Date: Thu, 30 Dec 2004 01:47:58 -0500
From: Damien Seul <damien_seul@hotmail.com>
Subject: Damien's Journal #1

Disclaimer: This story will eventually be about the relationship between
two gay teenaged boys. In the beginning there will be limited, if any,
sexual scenes.  These will depict sexual acts between two consenting
teenaged males. While the story starts with a base in reality, elements
have been added for dramatic purposes. The names have been changed but the
events are mostly true. If it is illegal to view such material in your
area, please leave now.

Nifty;'Damien's Journal #1'{Damien Seul}( BB real teen2 slow )[1!?]

DAMIEN'S JOURNAL
Written by and copyright held by Damien Seul (2004)

	Rushing to school that morning was more difficult than normal.
Auditions were the day before for our school's spring musical, "Li'l
Abner." How exciting... Driving into the stadium parking lot and hauling
myself into the building seemed to take forever. The usual morning
greetings and then the dreadful sound of the warning bell: No time to check
the cast list!

	I dodged to my English class and sat through another tacky lesson
with woman who married the mailman. Next was Biology, maybe an interesting
experiment today. Hooray! More boring notes! Thankfully, on the way to my
French class, I passed a house office to see my name on the cast list!
Relieved was not the word for it. Scanning the list I noticed the usual
musical talents plus a bunch that I didn't know. It should be a great cast.

	Rehearsals came and went and one day I was visiting with a freshman
that I didn't know... It was strange for me not to know someone in the cast
at this point because I always tried to meet the WHOLE cast before a show.
The girl, Shade, and I got along well and before we knew it, rehearsal was
over for the day.

	Finally, we were down to the final days. This was horrible, our
first run- thru and we opened the next day! Shade and I had gotten closer
and I had learned that she was a lesbian who always said what was on her
mind. Her sexuality was probably the pivotal point in my coming out to her
on that day. Shade and Aaron were sitting on my lap and we were casually
talking about fashion. At the time, Aaron was a self-proclaimed
metrosexual. Aaron left to get ready for a scene and I admitted to Shade
about being bisexual and about my crush on Aaron.

	She stared deep into my blue-green eyes to see if I was being
truthful before flipping out with happiness for me. She told me that Aaron
did have a girlfriend at the time but she was very doubtful as to his
straight nature.  We devised a plan to have her tell him that he had a
secret admirer. This went well for about 3 days then I had her tell him
that it was a guy. He immediately knew that it was me. As I said, he
considered himself straight at the time so he didn't quite respond in the
story-tale, happily-ever-after style I would have liked.

	I wrote him a note about it just confirming that it was really
true. It was returned with a lengthy note that started with something along
the lines of, "I don't want to sound mean but... I DON'T LIKE BOYS!" With a
font that spread 2 lines of notebook paper. I must have cried for a half
hour after reading that one. Damn, I hate being overly sensitive.
Thankfully, he was very open-minded so it didn't destroy what little
friendship we had. We remained friends, but I was much more timid around
him than before. The show ended and life went on, as life does. I had
forged new friendships that would shape me into a newer person with a
different style.

	I kept in contact with Shade, Aaron, and others like Amara, Kit,
Rose, and Autumn over the summer. Returning from a trip to Europe found me
at Kit's house with Amara and Aaron for a photo shoot because we had
nothing better to do with the day. Dressed in mainly black gave rise to
solemn pictures with a black and white camera. Developed that day an hour
later was our results: Awesome pictures!

	School started back up a week later and not much happened outside
of school. We saw each other and still visited but didn't get to hang out
much.  We had a fun weekend party (See Brownie Points in bi/highschool)
which put things on hiatus for a while. By now, Aaron had finally admitted
to being bisexual, which we all knew anyways. We were happy for him but
nothing really changed in terms of our friendship.

	Again, I was back to the boring routine of school. Getting up an
hour earlier than everyone else, for an extra class a day... YAY! Seeing
Aaron before first hour... before second hour... before third hour, if I'm
lucky... at lunch...  after school... did I mention that I like the boy? I
swear my schedule was made so I could pass him in the halls all the time!
This boring routine continued, with us hanging out every now and then.
Throw in an innocent cuddling incident at a local park, the more than
occasional deliberate sexual teasing on his part and you've got our
friendship. I did ask him out a second time after I found out he was bi,
and this time he told me that he didn't want to risk losing the strong
friendship that we had now. As the old saying goes, "Friendship often ends
in Love, but Love in Friendship, never."

	Finally, I woke up one morning with an idea: Have a New Year's Eve
party!  It was genius! He'd finally be able to stay all night; and, because
it was New Year's, maybe my mom could be convinced to let us have a glass
of wine, thus reducing his inhibitions about the loss of our friendship
after taking it a step up. Only time will tell if it will even be possible,
I still want to kiss him at midnight, if he'll let me. I guess I've got
until Saturday morning at 12:00 to find out.

TBC

Author's note: Hey guys, this is only my second attempt at a story. The
first one never went anywhere so I changed styles a bit. Well, what did you
think?  Please let me know by e-mailing me at damien_seul@hotmail.com. Feel
free to add me to your MSN if you have it! Always willing to talk to other
Nifty readers!