Date: Sun, 27 Mar 2011 20:46:51 -0600
From: Andrew Lorenzetti <andrewgay41@hotmail.com>
Subject: Broken Tears 7

Broken Tears - Chapter 7  By Andy Lake

You must be 18 or older to read this story.

Stop if the idea of sexual intercourse between same sexed couples disgusts
you, and if that's so, what the fuck are you doing here???

Thanks, Stephen, for editing and being available.

All usual disclaimers apply. If you are not supossed to be reading this,
then you shouldn't, but I know I can't stop you. *sigh*

All the following characters are fictional, all made up by myself, thanks
to my twisted, yet erotic, imagination.

I'm the author, so obviously, I own the story and copyrights. It can only
be spread with my permission or downloaded for personal pleasure.

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Recap - "It feels like butterflies in your stomach, and you feel warm and
fuzzy all over. You feel happy and can't stop smiling."
         I said smiling at him.

        "Grown ups are wierd." He said sticking his tongue out at me and
ran away laughing.

         I laid back against the bed. We are wierd. Who falls in love in
two days? Well, if they met Ty, everyone would.

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Feel It? - Chapter 7
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[ Ty's POV ]

Ok, me and Jeff have been going out for about two weeks now, theater is
going awesome, but Dad is getting worse. He seems more fidgety and stressed
than usual. Li and I practically spend every second together with
Caleb. We're like the Dynamic Trio, and we still get along with Dina,
Jermz, and Trev, but only at school. Caleb and Li practically live at my
house now. Brandon, well, he is getting worse...more name calling, a little
more violent, and I still shrug him off, which seems to piss him off more,
but he is the one that starts treating me like shit. Tom, well, he seems
more depressed than usual. And Jeff, we are really bonding. We've been on
ten dates in only two weeks, and I know so much about him, and he about
me. There is a huge connection, and we love to kiss, but love? How do I
know if I feel it?

"Hey, babe." I heard Jeff's voice behind me say. I was on my bed laying on
my stomach reading a book, I looked over my shoulder to my smiling man.

"Hey, Jeff!" I said as he walked to me after locking the door.

"How are you today?" He asked as he lay beside me reading my book, his
hands exploring my lower back.

"What are you doing?" I asked curious.

"Well, baby, I think it's time." He said confidently as his hand massaged
my ass, and that was really pleasurable.

"I don't think I am ready Jeff..." I said trailing off.

"FUCK IT!! I'm the only guy on the team who isn't getting any!!" He cursed
at me. I looked down at my book.

"I-I'm sorry, Jeff." I said still looking downward.

"Shit, baby, I'm sorry. It's just that I've been really stressed out, and
I'm kinda used to having sex frequently. I'm so sorry.  Please forgive
me. I won't pressure you, I love you too much." He said lifting my chin and
giving me a soft kiss.

"I'm really sorry. I just need some time." I said meeting his eyes, which
were soft now.

"I'm the one who is sorry, baby. I love you. I will wait as long as it
takes, and when we get there, it will be perfect." He said smiling at me.

"Ok" I said giving him a kiss.

"I love you so much." He said kissing back.

"I know" I went back to reading...I knew he was staring at me...I just
knew.

"Why don't you ever say you love me?" He asked with a cracking voice.

I looked at him, and this was the first time I saw him cry this bad. Tears
swam down his cheeks at full force, and his eyes looked puffy and full of
sadness.

"I just don't know when I will feel it." I said looking at him.

"But I love you. How can you not love me? Is there someone else?!" He asked
instantly angry.

"No! I would never do that to you...I just don't know when it's love...I'm
just so confused!" I yelled as tears ran down my face as well. We were both
sitting on my bed, and I was so damn confused. I know I have feelings for
him, but what is love?

"You don't feel it?" He asked sad.

"I don't recognize it." I said as he sighed.

"Well...Try this." He said as he kissed me. Our lips fused togther, his
tongue entered my mouth, and I tangled mine with his. This was the most
passionate kiss I've ever had.

