Date: Sun, 23 Nov 2003 18:50:13 -0800
From: derek phillips <derekph@att.net>
Subject: DEAR MARTY

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                          DEAR MARTY


Dear Marty -

I want to try to explain about this afternoon, and maybe once you
understand what happened you won't be mad, even though I had sex with
your little brother - though I have to say, he's not so little any more.
He's really grown up a lot since you and I went away to college.

I didn't mean to have sex with him, it just sort of happened.    No,
wait,  that's not true, and I know you don't want to hear this, but Joey
seduced me.  He did, I swear - he deliberately got me turned on so I
would have sex with him.  I would never have started something like
that, I've almost never had sex with another guy before - just that once
with you at camp, and I know we said we would never talk about it, but
I'm just saying, that's the only time I've had sex with another guy
until today, with Joey.   Shit, this isn't sounding the way I wanted it
to.  Okay, here's what happened.

I came over to see you, and Joey was there alone - he said you'd gone
shopping with your mom and wouldn't be home for a while, so I was going
to leave, but he said "Why don't you stay?  We can mess around until
they get back, it won't be that long."  And he smiled so nice and looked
so cute and I just thought "Why not?"  I've always liked Joey.

I assure you I'd have left right away if I had known what he meant by
"mess around".

He took me to his room, 'cause he said we could watch TV there, but when
we got to his room the chairs were all piled with stuff, and he said "Go
ahead and lie on the bed, it's OK."   

So I did, I just flopped down on his bed, half-sitting, leaning against
the headboard.  There were some magazines he'd been looking at and I
picked one up and started leafing through it and he flopped down beside
me and sort of snuggled up real close so we were touching and I didn't
think anything of it 'cause Joey was always real affectionate and used
to snuggle up to you and me when we watched movies on TV sometimes so it
seemed perfectly natural, it was just little Joey being friendly.

OK, I admit it, I liked his being so close to me - I was starting to
notice how cute he is and since he wasn't wearing much - just cutoffs
and a tank-top - I could see what a nice build he had.  He looks a lot
like you.

The magazine he'd been looking at was all pictures of body-builders,
guys with lots of muscles, only it wasn't exactly a bodybuilding
magazine, there were no articles, it was just pictures, and these guys
were just posing to show off their bodies.

And, well, they were mostly totally naked or wearing just little
pouches, not jock straps -just flimsy little pieces of cloth tied on
with string and they didn't really hide anything -  it just made them
look more naked and sexy, especially since they were all really big, I
mean, you know, very well hung and frankly most of them had hardons,
especially the ones that were totally naked.  Well, maybe not exactly
full raging hardons, not all of them, some of them were just half hard,
and it was done kind of artistically, it didn't look like porn, exactly,
I mean a guy with a body like that would look sort of weird naked and
posing for a camera without a boner, you know? At least I think so, I've
seen some pictures of naked guys without hardons and it looked weird to
me, sort of incomplete.  I mean I always get one when I'm naked, and I
know you do, so it seems natural to me.  

I've never seen a magazine like that, I mean you and I used to look at
the sex magazines downtown where that one clerk never carded us and we
saw lots of pretty horny stuff with chicks and sometimes couples, and I
guess the gay section probably had magazines like this, with just guys,
but we never looked there.  The magazines we saw did have some pretty
awesome dudes, with huge cocks and lots more muscles than any guy I'd
seen in the flesh up to then, but that was different, we were looking at
the naked girls.  But I have to admit it got me hard looking at this
magazine Joey had, even though it was just these guys, it was sexy.  It
must have been because it reminded me of the straight porn I've seen.
And they did all have great bodies, lots of muscles, and anybody would
admire that, right?

But I was wondering where Joey got a magazine like that and why he was
looking at naked guys anyway, and I was about to ask him when he said
"Aren't they awesome?  I want to have a body like that, I've been
working out.  You have a great body, I can tell you still work out a
lot.  Let me see."  

And he reached out and put his hand on my bare naked abs and started
stroking them, just feeling my muscles.  I had on a cut-off tee shirt so
my stomach was bare and before I knew it he had pushed it up so my chest
was bare too.

He said "Wow, you have great pecs!  You must have been working out a
lot!"  

Then he started rubbing my pecs and feeling them and I was feeling sort
of funny about it, me half naked and him playing with my muscles like
that.  It was just little Joey, and he's always been very physical and
friendly, so it didn't seem wrong at first, but well, it was turning me
on, especially after looking at the pictures in that magazine, it was
real sexy seeing those naked guys with big muscles and hard dicks and
then Joey snuggles up next to me feeling my bare abs and pecs.

But I was also flattered he would admire my build, since I do work out a
lot and try to look good.  And he always used to admire our muscles when
you and I worked out together, you remember, he would watch us and ask
us to flex and pose for him and let him feel our biceps and all.  This
didn't seem much different than that at first.  I mean we used to let
Joey go pretty far, and we even got naked for him a couple of times,
remember?  We even let him touch our boners a couple of times, I mean we
always had boners when we were naked together, and it didn't seem weird
that Joey would envy those, since hadn't gotten his growth yet.  I liked
it when he played with mine, and when we jerked off for him.  Remember
how he wanted to see us squirt and we had a contest for him, to see who
could squirt the farthest and you won?

But I was embarrassed about the pictures Joey was showing me, and the
way he was feeling me  up, and I tried to stop him.  I told him to cut
it out and pushed his hands away, I swear I did.

