Date: Sun, 02 Jul 2006 19:58:47 -0700
From: Jacob Peabody <it-is-just-me-jsp@hotmail.com>
Subject: Evan and Jacob Chapter 5

	I was so glad that Evan was not in my next class, I know I had
three with him but I was not sure what ones they were. I used the next hour
and a half to do what most teenagers do in class, concentrate on my social
life. (Okay "social life" is a bit of a stretch but this was all I had)
	The class ended quickly and I realized that it was now lunch
time. "I really hope he does not try to sit with me, might interrupt my
quality time with that stick up my ass", I though bitterly as I packed up
my books and headed toward the cafeteria.
	Unlike most of the students I went to the cafeteria very slowly
taking the longest route I could. I was not keen on running into people
anyway but today I just wanted to be left alone.
	"Yo, bro what's up", it was a call from Alex as he came running
toward me in the opposite direction. "its sloppy joe day, hall ass".
	"You know its sloppy but I am not quiet sure what joe is, I mean
really in a public school its not even going to be meat, so what the hell
is the joe", this was his long winded comment as he dragged me toward the
cafeteria.
	I walked through the doors and this time was not met with a sea of
judging eyes.  (I guess food over whelms prejudice, at least to a teenager)
I walked quickly through the line and other then questioning what the green
thing next to my sloppy "joe" was, I thought about nothing, and I sat down
in utter silence at an empty table in the far corner of the cafeteria.
	After only a few minutes Kenny joined me at the table. "Hey man,
how is your second, first day going?".
	"Oh great, you know that stupid thing where I "imagined" that
everyone in this school hates me, I found out it was true", was my glum
response.
	"What about Evan, haven't you had a class with him yet?".
	"I have, but he was not who I thought he was, I mean he is not a
good person, I mean... he is an ass. Not one of those ass's that is not
really an ass but just a jerk. He is an unmitigated ass", my temper flared
during that speech and had it been anyone else I might have punched them in
the face, but I still liked that face.
	"He was playing you wasn't he, I knew it I am going to hit him
like, like, like something that I hate, that's what", and with that Kenny
stood up to look for Evan.
	And I lost it, I could not help myself, I laughed so hard milk I
had already swallowed was threatening to come out my nose. "Yah and I
gonna, I gonna, not give a rats ass about the bastard and eat my
food. Except this green stuff, because I am not sure what it is but I am
almost positive that someone has eaten it already", I said laughing the
entire time.
	Kenny laughed a little but I could tell he was still on the look
out, because a few minutes later he perked up and pointed across the
cafeteria. Evan was coming this way, slowly like he did not mean to but he
was defiantly heading this way.
	As he made he way closer I could tell that Kenny was tensed to
attack, so I nodded him to stay put and watch as Evan walked right past me
and dropped a piece of paper and then kept on walking.
	"What the hell was that", Kenny asked as I examined the note he had
written me.
	I sat there for a minute unsure if I wanted to read it, maybe it
explained thing that he was feeling. So I slowly opened it and noticed he
had the loveliest hand writing I had ever seen. (I am gay, I am aloud to
notice those things) The note read:
	"Jacob, I am so sorry. I had nothing to do with the comment
earlier, please believe that I would never say anything like that to you
ever. Meet me at my car after school so we can talk more.

Evan

P.S. Please don't tell anyone about me."

      I was never angrier in my life, I mean like I would ever tell anyone
about him. I did not even tell Kenny and I tell him every thing (even when
I was ten and was afraid of Elmo. I know, I know, I am not much with the
butch and that little bastard was creepy)
	I quickly, before I lost my nerve grabbed a piece of paper out of
my bag and wrote a quick message. It said simply:
	"Go to hell, I have to put up with enough with out you adding to
it. Blow it out your ass, you are the worst type of person". I folded it
and quickly stood up, told Kenny good bye and walked across the cafeteria
making sure to slip the note to Evan. And quickly walked out.
	As I walked toward my next class I felt powerful, I felt up
lifted. I stood up for myself. "Oh yah I am a man", I thought as I took my
sit in my next class. I did not even notice when he walked in the door and
only did the whispers of my fellow classmates did I realize what had
happened. Evan was sitting right next to me, and he looked like he had been
crying. Hard
	He looked over to me and at that moment, seeing the streaks of red
down his cheeks and the pain in his eyes, I never felt worse. All of my
self congrats seemed to be put to shame with this overwhelming need to hold
him. The only thing that stopped me from doing just that was the bell.
	We sat through the rest of the class only stealing glimpses of each
other.  (Which by the way, even at a glimpse he is still hot) The bell rang
again and he walked out of the class with me and even down the hall a
little before he actually opened his mouth.
	"I am not a bad person, really I just don't know what to do", was
his choked up response to my silence, he looked like he might cry
again. His eyes were pleading for me to understand.
	"I know I am sorry for that, really, you are not a bad person I was
just so angry", I said and my voice was cracked and very tight. (Hey just
so you know I did not cry, recycled air has that affect on me, anyone
believe that?)
	"Listen I am not ready for all this, but I promise from now on, no
one will talk bad about you around me".
	"That's all I ask, well maybe more later but we can get to that
some other time", I said with a wink.
	He smiled that old smile, and leaned forward like he was going to
kiss me, but suddenly out of no where arms began to grab at him and pull
him away.
	One of these arms belonged to Amy, the most popular slut in school.
(SLUTS!!!)  She is to sluts what Opera is to housewives, she is the messiah
of all sluts everywhere, and if the wind blows just right you can smell her
for miles around. Nothing quiet like dead rotten fish to bring you back
to... well if that smells brings you back anywhere then you have
problems. I digress, but here she is the bane of all things sanitary and
she is kissing on Evan. And I here someone say, "look at that it took no
time at all for her to sink her crabs, I mean claws, into the new
guy". They were dating, and I was crushed.