Date: Fri, 1 Jun 2012 23:49:22 +0200
From: petra jardas <petra.jardas22@gmail.com>
Subject: Colin's 'Perfect' Life pt 5

Colin's 'Perfect' Life

The usual disclaimers apply here.

This story contains acts of homosexual behavior. Also if you are under age
or it's illegal in your country to read such material then leave.

Enjoy :3


Chapter 5


I gasped in shock at the sight of his back. They were covered in scars,
big, ugly scars, from his shoulders to the small of his back and
dissapeared into the waist band of his pants. Tears started to swell in my
eyes and my anger rose. Who the hell dared to do something like this to a
beautifull boy like him. Who dared to lay a hand on MY boy.

He just sat there as I examined his back comletely frozen, my mouth hanging
open. I couldn't see his face but at one point he begen shaking
slightly. 'Just leave. You know you want to. You don't have to say
anything, just leave.'

That woke me up. I had to get a grip, not for my but for his sake.

I did the only thing I knew. I huged him. I took him in my arms as gently
as I could. 'I'm not going anywhere. I don't care about the scars, you are
still beautifull to me and I still want to be with you and help you.' I
couldn't see his face as he was still facing away from me but I could feel
him trembeling in my arms and could hear him sobbing quietly.

Slowly he turned to face me and with a doubtfull but pretty much a
desperate look he asked 'Really?'

'Really.' I said with a compasionate smile.

'Please don't lie to me.'

'I'm not lying. I don't lie.' And I hugged him close. He buried his head in
my chest and held me close.

I held him like that while he has sobbing for I don't know how
long. Somewhere along the line I started crying too because I was just so
overwelmed with everything. So many thoughts ran through my mind. Who did
this to him? What kind of person does such a thing? I wanted to protect
him, I wanted to make him feel safe in my arms. I swore to myself that no
person would EVER again lay a hand on him again. I didn't care what it
took. 'Shhh, It's gonna be okay. I'm here now. I'm gonna protect you. No
one's gonna hurt you ever again.' I tried soothing him while I rocked him
gently back and forth in my arms.

'Wait. Before you say anything more. You said you wanted to know so now you
are getting the whole story after witch I promise you, you wont feel the
same.'

I tried to keep my cool and once again simply said 'Try me.'

'I told you my parents kicked me out because I was gay.'

'Yeah..'

'Please, this is hard enough without you interupting me. Just,Just let me
get this over with.'

He took a deep intake of breath before continuing.I was silent.

'My parents are real bigots and complete jerks. They hate everyone that's
not like then. Especially gays. Our whole lifes they have been force
feeding their hate down mine and Shasha's throght. For years I believed I
was cursed for beeing this way. I would cut myself, put out cigaretts on my
arms an all kinds of stupid shit. ' He moved away from me and shoved me his
arms and stomach. Looking closely I saw a bunch of scars. Some older some
newer. What scared me whas the fact that some of them looked to be maybe a
few days old.

'So I knew it was wrong but hell, I was a teenager and since girls didn't
do anything for me, from time to time when I was really horny I would open
some gay porn and beat off to it.'

'So one day I was sitting at my laptop in my room beating off to some
twinks fucking when sudenlly the door opened and there stood my father. I
was frozen with fear. I didn't know what to do. My father's eyes
narrowed. He looked at me and with duisgust in his voice he said: 'You are
one of them?! My own son a filthy fag?!' I was petrefied. Then he yelled
towards the kitchen: 'Marie! Get the whip!' Not a minute lather my mother
walked in carrying a leather whip that for years hung over the fireplace
reminding us that when we REALLY fucked up that's what we are going to
get. Then he made me take off the rest of my clothing and bend over my the
back of my chair.Tears streaked my cheeks and I was shaking with fear as I
awaited my faith. First silence and then wam, the first hit fell. I
screamed out. I can still remember the pain like it was yesterday. ' He
stopped and took a deep breath before continuing. His eyes were focused on
a spot on the bed, he didn't want to look at me. He was probably afraid of
my reaction.