So then he started tickling me like you used to do.  And like I said,
he's grown up a lot.  A couple of years ago I'd have had no problem
stopping him if he tried to get me that way, but now he's almost as big
as I am and he caught me totally off guard and started tickling me in
the sides and stomach and with my body naked like that he could get at
all the right places - I think he must have watched you tickle me like
that, 'cause he sure knew exactly how to do it to get me helpless with
laughter and begging for mercy - and before I could do anything he had
me pinned down on my back and was tickling me and undressing me.  

I swear, Marty, that's what he did, he undressed me while he tickled me
so I couldn't stop him.  He worked my cut off tee up so my whole body
was naked - he did that by tickling me in the sides where you know I am
very ticklish anyway, and somehow he got me to raise my arms, and when
I raised my arms he got into my armpits and along my ribs and it had me
totally helpless and then all he had to do was grab my tee-shirt and
pull it up over my head and hook it behind my neck so I was practically
naked with my whole body exposed and he just kept tickling.  And while I
was laughing helplessly he just stripped me naked and started groping my
cock as if it was perfectly natural to do that.  

"Gotcha!" he said, or something like that, as if it was just a normal
part of the game and we did it all the time.   I guess you and I used to
play that, we'd tickle each other and grab each other's crotches until
we both had hardons and then we'd jerk off together.  We didn't play
with each other's cocks, I know, but we were naked and hard-dicked
together, and I guess if Joey was watching us secretly he might have
gotten the wrong idea, and that made him think it was okay to do it to
me today.

It was like that time you and Toby ganged up on me at the gym when the
three of us stayed late to work out and we were all alone together in
the mat room and the two of you got me down on the floor and tickled me
and stripped me naked and then held me down spread-eagled on the floor
naked while you played with my cock until I shot a huge load of cum all
over myself.

We were still just kids, really, you and Toby both said you wanted to
see my monster shoot, cause I have such a big one and I refused to beat
off and let you guys watch and see me cum.  The truth is, I was
embarrassed to do it, for fear you'd realize how much I really wanted
to, I wanted to have you look at me naked and see me cum, I wanted you
to dominate me and make me do things.  And then once you had made me cum
and shoot a huge load - I was really turned on by it, actually, even
though I fought and protested - I don't think I had ever cum so fast or
so hard before and you guys were amazed how hard I shot and how much cum
there was, it got all over the three of us - then once I'd finished
cumming the two of you stripped naked and knelt on either side of me and
you made me lie there and play with your hard cocks until the two of you
shot your loads all over me too.  

You wanted me to suck you both off but I said No way, so you said OK
then at least you have to jerk us off, and I did.  And then as you were
both cumming the coach came in and saw us and told us to get out of
there and take our showers and I saw him looking at us afterwards and
was afraid he'd say something to my dad, but he let it drop and I was
relieved as hell, my dad would have killed me if he ever knew I did
something like that.

I guess that makes two other times I've sort of had sex with a guy, that
one and the time with you at camp.  

I never told you how much I liked that time at the gym, the two of you
dominating me and forcing me to do your will like that.  I would even
have sucked you guys off if you had kept tickling me and really made me
do it but you let me off too easy.  I had fantasies for weeks after
that, about you two jumping me and stripping me naked again and tying me
up and spanking me and tickling me and then making me suck your hard
cocks and eat your cum.  God, I can't believe I'm telling you all of
this now, but I guess what happened with Joey today has made me think
about a lot of things.

Then once Joey had me totally naked - OK, wait, I don't think I was
naked yet at that point, he just tickled me and got my shirt up over my
head like I said and then felt me up real good, and told me how awesome
I looked and how much he liked my muscles.  I was gasping for air and
still laughing, almost crying really, he'd really given it to me, and my
cock was totally hard, the whole scene had gotten so sexy, with the
pictures, and Joey tickling me and taking my clothes off.

But then he got up on his knees and straddled my body on the bed and
took his tee shirt off and took my hand and said "Here, feel my muscles
- I've been working out too - Do you think I'm getting a good body?"

I hadn't really looked at him until then, and realized suddenly that he
looked really good, I was surprised how much he's filled out, so I
started feeling him up too, it just seemed natural and like I owed it to
him because he had done it to me and it felt good and all - he does have
a real nice bod now, real hard and tight with big hard pecs that looked
real sexy and feeling his bare muscles like that got me even hotter and
then he was rubbing my muscles again and telling me how good they
looked.  He was practically laying on top of me and we were both feeling
each other's muscles.  That sounds totally queer, I know, but Joey is so
cute, and I was so turned on, and I don't know what happened, I just got
carried away.  Our crotches were rubbing together, and I was hard and I
could feel his boner too, rubbing against mine through our shorts.

Pretty soon Joey pulled away and sort of knelt over me again and then he
reached down and groped me through my shorts and my cock responded by
getting even harder and starting to ooze, I could feel the wet sticky
juice start to leak from the tip and get my briefs wet.

"Wow Todd, your cock's all hard," he said with that innocent little boy
voice he still has, and somehow it seemed perfectly natural for him to
be saying that.  I admit I was shocked at first that he would do that,
grab my crotch and feel my hardon, but I was pretty far gone by then,
and it felt good and I couldn't say no.

I looked at Joey's crotch and saw that he was showing a pretty good
bulge in his shorts too and I sort of thought maybe I should get up and
leave 'cause this was getting out of control, but I guess I wasn't
thinking too clearly - when my cock gets hard and I get as turned on as
I was right then, with the two of us half-naked on Joey's bed and him
actually groping me, all I could think of was how good it felt, and how
sexy Joey looked.  You must know what I mean.

