Date: Sun, 27 Mar 2011 20:02:31 -0500
From: Aaron Saxon <a.saxon1122@gmail.com>
Subject: Everybody Hates Me - Chapter 3; gay male/high school

Please don't post or publish this story without asking me first.

Also, if you are under 18, please don't read this.

Comments are welcome, they can be sent to a.saxon1122@gmail.com


After I had calmed down and we broke our embrace, I told Carter that I had
missed him and apologized again. He said he missed me too and that both of
us made mistakes. I hadn't lost my best friend after all, I was so happy!

Since it'd be a little while until I got out of the hospital, my father's
boss agreed to let him work out of the Houston office until I was ready to
go home. That meant I would be able to see him more. I wanted a hug from my
father and he didn't disappoint me. When I looked in his face, I asked him
where Jamie was? Jamie is my 9 year old brother.  Before he could answer
me, there was a knock on the door. It was John and he had Jamie with him.

Jamie ran passed everyone and over to my bed. He had a big grin on his face
and I couldn't help but have one too. My father explained to me that during
the divorce our mother gave up her rights to us because her new man wasn't
interested in being a dad and that he didn't want to bring Jamie to the
hospital until they knew if I was going to live or die. I was about to
start crying again, when I felt Jamie's little arms wrap around my neck.
His love was pure and non judging. "I love you Kevin and I missed you." he
said to me in his cute little boy voice. "I've missed you too little man,"
I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. Jamie's eyes started to tear up
also. With his voice cracking he asked, "Did I do something wrong?" "No,
Jamie, you didn't, I've just missed you so much."

I decided there was entirely enough crying, so I started to tickle
Jamie. His laughter was infectious. Soon all of us were laughing. I looked
over at John with a frown on my face. He walked over to me and squeezed my
shoulder. Leaning in he said, "I'm sorry for how I've acted Kevin, I've
been a real ass." "John said a naughty word", Jamie chimed in. The three of
us laughed. "So, you don't hate me anymore?" I had tears again. Damnit, I
thought, I needed to stop crying. "I never hated you Kevin, I just didn't
know how to deal with it and I let others influence my actions. I won't
ever do that again."

About 4:30 Edwin appeared again with a wheelchair and said it was time for
rehab. Jamie wanted to come too, but I told him I wouldn't be gone long. He
frowned, but I just ruffled his hair with my hand and he smiled.  Edwin and
I entered the elevator, as the doors closed he put his arms around my upper
chest and held me. I tilted my head up and he leaned down and kissed me. We
got to the sixth floor a little faster than I would've liked, because I
wanted to kiss Edwin a while longer. Dr. Yarlow commented on how much
better I was performing today. I knew it was because of Edwin, John, Jamie
and Carter. They were my motivation to get better and come home.

At 5:30 I left rehab and headed back to my room. When we got there, Shawn
and Gus from the basketball team were in the room with my dad, Jamie and
John. I couldn't even say anything as I looked at them. They looked my way
and smiled. "Hey dude," they said getting up and coming over to me. My
father suggested that him, John and Jamie give us a little time to catch
up. Edwin had to complete his rounds, so they all exited the room.

There was an awkward silent for a moment until Gus spoke. "You've scared
the hell out of the whole team and the teachers." "I'm sorry guys, I just
didn't know how to handle this and the only thing I could think to do was
run away." "We wish you hadn't Kevin and come talked to us." I was
confused, "why?" I asked.  "Duh," they both said throwing their arms around
each other. "Wait...what? You two?" "Yep," they said turning to each other
and kissing. A shocked and confused look came over me.  "Does anyone know?"
"A few people, our parents, coach and now you."

There was a knock at the door, it was Jamie. He was wanting to know if he
could come back in. I couldn't resist, plus it'd been more than a year and
a half since I saw him last. "Come here, you." I said with my arms
outstretched.  He ran into them and he threw his little arms around my
waist, burying his face in my stomach. It hurt a little still, but I didn't
want to let on. "Kevin, do you like boys?" I was floored by his question,
but Jamie always was so inquisitive.  "What would make you ask that?" "I've
heard some boys talk when dad and I went to John's basketball games, I
heard your name mentioned and the word fag was used." What's a fag, Kevin?

Just then, John and my dad walked in. My dad asked, rather abruptly,
"Jamie, where did you hear such a word?"  "I heard some boys at John's
basketball game talking about Kevin and that word was used." "What does it
mean?"

