Date: Sat, 27 Sep 2003 15:58:06 -0700 (PDT)
From: JMH <trandar2002@yahoo.com>
Subject: Circle the Noun chp7
Again, this is a story about gay relationships so 1. if you are
breaking the law, underage, or just hate gay stuff don't read any further.
The World Wide Web is a big place so you can find something else. 2. The
story is not based on any real person place thing, or another person's
idea. So any similarities are pure chance. 3. Since this story is of my
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Enjoy
JMH
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When Nathan arrived at home, he went to his room and booted up
the computer. He sent two messages; One to David to tell him what was
going on with Greg. He then sent another one... this time to Philip,
asking him to come over after school. After sending them, Nathan went down
stairs to make lunch.
He had just finished eating a sandwich when the doorbell
rang. Not knowing who would be coming at this hour, Nathan hurried to the
door and found Philip standing there with flowers in his hands.
"Philip... what are you doing here?" Nathan asked surprised.
"I came here to be with you. I knew you were upset yesterday
so when I got your email I decided to use my lunch break to come here."
"Well thanks," Nathan said as he was handed a half dozen
roses.
"I hope you like the flowers," Philip blushed. "I know that
men don't usually give guys flowers but I was not sure what to bring you."
"A swimsuit that fits," Nathan laughed.
"Yes... that is the sort of stuff I need to know. There are
plenty of books on how to date a girl but I don't know of any for guys,"
Philip explained.
"Ok... let's go inside and talk."
Nathan led Philip to the kitchen where he put down the
flowers. "Would you like anything to drink or eat?" He asked his guest.
"Some more of the soup we had last night would be good."
"Great... we have lots of it left. No one was in a mood for
eating last night," Nathan said as he went to the walk-in fridge and
brought out a large pot. Soon it was ladled up into a smaller pot to be
heated up on the stove.
"Should you put the flowers in some water?" Philip asked
while the soup cooked.
"Yeah I guess," Nathan agreed. He opened a cabinet and took
out a large avocado green plastic pitcher.
"You are going to put them in that?" Philip said surprised.
"Well it is all I can think of," Nathan explained.
"Don't ya'll have a crystal vase or something?"
"Nope... it's just all guys here so the place is missing a
woman's touch."
"So I guess this is the first time flowers have even passed
through your front door," Philip said becoming increasingly embarrassed by
his gift.
"No... Greg and me used to pick the flowers out of the
garden."
"Didn't it get you in trouble?"
"Not at all. Dad would even help us dry them out or book
press them. One of my Bibles is full of them."
"Then that is what we will do with them... preserve them,"
Philip said liking the idea of Nathan keeping the flowers for years and
years.
"Then we don't want to put them in water," Nathan explained.
Nathan went to a drawer, took out some string and tape. He
tied the roses together into a bunch. He then went to one of the windows
in the breakfast room and taped the roses upside down to it.
"Why upside down?" Philip asked when he saw what Nathan was
doing.
"So gravity won't cause the petals to wilt down," Nathan said
as he stepped back, sucking on his thumb.
"You cut yourself?" Philip asked as he took Nathan's thumb
out of his mouth.
"Yeah... just a little bit while I was tying the strings,"
Nathan explained.
"Well let me take care of it for you," Phillip smiled. He
took Nathan's sore thumb and licked it with his tongue before putting it
into his mouth and sucking on it.
Nathan, instead of pulling away, drew closer to Philip, until his head
rested against his cheek.
"Last night was wonderful," Philip whispered into Nathan's
ear.
"Last night was a nightmare," Nathan sighed.
"I'm talking about when you joined me in my sleeping bag,"
Philip said as he rock Nathan in his arms.
"I just wanted to be held." Nathan admitted.
"And I held you. Isn't that why you emailed me asking me to
come over. You wanted me to hold you again."
"Yes... my dad used to hold me when I felt sad but one day I
outgrew his lap."
"I think you are also now looking for something more," Philip
said as he unbuttoned Nathan's shirt. "How many boyfriends or girlfriends
for that matter have you had?"