"Feel it?" He said breathing hard as he pulled away slowly. I did feel it.

"I think I do love you." I said still a little off.

"Well, that's good, cause I love you more than you know." He kissed me once
more before he had to leave, and I fell asleep with pictures of us in my
mind. Was it love?

>>>>

I woke up in the morning with a smile on my face. I told Jeff I love
him. It wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be, and I feel great
about it.

"Tyler, food is ready." My dad said in a grim tone.

I rushed to the bathroom, took a hot bath, and dressed in some faded loose
jeans and a white t-shirt a little too big for me.  I took my glasses and
looked in the mirror to arrange my bangs before taking my backpack.

"Morning, Daddy" I said as I arrived to the kitchen, and he looked up with
a sad look on his face. I had come up with tons of conclusions about him
being this way. One was he was ill and didn't want to tell us. Second, we
were broke or something, and last was the other family, or moving away.

"Dad, why are you so sad?" I asked as I went and hugged him. He looked down
at me and sighed.

"I'm fine." He said a little angrily. I looked down and felt my eyes start
to well up, and he sensed it.  "I'm sorry, son. I'm just stressed." He said
as he kissed my head. I took my food and ate away and then went to the
backyard to touch the growing rose sprout before going to Mark, who was
waiting in the car.

"You always take LONG to get ready and still come down ugly." He said
playfully.

"Well, at least all I need is a make over, and not tons of plastic
surgery." I said sticking my tongue at him as he laughed and drove away. We
got to school and found Tom sitting at one of the school outer tables, and
he was writing stuff in his notebook with a sad look in his eyes.

"Tom!" I ran to him, he looked up and smiled as I hugged him.

"Hey there, little baby. How are you?" He asked looking at me.

"I'm fine, but how are you? You seem sad." I said hugging him tighter as he
laughed.

"Well love is a pain in the a-"

"No bad words when I'm around" I scolded as he giggled and kissed my cheek.

"Hands off my baby bro!" Mark said playfully as he slapped Tom in the back
as a salute.

"How can I resist!" Tom said following Mark's joke.

"You gotta or I'm going to chop your balls off" Mark said making us
laugh. Soon we were joined by Jenni, Doug, and Jane, and this was my
routine. Before school, I will hang out with them before meeting my friends
that are my own age.

"Ty, baby, I need to talk to you." I heard a voice say behind me. I looked
back and saw Jeff standing there, so I told the guys to excuse us, and we
left.

"What's wrong?" I asked getting worried.

"I think we should tell our friends, I told my parents yesterday...about
us..." He said seriously.

"OH MY GOD, JEFF! What did they say?" I asked astonished.

"Well, my mom was surprised but took it well...my dad, well, he didn't
sleep at home last night." He said with sadness as I went and hugged him.

"I'm so sorry." I said as he lifted my chin and gave me a soft kiss.

"So, should we tell them??" Jeff asked.

"I think we should tell them we are together right now in a public place in
case someone gets violent.." I said as we locked eyes, and he nodded.

We walked to the guys, who instantly looked up at us. Jeff went first. He
took my hand in his and looked at the guys and girls at our table as we
took a seat.

"Ty and I are dating..." Jeff stated. There was a pregnant pause, and you
could hear a pin drop. In a second Mark was on top of Jeff grabbing his
shirt collar, and Jeff was on the ground. The front of the school was
almost empty since the morning assembly had already started. We were all
missing out on it.

"HOW FUCKING LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MESSING WITH MY BROTHER?!" Mark was
screaming at him as the first punch landed on Jeff's cheek.

"We've been going out for three weeks, and we've done nothing more than
kissing...Mark, we are buds. Please don't do this!!" Jeff pleaded as he
looked at Mark.

"Mark, he is telling the truth. Please don't do this. We told you to get
your approval, not bashing." I said calmly as Jenni hugged me.

"Mark, calm down now!" She stated angry.