I knew we couldn't avoid this forever, he was going to have to know sooner
or later. I was hoping for the latter.  Jamie looked between me and our
father. Worry could be visibly seen on all our faces. I hesitated for a
second and then said, "that is a bad word and I don't want you to use it,
ok buddy?" "Ok, but what does it mean?" I could see that he wasn't going to
let this go. "It's a bad word used to describe gay people." He looked at me
confused, but then remembered the question he asked before.  It was all on
me, no one else could help me. "Jamie, to answer your question, yes I like
boys." His response was unexpected. "Cool." He said leaning in and hugging
me again.  "You know what that means, right?" "Duh, it means you like
boys." "And you're ok with it?" "Why wouldn't I be, you're my brother and I
love you." I could hardly believe the acceptance and love he had for me, it
came so easy to him. I wondered why it took John so long to get here.

Edwin knocked on the door and entered. All eyes went to him. "Is everything
ok in here?" He turned looking at me.  "Yea, I um just told Jamie that I
was gay." He came over to stand beside me. Gripping my shoulder he asked,
"Are you ok?" "Yea, he took it better than I expected." "You're my brother
and I love you." he reiterated. Looking up at me, I ran my fingers through
his hair. "I love you too squirt."

Edwin asked Jamie if he was hungry. "Jamie is always hungry," I
retorted. Edwin asked Jamie to go with him and get some food for us. All of
us sighed as they exited, Edwin looked back and winked at me.

"I can't believe you told him," Gus said. "What was I supposed to do? He
wasn't going to let it go, even though he's only 9. I know where he gets
his stubbornness from." I said looking over at my dad. "Hey..."

Edwin and Jamie had been walking for a few moments when he turned looking
up at Edwin and asked, "Do you like Kevin?" I always loved his inquisitive
nature, but sometimes he used it in awkward situations. His face started to
turn red as he stammered out, "Your brother is very special and yes I like
him very much." After he said this, his mouth frowned. Jamie said, "cool",
with a big grin. "You don't mind that I like your brother Kevin?" "Naw,
it's cool, besides I think you're cute together." Edwin's face began to
redden. How did someone so young have the capacity to be so open, he
thought.

We ate and talked until visiting hours were over. Edwin held onto me after
he explained what he and Jamie had talked about.  He kissed me on the
forehead. Shawn and Gus just held each other. It was nice to not have to
hide anymore. I think John was a feeling a little left out because he
didn't have anyone to hold onto to. My heart sank a bit for him, but I did
still feel a little apprehension about him. He will need to earn back my
trust and that will take time.

At 9:30, the overnight nurse said that visiting hours were over for the day
and that we could come back tomorrow. I sighed not really wanting to be
alone, but I knew it wasn't for much longer. Everyone but Edwin went to my
dad to the place he was temporarily renting in Houston, while Edwin drove
back to his apartment. He told me he would be back between 8:00 and 8:30 in
the morning.

I slept a lot better that night knowing that at least for the time being I
wasn't hated by everyone and still had friends and hopefully my brother
back. Jamie was back and still loved me, so did my father.  I had
everything in the world to live for now, quite a difference from 18 months
ago. My secret was out and the people who mattered to me the most, knew and
accepted me for who I am. I am Kevin Elliot and I am gay. I am no longer
scared of that, but going back to school soon did worry me.

I quickly let that worry fall to the waste side because the guys on the
basketball team would have my back right? I'd have to ask Shawn and Gus
about it tomorrow.

I decided before going to sleep that I would jack off. It has been so long
since I'd done that and I was starting to feel horny again. I stroked
myself until I couldn't stroke anymore thinking about Edwin and I and it
felt so good. I wiped myself off with some tissues by the table lamp, got
up and went pee and then crawled under the sheets and fell asleep.

 I woke up about 9:30 the next morning according to the side clock. Sitting
in a chair to my right was Edwin. I asked him how long he'd been there. He
said about an hour, he wanted to just watch me sleep. "Goofy," I said and
pulled him into a kiss. This time he stuck his tongue in my mouth and
swirled his tongue with mine for several minutes.  Jamie stuck his head in
and noticed what we were doing, he looked at John and dad and said, "Give
them a minute."  John peeked his head in and seemed disgusted again at what
he saw. He was obviously still struggling with this, regardless to protests
of the contrary. My father pulled him away and said angrily, "What is wrong
with you?!"  "He's your brother and needs your support!" John fell
sheepishly against the wall and my father said, "If you can't do this for
him and for me, please leave."