"I've dated a few girls," Nathan said as his voice tensed up
when Philip pinched his left nipple.
"Have you ever fallen in love with any of them?"
"I liked them..." Nathan said noncommittally.
"Did you let any of them do this to you," Philip grinned as
he gave Nathan's nipple an extra hard twist.
"No!" Nathan said shocked.
"Nathan, I think what has been missing from you life is alota
loving. Not the love your father gives you, but the kind a lover can give
you. Come on, soon you will be in college, don't you think you should have
one high school sweetheart before you go?"
"I guess you want the job?"
"Been applying for months... I can even give you a resume,"
Philip said with his lips parted in a small, almost charming smile."
"O..." Nathan said as he was slowly moved to the wall. It
was starting to dawn on him that Philip had a real crush on him. The idea
that there was a guy who was romantically in love with him, sent shivers
down Nathan's spine.
"Nate... it's only been two days but can I call you my
boyfriend."
"We are just getting to know about each other."
"Yes... but we also slept in each other's arms last night."
"Philip..." Nathan was about to say when he smelled something
burning. "Is something on fire?"
"Just my passion for you."
"The soup!" Nathan finally realized. He moved past Philip
and rushed to the kitchen where the soup had boiled over and was burning on
the heat pad. Nathan quickly pushed the pot off the stove, burning his
hand in the process.
While Nathan yelped in pain, Philip calmly came into the
room, took an ice cube out of the freezer and walked over to Nathan.
"Give me your hand..." Philip said.
Nathan bit his lip to hold back his pain as he gave his
burned hand over to Philip. In silence Philip moved the ice cube over the
red mark on Nathan's hand. "You didn't answer my question, Nate..." Philip
smiled.
The careful but firm manner Philip held his hand while
cooling it with the melting ice cube gave Nathan an insight into Philip.
Philip, instead of being mad that he, Nate, had run off in the middle of
his proposal, had looked toward Nathan's immediate need. Beside his
father, no one had shown this kind of concern for him.
"I don't know if you are my boyfriend yet, but it would make
me very happy if you were mine."
"Then I guess we going down this path until we are what we
want to be... boyfriends."
"That would be good," Nathan agreed. Then acting on a sudden
urge he moved in and kiss Philip on the lips. It was the first time he was
the one to act first.
"Do you have a clean jockstrap here?" Philip asked when
Nathan's lips left his.
"Yes," Nathan replied.
"Good... go put it on and go to Greg's room. I'll meet you
there."
"What are you going to do?
"Getting something to keep us cool," Philip said with a
wicked grin.
Not sure what Philip was referring to, Nathan hurried to his
room and stripped. He then had a choice to make. He did have regular
white jockstraps but uncle Robert had bought him three pairs of "gay wear"
straps. Not only did they come in black, red, and dark blue, they were
shaped to give an extra bulge to his basket. Robert had even gotten
Nathan's initials stitched on them. Nathan worried that wearing the
customized underwear might send the wrong image but he had to admit he
looked good in them so in the end he put on the dark blue pair. They
looked great against his tanned skin and were a good match to his dark
blue...near violet eyes.
He must have taken his time because Philip was already
waiting for him in Greg's room, down to his own white jock and holding a
bowl full of ice cubes.
"What are you going to do with those?" Nathan asked.
"Why don't you lay down on the bed and find out."
"Are you sure?"
"Trust me."
"Ok..." Nathan relented. "How would you like me?"
"On your stomach first."
Nathan went over to the bed, which was already covered with
bath towels. As Philip remained somewhere behind him, Nathan could not see
where he was. Philip did finally reveal his location when Nathan felt
something ice cold touch the small of his back.
Nathan tried to jump up but a firm hand pushed him back down.
"Trust me Nate, what you are going to feel will be well worth that shock,"
Philip said reassuring.
Nathan did settle down and soon Philip put the ice cube back
on the same spot. It was left there, slowly producing a small puddle of
cold water that sent Nathan's body shivering. Then, very slowly Nathan
felt Philip move the ice cube up his spine. The feeling did not give him a
hard on but it did send his cock a quivering. Then, as soon and the small
remains of the cube touched the back of his neck, Nathan felt Philip let go
of it, causing it to slide down the groove in the middle of his back.
