Date: Sat, 11 Jun 2011 15:43:35 -0700 (PDT)
From: alex montez <alexsnumber1@yahoo.com>
Subject: finally free -- chapter 1

well let me start by introducing myself my name is Alexis m.  i guess
i should tell you how i look. well lets see i have light brown hair ,
sapphire color eyes and golden tan skin.
and that's weird  because, you see I'm Latino. now i know what your
thinking , '' how the hell ! !  do i have blue eyes and almost blond
hair?! ''   well that would be my grandma from my dads side of the
family's   fault because she was  German. I'm also not very tall I'm
like 5'6 or something and that's pretty small for my age I'm 18 almost
19 years old.

my body is OK i guess I'm not fat but I'm not skinny either and i have
some muscle on me, not a lot but enough . I specially like my butt and
my lips  , and I work my butt off , getting a butt lol that's funny!!
so i think it looks pretty good and tight , but that's what i think
anyway . i always keep my hair long enough to cover my ears and most
always comb it to the side don't know why but it makes me feel pretty
somehow .

like i said earlier i'm 18 but I'm still in high school,  yep still!!
i was kept back a year cause i only went ,did homework and paid
attention in the classes that i like , which wore like 3 or 4 classes
, and its not like i don't like to learn cause  i do, its just that i
find what most of what the teachers say in class is boring as hell !!!
 Geez !! i know its school but make me want to learn , not bored me
death!!.

I'm a really shy person and i hate confrontations so school is not my
favorite place in the world . I'm not a loner by any means.  i have my
group of friends and i know some people around school , but i always
try to blend into the background and try not call attention to myself
. the reason for that is that I'm Latino but my physical appearance
doesn't match my ethic group , so i got pick on when i was in middle
school.

 i went to a school in south centre L.A , so most of the kids wore
Latino or black so some kids didn't like the fact that i was mixed and
had different color eyes and hair then they did , of course not all
but enough to make me hate the way i looked so i try really hard not
to show how i look by covering my hair, i even got contact lenses  . i
couldn't take it any more so i beg  my mom to let me switch schools or
district . I had to cry a lot,  but she finally did . so i go to a
school in Pasadena , but only i change schools not my little bro.
that's the main reason why i try not socialize at school cause if they
don't know me they can't hate me right.


i guess i should tell you about my family , i have 2 brothers ,a
younger bro named josh and older bro named jay , which makes me the
middle child .we live in a 3 bedroom house in south centre, thank god
in a good, OK ,in an OK neighborhood . i live there with my mom and my
bro josh . my older bro jay has his own family already  . and as for
my  father well his not in the picture any more my parents got
separated  like 11 years ago and i haven't seen him since then . my
mom she's always at work so we don't see her  that much ,she works for
a old people home and i think she  likes her job a little to much but
whatever , we don't get to  see her all the much which i guess is good
that she works a lot because we can buy whatever we want, but also bad
cause we don't get so see her a lot , which cost me and my Lil bro to
grow up a lot sooner then we had too.

growing up i always felt different then most of my friends ,i started
to figured out that i like guys more then girls , but now that I'm 18
i really don't care any more , just the thought of sex turns me on but
i haven't had the chance to experiment with  anyone , yet !!! he he
he!!!. I'm starting to think that its time to start .and i think that
I'm going too when i go back to school ,since its Christmas break
right now.

now i think my cute i love my red puffy lips ,my sapphire blue eyes
and my light brown hair, and a few girls that sit next me in classes
have told me that I'm cute. when i go to school i usually wear loose
fitting jeans and a t-shirt and I'm always wearing a hoodie of some
sort ,and i always keep my hood up all day and when i walk I'm always
looking at the ground and i never look the people that I'm talking to
in the eyes . and i always keep to myself  out side of my group of
friends and  usually the person that sits next to me in class. i
always became friends with that person.

since i decided to change and socialize more and be myself i went to
the mall to buy a whole new wardrobe . i spent a lot of my Christmas
money but  it was for a good cause. i went to all the popular stores
that most of the kids go too at my school , most of the jeans that i
got fit me perfectly , you know tight in all the right places , and
some that made my butt look amazing. as for shirts i got mostly
t-shirts that's show of the same muscle that i have  and i also bought
some v neck shirts because the sales guy was really cute and i wanted
to talk to him . i also got some board shorts and a few pairs of shoes
the sales guy said look kool an me and plus they actually looked kool
too. and i only bought like 2 hoodies because i promised myself that i
wasn't going to hide myself any more.  that day was one of the longest
day ever for me but at the end, i was set and i was ready and excited
to begin a new year, and that would be i just 2 days and i just cant
wait I'm going to have so much fun.

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oh man tomorrow i have to get up for school at 6 a.m so i have to chose
the outfit that I'm going to wear tomorrow, tonight . i  hope that i
look good , so I'm going to bed and its only like 9:30.

