Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2012 13:03:14 -0500
From: Hut Panda <hutpanda@hotmail.es>
Subject: Damn Stupid Love Chapter 11

Hey Guys! Again Thank you Charlie Howes so much for helping, you are my
hero! Haha and hope you like this chapter, please send me feedback! Thank
yo too Daniel, I know I'm tiring you haha :)


Christmas Lights Part 1
A legal kiss is never as good as a stolen one.

Alex's POV

"We should put this one on top"

So much time has gone by. It was already Christmas time. It was the first
day of December. The chilly air made it the best holiday. I love to spend
it with my friends and family, and this year I had someone special. Someone
I could kiss under the mistletoe.

"I can't reach it," I complained. I was lifted in the air by two strong
hands. I placed the star easily on top of the tree but my feet were not on
the ground yet.

"Cole!" He smiled and carried me. He said once that I was too light, that I
should be carried everywhere.

"Yes, Sweetheart?" He kissed my neck and I blushed.

"I'm not a baby," I said pouting.

"I know, but you are my baby." I laughed and he kissed my neck again.

"Haha, stop it!" He laughed and kissed me more, "If Mark finds us like
this, he won't like it, besides my Mom should be here soon, and she won't
find it pleasant either."

"I do." He nibbled on my ear and chuckled.

"You are impossible!" He hugged me from behind and sat me on his lap.

"But you love me that way." He kissed me again. I never thought I would
date an older guy, especially not by nine years! He seemed so mature and
sweet.

"Ahem," I pushed him away gently to find my mom looking at us. She had a
nervous look on her face. My mom was against Cole and me dating. She said
he was too old for me. But Cole said he was determined to make her like
him, to accept him completely.

"Hello Alex... Ryan" I tend to forget that Cole prefers to be called by his
middle name Ryan, but he lets me call him Cole.

"Hey mom," Cole held me tighter and smiled at my mom. She was dead serious
and her face showed it. Cole seemed uncomfortable.

"So Alex, who is coming for Christmas Dinner?" Every year my mom organizes
a lavish Christmas Gala on Christmas Eve. Many people come to my house and
pretend to like each other. I hate it. It's an upper class version of a
pissing contest. I can't believe my mom participates in this. I would
prefer a nice, quiet, and quaint Christmas dinner surrounded by the ones we
love and care for, not with a bunch of hypocrites and rich snobs.

"Li is coming, Matt, Rob and their parents are coming as well" She nodded
and wrote their names on some list.

"Cole is coming too, also Natalie" My mom stopped and looked to us. Cole
had a big smile on his face, to antagonize my mom I'm sure.

"We'll talk later Alexander" She left hurriedly the room and Cole put on
sad puppy eyes.

"She doesn't like me," He said in an innocent child voice.

"Awww, poor boy," I kissed his smirk. He was such a goof.

"I was thinking," he started. I love teasing him so I gave him a peck on
the lips backing away. "That maybe we could," I pecked him again and backed
away quickly, he smiled at me. "Have a romantic dinner, just you and me." I
pecked him again, but this time he held me there.

"Mmm" I moaned with a hitched voice enjoying kiss.

"That's better," I blushed and he kissed my neck. He's so possessive. He
loves to hold me all the time, when we go out he never separates from me,
which is kind of sweet, but maybe he is too jealous.

"Hey, are your parents coming? I want to meet them." He looked at me
nervously and nodded slowly.

"I'll ask them ok?" I nodded happily. I have wanted to meet his parents to
make our relationship a little more formal. I mean, he has already met Mark
and my mom.

"Why do I love you so much?" He asked to himself. I blushed. I was
surprised how much bigger he looked compared to me. I'm skinny and he is
buff. He is tall and I'm short. His hands are way bigger than mine by far!

"You are really special.  You know that, right?" I nodded slowly. "It seems
you don't," I blushed again.

"You make me feel special." He smiled and kissed me. So special.

Drew's POV

"Are you ready?" I nodded and my Aunt Gloria smiled. She patted my back and
gave me my papers.

"This is going to be awesome!" Anna was so excited about going to the US. I
decided to go to the US to 'arrange my college papers' but the truth was
that I wanted to see Alex. My grandfather let me because Anna is coming,
and he really believes I'm arranging my college stuff. I might have
cheated. I told my grandfather there was a thing going on between Anna and
me. Pleased he let me travel with her.
 I smiled and looked at the screen. Our flight was boarding already. I said
goodbye to my little brother and my aunt. I knew I was coming back for
Christmas, but I had 3 weeks to work it out with him, I was determined to
fix everything I did and hopefully get my love back.

"Goodbye Miss Cartiano!" Anna waved happily. I chuckled at her
excitement. It seems it's the first time she's flying to another country or
just flying at all.

"Drew, this is going to be so awesome! Thanks a lot!" She hugged me and I
smiled.