Then, as the remains of the ice melted, a new sensation took
over, that of a hot tongue licking the back of his neck before working his
way down. Nathan let out a loud moan when he felt Philip's mouth suck the
water that had gathered there.
"How did that feel?" Philip asked when done.
"I don't know how to describe it."
"I'll take that for good. But it is just getting started."
"Can I give you a kiss first?" Nathan said as he rolled onto
his side.
"You sure can. You don't ever have to ask for that," Philip
grinned as he joined Nathan on the bed.
With their arms wrapped around the backs of each other's
necks the two of them made out with a mixture of long and short kisses.
Then their hands began to become more explorative, Nathan feeling the
muscles of Philip's back while Philip let his hands take hold of Nathan's
ass, pulling the cheeks apart while his fingers squeezed between the crack
Then one of Philip's hands moved away but when it came back,
Nathan's felt a freezing cold ice cube being rubbed against his rosebud.
If he had not peed earlier, Nathan was sure he would have pissed right then
and there all over the bed.
"Oh my god!" Nathan shouted, his hips thrusting up hard
against Philip thigh as his tormentor kept rubbing the cube against his
hole. "Philip... stop it!"
"Really?" Philip said with an innocent grin.
"What were you trying to do?" Nathan asked as he tried to
warm up his bum.
"Give you a hard on. Do you have one yet?" Philip grinned
before giving Nathan's basket a squeeze. "By golly I think you are!"
Encouraged by Nathan's response, Philip took out another ice
cube and ran it around Nathan's inner thigh, just bellow his balls sending
Nathan thrashing. Nathan kept on asking him to stop but Philip, in seeing
Nathan shove a hand into his jock knew he was sending Nate into a sexual
frenzy.
Then Philip did the ultimate, he took one of the lemon slice
shaped cubes and held it in his fist, letting it melt. When it was almost
a third melted and all its sharp edges smoothed out, he reached over and
slid it up Nathan's ass.
"AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaa!" Nathan yelped as he jumped up.
"Shhhhhhh... just relax and enjoy how it feels," Philip said
calmly.
"My ass is freezing!"
"Don't worry I only put in a sliver. It will melt soon."
"It burns..." Nathan cringed as he tightened up his butt.
Philip rolled Nathan onto his back and pulled down Nate's
jock. "Your cock seems to enjoy it."
"I can't push it out!" Nathan said panicked.
"Yep... you'll just have to wait till your body melts it."
Philip grinned as he moved his head between Nathan's legs. "But while that
is happening I have something to make sure your dick stays warm." Philip
grinned as he took Nathan's dick into his mouth, swirling his tongue along
the head before taking more of the seven inches into him.
With the combination of melted ice water tingling his
prostate and a hot mouth around his cock, Nathan could not last long. He
gave up trying to shit the cube out, as his ass would not relax. The
sensation was not like anything he had felt before and his cock only
reflected that.
Just as Nathan felt the last of the ice cube melt away, his
cock exploded in Philips mouth. Philip then climbed off Nate, letting him
run to the bathroom so he could flush the melted water out of his ass.
"I'll get you for that!" Nathan yelled half seriously.
"I hope so!" Philip laughed. "I am looking forward to you
sucking me off."
"Not that... the ice cube you shoved up my ass."
"I didn't need to shove it in... it slid in very nicely. You
have a very hungry ass."
"Are you calling me a bottom?" Nathan said as he came out
after flushing the toilet.
"Not at all!" Philip chuckled. "Why do you think I was
calling you that?"
"Just cause my dad is a bottom doesn't mean that I am."
"Your dad is a bottom? How do you know that?"
"Dad and Uncle Robert told me."
"He did! Your father told you he was a bottom." Philip said
amazed
"Well he is not a complete bottom... he would top Andrew
every now and then but when Greg asked Dad what he liked better dad said
bottoming."
