Date: Mon, 27 May 2013 02:38:11 -0600
From: Andrew Lorenzetti <andrewgay41@hotmail.com>
Subject: Who You Are 5

Who You Are - Chapter 4 by Andy Lake

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http://tinypic.com/r/34h8k1f/6  ---->  Tyler

http://tinypic.com/r/30szp5w/6  -----> Lilian (Ty's Bf)

http://tinypic.com/r/6se5nk/6  ----> Jeremy (Lilian's Bf)

http://tinypic.com/r/33d87eg/6 -----> Blake

http://tinypic.com/r/34pxjci/6 -----> Anthony


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Recap: Last chapter we saw Tyler at his first day of work a the cafe
Louche, where after leaving he got harrased by the owner's son, christian.
He was helped by a strange man he didn't know who after delivering him
home asked for his number. That guy's name is Jack who has been having
problems with his live in boyfriend Alex.
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******************** Realizing - Chapter 5 *******************

I woke up early in the morning around 5, I looked over at Anthony who was
staring out the window with a broken look in his face.

"Anthony.. Is everything ok?" I asked, he seemed startled and looked back
over at me with a very sad look on his face. He tried to smile, but his
eyes were still stained red with tears.

"I don't know, everything seems a bit messed up in my head. I keep running
around about what Blake did to me, and I still feel it's not the first time
he does something like this to me.. Many of my past relationships ended
without a reason and it's all so wierd.. I don't know why would Blake wants
to ruin everything for me the way he has, I try to think that is his denail
on believing in love but something nags at the back of my mind" He said
looking thoughtful.

"I think you should talk to him Anthony, the things you are going through
can't be solved by a petty revenge because you will end up without his
friendship, and that is something deep in your heart you don't
want.. Please think it over" I said and pecked his cheek. I let him alone
to think and headed for the bathroom, after bathing and changing into my
ugly work clothing I cooked up some breakfast for everyone, left it at the
kitchen island and headed down to the cafe. I walked in right on time to
help with the setting of the tables.

"Ty! Missed you" Mandy said as she hugged me, we chatted for a while as we
fixed the tables.  After some time, the door of the cafe opened. And there
he was Christian Louche, looking over at me with a confused look on his
face. He walked over and looked at Many and then right back at me.

"Hey.. Can we talk?" He asked looking very out of place and uncomfortable.

"I don't have time, I need to help Mandy with everything for the set up" I
said brushing him off and looking away.

"Please, I need to talk to you" He said with desesperation, Mandy gave me
an odd look and left, leaving us both alone.

"I really would preffer if you didn't talk to me at all" I said with venom
spitting out of my mouth as he ran his hand through his perfectly groomed
golden hair.

"I'm very very sorry you know, I was drunk as fuck last night and my
friends kept grilling me on how you rejected me, I just wanted to prove no
one rejects me" He said with both a regretful tone and a pissed one.

"So you decided to offer money in exchange of sex with me and then tried to
rape me, the fuck is wrong with you?" I asked him feeling my anger,
escalate, he wrapped his hand around my arm and dragged me to the corner
table of the face, he sat down, his hand moving down to my hand and holding
it as he looked up.

"It's just very confusing, what I want I usually get and I don't think I'm
that bad looking at all so I don't really understand what is so wrong of
you know... getting it on" He said with a very confused tone, he really
wasn't joking.

"For me, it's not about how hot you are or how much money you carry, it's
all about chemistry and you know, personallity, both with you seem to
lack. You may get all that you want most of the time but you can't expect
everyone to play along and just surrender themselves to you as soon as they
see how thick your wallet is. Some of us do have self respect" I said as he
looked even more confused.

"But.. I can give you anything you want, it's just a night I'm asking for,
because I can feel this urge inside me, I want to have you in my bed in a
way you would never believe, feel you and touch you and I don't know.. Do
everything I want to you for as long as you let me" He said with a tone of
desperation that brought a deep red blush to my face.

"Well you are pretty honest and upfront but you are also very shallow and
think to much of yourself. You have to realize that money may run most of
the things in this facade of world but still there are somethings you can't
get with money" I answered as I tried my best to not punch him in the face.

