Date: Fri, 25 Jun 2004 14:30:13 -0700 (PDT)
From: Cody mathews <codyjmathews@yahoo.com>
Subject: the Courage To Be Me chapter 5

Written by : Cody Mathews - codyjmathews@yahoo.com

DISCLAIMER: The following story contains descriptions of sexual
activities between teenage boys, as well as between a teenage boyl. If
you are not over 18 years of age, or if you find this type of story
offensive, or viewing this material is illegal where you are, then please
DON'T READ IT! If you choose to read it, then please enjoy.


Part of this is based upon actual events in my life but also upon dreams
I have had of how I guess I wanted my life to be. I may also take moments
from things that have happened to friends of mine. or even maybe bits
from movies and TV shows, so if you see something you recognise then you
are prolly right and I took it from there. I'm a slow writer but I will
try and write a chapter once a week. Please enjoy.

People's names will be changed to keep their identities a secret.


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The Courage To Be Me!


Still wasn't sure why it was so important to me, but when I woke up the
first thing I thought of was Joe - where he was and what he was doing and
if that guy was still with him? I rolled over and looked at my alarm
clock. 9 a.m. - not too early but still early enough. I could hear the
radio faintly in the kitchen, my mum was probably up and eating her
breakfast. As for my dad he was probably still in bed and wouldn't be up
till about 11, then he could make his way to the pubs to be with his beer
drinking friends; David would go out with his new girlfriend and Neil
would play on his playstation all day long and bug the shit out of mum.


I lay there a while thinking about the night before. It was nice of Joe
to make sure I was safe and to introduce me to Alex, he seemed cool. Just
then I heard the phone ring and my mum picking it up.


"Charlie! Phone!" she called from the bottom of the stairs. Did she not
realize that she'd just woken Neil up - I could hear him groaning from
his room - and that now I was so in for it when he got hold of me?!


"Ok, coming!" I jumped out of bed and grabbed my jeans from the night
before, pulled them on and headed out my door, straight into Neil who
didn't look pleased.


"Your little fag friends calling to find out when they can have that ass
of yours, huh?" he was rubbing his eyes and sniggering at me.


"Whatever, Neil, go back to your bed and jerk off!" I ducked before his
hand could hit out at me, and I headed down the stairs to take the phone
from mum.


"Thanks, mum," I took the phone from her and turned my back to her as I
walked into the living room. "Hello?"


"Cumming, huh?" Joe chuckled from the other end of the phone.


"What you talking about?"


"I heard you tell your mom you were cumming!"


"Huh? Oh,... ha ha, Joe, funny .... not. So, how did it go last night?" I
picked up the TV remote and flicked it on. Saturday morning cartoons
appeared on the screen.


"Oh, that? yeah it was good. So, what are your plans for today then,
Charlie Bear?"


"I hate it when you call me that!" I impatiently flicked from channel to
channel.


"Well, get used to it Charlie Bear. So, what are you doing?"


"Nothing, I was still in bed when you called," I flopped down on the
sofa, not really paying any attention to the TV.

"Well, get that lazy ass over here and come help me paint my bathroom."

"Paint your bathroom? Since when have you wanted to do that?"


"Since this morning. So, are you going to help or not?"


"Sure, give me an hour and I'll be over, and then you can tell me all
about it!"


"Sure thing, Charlie Bear."


"Stop calling me that!"


"Nope. Now, hurry, see you later. Bye!"


"Bye! See you in a minute!"


"You going out, are you?" my mum crossed the living room floor and turned
the TV off at the wall. " You know I don't like the TV on first thing in
the morning!"


"Humm, yeah, going to met up with some friends, why did you want me for
something?"


"No, just you're always out these days. You still dating that girl?...
What was her name?"


"Angel?" I replied.


"Yes ,that's the one."


"Oh, yeah, we're good. So, you don't mind if I go out, right?"


"No , I don't, just let me know if you're going to be late," she walked
out the room and headed back to the kitchen.


I made my way back up to my room and got dressed as quickly as I could. I
heard Neil in the shower and I didn't want to have another run-in with
him.


As I headed out the door I called back to my mum I would see her later,


Within minutes I was banging on Joe's door, waiting for him to answer. I
was panting and out of breath - I had run all the way - the sooner I got
there, the sooner I could hear all about his night!


Joe was grinning when he opened the door. "That was quick!"


"So, what's to be done first?" I pushed past and into the kitchen and
helped myself to a can of drink in the fridge.


"Well, come with me and you will find out!" He grabbed the back of my
shirt and pulled me up the stairs to the bathroom. He had already prepped
the walls and all we had to do was slap the paint on.


I looked around then turned back to him, "Okay, but while we do this, you
have to tell me all about last night and that guy." He pulled the lid off
the first tin of paint, a light blue, very nice and bathroom like.


"Well, nothing unusual happened!" he handed me a brush and pointed to the
wall behind the bath.


"Tell me more!"


"Fuck off, Charlie Bear!" he jumped into the bath and set to work on the
first coat.


"Aww, come on, tell me what happened!" I started on the wall next to the
wash -basin


"I'm not giving you the details!"


"Did you get his name?"


"YES ! you cheeky ass!" he lightly slapped me around the head," who do
you take me for?"


"Do you remember it?"


"YES, it was Andrew.... no, wait, it was ..... Adrian!"


"So you didnt get his name!?" I started to laugh.


"Well, I remember it started with an A....?"


"Just tell me what you did!"


"I got laid! How about you?"


"Nothing! After you left I stayed for a while and then Alex drove me
home, that was it!"


"Oh, I see, that's why you want details, so you can think about it for
your little jerk off fantasy tonight."


"Fuck off, Joe!"


"Okay, well, you wouldn't believe the size of his cock!" he indicated
with his hands that it was about 12 inches.


"Holy shit! no way!"


Joe started to grin.


"I don't believe you," I gave him a playful shove.


"Well, you want it to be a good fantasy tonight, don't you?" The tone in
his voice changed to something a little more confidential. "Actually, it
was pretty hot."


"So, spill! What happened?"


"Well, it wasn't so much what happened, as more like how we did it, where
we did it."


He turned and started back on the wall. "Well, it was kind of a first for
me - I had him over the back of the sofa! Never had anyone over the back
of the sofa before, only on it. We didn't even make it to the bedroom he
was so horny!" he looked back to me and smiled.


"I bet! He looked pretty horny at the club, and that was before the walk
to your place!" I winked at him.


"He was gagging for it, we had hardly got in through the door and his
hands were all over me and pulling at my jeans!"


"REALLY!!!?"


Joe looked at me.


"Ok, that's enough info for you, Charlie Bear, you don't want to wear it
out tonight now do you?"


"Fuck you!"


"Ha ha, you wish!" He turned back to the paint pot and dipped his brush
into it, " So, what do you think of Alex?"


"Yeah, he's cool!"


"You guys get on well?"


"Oh, yeah, he's a nice guy, it was cool of him to give me a ride home."


"I thought you two would get on well. So, did anything happen with you
two on the ride home?"


"Hell no! We're not like that, he just gave me a ride! Do you always
think sex?!"

By the time the walls had had a second coat we were whacked and Joe rang
to order a take-away for us both. It seemed a good idea for me to stay
over. Just to keep things cool, I forced myself to ring my mum and ask
her permission! (It made Joe feel a bit easier too.) She didn't actually
ask who I was staying with, but I seemed to get into her good books just
by letting her know.

Joe made up a bed on the sofa for me with sheets and pillows and that's
where I spent the night.

By the time we saw daylight the next day it was almost afternoon so,
after a bit of breakfast, I headed home - didn't want to push my luck too
far!

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