"And this was a regular dinner conversation," Philip was able
to say between burst of laughter.
"No... it was part of "the talk" you know... the family
addition of "sex ed"," Nathan explained as he pulled his jock back up.
"So you got the gay version of "the talk"," Philip grinned.
In his conservative family, "the talk" of any sort had not
been given. When the school offered sex ed in junior high his parents had
signed a letter asking that he be excused from it. That did not stop
Philip from learning though. During lunch he would borrow one of his
friends schoolbooks and read up on the topic. He also had the blessing of
having a more relaxed uncle. His uncle had understood what kind of house
Philip was being raised in so when his nephew visited him one summer he had
left him a porno. It had been straight porn, but it gave Philip an idea of
what sex was all about.
"We got both the straight and gay talk... uncle Robert even
showed us a bisexual porno video. Dad said he would love us however we
turned out, but he wanted us educated for any situation."
"Smart man," Philip said, feeling just a bit jealous that
Nathan had such a father.
"So tell me about your education," Nathan asked.
"Well none if you count my parents."
"You had to have learned something from someone... what we
just did proves that."
"That is a long story."
"Ok... want to wait till we have more time? You have to be
back at school soon."
"No... I'll skip."
"You shouldn't... you'll get in trouble with your folks."
"That is why I need to tell you this now but I would like you
to hold me when I tell you," Philip said as he lay down on the bed but not
before pulling off his jock.
"Ok." Nathan said. He climbed onto the bed and spooned up
behind Philip, wrapping his arms around Philip's wait.
Before speaking, Philip took on of Nathan's hands and lowered
it to his cock. "Will you hold it for me," He asked in a near sad voice.
"It will make me feel safer."
"Ok," Nathan agreed, wrapping his fingers around Philip's
warm but limp dick.
Philip took a deep breath before speaking. "I'm no longer
living at home."
"What happened?" Nathan said shocked.
"My parents found out about me... being gay and all. They
kicked me out."
"Where have you been living?"
"With college friends at first but now with Coach Anderson.
"How long has this been going on?"
"Two weeks before school started."
"And no one knows?"
"Only you and my coach."
"So they kicked you out because they found out you were gay?"
Nathan said as if he could not believe it. He knew that most families were
not as accepting to their kids' sexuality as his father and "uncles" were
but for a parent to turn his back on his own child seemed completely wrong.
"Yes... and it was my own fault."
"How can you say that?"
"Because I should have never taken the risk of getting
caught. I should have never taken my first boyfriend with me."
"Can you tell me how it all started?"
"Yes... I better do so. I have known I was gay for a long
time but in the house I grew up in it was never ok to show any sort of
weakness or emotion. My dad wanted me to me to be a tough guy, just like
he and grandpa were. I seemed to fit that perfectly. I loved working out
and hanging around other guys. Becoming easily bored by women seemed to
prove to my dad that I was a real man. He didn't know that I wanted to
sleep with my male friends."
Nathan, knowing that Philip just wanted him to listen did not
say a word but he did show his support in kissing Philip's back and giving
his cock a gentle squeeze.
"My father and grandpa both had their hopes that I would take
over the farm business when grandpa died. They even signed me up for a
pre-college agriculture program at K.U. in Lawrence. That was where I met
Trevor."
"Your boyfriend?"
"My first and so far only boyfriend. We are no longer
together but I will tell you about that later. When I met Trevor he was
one of the graduate students running the program. His gaydar must have
been better then mine cause he quickly took me under his wing. Besides
looking out for me in class, he would take me to bars, swimming and working
out. It was fun.
"It was not until he started showing me his friends that I
began to notice that most of them were gay. At first I thought... cool, he
has a lot of gay friends but then came the night I stayed at his apartment.
We had worked out at the gym and both of us were sore. When we got to his
place I was in a lot of pain. Trevor had told me that the way he earned
extra money was as a professional massage therapist. So when he offered me
a rub down I felt completely comfortable trusting him.
"He had me strip down completely and lay down on the bed. He
rubbed the entire back of my body not only making me feel relaxed but gave
me a hard on as well. When he finished with my back, Trevor slapped my ass
to signal I was turn around. I did not want to, as then he would see my
boner.