"Was it those pictures?" Joey asked innocently as he squeezed my cock
through my gym shorts.  He got my balls too and squeezed them and it
almost hurt at first but it felt good and I couldn't tell him to stop
for some reason.  He had this sexy grin, like he knew some secret and
was daring me to guess it.

I was able to push his hand away and I rolled over onto my stomach to
make him take his hand out of my crotch, but my cock was still rock hard
and it felt sexy pressed into the mattress, alone and half naked with
your little brother Joey.  I was having trouble thinking about what I
should do, I just wanted it to go on, have Joey feel me up some more,
and feel him up too.

Joey laid down next to me and snuggled up against me real sexy like - we
both had our shirts off by then so our bare skin rubbed together making
me even hotter, and Joey was rubbing my back with one hand and playing
with my butt - he got his hand in under the waistband of my briefs and
rubbed my bare butt and I didn't know how to stop him - besides it felt
good.  He threw one leg over me and pushed his crotch into the side of
my leg and I could feel that he had a hardon too, a big one, and rock
hard and starting to leak because it felt wet through his briefs - did I
say he'd taken his shorts off by then and had on just his briefs?  I
think he had taken my shorts and jock off too, and I was naked, maybe,
and he was rubbing  my bare ass with his hand and reaching between my
legs from behind to play with my nuts - that really gets me going, and
he seemed to know it would.  Or maybe I still had my shorts on.  It's
hard to remember exactly, I was so horny, I just wanted to cum.

I was still looking at the magazine, I admit it really got to me, I've
never seen pictures like that before, hot-looking guys our age showing
off their bodies and hard cocks, and I just had to keep turning the
pages and looking.

Joey reached out and stroked one of the pictures, of a really big dude
with lots of muscles and a huge hard cock.

"I get horny sometimes looking at guys like that," he said quietly, and
he kept playing with my bare ass, "guys with big muscles, and especially
if they have hardons like some of these dudes. That guy looks sort of
like you. Wait, I have a better one under here," and he pulled another
magazine out from under his pillow and opened it on the bed in front of
us and started turning the pages and showing it to me - it was all these
two totally naked young guys with big muscles and huge cocks sort of
wrestling except they both had huge erections and the way they were
wrestling was real sexy and I just sort of stared at it feeling all hot
and horny and wanting to see more, wanting to know what they would do
next as Joey turned the pages.  

I was embarrassed to admit to Joey it was turning me on, but it was, and
there was no way I could hide it - the two muscle dudes were straining
against each other so their muscles were all pumped and hard and there
was this awesome shot where one guy had his knee in the other guy's
groin, pressed up against his balls but not as though he was trying to
hurt him, more like he was trying to turn him on, they both had rock
hard huge hard cocks and I pictured them having some sort of contest to
see which guy could make the other guy cum first, I don't know why I
thought that except that I had rolled over on my back again, Joey had
been feeling me up and I'd sort of forgotten I didn't want him to get at
my cock, which was still throbbing hard and so I rolled onto my back as
he stroked and rubbed my bare muscles.  He told me he wanted to see more
and he guided me onto my back and was playing with my pecs and rubbing
my abs and groping my crotch and I was so fucking horny.

I buried my face in the magazine while Joey felt me up and I looked at
the guys in the picture and their huge hard dicks were sort of brushing
against each other and I was thinking maybe the bigger, dark-haired guy
with the huge muscles would force the other sexy blond to drop to his
knees and suck his huge hard cock - it occurred to me that he looked a
lot like you, and I imagined it was the two of us wrestling that way  -
it was crazy and I felt all dizzy.

The next thing I knew Joey got his hand inside my gym shorts and was
feeling my hardon through my briefs.  No wait, I think he had my gym
shorts off by then - I don't know when or how he got my gym shorts off,
but he did and when he groped me through my briefs I felt like I was
about to shoot - I was totally hard and I don't think I've ever been so
hard or so worked up - except maybe that time you and I messed around  -
you remember, that time we went camping alone together and had to share
my sleeping bag, because yours got wet, and well, you know what
happened.  It was like that.   

Then I turned the page of the magazine and the two naked muscle studs
were holding each other's cocks, and on the next page one guy was on his
knees sucking the other naked dude's huge hard cock.  I was so horny I
thought I'd cream.

"That picture is pretty awesome, isn't it,"  Joey asked me - I guess he
could see from the way I was staring at it that the picture of those two
guys was having a pretty strong effect on me.

"I think they look a lot like you and Marty," he said, and I was shocked
because that was just what I had been thinking, and it got me even
hornier.

Joey still had one hand inside my briefs on my hardon and with the other
he was still playing with my pecs.  He had started playing with my
nipples just the way I like to myself when I'm horny.  I don't know how
he knew what that would do to me but it got me even hotter.  I guess my
nipples are big for a guy 'cause Joey mentioned that as he played with
them he said "Wow you have big nipples Todd, they feel awesome, I wish
mine were like that" and he was pinching and squeezing them and it was
getting me really hot.

I was getting so hot I felt like I could shoot just from Joey playing
with my pecs and nipples and groping my crotch.

"Shit, Joey, that's really getting me horny," I told him, "you'd better
stop before I shoot!"

He said "What, you mean this?" and he squeezed my cock again.  

"Or this?" he asked, playing with my nipples some more - he was really
giving them a workout and it was putting me near the top, my cock was
throbbing and jerking and leaking so hard.  My briefs were so wet with
all the juice that was oozing out that it was like I'd already cum.   