"What's it gonna take? I can take you to a couple dates if you wanna,
please I just need to feel you and the more you deny yourself to me, the
more I'm gonna make sure to bother you until you put out" He said with a
decided look on his face. I couldn't help myself but laught at his
reasoning, it made him seem a little cute in my eyes. I laughed and covered
my mouth slightly as I kept it on.

"You are really wrapped around a perfect bubble, I would take it to be your
friend if you want Christian but I don't think I can give you anything more
than that" I said as I kept chuckling. His eyes seemed fixed on my
smile. He then smiled himself.

"You look beautiful when you smile" He said with his mouth wide in a smile,
only genuine feature I have seen his face show in the time I have known
him.

"Thank you.. So what you say, friends?" I asked as he though it over.

"I'll take it" He said as he stood up, gave me a hug and then pecked my
cheek.

"Just friends" I repeated as he nodded and headed out.

"So what the hell was that?!" Mandy asked excitedly as she ran towards me,
clearly she had watched the whole scene.

"He was just apologizing for being a douche earlier and practically trying
to buy me for sex.. We patched up and I told him we could be friend and
that seemed to suffice" I said as her eyes went wide.

"Ouhh that is not gonna be enough for Mr. Louche you know, he has this
horribly weakness for pretty things and can't help himself till they are
wrapped around his sheets, after he always leaves them though. Quite sad if
you ask me, I have never seen him have a serious relationship ever" She
said as she shook her head softly.

"Well I am not gonna end up wrapped around his sheets, you don't have to
worry" I said as she smiled.

"I really hope you have the strenght to reject him as much as you say you
want too" She said wiggling her eyebrows suggestively.

"I sure do. Besides, last night walking home I met someone... And he asked
for my number I just really hope he is going to call" I said feeling
slightly nervous, just as I finished the sentence my phone rang. I fished
it out of my pocket and stared at the unknown number. I answered excitedly.

"Hi!" I said unable to mask the excitement so evident in my voice.

"Tyler.." I hear Brandon's voice on the othe other end, my heart stopped
beating for a couple seconds as I held the phone tightly against my ear.

"B-b-randon" I said with shock in my voice.

"How are you?" He asked as if probing around for what I was feeling, and
being honest I felt slightly hopeful and confused.

"I am ok.. What about you?" I asked trying so hard to contain myself.

"Well, I'm doing just as good.. I just wanted you to hear it from me before
anyone else. I am dating someone" He said, I couldn't help feeling myself
frown slightly, choke up a little and breathe deeply.

"Ahh.. Thank you for calling me Brandon... I have to go" I said
immeadeately closing the call. Feeling my eyes water, feeling that still he
shouldn't be dating, has it already been long enough to start.

"Who's Brandon?" Mandy asked as she looked at my soaked eyes. I just shook
my head trying to wrap everything around my head for a minute.

"My ex... He called me to tell me, he already started dating" I said trying
my best to smile.

"well at least you heard it from him, are you ok?" She asked me
tentatively.

"Yes I am, at least I hope I'll be" I said as she just frowned and snuggled
up to me. I hugged her back as the first costumer made his way in and the
day set off to start.


{Jack's POV}

I looked at the phone number I had saved, Tyler's phone number, I thought
for some time if I should call or simply delete the number. I felt so bad
feeling this way about other guy when Alex is actually with me and he seems
to think our relationship is simply just blossoming to a brighter future. A
future I am not sure I want to have or I want to jeopardize for a fling
with a cute guy like Tyler. I shook my head and decided to delete the
number. After doing so I help a helplesness and a sadness envelope me. I
tried to shake it off as someone called on to me.

"Dr. Trent, they need you down at the emergency room" A nurse said with a
rather tired bitchy tone. I am actually just and intern at the hopsital
right now, hoping to work my way into becoming one of the best doctors I
can be. I headed down to emergencies and atteneded as much as I could. At
my noon break I decided to head out for a walk. I look around in a nearby
park just walking feeling tired and slightly disdraught. I found myself
wandering towards a cafe that seemed new. I looked it over and decided to
head in. I took a seat at a window table and afet a couple moments of
having been seated a waiter had made his way over.

