Date: Sat, 1 May 2004 13:40:57 -0700 (PDT) From: Jay Winton <spokenword87@yahoo.com> Subject: Erik's song 5 Well we ventured into chapter 5...here you go, but beware... I warned you. I awoke from my slumber, and just sat up in bed, to let the events from yesterday replay in my mind. I shook my head, and wiped away a tear, and got up to take a shower. I let the hot, steamy water enveloped my body as I sulked into the warmth, feeling like a lover's embrace. With a towel wrapped around my body I heard my mom calling my name so I went back into my room and locked the door and changed into some clothes. To avoid communication with the people I live with I slipped out the back door and headed to the Skate Park. The day couldn't have been better, the breeze and the clouds and the sun being nice and polite instead or beating down on me. When I arrived at the park I just wandered around, and took in the scenery. I laid down in the sand box and closed my eyes wishing that someone would just bury me and take me away from here, " You look peaceful" Erik's said as I looked up blocking the sun from my eyes. He looked very beautiful with the light reflected off of his body. " Hmm, well thank you." I said as I brushed the sand off my clothes. " I'm Erik" he held his hand out " I know who you are, you told me, and you keeping leaving me messages on my messenger." I retorted back. " Yea well sorry about that, you always are gone when I want to talk to you." He said with a smile. " Uh huh likely story" I said as I walked away. Wait...why am I walking away, this is what I want, go back and turn around stupid. " Well it was nice seeing- " You want to come over?" I asked him, interrupting his sentence. I had no clue where that came from, but as soon as I said it my heart started to beat as I surveyed his surprise look. " Yea, that would be nice" He said with his trademark smirk. " Sorry my room is a mess, I don't really spend too much time cleaning it up." I said, trying to throw things out the way so we could have a walkway. " No, it's ok, mine looks 10 times as worse as this" he replied with a chuckle. I just gave him a half-smile and turned away from him. " Want to play some video games?" I asked him "Nah, I'm not a big video gamer" he said as he started to go throw stuff on my dresser. Shit I said to myself, I'm acting like a fucking douche bag. He was leafing through my private notebook before I sprang back to life and yanked it out of his hands, almost pulling him forward. " I'm sorry," he said half-shaken. " No, it's ok" I said " I saw my name- " Yea well, I write about people, so sue me." I replied as I turned on a movie. He opened to say something, but stopped and sat down next to my bed as I laid on it. We watched L.I.E, the favorite movie at the moment, I quietly recited words to myself as he studded the TV, I felt like he wanted to say something, but just couldn't get it out. " It's cold down here on the floor," He said as he grabbed for a blanket. " It's not so cold up here" I told him. Where in the fuck is all this coming form? " Are you sure? I don't want to make you even more pissed at me." He replied with a half-smile. "I'm sorry about that, really I am I didn't mean to-. He cut me off by putting his fingers to my lips and came up on the bed and laid the opposite direction I was laying. The whole time he was rubbing his feet against mine, and running them up and down my leg. " You know, in three different countries this is called flirting," I said. " Is it?" he replied as he looked at me briefly then turned back to watch the movie. So I left it at that and gently feel asleep just as the boy recited Walt Whitman's poem. The clock read 4:50 in the afternoon. I rubbed my eyes and saw Erik looking up at me. " I didn't want to wake you up" He said with a smile. " I hope you don't mind, but I reminded the movie and watched it again." He said again. " No, it's cool." I replied as I got up not realizing I had a boner. "Uh...jay." Erik said while looking down " Yea" I said half-sleepy. He pointed at my package. I covered up and turned the brightest shade of red. " It's ok...I already took care of mine, but don't worry I cleaned up" He said with a smile. Now this time I knew my mouth was wide open from that comment.