"In the end I was not given a choice. In high school Trevor
had been on the wrestling team. He still had some skill cause from the
moment I felt him wrap his arms around my legs and waist it was only a
matter of second before he had flipped me over, climbed on top of me and
had my cock down his throat.
"It was then that I realized that he was naked as his own
hard cock was right in front of my face, waving before it as if it were
both taunting and tempting me. With him sucking me my own mouth ached to
taste and feel his cock. I reached for it and stuffed it into my mouth.
The salty taste of precum and the feel of hard flesh between my lips caused
me to gag a few time but felt wonderful.
"As it was my first time, it was not surprising that I shot
my load first. After I did so, Trevor turned his body around and sat up so
his butt was resting on my chest, his cock still in my face. In this
position I could only lick and suck on the head but he helped himself along
by jacking off the lower half of his cock until he cummed all over my face.
That was the first time I made love to a guy."
Nathan, who had gotten into Philip sex story, was pumping
away at Philips cock. By this time it had grown to a good eight inches in
his hand and was leaking precum. When Philip stopped talking so did Nathan
stop pumping.
"Keep going... I just don't think I can talk straight while I
have this boner."
"Alright," Nathan agreed working harder on Philip's cock
taking some of the precum to lube his shaft. Several times Philip would
ask him to stop and only squeeze hard near the top. Other times he would
tell Nathan to rub the head with his thumb. Close to the time he came,
Philip took Nathan's free hand and placed it over his balls, asking him to
tug on them while they were trying to rise. Nathan then felt the sticky
cum shoot off and ooze into his hand. Philip then rolled over and faced
Nathan before pulling him into a kiss.
"That was good," Philip sighed as he nuzzled his nose against
Nathan's.
"I only jacked you off," Nathan blushed.
"Yes... YOU jacked me off. Someone I can relate to. Someone
my own fucking age!" Philip said with a lot of bitterness.
"Trevor?" Nathan asked nervously.
"Yeah... it was good at first. Everything was new and
exciting. I even thought I was in love for a while. I pictured us running
the farms together... stupid really."
"When did things go bad?"
"After spring break... I had been driving down to see him
nearly every weekend since after the summer program. I took him over to
one of the farmhouses my grandfather owned. We fucked the whole week.
That was also when he started pressing me for a job. He wanted me to get
him an advisory job with my grandpa, as he was finishing school up at the
end of the year. I talked to my grandpa and he took him in. During the
summer he asked me to stay away. I had told him how homophobic my grandpa
was so I understood that he would not want to get caught with me in his
bed. At least that is what I thought..."
"What happened?" Nathan asked.
"My grandpa did one of his surprise inspections of the
farmhouse Trevor was living in and caught him in bed with his college
roommate and one of the farmhands."
"Oh no..."
"Yes... as I had been the person to recommend him to grandpa,
I was called in to explain myself. I didn't know that Trevor had told him
everything. Trevor assumed that as the only male heir that my grandfather
would have no choice but to leave the farms to me. Trevor thought he could
get away with throwing what we had done in his face. Trevor didn't know my
grandfather.
"The meeting turned out to be more about my grandpa showing
Trevor how far he was willing to disavow me then getting my side of the
story. There I was told I was not just disinherited but, no longer a
member of the family. When I left the meeting it was to Trevor threatening
to get a lawyer and me with nowhere to go".
"So what did you do then?" Nathan asked after Philip
remained silent for more then a minute.
"I talked to my water polo coach and he agreed to take me
in."
"Why not Trevor?"
"Trevor... he dumped me as soon as he found he had no legal
recourse. Last thing I heard he joined an agriculture commune in
California."
"So he left you just like that?"
"Yep... I heard from some of his friends in school that the
only reason he put up with me was because he knew my grandpa was one of the
largest landowners in the state."
"So he was in it for the money."
"Yeah and gullible me fell for his act."
The two of them remained silent for a few minutes before
Nathan came up with another question. "Is coach gay?"
