bottom, has perky normal sized boobs, and a
tight ass. She is in theater and on the girl's track team, and she has won
so many meets that she became instantly popular. I know she has some
history with this kid, Jeremy. The kid is on the basketball team and is
captain there with his friend, Trevor. They are popular, but not as much as
me. I catch Jeremy giving me this death glare every now and then. I think
he still has a thing for my girl, but fuck it, she is my girl, and I got
her, so he better back off.


[ Mark's POV ]

Fuck, life is hell, major hell!! If Jenni and Jeff weren't by my side, I
swear I would lose it. My dad is gone. He went to this shrink retreat where
he is trying to learn to deal with sexuality. The course takes at least one
year, and that is because dad is also trying to heal from Mom's death. I
know he loved her. He always stared at the pictures when we were a happy
family. I don't know why they split, and I never asked. And since Ty left,
everything went dull. My dad and I barely talked, and I could hear him cry
at night while I did the same. It was so hard. I am so much better now,
though, and I'm taking care of Ty's rose, which looks so beautiful. I keep
watering it and talking to it and playing music for it since Ty always did
those things. I know he will be back, and when he is, I will show him I
never stopped thinking about him. He is my baby bro, and I can barely live
without him.

"Thinking about Ty again?" Jenni asked as she entered the garden, and I
watered the plant.

"Always" I said with a tone of sadness.

"I know that you miss him. God knows I do, too. I can barely talk to
Jeff. I just can't believe what he did, and I also can't believe that you
forgave him." She said as she grabbed my hand and walked me into the house.

"I know you don't understand, but Jeff, well, he is going through so damn
much, and if I gave my back to him, I know that he would go crazy. I know
Jeff, and I know he needs us." I said as we walked upstairs to my room.

"I know, baby. I know, but still, Ty, he is so pure and sweet, and I just
hated to see him hurt the way he was hurt." She said as we entered my room.

"Well, Ty left, and I know it was for good. He is so smart, and I know that
he is in so much pain now and is still hurt by everything that happened. Ty
is as strong as it gets, but he is so fragile and a slow healer, and I know
that the wounds that Jeff and Cale and my dad opened are going to take some
time to heal. I just hope he is doing better." I said worried.

That was what had me worried like you wouldn't believe. What if Ty can't
get over what happened? What if he blames it on himself?  What if he tries
suicide? God forbid that! I just need to know he is safe, but it seems
impossible to contact him, and everyday it gets worse.


[ Li's POV ]

Shit! Ty is doing it again!! GOD!

I walk to his room and into the bathroom, and there he is on the floor with
tears on his face. He cries hard as he holds his legs, and after alot of
crying, he ends up throwing up due to the tears. I don't know why, but he
has done it almost every night since we got here. He sleeps with me almost
every night and refuses to go to a shrink. When I ask him what's wrong, he
tells me the Jeff thing, but I know there is more to it than that. I know
what his dad did affected him emotionally, and there has to be something
else. I think I know why. This was my reaction after I was raped. My
reaction was always the same, tears and vomit because I felt that disgusted
with myself. But one thing was off about Ty, and that was his skin looked
so pale, and he looked so tired. When we were at school, he would have
dizzy spells and stuff like that. At our new school many boys asked him
out, but he never said yes. He was still hurt, and I think he lost faith in
love.

"Ty, you have to talk to me. Please tell me what's wrong." I asked as I
knelt down and rubbed his back as he threw up on the toilet.

"What's wrong?! EVERYTHING! My life, my everything is wrong!!" He screamed
at me with his puffy red eyes.

"Ty, who did it? Who r-raped you?" I ask a little nervous. He froze, looked
at me with sad eyes, and sobbed more.

"I-I-I don't know." He said as he broked down into tears.

"Ty, please calm down. We can get through this. Talk to me." I said as
tears ran down my face as well.

"H-he did it at school. He took me into the closet and raped me, and
Brandon saved me before it got worse." He wailed in my shoulder as I hugged
him tight.

"Ty, you know you can tell me anything. You are my best friend, and I love
you. Never hide anything from me." I said soothingly.

"I know, Li, but it was my fault for being weak." He said as he grabbed me
tighter.