"No problem Anna, we are going to have a blast!" She laughed and we boarded
the plane. The time I had been in Italy, Anna became like my sister. I
protected her and she kept me company. I made other friends, but Anna
always stuck with me. She's a great person and very kind.

"I mean, how awesome is this?" The fasten seat belts sign went on and she
squealed. God, this is going to be a long flight.

Matt's POV

"Hey, please stop it guys" Li and Simon were practically eating each
other. Those kisses should be forbidden, I could see their tongues dancing,
dirty dancing to be exact. I was kind of grossed out. Hopefully, Alex will
show in any minute. We invited him, and he agreed. I just hope he doesn't
bring his 'New Love'. I mean, the older guy doesn't let go of him at any
time. Last week I invited him to the movies, and guess who was with him?
Ryan, or as Alex calls him, 'Cole'. I hate that guy. And he is kind of
rude, when he comes with us to grab lunch or go to the movies he just hugs
and kisses Alex, he doesn't even try to talk to us, only with Li.

"Hey Guys...That's Gross" I chuckled and nodded my head. Li just smiled and
waved, but they were swapping spit. So disgusting.

"Hey Lex!" I said happily. I was really happy he came alone.

"Hello Matt" His smile just made me smile. He sat by me and we just
talked. It seems that his mother was still organizing the Christmas
party. My family was invited and it would be very boring if it wasn't for
Alex and Li. Rich and cocky people everywhere just discussing money. It had
this stupid dress code every year. I mean, last time I had to wear purple,
PURPLE! It didn't end that good... But enough, I guess it's just a thing to
make the party more entertaining (yeah right!).

"So my mother wants me to give you the invitations, I don't know why she
keeps sending them, it's the same people every year" It was true, the same
people assist every year, and it was a big crowd.

"What stupid color are we going to wear?" I asked. Li rolled her eyes. She
was the only one who likes the dress code. She gave Lex's mom the idea of
purple. She owes me for that humiliation.

"Oh your mom and I thought this year is special, so we need to wear a
special color" Oh no. Crap, here it comes some shitty color they are going
to make me wear.

"Ok, then what is it?" Simon pretended to play the drums and Li kissed
him. Ew again.

"Gold!" What the fuck...

"I think I like the idea, is not that weird and it looks elegant" Lex said
taking a sip of his smoothie. I was lost in his eyes while Li snapped her
fingers to me.

"Uh huh?" She rolled her eyes.

"What do you think about it?" I blinked a few times to get back to the
world. His presence he affects me so much!

"I think it's great too," Li smiled. But I was totally lying. I hate
gold. I don't know why, maybe because it's one of the colors of our school,
and my brother and his group of stupid monkeys wears it all the fucking
time. I truly hate that color, but I can survive for a night I guess.

They kept chatting about the Christmas dinner.

"Maybe this is not such a good idea" Alex was complaining about his mom. It
seems that she didn't want Cole at the Christmas dinner. I have to agree
with her for once, I mean I hate that woman, but she is right in this.

"Why?" Alex was frustrated. Maybe his mom was getting on his nerves lately
with Christmas time coming.

"I mean, it's not that I don't like him" I truly hate him. "But Rob is
going to be there and I don't think you want another drama" Another person
I hate, great! "after what happened with Matt" Alex looked at me and I
could see guilt in his eyes. He blamed himself for the actions of the
asshole I have as a brother.

"It's not your fault" I said. He just gave me a sad smile.

"I have to think about it, I really want him there and I think Rob doesn't
care about me anymore to fight my boyfriend" Oh God, How wrong he was
there. Rob is so creepy when it comes to Alex. He has a picture of them in
his computer and he stares at it for hours. And I found an old picture of
them hugging as kids. He keeps it in his wallet.

"Maybe, Maybe not" Li just kept hugging Simon. Those two couldn't get
enough of each other. I just hope this Christmas Party goes under the
radar. Please, no drama for just one night. Yeah, right like if that was
possible!

Cole's POV

"Natalie, are you ready yet?" I swear she thinks combing he hair needs to
be in slow motion.

"Don't talk to me dick head" She answered back. I can't believe she is
still mad at me. Natalie lives with me. I rent this luxury apartment in the
best building there is. Thanks to Natalie, I met Alex. Well not met, but
acknowledged his existence, his beautiful existence. I know it seems wrong
of me to go after a boy who is nine years younger than me. But how can
people say it's wrong. Love is never wrong. They say loving another man is
wrong, but it isn't. It's love. Love doesn't know age, sex or skin
color. Attraction does, but love doesn't.

"Come on, are you still mad?" She rolled her eyes.

"Of course! How can you hurt him like that!"

"It's not me, its mom and dad, if they weren't pressuring me I wouldn't be
doing this to him, I love him more than my own life, ok?" She rolled her
eyes again.