"Nope... he was married and got divorced but it was not
because he was gay. I think that was a good thing. I needed a "straight
man's" view to see where I went wrong."
"How so...?"
"From his own experiences... he knew how marriages failed.
He just turned that wisdom on my relationship with Trevor."
"And what wisdom did he give you?"
"That a relationship needs a certain level of equality. With
Trevor he had all the power. He had all the sexual experience. It was
only his friends that made up our circle. He deiced when I could see him
and when I did he was the one who picked what we would do. I felt I had no
say because he was the older "wiser" one."
"Sorry things turned out that way."
"Well it gave me a chance to reflect and find out what I
wanted."
"And what is that?"
"Well at first I thought what I needed was friends but I
wanted something more... a boyfriend. This time though I wanted someone I
could be an equal with. I also wanted a family... a father I could look up
to. Your family was the only one that came to mind... if any family could
take in a gay kid it was yours... that brought me to you. You are
handsome, caring, trusting, and kind. Everyone likes you because they know
that you easily like them. Your dad is gay, Greg is gay... everyone in
your family is gay. At the same time your family is still a family... not
a sex club."
"Is that what people think about us... that we are some kind
of sex club," Nathan said a little mad.
"No... if you don't remember your dad and uncle Robert were
coaches of our little league team. All the parents liked your dad and so
did all the kids... My parents did as well until they overheard one of the
parents saying what a cute couple they thought your dad and Robert would
make. It was not long after that they found out that your dad was gay.
They pulled me out faster then a gun in a bank robbery gone bad."
"Sorry... I think I do remember you being on my team for a
while. I never knew why you left."
"Well that was the reason... one that I never forgot. Ever
since then I had to fight my desire to become close to you and your family.
If my father knew that I wanted to hang around you his suspicions with have
been raised. Now though..."
"Now that he does know there is not point hiding it," Nathan
finished.
"Yes... I feel guilty though, I feel I am using you to get
the family I always wanted."
"Well you are... but I'm using you as well."
"How?" Philip chuckled.
"I'm using you to find out who I am and what I want."
"What are you unsure about?"
"I don't know if I want the "gay" life for myself," Nathan
said with some difficulty.
"You don't know if you are gay?"
"Philip... you feel good against my body. I enjoy having
your arms around me. It might be that I am starting to have a crush on you
but you feel closer to me then any other person then my dad. My heart
tells me I am in love but my brain tells me I need to be practical."
"Well let me tell you... there is nothing practical about
love."
"I know... everything would be perfect except for one fact?"
"Which is?"
"I could never have a child with you."
"Well I sure hope not..." Philip first laughed until he saw
the sadness in Nathan's eyes. "Having a kid is very important to you?"
"Yes... not just one... I want to have several."
"I didn't know we were already this serious."
"Philip... that is why I can't call us boyfriends. If I call
you that... for me it means that I want to spend the rest of my life with
you."
"But you said that you would like to be my boyfriend..."
Philip suddenly realized, a wide grin growing on his face."
"Yes... call me a romantic but I'm not really interested in
seeing how many different guys I can get into bed. I just want to find my
soul mate and keep that person forever."
"That would be very nice," Philip said as he snuggled up
closer to Nathan.
"Yes it would," Nathan agreed, enjoying the warm feeling that
grew within him in having Philip so close to him.
"Is that what your dad did... fall in love with the first
guy he met?"
"Sort of... The first guy he had sex with was Andrew. The
first guy he loved was his brother, my namesake, but he died in a car wreck
with the rest of my father's family. Robert... was the second guy my
father loved. My dad met him at a summer camp for orphaned kids. Uncle
Robert became like an older brother for my dad when my dad really needed
one. That was when my father fell in love with uncle Robert."
"And your uncle?"
"Well... as uncle Robert told me... my dad was the only
person he ever felt was family. Robert lived in foster homes, orphanages,
and group homes his whole childhood. He never knew his parents or if he
had any siblings but when he met my father, he found for the first time a
person he wanted to call family. So yes... Robert also fell in love with
my father."
