Date: Fri, 02 Aug 2002 17:44:08 -0700
From: Lonely Heart <nicodemus000@hotmail.com>
Subject: Nifty; 'Daring To Dream #2' {Lonely Heart} ( MM hs rom con ) [2!2]
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R. - August 2002.
Daring To Dream
Chapter Two: Moonlight Grove
Looking back on that first night, my first encounter
with Tyler; I can describe it as nothing less than heavenly.
The moment, lying with him under the skylight was forever
etched into my mind, heart and soul.
He drove me home, and I was so tired with the lulling
of the car moving along the road, and the easy listening
music on the radio that I soon fell asleep. His house was
on the outskirts of Vancouver; I had taken a fairly long bus
ride to get there that evening. The car ride home should
have been twenty minutes, but the car must have stopped
after only ten. I awoke with the engine turning off and
looked over to Tyler for an explanation. Perhaps, had I not
just been with Tyler and experienced how loving and caring
he was, I would have been nervous or even scared. But I
knew, there wasn't a drop of blood, a patch of skin, a
thread of hair that would even consider harming me. Still,
I was curious why we had stopped, so I glanced over at
Tyler.
"Ryan, I brought you up here to show you something."
Tyler looked slightly embarrassed, and I wondered what he
would want to show me at such a late hour of the night.
When he received no response from me except my quizzical
look, he continued saying "I come up here a lot to think."
I looked outside and realized upon seeing the city
lights of Vancouver below us, and an encompassment of trees
surrounding the parking lot, that we were in a small park
near Tyler's house. "It's nice." I said, not entirely sure
how to respond and struggling for clarity through the slowly
abating guise of sleep.
"Let's get out, I want you to see this."
He got out of the car; myself having just dozed off was
still undoing my seat belt as he opened the door for me. "A
perfect gentleman," I said with a teasing smile as he helped
me out of the car.
The night's air was warm and humid, despite it being
late October. The park was fairly large with paths
extending through the semi-rainforest surrounding us.
Situated on the top of a very small mountain we were looking
over the City of Vancouver below us. Generally I like to
think of more natural settings as beautiful, but the glimmer
of the various streetlights and buildings twinkling so far
below us was nothing short of awing.
"Hey come over here!"
I glanced over realizing Tyler was a bit further along
the path then me. The moon was quite full and although
there were no lights in the park, I still had no trouble
seeing Tyler ahead. "I'm coming, this place is really
beautiful!"
"You haven't seen anything yet!"
I caught up to him and he took my hand in his and we
started walking along the wood chip path away from the
parking lot. We must have walked along the path for about
fifteen minutes. The path had entered the trees around the
park and we had been immersed amongst ferns and underbrush
below huge towering trees. We reached a clearing with the
city lights far behind us. I gasped realizing why Tyler had
brought me up here. Far below the hill was the ocean
harbour and with the trees sheltering the city lights the
stars were radiant above us.
We sat down on a bench and he opened up the backpack he
had brought along to take out a pillow and blanket. We sat
against the bench sharing the pillow and wrapped in the
heavy blanket.
"So what do you think?"
"This is amazing Tyler, thanks so much for bringing me
up here!"
"I thought you might think it's stupid, but I always
dreamed about sitting up here under the stars and moon with
someone else. I mean, this view is beautiful and
everything, but it seems even better with someone else to
share it with."'
He reached his arm around my shoulders and I leaned
against him, my head next to his. He was so warm and soft,
I just lay their saying nothing for a few minutes. Just
feeling indescribably lucky and thankful. Tyler broke the
silence looking down into my eyes, even more beautiful with
the moon glowing off his face and body.
"A penny for your thoughts."
"I'm just sitting here still wondering whether I'm
dreaming. I can't believe how lucky I am."
"You think its luck? I'd like to think of it as fate.
I've suspected I was gay for sometime now, but I was looking
for someone special to really decide. I'm not interested
in these guys that just want a quick fuck or a few nights of
fun. I have to tell you something and I know it's our first
night together, but I think I'm in love with you." He
looked into my eyes, searching for my reaction before I
spoke.
I felt my eyes moisten, but I ignored this. "Tyler,
you have no idea how much that means to me. I'm so thankful
we've come together like this. I'm in love with you too. I
never really knew what love was until tonight. But being
here, with you, this is love. I feel so safe with you.
It's like we're in a movie, everything seems so surreal yet
perfect.
He lowered his head and gave me a long kiss. I felt
his lips brush against mine - they were soft and moist. We
just sat there for a moment; our lips pressed together, the
moonlight illuminating us
Tyler began humming a song as we sat locked together.
How exactly he managed to do this with our lips pressed
together I'm not sure, but I heard it fine nonetheless.
Tears came to my eyes, as I realized the song he was
singing. It was very familiar to me, from countless nights
spent on different patios watching sunsets and sometimes
even sunrises, I had dreamed of finding that person fate
would match me with. Filling in the words I broke the kiss
and we both sang the words.
"Somewhere out there, beneath the pale moonlight.
Someone's thinking of me, and loving me tonight.
Somewhere out there, someone's saying a prayer,
That we'll find one another, in that big somewhere out
there."1
Tyler stood up and motioned me to do the same. Leaving
the blanket and pillow on the bench, we both grasped arms
and began swaying to the music barely audible but resonating
within us. They speak of a moment that tugs at the
heartstrings, a moment that crystallizes your life and your
being. This was the moment I believe they speak of, where
time no longer seems to apply to you. Tyler and I were
dancing on a mountaintop under a brilliant starry sky. I
felt like I was on the set of some movie, and that someone
would yell `Cut' and the beautiful scene I was engaged in
would come crashing down. But this did not happen. Tyler
and I were alone, lost in our own microcosm where love was
all that mattered.
