Date: Wed, 13 Jul 2005 13:14:28 -0700 (PDT) From: Cody mathews <codyjmathews@yahoo.com> Subject: Courage To Be Me 13 DISCLAIMER: The following story contains descriptions of sexual activities between teenage boys. If you are not over 18 years of age, or if you find this type of story offensive, or viewing this material is illegal where you are, then lease DON'T READ IT! If you choose to read it, then please enjoy. Part of this is based upon actual events in my life but also upon dreams I have had of how I guess I wanted my life to be. I may also take moments from things that have happened to friends of mine. or even maybe bits from movies and TV shows, so if you see something you recognise then you are prolly right and I took it from there. People's names will be changed to keep their identities a secret. **************************************************************** The Courage To Be Me! Chapter 13 "Joe its over!" I took a sip from the glass, "arggh! what is this?" "Charlie, don't ask just drink, trust me you will feel better, I know it's over you told me five times already." "But why?! Just 'cos we were outed at school he doesn't want the hassle." Joe slid slowly sideways down the settee - his head flopped on my shoulder. "Now that's a funny word, isn't it?" "What's a funny word?" Joe asked, his voice slightly slurred. "Elaculate," I replied, trying hard to pronounce the word accurately. My tongue seemed to be operating with a time lag. "I never heard that word before?" Joe's face took on a quizzical expression - made all the funnier by the ice-cream still around his mouth - sort of clownish. "Of course, you have," I drawled, " don't you know anything?" "Go on then, tell me what it means if you're so clever, Brainy Bear." Joe seemed to be slumping even more heavily against me. I pushed him away and got him sort almost upright for a minute. I turned to look him in the face with a serious expression. "Don't tell me you never heard the word....acjulate...oh...e-jac-u-late. That's it!" A look of triumph replaced my serious expression - I'd got control of my tongue again! "Come again?" Joe nearly fell off the settee laughing - his ass slid down until he was sitting on the floor, his head thrown back. He thought it was a great joke. "Hahahahaha!" I joined him on the floor - not intendedly, mind you! "Can you imagine saying to someone, you know, like, in bed say, saying, 'arggggggggh I'm gonna eeeeeejaculate!'" Again I fell about laughing - as did Joe - falling into each other, our heads banging together. "Ouch! Awwww!" "Did you know you could use it that way too? It don't just mean that, you know." "You lost me," said Joe, still rubbing his forehead. "I think I got a bruise!" "You can ejaculate in lots of places," I said proudly. "You dirty little sod!" "No, really, I mean, you know like when you're writing and you could write, er, 'exclaim'? Well, you could write 'ejaculate' instead! You know what I mean? It means the same! Like, give you a for instance, like, er, 'What the fuck!', he ejaculated. You could have people ejaculating all over the place!" After Joe had stopped laughing, he dug me in the ribs, "Be a bit messy though, wouldn't it? Imagine! 'Oh, look, there's mummy,' the little boy ejaculated. Hahahahah" "Now, Billy, you really must learn not to do that every time I come home. Now go and clean up that mess!" I was getting into this! "I think it can mean other things too - have you got a word thingy, a dictionary in the house? WE could look it up - you don't really believe me, do you?" I could see from the look on his face that he was beginning to have doubts. "Alright, smartass, let's you go look it up - or let's me go look it up. Now, where was it , the word thingy." He crawled across the floor on all fours towards the book-case. Having found it, he lay flat on his stomach and, once he had it the right way up - not as easy as it might sound - he began to flick through the pages, muttering his alphabet in all sorts of different orders under his breath. "Okay, I got it!" he yelled back. I crawled over to lie down beside him. "So, read it to me - you can read, can't you?" "It says it's originally the sweet potato, plant or tuber: now usually....." "What on earth are you looking up? That's not what we're looking for! Fuckin' potatoes!? Here, give it to me!" I reached out trying to pull the dictionary away from him. He clung on though. "Hey - get off - it's my book!" "No, come on, we're supposed to be looking up 'ejaculate'. You do it then if it's your rotten book!" I released my hold on it. There followed a few moments of quiet while Joe flicked over a few pages. "Okay, then....what's it begin with?" he looked sideways at me, his eyes glazed. "It's e -j -a...something, fuckwitt!" I laughed, I was soooooooo funny! I crawled onto his back and peered over his shoulder, turning the pages for him until we found it and he read it out, "ejaculate: to eject; to utter with suddenness; to utter or make an ejaculation; to emit semen. Ejaculation: ejection! emission; a sudden utterance, in prayer or otherwise; an unpremeditated emotional prayer or remark; emission of semen." "Hey!" Joe yelled, excited by the idea that occurred to him, "when I'm at the club and someone turns ugly I could ejaculate them! 'One more move and I'll ejaculate you from the premises!' Hahahaha!" and we both rolled about laughing. "Or..or..or - doctor delivering a baby! "Gosh, he's huge, he's twelve pounds!' he ejaculated. 'Oops, sorry, didn't mean to do that!' Hahahahaha!" I fell off Joe's back this time and lay on my back on the floor, feeling queazy but unable to stop myself laughing. Joe sat up quickly, "Oh my gog! stop I'm gonna pee!" he turned to look at me very serious-looking, then said in a narrator's voice, "he ejaculated." "Or..or..or," my turn again. "Father O'Malley hurried into the chapel, dropped to his knees and ejaculated on the spot! Ooooooooh, hahaha!" "I think I need a pee too - in fact, it might be too late! If you ejaculate any more I'll either piss myself or I'll throw up!" Saying that made me realise how funny my stomach felt. At the same time that Joe struggled towards the bathroom to pee, I crawled in the same direction - but not to pee. After coming back from the bathroom, neither of us feeling better for the visit, we decided it would be best if I crashed in the bed with Joe - that way I could keep an eye on him and him on me. After climbing into bed, Joe switched off the light and we settled down for the night. Barely even a minute had passed and I began to silently giggle and then announced, " Houston, this is the cockpit, we have ejaculation in, 5....4.....3...." Joe interrupted, "Charlie, don't even think about doing that in the bed with me next to you!" *********************************************************** Please DO NOT send emails to courage_2_b_me@yahoo.com or charlie_anderson99@yahoo.com both email accounts have been hacked into and I am unable to get them back at this time. If you post anything on Charlies home page it will not show up as I can not get to it either. Please however feel free to write to me at codyjmathews@yahoo.com with any comments or feelings about "Courage To Be Me".