Date: Tue, 24 Feb 2004 23:09:19 -0500
From: Eric Lattenhaus <erotic_dreams_story@hotmail.com>
Subject: CRAZY FOR THE BOY - Chapter 8 - Matt & Shawn

CRAZY FOR THE BOY - Chapter 8 - Matt & Shawn
Matt & Shawn
--by Eric L.                           *** GAY TEEN FICTION ***

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CRAZY FOR THE BOY - (Matt & Shawn) - Chapter 8


      It is the afternoon after Shawn made love to Matt.  Shawn
      shows up at Matt's hospital room right after school, and
      has to leave for a dentist's appointment.  While Shawn is
      at the dentist, Kirk visits.  Matt and Kirk talk for a few
      minutes when Shawn returns.


      "And nothing happened, Kirk?  You and Shawn never had sex?"

      "No, Matt.  Never."

      "Fuck.  Then why would Shawn say that?" I asked.

      "Say what?" Shawn said, walking into the room.
      ______


"Shawn!" Kirk and I yelled at the same time.  My body was
quivering.

My first thought was that my poor lover was in front of a firing
squad--and I forgot that I was one of the guns.  I tensed.

Shawn froze, his eyes wide.

"Hey, brother," Kirk said, his voice laced with acid, "what the
fuck--"

"Wait, Kirk--let me talk to him," I said as aggressively as
possible, hoping the usual would happen and Kirk would back off,
just for a moment.

I felt more fearful for Shawn and what he was about to go through
than for the showdown we were about to have.  This was tough.

"Hey, guys," Shawn said, gulping hard, his voice shaky.

"Shawn," I said, "did you tell me the truth about you and Kirk?"
It then occurred to me that I hadn't said 'hello' to him.

"Me and Kirk?" Shawn said, starting to tremble.

"Yes!  About you and Kirk having sex!  Did you lie to me about
that?" I said.

Shawn was horrified.  His face distorted, and he leaned on the
wall for physical support.  He tried to speak several times.
Finally, catching his breath, he spoke.

"Yes."

My heart sank into icy cold water.  My world imploded around me.
Tears came instantly.  I was never so shaken in my life.

"Why, Shawn?  Why?!!" Kirk shouted at his brother.

Shawn looked down, not knowing what to say.  His eyes darted from
me to Kirk.  "I don't know!  I just. . . I don't know!"

"You fucker!  You little bastard!" Kirk screamed.  "And a LIAR,
too!  At least you fucking admitted it--but that's nothing, now!
You shit!  And look what you did to Matt!"

Shawn broke into tears.

If Kirk was revving up his emotions for my sake, he was making a
bad impression.  I never knew Kirk to be so nasty and hurtful.  I
thought he'd gone too far, attacking Shawn that way, even though
I knew emotions would fly high.  'This is his brother, not some
street punk,' I thought.  This was just way out of line.

"Anyway, I'm outta here," Kirk said, "I'll let you guys fight it
out."  Then Kirk stopped and looked right into my eyes, and
smiled.  "Well, Matt, I have ONE reason to feel good," Kirk said,
raising his eyebrows hospitably.

As for me and Shawn, our eyes were glued to Kirk.  Then Kirk
spoke again, as if to punctuate what had gone before.

"I'll NEVER forgive you, Shawn, for saying I made you have sex
with me!"  Kirk seemed less belligerent when he said that, as if
the edge were already taken off.

"Wait, Kirk!" I said as he passed through the doorway, but he
didn't answer.  He was gone.

"Oh, God, Matt," Shawn said, visibly shaken, his tears streaming
down, "I can't believe my brother . . . acted like that."  Shawn
seemed numb.

My mind was racing with a thousand thoughts, and I replied, still
in the trance of them, "When you get home, you may not have a
brother."

Shawn sobbed deeply, throwing himself face down on the hospital
bed, his body pulsating with grief.

I took time out to collect my thoughts.  I regretted saying that
to Shawn about his brother rejecting him--but in my mental state,
I'd probably make a worse mess trying to take it back.

I was angry at Shawn, and I loved him.  The love took over, but
the anger remained.

The big question was, 'Why did Shawn lie?'  As hard as I tried,
my mind would not go there.  I tried to think of him as a liar, a
traitor--but try as I might, I kept seeing him as beautiful--as
my lover.  Was I stupid?  Was I a wimp when it came to Shawn?
Could I trust my own feelings, right now?  Could I trust Shawn?

After crying himself out, Shawn sat up in bed and looked at me--
his tear-stained face a story of sorrow and regret.  My face
probably didn't look happy either.  Shawn just stared at me for a
while, looking like he would burst out crying again.

"You should really be ashamed of yourself.  You lied to me--your
lover--the person who wants you and cares for you.  You
disappointed me, Shawn.  I feel like I'm totally let down and
shut down.  I'm mad, but trying not to let that take over.  I
honestly don't know what to do or say now.  Whatever you say to
me now, Shawn, make it true and make it damn good."