"Go ahead and shoot, I want to see," he said innocently and pushed me
back so I was lying on my back and he pulled my briefs down to my knees
and my cock flopped up onto my taught abs and started oozing and
throbbing.

"You have a real big one," he said, "I've always liked seeing yours
hard.  Remember that time you and Marty had that contest and you let me
watch you two beat off together?  That was like totally awesome.  You
even let me touch it a couple of times, but it wasn't like this.  This
is much better.  Are you about to shoot?"

And before I could say anything he was holding it and stroking it real
slow with one hand while he kept playing with my pecs with the other and
I was totally naked from my chest to my knees and all hard-dicked and
horny from what he was doing to me, and I knew if he kept it up much
more I really would, I'd pump out a huge load all over myself.  

I tried to stop him then, honest I did, I said "Stop it Joey, we
shouldn't be doing this!"

But he said  "Aw come on, I just like to see how big your cock is, I bet
you're bigger than Marty."  And by that time he was stroking it for real
and he said "Shit, Todd, your cock is fucking huge, I bet it is bigger
than Marty's, and his is pretty big."  I didn't think to ask him how he
knew how big yours is.  

"Let me make you cum," He begged, "I want to see how much cum a cock
this big can shoot.  Do you shoot a lot?  I bet you do.  I bet you shoot
even more than Marty does."  

Wow, I didn't think of it then, but how does he know how much you shoot?
I guess he watched you in secret sometime, I'm sure you beat off in the
bathroom like I do, and maybe he could see through the crack in the
door.  I like to do it in the bathroom because of the full length mirror
on the wall right in front of the john, so I can sit there all naked and
look at myself while I do it.  Is that perverted?  You must do that
sometimes, get hard looking at yourself in the mirror.  I like to do it
right before I take my shower, so I can shoot my cum all over myself and
then step in the shower and wash it off.

Then Joey leaned down and started sort of licking my pecs and my big
hard nipples, and somehow it seemed like a natural thing for him to do,
it felt so good.  "I love the way you taste," he told me.  "Does this
feel good?" he asked me softly and I just sort of nodded and I guess I
was panting and moaning and telling him to do it more 'cause it felt so
good.

"God yes," I said.  "Don't stop."  No guy has ever touched me that way,
put his mouth on my naked body like that, well, except you that time at
camp.  But this was even hotter than that, I mean we were just kids that
time, and best buddies, and now here I was with little Joey, and knowing
it was wrong, and I guess that sense that it was forbidden made it
sexier, you know, like jerking off outside, someplace where you might be
seen?

Gosh, I hope that doesn't shock you, maybe you've never done anything
like that, but sometimes when I'm in the woods alone jogging, I just get
so fucking horny I have to strip naked right there and stroke myself
until I pop my nuts, and a couple of times I was almost caught and had
to pull my shorts up with my cock still spurting and then my jock was
full of cum as I ran on, and it was one of the best orgasms I've ever
had.

Anyway, Joey licked my nipples and my big hard-muscled pecs and told me
to flex them for him so I did and he really seemed to like that he sort
of bit my pecs as I flexed them - I couldn't believe how sexy that felt,
or how good he was at turning me on, he really seemed to know how to get
me going.  I guess it makes sense, one horny stud knowing what another
needs.

Then Joey sucked on my big hard nipples until I was so horny I thought
I'd shoot.  He was licking and sucking my pecs, and biting my nipples
and stroking my cock with one hand and rubbing me all over with the
other and I was so horny I couldn't stop him, I wanted him to make me
cum.

Okay, I admit that by that time I was playing with Joey's cock too.   It
just seemed natural to return the favor, and he had pushed his briefs
down too, so that he was pretty much naked and I had started feeling his
muscles and playing with his cock - he has a real nice one, not as big
as yours yet, but pretty good size for a kid his age and his muscles are
real sexy, like I said earlier and it felt good to feel his naked body
while he felt mine and played with my cock.  His body is this really
sexy mixture of little boy - all soft and round and cute and vulnerable
- and man - all hard and muscular and dominant and sexy.

Pretty soon as he kept licking and sucking on my big hard pecs I could
feel fuck-juice starting to ooze from my cock and he must have noticed
it 'cause he was still stroking my cock real slow and he stopped licking
my pecs and licked slowly lower and lower over my rock-hard rippling abs
which were quivering and feeling all sexy and sort of shaking with these
spasms like they get when I'm really turned on and then he was holding
my cock and squeezing it real slow until this huge drop of juice oozed
out of the tip.

Then Joey said "Wow, you must be really turned on Todd, your cock is
leaking like crazy - can I taste it?"  

And then I couldn't believe it, your little brother Joey, he stuck his
tongue out and licked that big drop of sticky juice from the piss slit
of my cock.  I nearly shot when I felt his tongue licking my cock.  I
looked over in the mirror and could see us, both of us practically naked
and me lying back on the bed with my huge hard dick sticking straight up
rock hard, and little Joey kneeling over my naked body, him naked too,
his cock hard, feeling my naked muscles and licking my huge hard cock.
It looked like some scene out of a fuck film, our bodies naked and hard,
our clothes scattered all over the bed and the floor, and Joey about to
suck my cock.

He didn't stop with just licking that one drop off, he started licking
my cock like it was a big all-day sucker, slowly licking up the shaft to
the head then all around the head and I was saying "Joey, no, stop, we
shouldn't be doing this, stop -  Aw but shit that feels so good, buddy,
don't stop, yeah."