"Ok, ok, but I just don't like you touching my brother! FUCk! You are my
best friend!" Mark said disappointed.

"I know, man, but I fell in love with him. I just can't live without him."
Jeff said smiling at me.

"But what about Lena?" Mark asked.

"She doesn't even hold a candle to your brother." He said walking to me and
moving my blond hair out of my eyesight. He kissed me softly, and some
people gasped.

"Well, I'm ok with it." I heard Mom, ummm, Jenni say.

"Me too" Doug said as he smiled at us.

"I think you two are cute!" Jane said clapping as Doug nuzzled her neck.

"I think I can cope with it as long as you don't hurt him. He is my world."
Mark said as he and Jenni hugged me.

"I would never even dare to hurt him!" Jeff said offended.

"Then I allow it. So no one has a problem with this?" Mark asked the group.

"I do." Tom said as he stood up and walked away, and that hurt, a lot! I
looked at him as he walked out to the garden he is used to going to. I
practically ran to him as he arrived at the garden, and I took my fist and
slammed it on the side of his face with a little jump. He cringed in pain
as he grabbed my hand. I used the other one to hit him, and he grabbed it
as well.

"I thought you were good!" I cried as tears ran freely. He grabbed my hands
with his as I cried, and he eventually hugged me and pressed me against his
chest. I started punching his chest angrily.

"It's not that." He said choking to get words out.

"I hate you!" I kept on punching as I cried. "I thought we were friends!" I
kept crying as he cried as well.

"You wouldn't understand!" He said as he held me.

"Why? Do you have a problem with me being gay or what?!" I screamed as I
released myself from his embrace.

"No, it's not that!" He screamed at me.

"Then what is it?! You hate having a gay friend!" I screamed again.

"I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE QUEER!" He spat out, I just stared at him.

"Queer, huh?" I said walking away from him.

"Ty stop.. it's not that!" He said from behind.

"Then what is it? You called me queer, Tom. You do have problems with my
being who I am." I stated.

"You just...UGGHHH! You wouldn't understand!" He screamed in frustration.

"I don't even care now.. Please just don't talk to me till you have figured
yourself out." I said walking out as he called my name. I am gay.. not
Queer or Fag.

[ Tom's POV ]

I lost it. Shit, that was awful, and the whole time, Jeff had a smug smile
on his face. He got him first. He got his love, I got nothing, and now Ty
hates me! What the fuck is wrong with me? I'll have to look for someone to
help me forget him, even if she's a girl. I just need to forget Ty. It
hurts so fucking bad, and I don't think I can stand being around him and
Jeff. That would be like applying lemon and salt to a bleeding wound. I
have to go...That's it! Exchange student program. I can go for over a year
or two, and maybe some time away would do me good. I have to talk to the
dean about this. I walked to the dean's office and knocked on the door. I
heard a chair being pulled back and some footsteps making their way to the
door. The door opened and Mr. Brys stood infront of me.

"Thomas Anderson, what did I do to deserve the honor of your visit?" He
said mockingly. Mr. Brys is always fun and outgoing and also likes to play
pranks on students. Everyone loves him.

"Mr. Brys, can I talk to you in private?" I said in a serious tone.

"Well, this seem serious. Come inside, Tom." He said with a worried look. I
sat down in the chair in front of him as he smiled.

"So, I wanted to talk about the options of going out for an exchange
student." I said playing with my hands.

"Well, Tom, your grades are high, and any school football team would want
you for a year or two. So, why the sudden interest in going away?" He asked
concerned.

"Well, I just want to see what it would be like to be in another country,
like Europe or something. You know, those are once in a lifetime
opportunities." I said a little rehearsed.

"Oh, so escaping love, my son? Well, according to your papers, I can send
you in a week since school just started, but I want you to think about
it...you have two days. So, think it over well before giving me an
answer. Running isn't always the answer." He said as he stood up and opened
the door.

"Yes, sir. I'll think about it." I said smiling at him.

"I know you will. Now off to class!" He said ushering me out with a smile.

