Date: Mon, 17 Oct 2011 22:47:54 -0500
From: Hut Panda <hutpanda@hotmail.es>
Subject: Damn, Stupid Love

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Damn Everything


"Alex! Hurry the fuck up!" I ran downstairs as my brother shouted at
me. Great way to start the day right? I grabbed my backpack and ran to my
brother's car.

"If I'm late again, I'll say is your fault" My brother was a senior. I a
Junior. I couldn't wait for him to leave for college- if he graduates,
cause he is a really dumb jock- and leave me alone. Only one more year, and
I'll be free.

We stopped at his friend's house and picked him up. My brother Mark was the
school's golden boy, he was 6 feet tall and really buff. Also he was a
jock. Captain of the football team and a real jerk. He dates one of the
slutty cheerleaders and he's friends with the dumb jocks (who think of
themselves stupidly high).

"Hey Mark" Rob was Mark's best friend. They knew each other since
diapers. I knew him too, but we weren't in the same social circle, if you
get me. Rob was better good looking than my brother, but he always came
second. He let my brother take the spotlight and all, but he is a really
nice guy.

"Hey Butters" what a stupid nickname. He said I had a tight butt, so that's
where the nickname comes. Yeah, my school isn't as judgemental as the
others about all things. Like Homosexuals, emos, pregnant girls, all you
can imagine, it was better cause actually everyone knew I was gay, and they
didn't congratulate me but neither disturbed my day so it was fine with me.

"Hey jerk" yeah, he deserved it. He just smirked. One of those that makes
the girls giggle and blushed. Well I might be gay, but not a girl, so his
smirks didn't have an effect on me. He is more like a brother.

"You know you love me" he said and began chatting away with my brother. I
just checked my messages and text Linda, that went by Li, my best
friend. She was the best person in the world.  And there's Matt, my geek
friend who I love to death. He is really good looking but doesn't show it
with his square glasses and geeky clothes, always wearing sweaters and dark
trousers. I saw him on swimming suit once, let me tell you he's got a fine
six-pack underneath all of those clothes.

We arrived at school and I bolted out of the car. Rob was more like my
brother than Mark. He checked that I did my homework before school- which
he didn't did any- and walked me to my friends. Creepy right. Mark always
follows and just says "Have a good day" and leaves. It has been since I
came out. They think guys at my school are sex machines who will rape
me. Too bad mostly all of them are straight.

"Not so fast bubble butt, come here" Rob checked my homework and then
walked me to my friends. Mark left with Regina , his girlfriend, and Rob
decided to torture me once more.

"So does any guys...mmm you know" he was scratching his head , he does that
when he's nervous.

"No Rob, so don't keep talking" he sighed in relieved and we just walked in
silence.

"Alex!" Li hugged me and then pushed Rob away. Li and Matt didn't like
Rob. Maybe because he said they were outcasts and freaks. But they are both
so fun and even if I'm gay, Li is gorgeous. I am gay not blind.

"Watch it" Rob said glaring at Li. She rolled her eyes and took my hand.

"See you later butters" Rob shouted from the end of the hall, since Li
dragged me away in matter of seconds. I was laughing. I always did with Li.

"Alex!" Matt was by his locker and smiled. He was taller than me. A lot
taller than me maybe like 6 feet. I was short for my age, like 5'6".

"Hey Matt" The three os us were like the golden trio. Always together. That
pissed Rob. But he can't give a reason, I think he likes Li, cause they are
always fighting. Maybe that is.

"So Are you guys ready for our movie marathon?" Li asked excited. Always
when the new school year began, we did a movie marathon. The fun part is
that we always stay up until 4 in the morning so it was like the next day,
which we had school, was horrible. But the marathon was for sure worth it.

"Yep, I got this great scary movie!" I loved scary movies, they
didn't. Each of us brought 2 movies, and it started after
school. Obviously, we sometimes paused them to talk or do something, that's
why we always finish late. This year it was at my house. My mom was okay
with it so I thought it could be in mine.

"Alex you always get the worst scary movies" Li complained. I didn't. It
was too good for normal people to liked them, that's why they though there
were horrible.

"That's not true Li, you are just afraid about watching one" I put an evil
smile and she just ruffled my hair. I pouted. I hated when she did
that. Made me feel like an elementary school kid.