Tyler looked deep into my eyes and his warm smile was
all I wanted to know of. We must have looked like fools
prancing around up there in the early morning. Of course to
us, that didn't matter.
Eventually, we realized dawn was approaching and with
school that day we were both due back home. Tyler packed
the blanket and pillow back into his bag and we hiked back
to the car. It was 4:30 by the time I got home. As I
crawled into bed I drifted off to sleep feeling more
comfortable and alive than I had ever felt before.
* * * * * * * * * * *
I awoke to my mom standing over me with a phone.
"Ryan, get up it's 8:30! You have to be at school in a
half hour! Oh and someone from your class is picking you
up. He said his name was Tiger?"
I groaned as it had just seemed like I went to sleep.
My Mother had turned on my lights and my eyes hurt. As I
sat up, the last part of what she had said finally processed
in my mind. "Tiger? What are you talking about Mom?"
"He said he was one of your friends. Come on get up!
He'll be here in twenty minutes!"
I laughed realizing my Mother had confused Tyler with
Tiger. "His name is Tyler Mom, not Tiger!"
"I don't care if his name is Jennifer, get into that
shower!"
And with that I ran down the hallway into the bathroom,
wanting to be half presentable when Tyler got to the door.
I took extra care checking myself over in the mirror.
Having had such a wonderful night before, I felt a new surge
of confidence within me. Normally, I am rather self-
conscious about my looks and spend as little time as
possible staring at myself in the mirror. But today, I
wanted to make sure that my hair and teeth were perfect and
my face looked clean. I put on my jeans and my favourite
Nike t-shirt and ran downstairs. Tyler was sitting in the
kitchen talking with my Mom. He glanced at me and smiled.
"Hey Ry!"
"Hey Tiger." I giggled as I said this, and much as I
had anticipated he looked genuinely baffled. "I'll tell you
in the car."
"Alright then. Bye Mrs. Norricks. It was nice meeting
you."
My Mom was already quite taken by Tyler, although she
always was one to insist on proper manners and decorum. We
ran out to the car and I explained to Tyler as we drove to
school that my Mother had thought his name was Tiger. We
both had a good laugh and yet I could tell something was
troubling him.
"Tyler you look upset. What's wrong?"
"I'm worried about how the rest of the football team
will think of me if they know that I'm gay. I don't want to
pretend I'm straight or hide that I love you."
"We can just be friends at school Tyler. No one needs
to know that we are in love with each other. I mean it's no
one's business except ours."
"I guess your right, I just know that they talk about
gay bashing a lot and that worries me know that I think I'm
gay."
"It's up to you, I mean I'll follow your lead here.
But if you don't want the team or the rest of the class to
know your gay, that's okay with me. I'm not sure if I'm
ready to tell people I'm gay either."
We walked into class together and I took a seat in the
back of the room with him and his other teammates. Tyler
was quick to explain that I had really helped him with the
Math and I seemed cool so he thought I could hang out with
them. They all seemed okay with it, much to my relief.
* * * * * * * * * * *
Later that day we had Math class, and I couldn't help
but feel some pride when Tyler got eight out of ten
questions right on the pop quiz. Tyler had a football
practice to go to after school so I decided to head home.
He promised to call me that night, before I rushed off to
catch the bus. As I ran to catch the bus I looked back and
saw him smiling at me - a warm, inviting and caring smile I
had just recently come to know and love.
The bus ride home was uneventful; I sat looking out the
window thinking about all that had happened in the last
twenty-four hours. I realized that some of my bitterness
towards the world and everyone around me had disappeared. I
know longer felt so alienated and lonely. Things were
looking up, and where they were going, I knew not, only that
I was going somewhere in my life.
"Somewhere out there if love can see us through,
Then we'll be together somewhere out there,
Out where dreams come true."2
THE END
For now. Chapter three is now in the process of being
written.
My apologies to everyone who has been waiting so patiently
for the latest instalment of this story. The truth is that
I questioned whether I even wanted to continue this story.
My decision was that I did, however I wanted to focus on the
relationship, the romance and the love rather than the sex.
Sorry if some of you are disappointed, I felt that the
sexual depictions cheapened my story though - and I actually
regretted their inclusion in the first chapter.
My email address remains as before, nicodemus000@hotmail.com
I would appreciate feedback on this latest chapter and my
recent decision to change the story's focus. Hope it was
still enjoyable.
Also in case you are curious, my profile is a 19-year-old,
gay white male. I live in Vancouver Canada and am studying
at a University there. This story sadly isn't true, however
it does make for a good fantasy. I can only hope that my
dream can one day be a reality. I think I long for love
even more with writing these stories. I find writing
clarifies what I hope to have in a relationship one day, as
well as entertaining my romantic notions that have no outlet
currently. Until I can find that one right guy, yes I do
believe in soul mates, this make-believe world that seems so
enticing will have to suffice.
On a final note, I'm looking for someone to develop an
editorial relationship with - someone who I can get feedback
and suggestions on my work from. If your interested drop me
an email, I would appreciate anyone who is willing to give
some of their time (even just a little).
Thanks for reading my story.. Take care and don't forget to
dare to dream!
R. - August 2002
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1 Words and music for "Somewhere Out There" written by Barry
Mann, Cynthia Weil, and James Horner and sung by Linda
Ronstadt and James Ingram.
2 See above information.