'After that first one, cracks covered my back and butt. I could hear the
skin breaking, I could feel blood dripping. It seemed like it's never going
to end. It was brutal and merceless. When it finally stopped I thought I
was gonna pass out but my father had other plans.' Panic swept over me as I
felt Alex tense in my arms.

I gave Alex's shoulders a light squeze as if to tell him he's doing
great. He continued 'So by then I thought I had nothing more in me stay
awake,nevertheless to fight back. I hoped it was over. But it wasn't. 'You
wanna be a faggot aye?! Im gonna show you what every faggot needs! Maybe it
will knock some sence in you!' I was scared as fuck, I didn't know what he
was gonna do, but I didn't have to wait long as I felt his strong arms grab
my ass cheeks and pull them apart. Then he did it...h-he...he r-raped me.'
By this point he was curled up in fetal position in my arms crying his eyes
out. A pitiful sight really.

I was frozen. I just sat there holding him, not moving. I mean, what do you
do? What do you say? I didn't know what to do but I didn't let go. If
something I held him even tighter.  He started sobbing harder and
harder. Trough tears he somehow said 'It hurt! It hurt A LOT. I tried to
run away from him but I'm small and weak and he's strong and hudge.So there
you go, now you know. You are free to leave.' He tried to free himself from
my embrance but I din't let go. 'I'm used and broken so why would you ever
want to stay?'

I just hugged him tight, kissed him on the forehead and said 'I'm not
leaving, not now, not ever.'

He was still avoyding my gaze so I lifted his chin with my finger and made
him look into my eyes. 'It's not your fault your father is a monster. It's
not your fault he did those horrible things to you. I don't care about the
scars. I love you Alex and I'm here for the staying.' At this point we were
both crying.

'R-Really? Y-You want to stay after everything I just told you?' He managed
to say timidly.

'Yes. As I said, I'm here for the staying.' He just burried his head into
my chest and cried harder and harder.

After a while his sobs stopped and he moved away from me not looking me in
the eye. He looked to be emarassed.

With one hand I started carresing his cheek and then I leaned in and once
again kissed him. It was a long ,passionate, loving kiss. Trough the kiss I
wanted to show him how much I loved him, how much I wanted him.

When we finally parted nether of us made an effort to try and move away. We
just sat like that, me holding him for a while. Then he spoke 'Is there
anything else you would want to know?'

So we spent the next hour or so just talking. He told me how when his
parents kicked him out and Sasha found out what they did to him she
flipped, beat the absolute shit out of their father (aparently she is very
much into kickboxing and karate. Mental note: NEVER get on her bad side
haha) moved out, took him with her and they both came to live with
David. David is her boyfriend and they have been going out for a few years
now. Alex told me how David had always treated him nicely, as if he was his
little brother. David and his sister helped him a lot in coming to terms
with being gay. The first night at David's, Alex and Sasha spent doing a
lot of talking and crying and hugging. She told him how much she loved him,
gay or straight, it didn't matter to her ether way.  Even Dayid joined in
on the conversation and said he didn't care ether and that he would like
for him and Alex to become good friends.  They even introduced him to some
of their gay friends.  He said that he never hooked up with any of them
tough.

Time flew by rather quickly and before we knew it it was dark outside. I
wondered how was that we weren't interupted? Maybe they overheard us and
didn't want to bother us.

'I should probably get home. It's already dark outside.' With that I gave
him a long passionate kiss before saying 'I'm gonna come over tomorow after
school, okay?'

 'I'll be here.' he said with a smile that could light up a room.

Reducantly I got off the bed and after a last look and a smile I left the
house.

That night I fell asleep rather quickly. With everything that happened I
thought I would never be able to fall asleep but I guess I didn't realize
how emotionally drained I was untill it was time to go to bed. I fell
asleep as soon as my head touched the pillow.

The next day at school I was practically glowing. I was so happy to finally
get Alex to open up a bit. I mean I was still pretty upset because of the
things his father did to him but at that point there was nothing I could
actually do other than make sure no one ever did that to him again so I
decided not to think about it and focus on the positive stuff.