"Young love," Philip sighed.
"More then that... they became the most important people in
each other's lives. When my dad was adopted and Robert turned 18 and
joined the army it was their love for each other that helped them during
the rough patches. Uncle Robert still has some the letters my dad wrote
him when they were kids."
"So I guess you are really happy that it looks like they will
be together again."
"Yes... not to be hard on uncle Andrew or to hurt Greg... but
I am very happy my dad is back with uncle Robert."
"Why then did they ever break up?"
"That is the million dollar question. Robert was commitment
phobic back then. He loved my dad more then anything but he kept sleeping
with other men. Well one day Robert's luck ran out and he caught syphilis,
a drug resistant form of it."
"Dang... is he ok?"
"Yes... uncle Mike runs a drug company and snuck Robert into
the test trials for a powerful antibiotic. The drug worked for Robert but
is not much of a seller. It leaves the person bed ridden for weeks and
vulnerable to infections."
"Ok... so Robert got sick but got better... where's the
problem?"
"That is where things get confusing. While my dad had been
going out with Robert, he also was doing things with Andrew. That was fine
with Robert as he slept with a lot of people. Andrew though did not like
the arrangement. He pushed my dad to make a choice between them. My dad
loved Andrew but his feelings for Robert were stronger so Robert was the
man my dad offered a wedding ring to first. Robert turned it down."
"Why?"
"I don't know but that is what happened. Robert turned the
ring down. My dad then offered one to Andrew. Andrew of course accepted
it... so my dad ended up with Andrew."
"Why did your dad offer Andrew the ring in the first place if
he loved Robert more?"
"Because my dad loved Andrew. Even if it was not as much as
Robert, my dad loved him. My dad also wanted to be with someone. He was
lonely especially after Robert turned him down. It might have been a
mistake but it was an understandable one."
"Yep... it was," Philip agreed. He could see how it related
to himself... jumping from Trevor to Nathan but in his case Philip already
felt he loved Nathan more. The feelings were clearer...felt more right.
The two of them remained embraced in silence for a little
longer until Philip came up with another question. "Why did Andrew agree
to let Robert live in the same house as he and your dad? He knew how dad
felt about Robert."
"I don't know. I used to think that uncle Andrew felt
confident about his hold on dad but now I know that he never felt he had a
secure place in my father's heart."
"So what do you think why he allowed it now?" Philip asked,
"I guess... I guess that he knew that if he didn't let my dad
keep Robert in his life there was a higher chance of my dad leaving him."
"That makes sense."
"Yeah but it's all over now. Andrew pushed my dad into
making a choice between him and Robert and he lost. If Greg had not been
forced to leave then I would say that everything is turning out for the
better."
"But he is gone."
"Yes... but he will be over every other week if his mom has
any say about it."
"His mom?"
"Greg's mom...aunt Jessica," Nathan explained. "God's reason
for homosexuality uncle Andrew would say."
"Is shy ugly?"
"Well... she has gain weight over the years but back when I
was a lot younger she was a very pretty woman. It is her tongue that is a
little hard to take. I understand why Greg has always been a little timid.
You can just say hello and she will tell you how rude you were for not
saying it fast enough, or clearly enough, or not in a masculine manner."
"Damn ... why did Andrew marry her then?"
"A marriage of convenience... her father and his father both
worked at the same law firm. Her father was leaving the firm and his dad
wanted her father's clients. Her father also wanted to marry his daughter
off to some one who could take care of her financially. Andrew's dad
offered his son and a deal was struck. She was given the choice of
marrying Andrew or being financially cut off. Andrew was offered a place
at the firm and some of the clients his father would get from the deal.
Financial security can be very sexy for people used to a certain
lifestyle."
"So they married each other for the money."
"Yep."
"So... how did Andrew decide he was gay?"
"My dad... Andrew fell in love with my dad. The two of them
worked together at the same law firm so they saw each other daily."
"You dad is cute."
"Well back then he was adorable according to Robert and
Andrew."
"So Andrew fell in love with your dad."