We walked to our different classes. The first peroid was math. I really
like mathematics. Don't ask me cause I don't really know, but I do. I am
really good at them too, that may be the reason. Also because I got to take
the advanced math class, which was with the seniors. And by seniors I meant
Drew Cartiano. The hottest male alive. He was tall, athletic, buff and
handsome. Also a gentleman and really nice. The perfect guy. He was the
only jock who wasn't a jerk.He wasn't the brightest person in the world,
but every imperfection he had made him even more perfect. I sat next to him
and oh god, it was the best thing since my mom bought that chocolate thing
for waffles. Which I love dearly.

"Hey Alex" he smiled brightly. I blushed ( like a FUCKING DAMN FRESHMAN
GIRL) a lot. I returned the greeting and continue to stare at him. He was
masculine. Really masculine.

"So I heard your birthday's coming, what would you like?" Omg, he just
asked me to buy me something. Just don't say anything creepy ok.

"Spoons are for soup" as soon as those words came out of my mouth, I
gasped. I was really stupid.

"You are hilarious!" he laughed so good. It made you smile.

"Sorry, just thinking about...." he cut me off by saying spoons and
soups. He received a glare from my cold eyes. He winked and I lost it and
smiled.

"No, but to answer you, You don't have to get me anything" I said
politely. Give me a damn ring, Give me a fucking ring! Yeah, creepy.

"I want to, so why don't you think about it and tell me" He winked once
more and turned his attention to the professor. I sighed. Could heaven be
better than Drew? No FUCKING way.

Class went by without more words spoken between us. When the bell rang I
got quickly outside to avoid another stupid comment from my mouth.  Classes
went by and suddenly it was already lunch. I was hungry. I had that thing
you called when you eat a lot but don't get fat. Something with "m" I
Think...whatever.  Cafeteria was a jungle. Literally, sometimes birds came
flying through the windows, but more a jungle cause of the social
division. Yes like movies, emos, jocks and cheerleaders, geeks, newspaper
group, the drama club and a lot more. And then Li,Matt and Me. The normal
people. Yep, prefer to be there hiding under the spotlight than underneath
the ground or too above.

"Hey guys, what's up" I sat on the table with my tray full of food. Li
looked at disgusted and Matt was reading some book.

"How can you eat that much and stay that thin, that's not human" she said
annoyed that it wasn't the same with her. I used to pick on her with
that. But Li was still thin, so she didn't care a lot.

"Something with the letter 'm' " I continued to eat and look at my
magazine.

"High Metabolism" I nodded with my head, unable to talk with my mouth full
of pizza.

"Lucky You" she said annoyed again.

"I know" I winked at her and we continue to chat. Rob showed up as always.

"Hey Butters, I'm taking you home, your brother has practice for football
and I don't have soccer so it's fine" I nodded and he stood there like
waiting for something. I turned to him and gave him the
what-else-do-you-want look. He smirked.

"I am in charge, your mom went on a bussiness trip for the week" Bad
news. Rob in charge was like jail, Literally.

"We have the movie marathon today" He smiled evily.

"Guess you don't anymore" I groaned. Damn Rob, for doing this. Damn Mother
for letting one person who isn't her son in charge.

"Look dick head, we have it and its end of the talk so fuck off" Li and her
bitchy attitude. You gotta love her!

" I'm in charge, and if you bring your freak friends, I am not letting them
come in" Rob was just pissing me off. Matt glared at him.

"Fuck off Ass" Matt had an attitude too.

"I will deal with you when I come home" Yes, Matt and Rob brothers. Creepy,
I haven't mentioned it cause I thought you wouldn't believe me, and I guess
you don't.

"Rob, come on" I whined. He looked like he was going to give it away and
leave.

"I let them come in if you pay me a dinner at Paco's" What the fuck!?!?! He
was a manipulator! Rob loved Paco's Tacos, but his dad thought they were
junk so he wouln't give him money to eat there. I hated Paco's Tacos.

"That's not fair!" I said pissed off.

"Life isn't fair butters" he said arms crossed. He knew I was going to give
in. Damn him, Damn tacos.

"So Butters? Do we have a deal?" he smirked. Damn smirk.

"Deal..." I whisper. But as the jerk he is.

"What? I didn't catch that last thing, would you repeat it for me" He was
enjoying it. I was going to kill him and Paco. It was a thread and a
promise.

"I said Deal" That stupid smirk covering his whole face. Jerk.