"Hi, welcome to Louche, I am Tyler, can I please take your order?" A sweet
melodic sounding pure voice inquired. I looked over and my eyes got wide
and so did his.

"Tyler" I said shocked as I smiled up at him.

"Jack.. How are you?" He asked as his cheeks blushed slightly... Was that
little blush for me?

"I am great, better now that you're attending me" I said as his blushed got
deeper. It was for me and God how cute did it look on him.

"What would you like to order?" He asked as he took out his pen and pad. He
looked so cute, like a kid playing to be a waiter, listening intently onto
my order.

"I'd like some dark cofee, no sugar or cream and if you could maybe get me
a cheeseburger that would be nice" I said as he averted my gaze.

"Coming right up" He said turning around and heading for the counter, he
placed my order as I stared at his beautiful body. So perfect and just
beautiful on every angle. In no time he came back with my order and a
smile. He seemed to have fixed his nervousness.

"Tyler.. Would you perhaps, like to go on a date with me tonight?" I asked
him. He seemed caught off guard.

"I'd love too" He said as he smiled at me. "You still have my number?" He
asked, I felt guilt course through me.

"I actualized my phone and lost many contacts. Would you mind giving it
again?" I asked as he gave me his number.

"Call me then" He said smiling and rushing off to other customers.

After I had lunch I headed back to the hospital, my mind was wondering all
around Tyler and how cute he looked wearing the waiter uniform, his smile,
that sweet blush and his perfect scent. I kept wandering off feeling the
stirring in my groin as I pictured what I would do to his body if he let
me. I hadn't felt this deep need for someone for a long time and it had me
high in the clouds. As soon as my shift was over, which thank God didn't
took much time today. I called Tyler, he sounded so sweet over the phone. I
walked over to meet him at the cafe.

"Hi, Tyler.. Should we start our date?" I asked as he nodded and walked
over to me.

"Were are we going?" He asked as I walked with him alongside me. I got him
into a cab and made our way to the Central Park. His eyes shone as he
walked around with me in the beautiful park at night. We talked and talked
until we were actually flowing so nicely.

"So, tell me about your dating life?" He asked as he kicked a stone and
looked over at me. I froze and swallowed keeping the walk. I hadn't even
thought further on what I was supossed to say.

"Well I was in this relationship with a guy. His name was Alex, we dated
for about 4 years but then it all lost the feeling you know, that deep
feeling that is supossed to be ignited just by looking at each other, how
about you?" I responded feeling the guilt of lying deep in my chest.

"I haven't met the guy yet, been in love twice and both times I had my
heart stomped to bits which made it quite easy to move away from Canada" He
said not looking at me just walking around and kicking a ston with a sad
little smile on his gorgeous face.

"Maybe it's time you met the right guy" I said hopefully, he turned to me,
his beautiful light blue eyes shone under the light of the lamp. He smiled
a huge grin that lit up his face like fireworks.

"I hope I do" He said just above a whisper, I felt myself being drawn
closer to him, my hands found his slim waist and my other hand touched his
cheek, his eyes looking into mine begging for a kiss, I leaned into him and
felt his soft lips brush against mine making my hole body shiver and
ignite. He kissed back with a desire so strong, the kiss melting both of us
as we kissed passionately. He pulled back slowly and blushed, chuckled and
ran off towards the bridge. He stood in the middle of it and looked at me
winking.

"Want another one? Catch me" He teased as he turned back around and ran
off. I felt so joyfull chasing after him, he hid behind a tree, and I
followed, circling the tree as he did so, both just walking around staring
at each other.

"I want another one" I said as his feet stopeed moving, I pressed his body
against the tree and kissed him once more, feeling his lips dance along
mine. His arms wrapped around my neck pulling me closer as we kissed
feeling as if everything around me turned to life.

My eyes were closed, but I could see him in my mind kissing me and holding
me so close as I was about to shatter away.