That's only the second time another guy has put his mouth on my hard
cock, Marty, the other time being that time at camp with you, and I
couldn't help thinking about how much Joey looks like you did then, and
how hot that scene had been, and it got me even hotter today with Joey.

And the next thing I knew cute little Joey was sucking on the head of my
cock - he took the whole head into his mouth and it's pretty big so he
had to open real wide to do it but he took it all and then sucked about
half of it into his mouth and down his throat.  That was all he could
take at first but he kept sucking and going up and down on it until he
had at least two thirds of it down his throat and was sucking like crazy
and I said  "No Joey stop I'm gonna shoot -  aw shit dude don't stop
here it comes, I'm cumming!"

And then I couldn't help myself I grabbed his head and jammed my whole
cock down your little brother's sweet hot throat and shot a huge hot
load of jism and it must have been choking him but he just swallowed it
all and kept on sucking until he got every drop.  He really loved it.

And that's when I looked up and saw you standing in the doorway with
that look on your face.  How long had you been there, Marty?  You never
did say anything, even when I got my clothes on and apologized and all.
I figured you were just too shocked to speak and it was best if I leave
and talk to you later.

So that's how it happened, and I hope we can still be friends.  I'm
sending you this email in hopes you won't just delete it.  If you do
read it, please call me or at least write me back so I know we're ok.

Your friend,

Todd

OK, I have to say one more thing.   I'm not sorry about what we did at
camp that time.  I know it freaked you out and now you think I'm a
pervert and you'll never want to talk to me again, but I liked it. I
would do it again if I could.  Being with Joey today has made me
realize that I do like sex with guys, I like the way a guy's body feels
and I like seeing hard cocks, and it felt good to feel Joey's naked body
and hard cock and I want to do that with you.  I guess that means I'm
queer.  But you know I do like girls too.  So maybe I'm bi, though I
always thought guys who said they were bi were just afraid to admit they
were queers.  I guess I was wrong.


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Dear Todd,

I admit I was pretty freaked when I caught you having sex with  my
little brother.  I got home from the store with my mom and saw your bike
outside, so I ran up to my room, and you weren't there, so I went to
Joey's, figuring he'd have you in there if he was home, I always knew he
had a crush on you, and I thought it was sort of cute, and I liked you a
lot too, so I was glad he liked my best friend.

The door to Joey's room was closed, but not all the way, and I saw you
two through the crack before I pushed it open further.  I couldn't see
much at first, but I saw enough that I knew what was going on. Joey was
sort of lying on top of you, and you both had your shirts off, and you
had your arms around him, and you too were kissing.

You didn't mention the kissing in your message, but I guess like you say
you were pretty far gone.  Your hands were all over Joey, even inside
his shorts, feeling his ass, and I couldn't see what he was doing with
his hands, but I did see him groping your crotch.

I pushed the door open just far enough that I could see everything, and
I admit it gave me a boner to see you too going at it like that. Part of
me was angry and confused and wanted to break in and drag Joey off of
you and start hitting you, and another part was so turned on I wanted to
pull my cock out and watch you two and beat off.  I felt guilty watching
you too when you didn't know I was there, I apologize for that, I guess
it was wrong.  I know what you mean about jerking off outside, the
thrill of being naked and horny where you might get caught, and this
felt like that, I was doing something forbidden, but it felt good, my
heart was racing so hard I felt like I was going to choke on it, but I
couldn't stop myself.

The thing is, I was angry at you for being with Joey like that, but not
so much because I thought it was wrong.  I wanted to be there with you.
I was jealous.  I felt like Joey had stolen you from me at last, I
always knew what a crush he had on you, and I hated him sometimes when
you were nice to him.  I wanted you to be like that to me, but we were
supposed to be two macho jocks and we couldn't do that stuff.  I would
watch him cuddle up to you on the couch when we watched TV, and you
would stroke his head and let him get on your lap and feel your muscles
and his hands would be all over you and you'd be feeling his tight
little butt and I could imagine even then the two of you having sex. And
I wanted to be Joey, so you would do all that to me.

You admitted you weren't too sure about how you and Joey got naked, so I
guess I can tell you that he wasn't the only one taking somebody's
clothes off.  Once the two of you stopped kissing you were ripping each
other's clothes off like a couple of sex fiends.  He took your shorts
off, and then you pushed him down and got him naked right away and you
were licking him all over like he was a giant ice-cream cone. That's
when I was sure you and he had done this before, you'd had this secret
love affair between you and I almost just closed the door and went to my
room.  But I was still really turned on, and I couldn't stop watching. I
wanted to see how far the two of you would actually go, I couldn't
believe you were about to do what you did.

Because the other thing you left out is that you sucked Joey's cock
before he sucked yours.  Like I say, you had him on his back, naked, and
you were on top of him and kissing and licking him all over and saying
stuff like "Oh Joey, you're so fucking sexy, buddy, we shouldn't be
doing this but I'm so fucking horny and you've got me so hot," and then
you sucked his cock.  He was just lying there looking at you like you
were some god, and you took his cock in your mouth and sucked it right
to the bottom, I couldn't believe how fast you buried your nose in his
cute little bush.