"NO!" I said as I pushed him away and looked into his eyes. "It is not
you!! It is never you! Do you think I didn't fight the creep that raped
me?! Do you think I was weak?! I was never weak. He raped me, and I blamed
it on me, but it isn't my fault. I tried and tried to get away, but he did
it anyway. Don't ever blame yourself. I know the pain is horrible, but
please! NEVER blame yourself about that. If you do, then he got what he
wanted. He got you to feel fear, and I know it's hard. I went through this,
and I know the pain, but baby, we can get over it. I'm your best friend,
your mother, your sister, and you are everything to me, and we will get
over this...You hear me?!" I asked as I shook him a little.

"Thanks, Li. I love you, but how can I get over this?" He asked in
desperation.

"We will go to a shrink. We will see you through this, and one more
thing...You need an HIV test. Ty you seem too sick, and that is what has me
worried. Those dizzy spells, and well, all the time you have gotten sick
and how long it takes you to heal...I don't want to worry you, but we might
not know what is happening inside you, and we need to find out." I said,
and he instantly looked worried.

"I dont want Aids. It would kill me, Li. I know how hard it is to live with
it and how cruel people are towards people with that disease. I'm strong,
Li, but this would kill me." He said shaking in my arms.

"Don't worry. We will be ok. Whatever happens, I know that we will be ok,
so don't worry." I said standing him up. He took a bath and changed, and I
got him to bed.

"We will get over this, right?" He asked as he snuggled to me in bed.

"Yeah, and hands off the boobs, baby." I said giggling as he laughed to and
hugged tighter.

"I love you, Li. Thanks for everything." He said as he slipped off to dream
land.

"I love you too, Ty. Everything will be ok." I said more to myself as I
felt sleep take over me.

I woke up about 12 p.m. on a school day, so we practically skipped. I
explained our issue to my dad, and well, since he is a doctor, we were
going to head to the hospital to do the exams and get the scary part over
with.

"Ty, wake up. It's time to go." I said nudging him slowly.

"I'm afraid..." He said looking at me for support.

"You will be ok." I said walking to his closet and picking some clothes out
for him, and some for me. We then got ready and took my car to Dad's
hospital.

"You know I want to be ok for my birthday. I will be 16 in a few weeks." Ty
said smiling at me.

"I know. I didn't forget, and we will have a great time. It has been almost
a year since we left Canada and left your problems behind. It's time for a
fresh start." I said as I parked and walked out, and he did the same. I
locked the car with the button on the key, we went in, and they took blood
from Ty, and well, let's say the color looked a little too light. The nurse
noticed cause she got a worried look on her face. My dad, on the other
hand, kept his cool and took the blood to the lab. We waited for at least
12 hours, and my dad had part of his team doing the work. He ended up
loving Ty like a son, and well, he was genuinely worried and so angry when
I told him about the rape. He always thought of Ty as the perfect kid who
wouldn't harm a fly.

We waited in my dad's office, and he came in eventually. By now it was 1
a.m., and my dad works a lot somedays. He came in with a sad look on his
face, and I knew he had bad news.

"Ty, I'm so sorry." He said and I saw in Ty's eyes how his world crashed
down.


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Next Chapter will be up sooon!!

Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has
kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D

Thanks for reading, and I hope you like my story so far. If you haven't
read my other story on nifty, it's called Lustful Revenge. It's quite
recent, so you should look it up. It must be in the first 50 stories.

Thank you again, and please e-mail me at andrewgay41@hotmail.com if you
like my story. Writers, if I can call myself that, love feedback, and don't
be too shy to ask anything personal. Please specify which story you are
commenting about.

Thanks, Stephen, for editing. You are AWESOME!!

HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. STICK AROUND CAUSE THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET
STEAMY!!



About the author!

Well hi! It's me, Andy. I'm the author of this story, and I hope you are
liking it so far. In most e-mails you seem to want to know stuff about me,
like my age, hobbies, etc. Well, I'm 18 years old, I enjoy writing, as you
can imagine, I love writing poems and songs, and well, express myself
through words. I want to be a Doctor, My favorite color is Blue, I looooove
ice cream, my favorite movie is Black Swan, and my favorite t.v. show is
Friends!! :D

I love Chandler, and well, I kind of have his sense of humor and that
sarcastic edge to it. :D Well, that is me, and if you have anymore
questions, don't hesitate to e-mail me!

XOXO
Andy