"Bye, Mr. Brys. Thanks." I said walking out.

I walked to class slowly. There really is nothing to think about. I have to
go, so I'm gonna go talk about this with my parents and my friends. I have
to talk privately with Ty, and I need to tell him why I'm doing this, or he
would never forgive me. He is so fragile, and his heart is so pure. I know
that when I tell him he will feel bad and will try to make me stay. That is
how good he is, and Jeff really doesn't deserve him. So, that's my
plan...leaving.

[ Li's POV ]

Well, I was waiting for Ty today, but he was kind of absent to assembly. Ty
is such a sweetheart! I love him. He is like the best guy in the whole
world, and he is my best friend. I've not been this happy in a while, not
since I was abused. That took away my life and ruined me. It made me feel
dirty and like I had the problem. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better
if that man had just killed me. I am going to tell Ty, and he is going to
be the first person I have told willingly, besides my shrink.

I'm from Cali. My name is Lilian Sawyer, but everyone calls me Li. When I
came to this school, I felt odd. Many guys hit on me on the first day. I
was always pretty, you know, the blonde girl with perky boobs. That's what
got me raped. Who did it? My science teacher. He raped me, and after that
disappeared. He was found dead two days later, and it was too traumatic for
me to stay in Cali, so we moved here where I met Carly. Normally I hate
that type of girl, the cheerleader bitch that is mean to everyone, but
people still seem to love her. She helped me out of my shell when I first
arrived here, and for that I will always be thankful, but lately she has
been pushing me to stop my friendship with Ty and Caleb. So, I kinda blew
her off, and this cut bridges with Luke. Luke is this guy that Carly is now
dating, but he is always looking at me. I know he is attracted to me, and
since the rape, he is the only guy I've ever developed feelings for. He is
so nice to me and such a gentleman, and he always treats me with respect
and all. The thing is that Carly is dating him, and nothing can come out of
that, so better to have two great friends than a possible boyfriend. I was
looking out the window thinking about Luke in History class as someone
knocked on the door, and in walked Ty. He looked disdraught. His eyes were
a little red, and his hair was disheveled. Caleb and I instantly looked at
each other, and then Ty sat between us.

"Sweetcheeks, is there something wrong?" I asked hugging him tight.

"It's just that...Well, can we talk in lunch? I just wanna relax." He said
sighing.

"But no details reserved." Caleb said patting Ty on the back.

He just looked down to his desk during the whole class. He is just so sweet
and never likes to bother people with his issues or stuff, and he's always
helping with everything he can. As soon as History class was over, we
decided to drag Ty to the school garden and talk. He was a little reluctant
to go with us, but he agreed.

"So what's wrong?" I asked as we were alone.

"Yeah, you seem a little depressed." Caleb stated.

"Well, I'm dating Jeff. I told Li last week, and I'm telling you now." He
said to Caleb, who seemed shocked.

"W-what?? DAMN! YOU LUCKY SLUT!" Caleb said giggling.

"I'm no slut. I've not even put out, and he is getting kind of needy. Even
though he says he will wait, I can see the way he touches me and tries to
get something started." He said a little uncomfortable.

"Don't let him pressure you." Caleb said.

"Virginity is something you lose to someone you love." I said smiling at
him.

"I know. Thanks guys. Well, what happened is that when we told Mark and the
gang about me and Jeff, Tom kinda freaked out on us. I think he is
homophobic, but he's my friend. I don't want him to hate me, but I love
Jeff so much! It was hard to tell Jeff I love him and even notice the
feeling, but he's the only thing I can think about." He said with a dreamy
look.

"Baby, don't worry. Tom will come around if he really is your friend."
Caleb said rubbing his back.

"And I'm glad you found someone like Jeff. Just keep focusing on the
relationship you have and not on the challenges it will bring for both of
you. So, just give it time. Time heals all wounds, even the ones that seem
to cut deep." I said sadly, and this did not go unnoticed by Ty. He looked
over at me and smiled sadly.