"Then show it! Don't be such a coward and break this whole thing before
someone gets hurt, tell mom and dad how you feel"

"Don't you think I want to? I just can't bear their disappointment and the
hatred in their eyes."

"While you try to protect yourself, you are hurting that `supposed someone'
you love more than your life, great job idiot" She grabbed her things and
got in the car. It was true. "You are going back soon, don't wait until
it's too late"

"I got to meet him, and I have grown to love him as my friend. If you don't
tell him I will" I shut my eyes. I didn't want to let the tears fall out. I
just want to hug him and have him tell me everything is going to be
alright.

"I'm not perfect."

"Neither of us is, but do you see me doing something I know is going to
hurt someone I care for so much?" She was right. I needed to break things
with her and just tell him. Because he is the one I love.

"I love him."

"I never said you don't, it just doesn't look like that" I drove slowly. I
was a terrible human being. No...A terrible beast.

Alex's POV

"Hello Beautiful" I felt arms hug my waist and someone kissed my
cheek. Cole's breath tickled my neck and I kissed him. Cole is the greatest
kisser there is. He can go from a heated passionate kiss to a loving tender
kiss.

"I missed you," he chuckled lightly and held me tight.

"I missed you way more," he kissed me again and led me to his car. We were
going to the mall to eat something and just enjoy the day.

"I love your car." It was true. Since the first day I saw it I loved it!

"Baby, I think you love it more than me, since it's a new model I guess I
have tough competition." He joked.

"Yes you do." He chuckled.

"But he can't kiss you like this," He kissed me and it was phenomenal as
always.

"You know I love you more than anything in this world right?" I nodded
slowly. "Good, but I still like showing it." He kissed me again and I
smiled into the kiss.

"There's something wrong?" He sighed.

"It's just...I have fallen head over heels for you" I smiled.

"That's not a reason to be worried dummy, there's something more" He looked
into my eyes and I could see it. There was something he wasn't telling me.

"Nope, just that, I'm afraid you'll find someone better," he looked away.

"You are the best, there's no better" He looked to me again and kissed me.

The kiss held guilt and pain mixed. I was determined to find out what was
happening.

Drew's POV

"Anna, come here!" It was like traveling with a little child. She was
running to every store in the airport, buying stupid stuff and candies, or
"American Jewels" as she calls them.

"Wait, there's this magazine I have to buy, the guy says it has everything
I need to know about American celebrities!" I held her arm while she tried
to flee. I sighed.

"Anna, we have to go, I have to pick up the keys for the house and some
other things" She pouted and waved at the man. I glared at him for trying
to steal her money.

"You can buy a lot of magazines later" She nodded annoyed. I chuckled. She
could be really immature sometimes!


"This is better than the movies!" She was glued to the car's window. I
rented it in the airport for the couple of weeks we're staying. She pointed
everything that stood in our way.

"Someone just showed me his middle finger! So exciting!" She waved to the
man and I rolled my eyes again.

"Anna, behave ,remember you have to help me." She pouted and nodded her
head. "How about I take you to an original American fast food restaurant!?"
She looked at me wide eye and smiled.

"Cool!" I smirked. She's just like a little kid.

"I wonder if the waitresses are on roller blades?" I turned to her.

"Who told you that?" She smirked.

"Movies." She said like if it was obvious.

I smacked my forehead with my hand. God, she's hopeless!


We arrived at the little restaurant. God, so many memories. I remember I
came here with Alex once. We were hungry and it just appeared in our
way. The food was delicious and the company was great. It's one of the
happiest memories I have with him.

Alex.

God, why have I fallen for someone so deep? I never thought I would fall in
love. It's something that wasn't in my plans. Alex, with all his little
flaws, keeps drawing me back in. He's just a nice boy, to the world but a
beautiful soul to me.

Alex's POV

"So, chocolate or vanilla?" Cole's kept his hand busy the entire movie. He
kept touching my thighs or kissing me, or touching my hair. It's not that I
didn't like the attention, but there's something more...

"I prefer...you" I smiled.

"You can't silly, I'm not a flavor" He kissed me. Cole's a great kisser; he
makes it feel like dancing. So easy yet so good.

"Yes you are, you taste like...mmm I don't know but you taste delicious."
He pecked me again and hugged me.

"So, are you excited for Christmas?" He looked away.

"Actually, I'm not going to be able to make it for Christmas..." I knew
there was something up. I mean he has been acting weird all day and he
expects me not to notice. I could see his guilt, which was unnecessary. I
put my hand on his face and lifted his eyes to mine.

"It's ok, I'm sure there's something really important you must do then,
don't worry, it's fine" I smiled. But he still held his guilty look. He
hugged me tightly and I swore I heard him sob. This was getting out of
hand. I mean, you don't cry because you can't make it somewhere.