Quinn didn't come to school that day so at lunch it was just Ted and I. I
almost chocked on my pizza when Ted said: 'You are in a good mood today,
and you seem to mention Alex even more that usual so I'll take it you two
hooked up or something?'

'What?! How? NO...um- ' I thought I was gonna have a heart attack.

'Relaaaax bro! You know I don't care and I'm not gonna say anything!'  As
he said that he even chuckled a bit.

'How did you know? I mean I'm not that obvious, am I?' Panic swept over me.

'Nah, relax. I saw it because well, I know what to look for. So I'll take
it you are not ready to out yourself?'

How the hell does he know what to look for? What if he's gay too? Naaah,
probably not, maybe he has a gay cousin or a friend or something. He must
have seen the confused expression on my face because he continued. 'One of
my aunt's sons is gay. He told me when he first found out in the 7th grade,
I was 9th grade at the time so I was kind of a hero to him for his whole
life; he was always at my heels. So, anyway he told me he was gay and very
confused and to this day I'm the only one that knows. That's why I know
what to look for.'

I just stared at him for a moment but decided he was a nice enough guy and
it would be okay to talk to him, and, I mean he already knows so why not
tell him? I lowered my gaze to the floor and answered the question.

'I really don't know bro. I'm confused as fuck. On one hand I really do
want to do it and tell the whole world I love Alex. I want everyone to know
he's mine and mine only so if anyone messes with him, they will have a
problem with me. But, on the other hand I'm scared, I'm scared of what will
everyone at school say, what if I get kicked of the football team and worst
of all..What if my parents find out?  I'm pretty certain my father would
first beat the living shit out of me and then kick me out for good. '

'You sure he would really do that? I mean okay he hates gays, but you are
his son!'

'Yeah, I'm sure.' I said sadly.

'But hell dude, they don't have to know. I mean when was the last time your
parents came to school, or even called to see how you're doing? '

'Never.'

'And aren't they on those goddamn business trips most of the year? '

'Yeah, I'm home alone right now. They are in California, I think.'

'So how are they supposed to find out?'

'I don't know! But I'm still scared!'

'Well are they friends with any of the kids from school parents?'

'No, not as far as I know.'

'Well then I really don't see what you are so scared about.'

'I just am. Try and put yourself in my shoes! If my parents ever found out
they would kick me out and then where would I be? Under a bridge?!'

'Yeah, I see where you come from. The bottom line is that it's your choice;
you have to decide which risks you will take and which not. '

And with that the discussion was over. We both fell quiet each lost in
their own thoughts.

After practice I once again went to Alex's house. Nothing special happened,
no crying, no new revelations. Just two guys enjoying each other's company
and getting to know each other a bit better. We of course got a fair amount
of lip time but we never got out of our clothes. I figured I shouldn't push
him, but let him lead us at his own pace. I even stayed over for
dinner. Nothing special, just some salsa with pasta and salad. It was nice
for a change to have someone to talk to while eating.

I learned a lot about Sasha and David. They are both actually pretty nice!

 David is in 4th year of med school and wants to become a surgeon while
Sasha isn't going to college.

She wanted to, but she has to work full time so she can support her and
Alex. While she was saying that Alex's eyes were fixated on the floor with
a guilty look on his face. Sasha noticed and lifted his chin and made him
look into her eyes. Then she smiled at him and said 'It's not your fault!'
Alex smiled weakly and turned away. She said that, actually, things turned
out pretty good for her. Her plan was to go to college and become a
physical therapist to meet her father's wishes but after that learn how to
be a tattoo artist. She said that was her true passion ever since she was a
kid.  So actually the only alteration in her plan is not going to
college. When they first moved in with David she was pretty desperate to
find a job so she became the 'cleaning lady' in, as luck would have it, a
tattoo parlor. She became friends with one of the artists who agreed to
teach her. One thing led to another and now Sasha is one of the parlor's
best artist's.