I thought I'd showed maturity and restraint, but as I heard my
own words, I wasn't happy with what I'd said.  Silence hung in
the air.

Shawn waited a while before answering, which made me more
nervous.  I was sweating.

"Matt, I'm sorry," he said softly, crying silently.

It felt good to hear Shawn say that, but the good feeling was
drowned out while I pondered how to answer--and came up blank,
except for the same old built-in responses that just came out
automatically.

"Shawn why did you do that?"  I felt like my father--like I was
talking to my son instead of my lover; like a dad talking to a
little boy.  I hated that feeling.

Shawn cried in silence, his tears and occasional jerk of his body
the only evidence of his anguish.  After a few moments, he looked
down, as if the truth of his own thoughts were a heavy burden.

"I saw how you and Kirk acted playing tennis, and after, when we
all took a shower together that day.  You guys seemed to know
each other forever.  I was like nothing to you."

"Okay," I said very quietly with forced patience, trying to
listen to Shawn, to get inside his head and understand.  "Kirk
was my best friend since I can remember."

"I wanted to make you mad at Kirk, then you'd want me more, and--
then you would have--"

Then, it clicked.  "Have a reason for loving you?"

"Yes." Shawn said in a surprisingly firm voice.  He looked up
then, full of regret, but with a yearning--a wild desire that was
willing to risk anything.  "Matt, I--"

"Well, It doesn't work that way.  I don't need to be mad at Kirk,
and I don't need another reason for loving you, Shawn."

"Other reason?  You have a reason?"

"Come on!  What do you think, man!"  I was losing patience fast.
"Just listen, Shawn--I think you're wonderful, manly, beautiful,
sincere, besides being very cute, and a good lover.  That's a lot
of reasons.  But you don't think you're like that, do you?"

There was more anger in my voice than I wanted.

"No.  Kirk is all those things, and--"

"Well, yeah, but . . . FUCK!" I said, like a ton of bricks hit
me.

"What?"

"You thought I was going to leave you for Kirk, didn't you,
Shawn."

"Yeah," Shawn said, his cries turning to sobs again, and his face
all distorted.  "Matt--You were HARD in the shower, talking to
Kirk."

"Yeah, after tennis practice.  Okay, Shawn, Kirk's sexy--so that
had something to do with it, but all through school I was hard
when your brother and I showered together.   I'm that way in the
shower ninety-nine percent of the time, Shawn.  You'll find out."

"Find out?  You mean you still want me?"

"Yeah, I love you, you little shit!"  I think it was the first
time I said, 'I love you' without smiling--but I felt Shawn would
take it the way my heart meant it.

"What about Kirk?"

"I don't love him, Shawn, okay?  Ya got that?"

"No--I mean yes . . . but--he's mad at me now.  What should I
do?"

"You should hug me, and let me hug you."  The tension was too
much, and a good hug would relieve both of us.

The hug was tentative.  We were two wounded animals, not quite
trusting each other yet.  After a bit, I relaxed and tried to
pull out of the hug.  That's when Shawn grabbed me tighter, and
held on for dear life.

Then the heavy-duty sobs came, and mine with his.  We stayed that
way for a long time in silence.

"Oh, boy.  Trouble in paradise.  So, this is him?  You have good
taste, Matthew.  A little young, but cute," Steve Thurbin said.

I guessed it was time for another shot.  Hopefully, just the pain
shot, this time.

Shawn and I both blushed.  This was not a time for a visit, even
from the medical technician.

Shawn got up right away, and went to the far corner of the room.
I took his place on the bed and lifted my hospital gown just
enough for Steve to give me the injection.  He was fast.  I
turned around right away to see him and Shawn.

"Okay, hot boy," Steve said to me with no expression on his face,
"No play time today.  We're short-handed."  And he was out the
door.

I noticed Shawn, though fearful, had eyed Steve up and down.  He
never took his eyes off the guy.

"Play time?" Shawn asked, looking only slightly quizzical.

"Yeah.  You're not gonna believe it, Shawn, but that guy is bold
as hell."

"He knows?  Did you tell him?"

"Yeah he knows--but I don't know how.  I think he's psychic.
Yesterday, he walks in and tells me, 'Turn over, sexy,' and I was
hard.

"Then he asks me if I need help with my boner.  I said something
about him watching me, but that was the pain shot talking, and he
whips it out and jerks off."

I left out the part where I jerk off, too.

"Oh, God!" Shawn said.

Obviously Shawn was shocked, but trying not to show it.

"I jerked off, too."  I had to get that off my chest.

"Oh, no, Matt!"

"Yeah.  Weird, huh?"

"I guess, Matt.  But you ARE hot and sexy."

"I wanna be that to YOU, but not HIM," I said, sensing there was
a lot Shawn wanted to ask, but his face told me he was holding
back.