But at least what you were saying made me think you might not have done
this before, and I felt a little better.  And I do understand what you
mean about Joey, he has grown up a lot and he's gotten very cocky, he
walks around upstairs where we have our bedrooms naked, and walks in on
me without knocking and I guess that's how he knows how big my cock is
and how much I shoot, he's caught me at it a couple of times in my room
and once or twice in the bathroom, he spied on me until I was about to
shoot and then opened the door and watched as I spurted and he was
standing there hard and playing with himself too and I was mad but he's
so cute and little-boyish that it's hard to stay mad for long.

A couple of times Joey has come into the bathroom when I was in the
shower, and he just climbed in there with me.  We used to take showers
together when we were little sometimes, but when I started to mature my
mom said we had to stop that, but Joey still sneaked in with me
sometimes, and lately when we do it he wants to feel me up and have us
jerk off together, but I always tell him no, and I know what you mean
about it being hard to make him stop, I like it when he touches me and
tells me what great muscles I have, that hero worship thing is hard to
resist.

Then after you sucked Joey for a while - and you did a pretty good job,
Todd, I was surprised how you could take his whole cock, he's really not
such a kid any more, and you took it all and seemed to like doing it a
lot, and so did he.

But then he said "Wait, don't make me cum yet, I want to suck you for a
while first," and he pushed you off and got you on your back and he was
all over you like you'd been on him.  He crawled all over your naked
body, and I felt really jealous then, I wanted to be doing what he was.
OK, I admit it, I guess if you're a queer, then so am I.  There's
nothing you and Joey did today that I haven't wanted to do with you for
years.

And then Joey sucked your cock - yeah, he was pretty good at it, I
agree, I wondered where he learned to do it so well, and whether he and
his buddy Derek might have messed around.  Too bad I didn't think more
about that, as you'll see in a minute.

And then you started cumming and my mom called from downstairs that it
was time to wash up for dinner, so I opened the door and stepped into
the room and you saw me.  I was so hard by that time that if my mom
hadn't called I think I'd have stripped naked and joined the two of you.

But you saw me and pushed Joey off your cock - I could see it spurt one
last time, and some cum hit your chest and ran down into the cleft
between your pecs and then down over your six-pack as you sat up, and
you gave me this shocked, guilty look, and then you grabbed your clothes
and I was afraid you were just going to run out naked like that, and my
mom and dad would see you and know what had been going on, but you got
into your shorts and tee shirt and pulled your tennis shoes on and stood
there looking at me for a few seconds, then ran out.

You left your briefs.  I picked them up after you left, and Joey said
"Hey, those are mine!"  and I wouldn't let him have them, I knew they
were yours, they're the kind you wear.  You're right, they were totally
soaked with your cock ooze and I couldn't help sniffing them when I got
back to my own room.  I love the way you smell when you're horny.  I bet
Joey wanted to do something perverted with your spoogey underpants, and
that's why he said they were his.

Mom called us to help get dinner on the table then, and I didn't have
any time at all to talk to Joey, and I seethed all through dinner.  I
almost said something to my Dad about it, but I was too upset and
confused, and it's a good thing, 'cause then all hell would have broken
loose.

After dinner Mom and Dad went out, leaving me and Joey alone together
and I confronted him and he admitted what you just told me in your email
was true.  It happened like this.

I came to my room after dinner and logged on and I almost deleted your
email without reading it.  I was feeling really confused.  I was mad,
like I said, but I knew it wasn't because of what you and Joey had done,
it was because I wanted it to be me you did it with.

But then I read your email, and went into Joey's room and asked him what
had happened and he told it almost exactly like you did.  He said he's
always had a crush on you, so when you came in and laid on his bed
wearing nothing but that skimpy cut off tee shirt and your sexy gym
shorts he couldn't help himself he wanted sex with you so bad he just
lost control and when you didn't stop him he couldn't stop either.

I have to say I was shocked, I couldn't figure out what was worse, that
my little brother was telling me he was a homo, or that he had seduced
my best friend right there in his bedroom.

I asked him had he done it with guys before, and he said "Sure, all the
time," like it was the most natural thing in the world.  I mean I know I
always had urges like that, and there were those time you mentioned when
you and I did it, and I guess I have to admit Toby and I messed around a
few times, he admitted to me he was queer and wanted us to have sex and
if he'd said he was in love with me or anything too weird like that I'd
have been grossed out and stopped being friends with him but he just
said he thought I was sexy and what was wrong with two guys helping each
other out.

So one day we got naked together in his room - we were lifting 
weights, and then doing poses for each other, showing off, and
one thing led to another, we got naked, we were both hard - like you
said, when I get naked, I get hard.  And Toby started feeling me up and
at first it was just natural, he was admiring my muscles and I was
flattered and then he started playing with my boner and I was freaked at
first, but then he went down on me and I was so horny I let him.  Toby
was a great cock-sucker, he could drain my nuts like a champ, and he
always gave me that shit-eating grin of his when he finished and I'd
look at his cute freckled face with my cum dribbling down his chin and I
just loved him.

So once Toby sucked me off, I felt like I had to do him too, and we
traded blow jobs pretty regularly for a while.  The thing was, when I
was sucking Toby's cock, I wished it was yours.  I wished I knew how to
be like Toby, act like it was natural and get you to go along so we
could have sex like that.  But I always felt like I had to be so macho
with you, you're such a stud.

So when Joey confessed to me that he had seduced you, I was still pretty
mixed up.  I was jealous and mad and horny.  I guess my "big brother,
set-a-good-example" side took control, because I told him what he did
was wrong, and he said But it felt good, and he wasn't sorry or ashamed.

I told him he was wrong and he had to be punished and I would tell Dad.