"I never kiss on a first date, but you saved me once" He said between
kisses.

"Thank God I was the one who saved you then" I said feeling his lips smile
as we kissed. We parted and he opened his eyes looking into mine. We stood
there, my hands around his waist, his back resting on against the trunk of
the tree and his arms lazily wrapped around my neck. And this joyus moment
was broken as my phone rang, I took it out and looked at Alex calling me. I
ignored the call. He must have seen the disdraught look on my face cause he
turned his head slightly to the side.

"Something wrong?" He asked gently caressing my shadowy beard.

"Emergency at the hospital, I'm really sorry.. I have to go" I said as he
smiled.

"Don't worry Dr. Jack, it's not like I won't ever see you again, will I?"
He said as I kissed him softly once.

"Of course not. Come on, I'll take you home" I said as we headed out for a
cab and left, we got to his place and kissed once more before he rushed out
and into the complex. I told the cabbie my adress and was soon at my
place. I walked out feeling the pressure of guilt, shame and sadness in my
chest. I unlocked the door after the flight of stairs and walked inside my
place, feeling the smell of chinesse food in the house. I walked in and
looked at Alex, he was walking around the kitchen serving the food on
plates.

"You're back" He said smiling bringing the plates to the table and setting
them down. He then cleaned his hands on a napkin and walked to me. His lips
touched mine and I did my best to kiss him back.

"I'm back, how was your day?" I asked as he grabbed my hand and took me to
the table.

"Lonely as always but it was ok. Yours?" He asked as we took our seats and
started eating our dinner. I still enjoyed my talks and time with Alex, it
was like we had grown so close we had become the best most functional
couple around our friends, but it all grew into me feeling like if we had
become the best of roomates. And that was good, I would hate loosing Alex,
which is a great fear I have. Just to think of the fact that we can break
up makes my stomach turn, but still I stopped feeling passion for him and
passion is just as important as everything else in the relationship.

After we were done with the food, we sat on the sofa and watched a couple
shows we always do, he rested his head on my chest and snuggled up to
me. He looked up at me and smiled.

"I love you so much" He said snuggling deeper into my chest, I gulped, my
eyes watering.

"I love you too" I said bringing my lips hoping with every fiber of my body
that it would bring it all back, back like the moment we first met. But it
was dead, his kisses didn't burn my lips like Tyler's did. His scent didn't
excite me like his did, my arms around his waist didn't feel the same.

God, please help me, I really don't know what to do.



{Tyler's POV}

I walked up to the elevator and into the apartment, feeling my body
floating, my lips still tingling with the feel of the most perfect kiss
I've felt in a while. I practically danced into the place and was met with
the gross scene of Li and Jeremy half naked on the couch his hands on her
breasts.

"GOD!" I said obviously trying to ruin the moment as they both turned to me
shocked.

"Tyler if you're not gonna join scoot!" Li said with a kinky smile. I
rolled my eyes and darted of swiftly to my room. I entered and locked the
door in case they wanted to come fuck in my room.

"How was your day?" I asked turning around hoping to see Anthony and notice
a letter on my bed.

[ Thank you for everything you have done for me Tyler and thank you for the
advice, tonight I won't stay here, don't worry I think I'll be back
tomorrow, I have to talk to some people before I talk with Blake, I need to
know if he ever ruined any other relationship I've had. Please try not to
worry about me, I promise I will be ok ]

I looked at it and placed it on the desk. I thought about them, how their
friendship had been ruined by selfishness and felt anger course through my
body. How can Blake take something as precious as friendship for
granted. And in that moment I decided I needed to do some digging of my
own. I had to talk to Blake before Anthony did. I grabbed my coat and
walked out eyes full closed.

"Please before you start either move to the bed or put some towells on the
couch" I said as I felt a cushion being thrown at my face while I walked
out. I dashed to the elevator and was soon out of the place. I ran a couple
blocks to the cafe where Blake plays and entered. There he was right on
stage, he was signing a very sad song, his look had disheveled and sang
with a voice so broken it pulled on my hearstrings. As soon as he finished
he bowed slightly and was off the stage. I made my way to the backstage
entrance and was met with a guard.