We heard a slam against the wall outside my room and instantly pulled
apart. "I'm gonna go see what is going on, Edwin said, I'll be right back."
What the hell is going on out here?!" Edwin shouted looking at my father
and John.  "Nothing." John said as he stormed off. Jamie attempted to stop
him, but my father held him back. "Let him go."

Edwin came back in the room and saw that there were tears in my eyes. As he
wiped them away he said that it was my brother John, he left. When I tried
to inquire, he told me he didn't know. My father and Jamie came in. Jamie
ran right to me and hopped on the bed. My father's face was flushed. I
asked him where John was, he said he isn't coming. I felt a wave of sadness
overtake me, but as I was about to cry, Edwin squeezed my shoulder and
Jamie wrapped his arms around me. "It'll be okay, Kevin, just give him some
time. Don't give up on John yet." I would've expected to hear that from my
father or maybe Edwin, but it came from my 9 year old brother. He was being
forced to grow up too fast and I felt responsible.

Shawn and Gus came to the hospital about 10:30. My father stopped them as
they were to enter and said that there was to be no mention of John. They
came in and smiled when the saw me with Jamie in my lap and Edwin to my
side. I secretly couldn't wait to have Edwin sitting where Jamie was. No
one would ever replace my little brother, I loved him so much, but Edwin
was the one I was in love with.

Just as Shawn and Gus and my father got settled, Dr. Yarlow came in and
said that if I continued the way I was I could leave the hospital in 2
weeks.  I was ecstatic, we were ecstatic about it. Even though I wanted
John to share in this good news, I knew to just leave him alone. Carter had
to go back home, but I called him immediately from Shawn's phone. He too
was ecstatic for me and said he couldn't wait to see me.

That night when were alone in my hospital room, we had been kissing for
several minutes when he sat looking at me and said, "I think I love you,
Kevin." "You think you love me?" I questioned. He seemed hurt that I said
that. He looked away from me and tears started rolling down his cheek. I
reached over a touched his arm but he pulled away. Had I ruined my chance
with the most wonderful guy I'd ever known? I started to cry. Looking at
the back of his head, I said, "I love you Edwin," my voice cracking. For a
few moments he still wouldn't look at me, so I decided to get up and move
to in front of him. He stopped me, looking into my eyes. "I love you Kevin,
I think I always have."

A nurse tried to enter to take my vitals, but quickly saw the situation and
left. We giggled as she left, tears still welled up in our eyes. We were in
love, and I couldn't be happier. We laid next to each other the rest of the
night and fell asleep in each others arms.

Check out day was here before I knew it. My dad, Jamie and Edwin were
there. My dad went to fill out some papers so I could be discharged. In no
time I was being wheeled out of the room and to the exit. Edwin leaned down
and kissed me as Jamie giggled. He said he'd be by after his shift ended. I
pulled Jamie down and rubbed his head.

We entered the place that dad's boss was letting us rent. It was almost as
nice as home. John wasn't there and dad explained that he was staying with
a friend back in San Antonio. It was probably for the best, I thought to
myself. Jamie tried to lift one of my bags for me, but it quickly dropped
from his little hands. I chuckled and said, "Let me get that, little bro."
I got settled but dad told me to not get too comfortable because we'd be
heading back in a few days. I frowned at him and said, "What about me and
Edwin?" Dad smiled at me and said, "Edwin can come visit whenever he
wants." A huge smile appeared on my face and I ran over to my dad and threw
my arms around him. Just then Jamie said, "What about me?" "Come here
squirt." We stood embracing for several minutes. Dad was beaming as we
broke from our hug. "Boys, I know I don't say this enough, but I love you
both very much." "We love you too dad," both of us said in unison. Laughter
again filled the small room, when dad said for us to go wash up, we were
going out to celebrate.

Just as Jamie and I were finishing up, there was a knock at the door. It
was Edwin. My father invited him in and before I knew it, he'd invited him
to join us for dinner. My dad was 1 in a million.  Edwin and my father were
shaking hands as we entered. "Edwin will be joining us this evening," My
dad said smiling warmly.  We went to the Olive Garden to eat. It was
great. We ate, drank and joked like a family again. I had missed this ever
since before my accident.