When we finished I thanked for dinner and I insisted on helping with the
dishes but was not gonna have any of that! She quickly sent me to the
living room with David and Alex to watch some TV. Alex and I were on the
couch while Sasha and David took the loveseat. Since it was Friday I was
able to stay late as there was no school tomorrow so we settled in to watch
some romantic comedy Sasha wanted to watch. About halfway into the film
Alex without a word shifted his position so his head was on my thigh
imitating a pillow. He looked up at me and I looked down and smiled. He
smiled tot and then turned around to watch the rest of the film. For the
rest of the film one of my hands was caressing one of his. About 20 mins
more into the movie I looked down and realized Alex had fallen asleep. He
was SO cute. I never wanted to wake him up. He looked like he didn't have a
care in the world.

When the movie ended only I and David stayed awake. Alex was sleeping in my
arms and Sasha in David's. He did to her the same thing I did to Alex, in
his eyes I saw the love he had for her. For a while we just sat there
observing our loved ones, taking in the beautiful sights in front of us.
But as all things that had to come to an end. I carried the still sleeping
Alex up into his room and tucked him into bed. Just as I was about to leave
he started to stir. 'Shh, it's just me. Go back to sleep, babe. I'll see
you tomorrow. ' And I kissed him on the forehead. He opened his eyes and
said 'No, please don't leave. Will, you stay the night? Please? It's Friday
so we can sleep in tomorrow?' After he said it he looked a tad bit
embarrassed and desperate. I think I saw even a hint of panic but I wasn't
sure.

'I'm not sure. Won't David and Sasha mind?'

'Nah, they like you.' He said with a glint of hope.

'Sure? Well where would I sleep?' He opened his blanked and gestured me to
sleep with him. When I looked at his face his cheeks turned slightly pink.

'Are you sure?' I asked again giving him the chance to back away if he
panicked.

He simply nodded with a smile.

'Well okay then.' I said and smiled.

Quickly I stripped off my jeans and t-shirt leaving my boxers on and hurled
to bed as fast as I could so Alex wouldn't notice that Junior was getting
more excited by the minute.

After I got under the covers I was a bit uncertain of what to do, how to
sleep? Not to mention that I was by then stiff as a board and Junior
wouldn't let me sleep anyway.

Another few mins passed before slowly Alex turned around to face me and
kissed me gently. After that I started kissing him more
passionately. Finally after some quality lip time Alex broke away and
didn't dare to look me in the eye while saying 'I-I'm sorry. I'm not ready
yet. Please I'm so-'

'Sorry for what? Not ready for what?' He looked like he was genuinely
scared and was about to cry.

'Hey babe! Tell me what's wrong! Please! '

'I'm sorry I'm not ready to have sex with you. I know you expect-'

I didn't even let him finish his sentence before saying 'Babe, please don't
cry over that! It's okay! I'm not here because I want to have sex with you
and when I got into this bed the last thing I thought would happen would be
the two of us having sex! ' I kissed him on the forehead before continuing
'Sex doesn't mean love. Sex doesn't make love nether more or less
meaningful. Sex is just a way for two people to show and share their love
for each other. One day, I'm not gonna lie to you, I would like to have sex
with you but only when you say you are ready. I don't care if that's next
week, in two months, a year, or never. PLEASE do not, I repeat DO NOT feel
pressured to have sex with me, okay?'

With tears in his eyes he looked up at me and said 'Thank you.'

 I kissed him and said 'You don't have to thank me.' I kissed him again 'I
know people treated you badly in the past and I still beat myself over not
helping you sooner but now you have me. I am gonna treat you right. I'm
gonna treat you the way a man should treat another. I'm gonna treat you the
way you deserve to be treated. ' Then I wrapped my arms around him and he
buried his head into my chest while weeping softly.

After a while he stopped crying and his breathing changed. He was asleep. I
was awake for a while longer just watching him sleep 'till eventually I
fell asleep too.

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Sorry guys for taking soo long to publish this chapter. I have finals
coming up so I hardly have any time to write.

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