Date: Sun, 8 Apr 2007 17:37:52 -0400
From: ppdanny@gmail.com
Subject: Corey's Dear Journal

The events, name, story, places, occurrences in this store are all fiction.
Any information which can be traced to anyone is purely coincidence. I have
written this as if in the eyes of a young man, at the tender age of 21.
Each chapter will be in the form of a journal entry, as young Corey adds
events to his journal. If you have any comments or suggestions you can
email them to me at: ppdanny@gmail.com


Corey's Dear Journal!

Chapter 1: The online meeting.

Sunday April 8th,  2007 -- Easter.

As I lay there in the bed, the tears streaming down my face of my dream
come true. Jason. I feel for him and I fell for him hard. We had a fight
and he yelled at me. I don't know, something about him yelling at me made
me snap. At the time I managed to collect my cool and in a low, firm
voice I declared to him: "I never want to talk to you again". That was
the end of it. The relationship was over. I lay here now, thinking back
to that moment when I shouldn't have told him to go away. I miss him, and
I miss the relationship I had with him.

To take my mind off things I am playing bingo online. Setting the dabber
to manual so I have to concentrate on not missing a number. Tomorrow
morning there is a major tournament. I am really looking forward to it,
though I haven't been up at that hour in years. Anyways, after playing
for a few hours people went offline. There were no more games running and
I was still wide awake. Onto the internet I went, to a personals site. I
figured the best way for me to get over Jason would be for me to meet new
people. Just friends.

I saw only 1 person that stood out. His name is Chris and I am 4 yours
his senior. I decided to add him to my msn. Shortly after that I went to
bed.

This is the story of me, Corey, meeting someone, Chris, who in a matter
of days has had a huge impact on my life.

I woke up the next morning with my alarm clock buzzing. Within a few
minutes I was up and about and right back onto my laptop. Registering for
the tournament and getting set to win. It was Single elimination, first
10 in the first round get through. Either way it didn't matter much. I
didn't make it through the first round. I lost, and not only did I lose
-- but I was dead last! I decided to look around some of my online
profiles and if there were any updates. Nope, not one. 9am rolled around
and right after that Chris signed on.

I sent him  a message and he asked me how I got his email. So I told him
here I got it from and this started us off in our conversation.
Throughout the day we talked about various things. We got interrupted
various times by things we had to do. I didn't really mind. After all
once cant sit in front of a computer for 16 hours without taking a break
of some kind. We talked about all kinds of things. From past
relationships (briefly) to hobbies, to  the kind of music we liked.

Over the coarse of the conversation I told him what I look for in
friendship, and what  I am looking for in a relationship. We talked a bit
about me and Jason. We also talked about me and the relationship I had
with Dane. I told him about various friends of mine, including a friend
that had a name similar to his. Christopher. I also told him about Tyler.
I guy I had know for a while that I met online that lives in a town near
him.

I am from Milton, Ontario, Canada. Chris was from Kitchener, Ontario,
Canada. And Tyler, Tyler is from Waterloo, Ontario, Canada. Its pretty
cool, because apparently Tyler and Chris have talked before. Chris seemed
like a really nice guy, someone that I could definitely have a friendship
with. Better yet, someone I could possibly one day consider for a
relationship.

The only catch was, Chris was already seeing someone. My heart sunk to
the floor when I found this out ... even though I barely knew him. I made
my first mistake then. I told him how I was still having trouble with
being lonely. I feel like I made him feel sorry for me, and pity me. Not
really what I wanted at all, but I was foolish. I did apologize to him
the next day, but he seemed to think an apology wasn't necessary. I soon
introduced him to my friend Alex. Alex was from the States and was
someone I only knew online, but a close friend at that. Someone I
trusted. I told Alex about some of the things I knew about Chris ... and
he could see I was hurting and how much I needed someone. I told him that
I think I really like Chris and want to get to know him. We talked more
about it, and I was telling him about how I found I was being foolish and
trying to impress Chris.

I was being really immature. I knew I was, but I couldn't help myself
anyways. I really am sorry I couldn't be myself ... because even now I
feel like I have already shut down any possibility of even a friendship
with Chris. I know he thinks I am irresponsible because of some of the
things which I had told him. I don't know what to do anymore ... and I
don't know how to handle this situation. I sit here, writing this now --
constantly being interrupted. I haven't been getting along with my
parents lately, so they are making things even more complicated for me.
Maybe when I am comfortable with it, and know that my parents cant find
my journal I will write some of my thoughts about that in here.

Corey. - /end