"You know what I would like?" I shrugged my shoulders. "You and me, away" I
smiled and he kissed my cheek.

"That's not possible"

"Why not?" He asked.

"Cause I can't leave my brother and Li and Matt, and you have a sister,
it's not fair thinking about ourselves only." He kissed me again but this
time it lasted longer.

"You are wonderful you know that?" I blushed. This guy had me on cloud
nine, and I couldn't do anything about it.



"Alex, come on, he's really hot" Natalie laughed.

"But he's a jerk, and you can't deny that" I laughed too.

Natalie was currently at my house. She was going to crash this weekend
since Cole had to leave. I love Natalie like a sister. She's really nice
and a wonderful girl. She's a cheerleader at my school, and we've been
discussing about her love life. I had my black pants on and a golden button
shirt. Natalie had a white shirt with a golden skirt. She was really good
looking, just like her brother.

"I know, but if you see it this way, there's not a guy that's never going
to hurt you" She said and dug into her chocolate ice cream.

"Well that doesn't apply to me" I laughed, but she didn't. Maybe the
thought of his brother dating is awkward. I know it's the same for me.

"Yeah" She said lost in her own little word.

"Has someone ever broken your heart?" She asked out of nowhere.

"Nope, but It has been hurt" She gave me a sad smile. "Don't worry about my
heart, it's pretty strong and healthy" She chuckled.

"I need to tell you something Alex" Her voice trailed off, but she was able
to finish the sentence.

"Sure go ahead" I said.

"It's about..." The door opened and cut off Natalie. It was Li already
dressed in her golden strapless dress.

"Li you look really beautiful" She blushed.

"Look at you two!" She exclaimed, "Duo of hotties" Natalie and I both
blushed.

"Thanks" Natalie said. She and Li had turned into friends really quickly.

"Your mom wants you two downstairs now, the guests are arriving." I nodded
and we walked downstairs. I gave Natalie a look and she nodded. It seemed
important, so I should wait until she feels ready to tell me.


The house was decorated beautifully. I couldn't recognize it at
first. There were enough people for the house to look full. But I knew
there were more to come. It was only nine. I expect the party to last until
four a.m. Maybe? I laughed to myself. Who was I kidding? Some might stay at
the guest room. Don't get me wrong this isn't the type of party everyone
gets drunk and they wake up in the yard with a terrible hangover. But
guests do stay for a while.

"Alexander! You are so big!" I just faked a smile. I knew the people from
all the parties, some came from mom's hometown and some were colleagues
from New York. Natalie seemed to take out her family charm and talk to the
guests, thank God cause I needed a break. I decided to get something to
drink and walked to the kitchen. Bad idea.

"Hey, why are you not in the party?" My mom was putting some strawberries
on the cake. I sighed. She knew this isn't my type of party but she decided
that I should attend.

"I came for a drink" she nodded her head.

"So where's Ryan? (Cole)"

"He had to go to his hometown" She nodded slowly.

"I don't like him honey, there's something..." I rolled my eyes.

"Mom, it's fine, I'm a grownup who can take care of himself" She just gave
me a sad smile, the same smile Natalie gave me a while ago.

"I know, I just don't want to see you get hurt" She hugged me. It felt
weird. It had been a long time since she had hugged me and it felt kind of
good actually.

"I won't" She nodded and smiled. I could see her watery eyes fighting to
keep back the tears. My mom was never an emotional woman, but there comes a
time when you can't stop what's meant to happen.

"Let's go back to the party, we are the hosts after all." I nodded and we
walked out of the kitchen. The party was really good. There was light music
and everyone seemed to be having a good time. I lost track of Li and
Natalie. It was still early, so dinner wasn't going to be served for
another hour maybe. I was getting tired of listening to the stories of some
old man. After all, he claimed like a thousand times he has climbed the
Himalayas. Yeah right, he was like eighty.

"Hey!" I turned around when I heard my name being called.

"Natalie, what's up?" I said. She was talking to some guy and had a drink
in her hand. I smirked. It was obvious to everyone, they had been making
out. Maybe in a room. Mental note to kill her if she kissed him on my bed.

"Matt is looking for you" I nodded and winked at her. She blushed.

I walked through the crowd looking for Matt, but he was nowhere to be
found. I walked to the garden and saw him near the porch of my house. It
was dark and he was standing there.

"Hey Matt! I'm here!" He turned to look at me but made no move. I walked to
him, but it was still dark. Mom had told me about turning the lights in the
garden on, but I just igno....

Matt kissed me. I felt his lips on mine. Wait, what?! He was kissing
me. But he didn't seem like Matt, I mean why would Matt kiss me?

"Hello love" Oh god. It can't be....

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I know I say the same thing every time but I'm so so so sorry for the
delay, but look at it this way, Summer vacations are coming soon so I
should be able to write more. Hope you enjoyed it, please send me comments
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