The following Monday my dad said would be the day we would be returning to
San Antonio. My heart sank because that meant I would be away from Edwin
for the first time and I worried he'd forget about me. My fears were
quelled when he leaned in close and said in my ear, "You're my one and
only." I blushed red when he said this. I leaned into him, taking his hand
in mine under the table and said, "Ditto."

When we got home, Edwin and I got out of dad's Cadillac Escalade and ran
for the door. We were like kids again.  We went in and sat on the large
sofa. Edwin sat down next to me and Jamie hopped up into my lap. Dad wanted
to take a picture of the three of us. He went and grabbled his camera and
took several shots before putting it down and sitting down himself. "Can
Edwin stay the night tonight?" I asked my father. He shook his head and
said yes but only if we agreed to behave ourselves. Jamie began to giggle
as our faces turned red with embarrassment.

That night we did want to mess around but we didn't want to give my dad any
reason to not let us see each other, so we agreed to wait. We figured it
was one thing to know and accept my being gay, but it was quite another to
hear us going at it.

That weekend went by much faster than I or Edwin wanted, but he said he'd
be down to see me soon as he could and we could talk on the phone all the
time. I was saddened but I also knew he was in love with me and I with him.

My dad went to his room and about an hour later, I carried Jamie to his
room and laid him down to sleep. After I put him down, ruffled my hand
through his soft brown hair and kissed his cheek, I went to my dads room. I
knocked gently and he said, "You can come in son." "Dad," I began to
say..."I think I'm in love." he patted an open spot on his bed ushering me
to sit down next to him. Tears welled up in eyes and he almost never
cried. He put his arms around me and gave me a big hug. He whispered, "I
know. All I want you to be is happy again son." "I am," I whispered
back. Just then Edwin appeared at the door and peaked in. "Oops," he
said. I didn't mean to interrupt.  You didn't, my dad said and motioned for
him to come in and close the door. I know you boys are in love, but I want
you to be careful ok? I don't want to see either of you get hurt. There is
still a lot prejudice in the world today. We knew this, but listened
intently. And Edwin, he went on, "You brought my son back to life for me
and for that you have my eternal gratitude." You both having my blessing
and support to be a couple. He was beaming and we were blushing again. We
hugged again and then he said we should get some sleep, it was going to be
a big day tomorrow.

I slept that night better than I had all the nights I was in the
hospital. I woke up the next morning wrapped up in Edwin's arms with his
morning wood poking at my butt. "Good morning, sleepy head." I said leaning
further against him and kissing him on his forehead. "Good morning," He
said back to me. Just then the door opened and Jamie came running in. "Dad
asked me to come and get you up." He jumped on the bed and got down between
Edwin and I. Edwin had to quickly adjust his stiffening cock. So did I. We
gave each other a knowing smile and then began to tickle Jamie. This went
on for several minutes until we heard my dad say, "boys, breakfast is
getting cold." We got up quickly and as we were pulling on our shorts,
Jamie stared in wonder at our stiff cocks in our underwear. "Wow, he said,
they're so big." We blushed at each other and said, "last one to the
kitchen is a rotten egg." We ran down the hall and to the kitchen. I came
in first while Jamie came in second. I think Edwin did it on purpose, but
he would never tell me. We joked all through breakfast and as we were
cleaning, dad said we should get packing because tomorrow is the big
day. For the second time in recent days my heart sank and tears started to
flow from eyes. Edwin could see that I was noticeably upset. He reached out
and held me against him. I needed him, probably more than he needed me. My
dad turned away from the sink and eyed me. He never wanted to see me upset
again. "Son, you're still under 18, but you and Edwin can see each other
anytime you want." I finally stopped sobbing long enough to slightly smile
at my wonderful father. How did I get so lucky? I thought. I had a father
and brother who loved me and now a boyfriend who loved me also.

I had nothing to pack, so I helped Jamie pack his stuff. About an hour
later, Edwin said he had to go use the bathroom. He went and knocked on my
dad's bedroom door. He said, "Come in son." "Its me," Mr. Elliot he
said. "Oh, Edwin I'm sorry, I thought you might have been Kevin." They
spoke for a few minutes about basketball and then Edwin asked my father if
he could take me out on a date tonight? He didn't see why not, but don't
keep me out too late. He said he wouldn't.