"Hello, I need to speak to Blake can you please help me?" I asked as he
huffed.

"You tonights bitch?" He asked chuckling.

"I am a friend asshole" I said slightly pissed, he just rolled his eyes and
moved away.

"Suck him good fag" He snorted as I walked through rolling my eyes. I
walked to his dressing room and there he was looking at himself in the
mirror with a huge bottle of vodka halfway empty, he took a rather huge
swig and set it down loudly.

"Blake, can I talk to you?" I ask tentatively, he turned around and looked
at me. He turned red with anger and stood up swiftly.

"You fucking moved Anthony to your place... Tell me, have you two been
fucking? Proably has you more stuffed than a thanksgiving turkey" He said
with an angry stare. "It's always your type he goes after you know, cute
lil soft innocent guys" he said looking away.

"Ok.. Calm down, first things first, I took him in because you two couldn't
be in the same room for now, second we have not been fucking we are just
friends, and third I thought you liked my type" I said a little confused,
he seemed to relax after I told him there was no fucking.

"It's not that, but your type they tend to flock around Anthony, and why
wouldn't they, he is hot, has a fucking huge ass heart and he is simply
perfect, so it would make sense for me to you know get into those type of
cuties and just fuck them away from him, besides your type tends to like my
cock to much to stay away" He said with a rather smug grin. That moment
it's when it hit me.

"Wow, so Anthony, you like him. That's why you keep driving everyone away
from him" I said searching for a stool to sit. I looked up at him confused,
and his eyes widened.

"The fuck are you talking about!" He screamed angered and nearly tripping
as he walked towards me.

"Have you told him?! You are such an idiot, so you just ruined his love
life because you are to fucking scared to tell him" I said as he grabbed me
by the collar and pushed me to the wall.

"You don't know what you're talking about! He would never go for a guy like
me" He said with a pained voice and it all seemed to fall in to place and
fit together like a huge puzzle.

"He was planning this revenge thing wanting to get back at you.. You have
to tell him, he is heartbroken, he misses you and you don't know if he
might love you the same way you do" I said as he let me down, he started
sobbing and collapsed into my chest, I hugged him tightly and rubbed his
back softly.

"He won't take me I know he wont" he sobbed, and right then the door opened
and Anthony walked in, he looked at Blake and me, he walked to him and
grabbed him by the shirt and pushed him to the wall, aimed his fist to his
face, but he was stopped as Blake crashed his lips to him and in that
moment Anthony froze.


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Love you guys!!!!!!

Sorry for taking long to post the second part of my story but I've been out
of writing juices lately. I cant even write a word on my Meet The Kiler's
story so I tried with this to get the juices flowing.

Next Chapter will be up sooon!!

Hi guys sorry I've been so absent this month you know that's very unlike me
but college stuff kept me too busy to even take a breather! So sorry I
promise it won't happen again! At least I hope not!

Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has
kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D

Thanks for reading, and I hope you like my story so far. If you haven't
read my other story on nifty, it's called Aphrodite's Curse. It's quite
recent, so you should look it up. It must be in the first 50 stories.

Thank you again, and please e-mail me at andrewgay41@hotmail.com if you
like my story. Writers love feedback, and don't be too shy to ask anything
personal. Please specify which story you are commenting about.

HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. STICK AROUND BECAUSE THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET
STEAMY!!

About the author!

Well hi! It's me, Andy. I'm the author of this story, and I hope you like
it so far. In most e-mails you seem to want to know stuff about me, like my
age, hobbies, etc. Well, I'm 18 years old, I enjoy writing, as you can
imagine. I love writing poems and songs, and well, express myself through
words. I want to be a Doctor. My favourite colour is blue, I looooove ice
cream, my favourite movie is Easy A, and my favourite TV. show is Friends!!
:D

I love Chandler, and well, I kind of have his sense of humour and that
sarcastic edge to it. :D Well, that is me, and if you have anymore
questions, don't hesitate to e-mail me!

XOXO
Andy