He said he'd do anything if I didn't say anything to Dad, we'd both be
in trouble if I told.  I wasn't sure what he meant by that, but I was
thinking about what I'd felt watching the two of you, and my dad's
pretty cool, but what would he do?  He might tell YOUR dad, and then it
would be all over the place and we might never get to see each other
again.  I was starting to regret I'd threatened Joey.  I should have
just shut up and tried to forget I'd seen you two trading blow jobs. But
I couldn't.

So I said "I can't just let it go, Joey.  It was wrong."

And Joey said "You could punish me yourself."

That sounded too weird, and I said "Come on!  Like what?"

Then Joey put on his cute innocent little boy pout, which always gets
me, and he said, "You could spank me like Dad did when we were kids."

I wish I had stopped and thought right then, but Joey had me totally
fooled.  He had us both totally fooled.

Dad stopped spanking us when I was thirteen, he said a teenager was
either old enough to take responsibility for his actions or it was too
late, and he didn't spank us any more.  I don't know why he thought my
being a teenager applied to Joey too, but he did, and I always thought
that was a mistake because I knew how much Joey hated getting a
spanking. I never minded getting spanked, but it seemed like it scared
the hell out of Joey to get taken to the basement and then to have to
pull his pants and underpants down and lie across Dad's lap bare-assed
and get a spanking. He always wailed like hell and was good as gold for
at least a week after.  Maybe if Dad hadn't been so lenient with Joey he
wouldn't have turned queer.

So I figured that spanking Joey was the thing to do, and he was brave to
suggest it.  I said, "You mean just like Dad did, bare-assed and with
his paddle?"

He nodded seriously and said, "Yes, I deserve to be spanked."  

He seemed so serious and contrite.  If only I had known.  

So Joey and I went to the basement.  He went in front, like Dad always
made us do, and I followed.  He looked so repentant and sorry.

The cane and belt and leather paddle Dad used to spank us with were
still hanging on the wall, and my ass burned in memory of all the times
I had felt one or another of them.  I never understood how Dad decided
which one to use, but I had hated them all.  Dad would make me stand in
front of him while he lectured me, then pull my pants and underpants
down to my ankles, then put a towel across his legs and make me lie
across them and he would give me the required number of strokes, making
me count them out.  Then I would stand again, sobbing, as he made me
promise not to do whatever I had done again.  Then he would hug me and
tell me he loved me and had spanked me for my own good, and he would rub
my bottom to soothe the pain and pull my pants up and send me to my
room.

If both Joey and I had misbehaved, I would get my spanking first, and
usually by the time Dad finished with me Joey would be crying and he'd
get just a token spanking, or nothing at all but a lecture and a hug.

I think the real reason Dad stopped spanking me was that I started
getting an erection.  By the time I was thirteen, no matter how much it
hurt, by the time he finished blistering my rear end, I had an erection,
and I think if he'd kept it up long enough I would have cum.  I know his
pants would have been wet with my cock ooze, if he hadn't put the towel
under me.  I always went to the john and locked myself in and jerked off
right away after, the fire in my ass fueling the fire in my balls.  I
always came super hard and fast when I had just been spanked.  I know
the last time he spanked me I found that if I spread my legs wide apart
to spread my crack so that he was hitting on my hole, that got me even
hotter, I almost didn't mind the pain, it felt so good, him hitting my
hole. God, I feel like such a pervert, telling you that, but you told me
some pretty sick stuff in your message, so I feel like it's ok to say
sick stuff like that too.

So I sat on the chair in the basement and had Joey fetch Dad's paddle.

He brought it to me and pushed his pants down and stood there with his
head down holding the paddle and looking sorry.  I was still pissed off,
so I didn't think he might be pulling something, I sat on the chair and
took the paddle when he handed it to me.

Then Joey laid himself across my knees.  By then he had pushed his pants
all the way down, and his briefs too, and he had worked his tee shirt
up, and he was pretty much naked.  I think he had a boner, but I tried
to ignore that, like you said in your message, a lot of guys get hard
when they're naked.  All I had on was my shorts, I always strip to my
shorts in my room, sometimes I'm even naked.  My mom stays out if I'm
not dressed.  And Joey and I were in my room when he suggested the
spanking.

So Joey was naked and I was almost naked and when he went to lay across
my knees he started feeling me up.  At the time I thought he was just
doing it because he had to, to support himself as he laid down, he put
his hand on my shoulder, and then rubbed it down over my chest and
belly, and he was saying "I'm so sorry, Marty, please forgive me, I'll
never do it again,"  sort of being apologetic, and it was sort of cute,
and then his hand just sort of accidentally got into my crotch and he
said "Oops, sorry," as he stretched out on my knees, and then he kept
wiggling around like he was getting comfortable, and before I knew it I
had a hardon too.  I guess I should have stopped then, it wasn't right
to be turned on and naked with Joey and spanking him.

Now I don't feel right about what happened next, but you were honest
with me so I guess I owe it to  you to be honest too.  I picked up Dad's
paddle and started giving it to Joey.  I've never paddled anyone like
that before, and I felt weird about it at first.  I didn't hit him that
hard at first, but then I got mad, and started really giving it to  him.
I was thinking about how much I wished I had been with you like Joey
was.  So I sort of gave it to him hard.  But not that hard, not like Dad
would have done to me.

Joey yelled out, and wailed and thrashed around and suddenly I felt
awful.  After about ten strokes of the paddle I had to stop, and like I
say, they really weren't very hard.  Maybe it was more than ten.