"Caleb, can I talk to Li alone, please?" Ty asked looking at Caleb.

"Of Course" Caleb said smiling as he walked out of the garden.

"Li, what's wrong?" He asked as he sat down on the grass, and I sat down
next to him.

"Well remember I said there is something I wanted to tell you about my
past?" I said looking at him. He stiffened.

"Ab-about your r-r-rape?" He stuttered.

"Well, yeah." And in moments, I let it out, everything. How he tricked me,
how he took me to his van, how he drugged me to take my virginity. I told
him everything, and by the end, we were crying, and he was rubbing my back
soothingly.

"I love you, Li. I promise I won't let another guy do something like that
to you!" He said as we kept on hugging.

"I know. I love you too, Ty. We are best friends, and this was my only
secret, the only one I've ever kept from you." I said as he held me
tighter.

"I know, Li, and I appreciate you telling me. I'll always be here for you,
through thick and thin, so don't you ever feel alone.  If you ever feel
like you are not worth anything, remember you are perfect the way you are."
He said as we hugged. We ended up tearing up a little before we left the
garden. Caleb was waiting outside and eyed us curiously, but he didn't
comment. We made our way to the cafeteria since it was already time for
lunch, and everything was going smoothly. Well, it was until...

[ Ty's POV ]

"Brandon, what do you want?" I asked annoyed as Brandon approached our
table.

"Nothing. Just wondering why you and Caleb disappeared in all the morning
classes. Did you go for a fuck?!" He asked a little angry.

"I was with Li as well, and I don't even know why I'm giving you any
explanations." I said bitterly as he smiled.

"Well, the fags always seem to treat me with respect." He said smugly.

"So, you must respect yourself ALOT!" I said angry as Li and Caleb giggled.

"You are just asking for it." Brandon said through gritted teath.

"You don't scare me, Brandon, so tone it down a little." I said standing up
from our table as he did the same.

"Well, you should be scared." He said as we came face to face...well more
like face to upper chest.

"I'm not. I may be smaller, but I wont let you bully me!" I said angry.

"Like anyone cares about a little faggot like you. No one loves you, and
everyone would stop liking you if they knew you were a little cocksucker!"
He said with a satisfied smirk.

"SCREW YOU!" I said feeling my self esteem lowering at his words. He has a
way to get me and how to make me feel like shit.

"No, babe, it will be the other way around." He said giving a dirty laugh
as he walked away. After that little show, everything went smooth for the
rest of the day, which was followed with me, Caleb, and Li in my room
listening to music and laughing while we did homework on my bed. They left
about 7 p.m., and I made my way downstairs as I said goodbye to
them. Before going out, I heard someone's voice from the garden. I walked
closer, and there was my dad talking to the sprout again. He started to do
this daily, and I was starting to get a little worried. I could barely
catch phrases of what he said.

"I just don't think.. deal with it.. ashamed of myself.... thought I could"
I heard as tears ran down his face. I felt tempted to go and talk to him,
but that seemed imprudent, so I ran upstairs and dropped on my bed. The
phone rang, showing that there was a message from Jeff.

J: Baby, I love you. Get some good night sleep, and think of me, since you
are the only one I'm able to think about. I love you, and you are my
everything.

I smiled and read the message again and again before replying.

Me: I love you, too. I took time to realize it, but I know for sure now,
and I won't take it for granted...so promise you won't break my heart, and
I'll take care of yours.

J: You are more precious to me than anything else, so I promise to never
hurt you, my love.

After that message, I had that tingly feeling. It was love...Did I just
feel it?

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Next Chapter will be up sooon!!

Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has
kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D.

Thanks for reading, and I hope you like my story so far. If you haven't
read my other story on nifty, it's called Lustful Revenge. It's quite
recent, so you should look it up. It must be in the first 50 stories.

Thank you again, and please e-mail me at andrewgay41@hotmail.com if you
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Thanks Stephen for editing. You are AWESOME!