He ran back to Jamie's room and said for me to get ready, he was taking me
out. Jamie started giggling and said, "Someone's got a date, someone's got
a date." I'd become accustomed to blushing or crying over the passed few
weeks, and by now I was blushing again. I pulled Jamie into a bear hug and
gave him a noggie. When he screamed for me to stop, I started to tickle him
in his ribs. My father and Edwin were laughing at our exchange but I was
reminded about our dinner date. I quickly got up and went to the bathroom
to shower.

We went to a nice Chinese Restaurant. Neither of us could pronounce the
name properly, but the food was good.  I had Orange Chicken and Edwin had
Pepper Steak, both came with fried rice and an egg roll. After he paid, we
got up and left. I didn't want this night to ever end, but I knew it had
to. I was afraid of how long it would be before we would see each other
again.

One the way home, I sat and stared out the window. He looked over at me and
put his hand on my arm. He asked me what's wrong? I said, "I'm not ready
for this to end or to go back to school in San Antonio." "Kevin, it's not
ending, it's only beginning." He stated. As we pulled up in the driveway,
he leaned over and kissed me. We sat in silence for a few minutes when he
said for me to close my eyes. I looked at him questioningly, but
complied. A moment later he said open your eyes. In my hand was a silver
locket. He said open it. There was a picture of him on one side and a
picture of me on the other. He then showed me he had a matching one. I
reached for him, the emotion taking me over again. "I don't want to let go,
I want to stay like this forever." "Kevin, you don't ever have to let go,
I'm not going anywhere." Like the true gentleman that he was, he walked me
to the door and we kissed passionately. Jamie was watching us giggling
through the side window of the front door. As he turned to leave, he said
he'd be by in the morning to see me off.

I could barely sleep that night, to be honest, I was kind of dreading go
back home. I didn't know what to expect from the kids at school, I had
missed a year and half of it after all. Before I could think anything else
I heard something vibrate. In all the excitement, I never even noticed the
cell phone laying on the night stand. My father and Edwin must have gotten
it for me. There was a text.

Edwin: Hey, cutie sweet dreams. I'll see you in the morning.

Me: Hey, you. I love you, sweet dreams.

Edwin: I love you too.

It was a short exchange, but again he knew exactly what to do to calm me
down. Soon I was asleep.

I started to stir when I felt my bed sink. "Ugh, do I have to get up?" I
said.

"If you want to see me, you will." Edwin stated. I yawned and stretched,
the room coming into focus in my still blurry sleepy eyes.

It was still a couple hours before my father wanted to get going, so Edwin
and I spent the morning together. We went out into the expansive back yard,
it was twice as large as ours was at home. We sat on a porch swing, gently
rocking. "I'm not ready for this," I said again. "And I'm not ready to
leave you here." "You can do this, I know you can," he said. "And this
isn't forever. You have my locket and you have my heart." I started to cry
again. He pulled me to his muscled chest and held me tight. He just rocked
me gently until I heard the door push open.

"It's time to go Kevin." My dad stated. I looked up, my eyes all bloodshot
from crying. "Dad, I can't leave. I can't go back to school, everyone will
hate me." "Not everyone," he said. "You'll have Carter, Shawn and Gus."
"Don't forget about me!" Edwin exclaimed. "And Edwin, the boy who brought
you back to me, brought you back to life."

It was a tearful goodbye, but as Edwin reminded me, it wasn't goodbye,
because he would call or text often and come see me when he could get away.

We loaded the Escalade up, as Edwin got into his blue Ford Focus. We
glanced at each other. He quickly ran over and motioned for to roll down
the window. "Don't be sad baby, I love you and I'll be down soon." He said
leaning in to kiss me again. Jamie giggled again. I rubbed his head as I
rolled the window back up.

I sobbed for an eternity it seemed, when Jamie looked at me and said,
"Don't be sad, Kev it will be ok and you'll see him again." "When did you
get all grown up?" I asked him. "I don't know, I guess with you away
someone had to."  After that, the ride home was more subdued. I opened the
locket and looked at it all the way home.

I pulled out my phone, found his number and went to send a text.

Me: Edwin, I miss you already.

Edwin: I miss you too, Kevin. It will be alright. I'm just a phone call or
text away.

Me: I know, but its not the same.

Edwin: I know, but this isn't forever. We will be together again, for life.

Me: For life. All I want is you.  Edwin: Same here baby. I have to go do my
rounds now. I will call you later.

Me: Ok. L

No response after that. I knew what he said was true, but could I go that
long without being with him everyday again? Was I strong enough? Somehow,
I'd have to be.