"Yep... he even pretended to be drunk as an excuse to try to
seduce my dad but dad didn't take it too well."
"What happened?"
"My dad tried to kill himself."
"Dang... he was that deep in the closet?"
"Yes... around mom and me dad tried to act happy. I never
knew about his suicide attempt until I was older when dad gave me a talk
about coming to him if I ever felt sad. Mom though was hurt by it, as dad
never told her about his feelings. Dad left the firm he was working at so
he would not have to see Andrew as much. That was when everything
changed."
"How so?"
"The new firm my dad went to turned out to be the same place
where uncle Robert worked. It took a little while but they eventually
found out whom each other really were. Dad invited Robert to his house for
Thanksgiving... that was the first time I met Robert."
"And...?" Philip grinned.
"And I was impressed. Robert and Dad seemed to really like
each other. I even found them sleeping in the same bed. Not having sex
mine you but snuggled up to each other. Mom also noticed how happy Robert
made my dad and that made her happy."
"Not jealous?"
"Nope... Mom and dad love each other but in a more platonic
way. Both of them wanted the other to be happy. Mom saw that Robert made
my dad happy in ways she couldn't. For that reason she loves Robert almost
as much as my dad."
"So I guess she doesn't like Andrew."
"I guess. When I go see mom she never asks about him unless
I bring him up. She only asks about dad and uncle Robert otherwise."
"So I guess she will be happy that your dad and Robert are
back together?"
"I think so but I will leave it to dad to tell her the news.
Except for Greg and David I never talk about this with anyone. We are
learning a lot about each other today."
"Yep... and I would like to thank you for trusting me,"
Philip said before kissing Nathan's chin.
"You're welcome. I would like to thank you for listening,"
Nathan said before returning the kiss.
This was followed by more kisses and a few gropes. "We
better stop before we start something we would have to finish," Philip
said.
"Yeah... I guess we better," Nathan agreed... as he got out
of the bed.
"You don't have to go." Philip said as he tried to catch
Nathan's hand.
"I'll be back. I just think I better be dressed when dad
comes home."
"What... do you think your dad would be angry if he caught us
in bed only in our underwear."
"He would not be angry... more like shocked."
"Why... does he think you're straight?"
"Well no... I told him I think I might be bi but..." Nathan
hesitated.
"Yes?"
"I want him to think I'm still a virgin."
"You are still a virgin as far as I know."
"Not any more. Not after what we just did."
"I just sucked you off and you gave me a hand job."
"That's sex," Nathan stressed.
"No it's not... now if I had fucked you or you me then that
would have been sex."
"They call oral sex, oral s-e-x for a reason."
"Not according to most college students and one
U.S. president. Unless you have intercourse... it is not sex," Philip said
as he stood up.
"But..." Nathan wanted to protest.
"No buts... I don't want you worrying about disappointing
your dad. We fooled around, made each other feel good but it was not
sex... love making yes... but not sex."
"Love making... I like that."
"Thanks... I had a feeling you would like that term better
then just plain sex. It also covers a lot more activities."
"Such as?" Nathan said as Philip drew in closer.
"Well love making can be fucking each other up the ass but it
can also be as simple as a kiss," Philip explained before kissing Nathan
lightly on the lips.
"That's nice," Nathan smiled
"It can also be me just holding your hand," Philip continued
as he took Nathan's hands in his.
"Ok," Nathan said as he gave Philip's hands a squeeze.
"We can also make a dance into love making," Philip finished
as he began to waltz Nathan around the room. It was right when he was
lower Nathan into a dip that the bedroom door opened."
"What the fuck!" David's voice filled the room.
"Shit!" Nathan's cussed for the first time in the earshot of
other people.
"Hey David," Philip said cheerfully.
David just stood there, his face getting redder by the
moment. Nathan made to walk toward him but David shook a warning finger at
him before leaving the room. Nathan followed after him only to have the
door to the room they shared slammed in his face.
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This was a long chp but necessary to bring out a lot of background info.
How will things work out between Davidand Nathan will be in the next chp.
Until then... keep on reading.
JMH
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