"You don't think he'll tell on you, do you, Matt?"

"No.  No worries there.  He should be afraid I'll tell on HIM."

"Matt--you didn't like . . . you know, have . . . feelings for
him--"

"No, Shawn."

I guess Shawn was still wondering if I was going to stick by him.
He looked nervous.  Then something hit me.  Kirk was in the room
when Shawn made his admission.  I was so dense sometimes.

"Shawn--Kirk was here when you said you'd lied to me."  I said,
sounding and feeling like Sherlock Holmes.

"Yeah."

"Was it true what you said?  Had you really lied to me
yesterday?"

"Yeah--no, I don't know what you mean."  Shawn was obviously
confused.

"When you'd told me yesterday that Kirk had sex with you, you
admitted that was a lie.  Did you just say that because Kirk was
here, and you didn't want a fight on your hands?"

"No, Matt.  I swear!  I thought you believed me!"  Then the tears
again.

This was getting weird to think about--he thought I'd believed
him when he said he'd lied.  Yes, I did.  But now, I didn't know
what to think or say.

I felt I really screwed up, this time, and shouldn't have asked
Shawn that question.  I tried to joke about it.

"Maybe I'll spank the truth out of you."  This put Shawn into the
worst panic yet.

"Matt, NO!  You can't--"

"Whoa, Shawn!  Chill.  I was just kidding."

"Okay," he said, the relief on his face unmistakable.

"I'll just tickle you till you turn blue."

Shawn lifted his arms, invitingly.

"Later, boy--when you're not expecting it."  I smiled.

We were both exhausted from all the tension, said our good-byes,
and kissed.  Shawn left.

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Later that evening, my parents came to see me.  The surgeon
popped in while they were there, thank God, and answered all
their questions.

"What are the risks of this surgery?" dad asked Dr. Fellowes.  I
noticed mom perked up and looked right at the doctor.

"The risks are low.  Usually it's just a matter of getting the
bones rightly lined up, matching his original jaw line, which we
have from an older X-ray, and making a molded 'morphatum,' a
semi-soft plastic mask that Matt will wear over his chin and one
side of his jaw, to keep the bones in place while they heal."

I was watching my dad's face.  I could tell that Doctor Fellowes
did not cover everything my dad wanted to hear.

"Let's get down to brass tacks, doctor, shall we?  What is the
worst case scenario, the most troubling risks?"

Doctor Fellowes seemed stunned by dad's aggressiveness.  "Well,
in the absolute worst case--death is a possibility with any
surgery.  Other than that, one of the pieces of jawbone could
break as we handle it; a tooth may get damaged; a piece of jaw
could escape the suction and stick in the throat, making things
difficult.  The possibilities are endless, but there's no point
in dwelling on the--"

"That's all right.  Thank you, doctor." dad said, apparently
satisfied.

I wished dad had never asked that question, and I'd noticed
Doctor Fellowes look over at me sympathetically while he was
giving his answer.

"Is there a safer way to fix his jaw?" mom asked, wringing her
hands anxiously.

"It's the only way, Mrs. Andikker."

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After my parents left I felt a blue cloud come over me.  I was
feeling down, down, down.  The nurses and the man with the snack
cart helped.  The snack guy come into my room for the first time,
cart and all.

"Hey, now, big guy," the man said humbly, "I seen you a couple
nights now, an today you looks different.  Somthin's not right
wit 'cha."

He didn't stare into my eyes, just glanced up at me for a moment.

That's all he said as I picked out what I wanted from the cart.
I usually took a bunch of stuff, and an apple, too--but tonight,
I skipped the apple.

The kind man had more to say.

"I know youse in love," he said, putting an apple on my tray, "an
I think might be your cutie pie's troublin ya.  But you don' haf
ta say nothin.  I's jus talkin at 'cha--"

"Thanks.  You're right.  I knew you knew."

"Well, I don' know much, but I know what I sees."

"It's . . . so hard to explain--"

"You ain't gotta explain nuthin to me, 'n' nobody else, either.
Just r'member ol' Charlie told you, love always gonna win.  'N'
you gotta just know that, 'n' thank God for it--'at's all you
gotta do."

He tapped the fingers of his right hand gently on my foot, as if
to console me.  I felt strangely reassured by his sincere warmth.

The man turned to leave.  He wasn't quite all the way out the
door when I cried.  I cried for a long, long time.

The usual hospital sounds seemed to get louder, and I woke up
from my slump.  I ate most of my snacks, then I looked at the
apple and smiled.

I hadn't stopped worrying.  I thought I'd call Shawn at home and
see how he was doing.  It was important to me that Shawn be the
one to answer the phone.

He was.

"Hi Shawn!  How are ya?"

"Well, um," Shawn said tearfully, "We um, I mean I--"

"Shawn, what's wrong?"

"Kirk ran away.  We can't find him!"

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7.  spanking-paddling-and-brother-love
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