But I felt so bad that I grabbed Joey and pulled him up and started
hugging him.  He was crying - well, pretending to cry, it turned out,
but I still didn't know that.   I felt so sorry for him, and guilty
about hurting my little brother.   So I was trying to comfort him and we
were hugging and he was naked and I could feel that he had a boner and
it was rubbing against me and I had one too and it was rubbing against
him and then all of a sudden he had his hand inside my briefs groping my
cock and we were kissing.  I guess I had my hand on his cock too.  It
was crazy, I don't know what happened, I was feeling so close to Joey,
and wanting to comfort him, and then we were kissing and it felt good.

OK, I guess before I tell you what happened next I should tell you I
really liked what happened that time at camp.  I know I said we couldn't
ever talk about it, but that was because I was afraid you'd hate me if
you knew how much I liked it.  OK, to tell the truth, I planned it.  I
had been wanting you for almost a year by then, I mean wanting to get
naked together and mess around.  Like I just said, Toby and I did some
stuff together, and I wanted to do it with you too.

So I heard another kid talk about how his tent-mate had wet his sleeping
bag and they had to share one and he hated it so much, and I realized it
was a way to get naked with you at least.

So I spilled stuff on my sleeping bag intentionally, and then you just
offered to share yours without my even asking and I felt sort of guilty,
but once we were zipped in together I couldn't stop myself, I felt your
body and I was so horny for you, and so I started tickling you and one
thing led to another and we were both naked and I forget which one of us
grabbed the other one's cock first, but you sure weren't shy about it,
and when I started sucking on yours you did it to me too and it's not
like we did it just once, we did it all night.

My favorite part was doing 69, when you sucked my cock while I sucked
yours.  It was totally awesome being connected to you like that, giving
you pleasure while you gave it to me.  Your cock felt so perfect in my
mouth, and even though it's big and I had to work to take it all, I so
totally wanted it and loved when I could get the whole thing inside me
and feel my nose pressed against your bush and hear you make those
sounds you do when you're really turned on and know I was making you
feel that way.  It seemed like you felt the same, I could feel your
mouth on my cock -I'm not as big as you, but I'm pretty big, and you
took it all and I could feel your nose in my crotch hairs and your mouth
sucking and your hands tugging my balls and feeling my muscles and it
just got me hornier and I could feel your balls moving around in your
nut sac, and your cock getting bigger and harder and I felt that
happening to me too and then we both started cumming.

Dude, that was so awesome, taking your load for the first time. I had
tasted my own cum by then, of course, I like to lick some of it up after
I cum, and imagine it's some other guy's.  Yeah, I know that sounds
queer, so maybe it is.  And Toby and I had already traded blow jobs by
then, and the first couple of times I had made him warn me so I could
pull off before he popped, but he always took my load and swallowed it,
and it felt awesome to have him suck my balls dry that way, so after a
while I returned the favor and I liked eating his cum, it tasted like my
own, sort of, but different.  Toby's cum is more watery than mine.  And
saltier.  Yours was thick like mine, and sweet.  I know, that's gross,
talking about another guy's jism, and eating it and all, but I'm really
horny right now, thinking about watching you and Joey suck each other's
cocks today, and remembering what is was like to eat your cock and
swallow your cum that time.

We traded cum three times that night, and I wish it could have been ten,
I've wanted to do it again ever since.

But the next morning I felt guilty so I said we shouldn't talk about it.
I wish I had known you liked it too.

Boy, it feels good to get that out of the way.

Anyway, that little shit Joey tricked me the same way he did you. After
I spanked him he got me all hard, and kissed me and felt me up, started
telling me what great muscles I have, and then pulled my cock out and
got on his knees and gave me a blowjob. I was too far gone to stop him.
You're right, he's really good at it.  My girlfriend at college has done
it for me a couple of times, and she's nowhere near as good as Joey, he
does it like he enjoys it, and he didn't pull off when I started to
shoot, I warned him but he seemed to want to eat my cum and that made me
shoot even harder.

But that's not the worst part.

Just as I was cumming so hard I thought my cock was going to explode,
there was this bright flash of light, and I looked up and saw Joey's
little friend Derek pointing a camera at me.  And before I could even
think, he was up the stairs and out of our house. He took a picture of
me and Joey.  Maybe more than one.

I don't think I need to tell you there's no way I could explain that
picture to my dad.  Me sitting there naked with the paddle in my hand,
and Joey kneeling in front of me naked with his ass bright red and him
sucking my cock.

But it gets even worse.

You know when you and Joey were in his room this afternoon?  Joey had
his webcam on, and was transmitting pictures of that whole scene to
Derek.  Derek has the whole thing on his laptop.

Dude, you and I are so totally fucked.  No one is going to believe a
word of what really happened, and Joey told me you and I have to meet
him and Derek at Derek's house tomorrow night, or else.  Derek's mom and
dad will be away all weekend, and Joey says they have plans for us.

By the way, Derek has really grown up a lot too.

Once you read this, please call me.  Please, I need to talk.

Your friend,

Marty

By the way, I wish I had known how much you liked what Toby and I did to
you in the gym that time.  I liked it too.  So did Toby.

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NOTE: The first part of this story is based on a photo set and captions
in a porn magazine I saw many years ago.  I've no idea what the name of
the magazine was, and I've added my own details and dialogue, but I
don't want to take credit for someone else's ideas, so if the original
author wants credit here, or objects entirely to my use of the ideas,
please email me.


P.S. Definitions of "spooge" - don't miss the sample sentences!
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