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fuck i hate the sound of my alarm cloak , i don't know why  but that sound
makes so angry sometimes. i took a shower ,put on the  clothes  that i
laid out last night which didn't include a hoodie not like you need
one in California.
then i went to the kitchen , and while i was eating
a pop tart my mom told me that i look way better in my new clothes ,
then she left for work and i left right behind her so i didn't get
stuck in traffic but like always i did , i was a little late to
school, seems to me that I'm always little late to school . i parked
my car and fast walked to my class so that could make it without
needing a pass from the office. i was fast walking around the corner
of the building in which my class was when i run into someone ,

i didn't know who the guy was at first because he kneeled  down to pick up
a book that he drop, then he stood up , he was really cute ,hazel
eyes,  golden tan,  blond hair ,awesome body . i knew who he was , he
plays water polo and his name is Jake he's one of the hottest of all
the players but the whole damn team is hot ,sometimes i wonder if they
made the team just because there hot , i never seen them play but i
have the year book from the last three years and the pictures of the
water polo and swimming teams are really hot.

so i was like ''oh man I'm so sorry  i didn't see you , did i hurt you ''

 i was really worried at this point that i have already mess up and i
haven't been in school more then 3 minutes . he didn't say any thing
for a few seconds he was just staring into my eyes which made me even
more nervous.then he finally  started to talk.

'' its OK bro ,it was my fault i wasn't looking where i was going and
nah i not hurt I'm a big guy i can take it '' he blush a little when
he said that .
i giggled softly when he said that and he blush even more

'' um..OK  that's good that you're not hurt''  i said and i looked at him in the
eyes .

''huh are you new here i don't think i seen you around before '' he
was still looking deep into my eyes as he was talking to me.

''nope been here since 9th grade , i just always keep to myself most
of the time '' i said.

''oh ... that's cool  so whats your name ? my names Jake  '' he said.

'' my names Alexis and its nice to meet you Jake '' i said with a smile .

he look like he just thought of something then he said  ''it' s nice
to meet you too Alexis .... .hey um you wouldn't happen to know a girl
named Liz would you?''

i started thinking Liz do i know Liz , oh yeah !! i do know a girl
named Liz and she's fuck en hot ,hey i like guys but sometimes girls
are just that hot i even i like them .i meet here at community center
where sometimes i go to hang out with a really cool lady that works
there and sometimes i help the kids that go there with their homework,
even though i don't like school I'm not stupid, I'm specially good at
biology and geometry. and like two years ago i meet Liz there she was
there to pick up her little sister who i happen to be helping.

she was like ''gosh i wish i wasn't so old to come here to get help
with my homework , I'm like struggling to keep a c in my science class
in order to stay in the swim team but i have no idea was going on in
class'' so i told her that i could help her if wanted help ,she agree
so i been helping her every once in a while for the past two years.

''oh yeah Liz , Liz from the swim team  ,really hot girl with a
piercing on her lip '' i said.

fuck en bitch prolly fucking  , super hot Jake all day . i thought to
myself and the more i thought about it the more i found it hot ,you know
since they're both really hot and i wouldn't mind watching even if i
wasn't invited to join .

''is she like your girlfriend'' i asked.

''  nah just a friend , she just told me a couple times that  Alexis
was helping her with homework before but ....um..i..ah...thought it was a
girl ''  he laugh, i could tell it was a nervous laugh , the he
added ''no offense though''

i laugh to too and said '' none taken ,it all depends on how you say it ,you
have to
put accent into it like Alex-is , like in spanish''

'' you can speak Spanish that's pretty cool '' he said.

''well i speak crappy Spanish and all Latino people should and i think
they do '' i said laughing

'' you're la-ti-no?'' he asked  and  looked kinda confused.

oh man he sounds so cute saying latino , i wonder if he can roll his tongue, i
think to myself.

''yeah  and german'' i said.

''aaah that explains the way you look'' he said

''yeah , do i look weird ?'' i asked.

''oh no! ,no you look hot . ...um....i mean normal looking.''  he blush a
lot and tense up , i decided to help him so i said.

'' Thanks i was hoping that i look ........normal''  with a smile.
he relax little when i didn't say anything of what he let slip.

''hey we should really get to class ,it was great meeting you and I'll
tell Liz that i finally meat Alexis and I'll probably see you around
lunch i hang out in the left quad'' he said.

''yeah we should, tell her i say hi, and  i usually hang out in the center
quad so maybe ill see around ''

we both went in opposite directions .as i got closer to my class i saw
that the door was open which meant i still had time to make it with
out a pass . i could already hear the class and the  laughing  , which was
normal for the class , even if i didn't talk a lot people except to
the people around me , which i kinda like and was force to, too because
my first class is drama class.

when i reach my classroom and went inside everybody stop talking and
focused on me which kinda made me nervous, they kept staring at me as
i walk across the room to get to my sit in the back the room . most of
the girls started whispering and giggling to each and Turing around on
there sits every few seconds. some of the guys also turn to look at me
but didn't do what the girls did , i made eye contact and give them a
cute smile at a few guys and girls  that i caught  looking at me and
they turn so red in the face from getting caught  that i thought that
they would pass out ,which of course i found funny as hell but tried
really hard not to bust out laughing. and i swear even my teacher
checked me out , which normally would creep me out but he was a new teacher
and he was like 25 or something ,i don't know i wasn't really paying
attention when he introduced him self  ,i was kinda busy  looking at
the bulge in his  jeans which was pretty damn big, plus his really hot
,most of the class  calls him ken , you know from barbie.

most of my morning classes wore the same , girls staring and giggling
and a few guys stealing glances out the corner of their eyes. which
made me really feel hot but also nervous cause i still have low
self-esteem . a lot more people said hi to  me in class too. but most
of the time i just sat back and smile at people that looked at me. i
did try to talk to some people that i talk to in class that sit next
to me but they would just stare into my eyes and they would just nod
or say ah huh because they worn' t  paying attention to me so stop
trying to talk to them.

when i got to my homeroom (which is a 20 minute class where you do
homework you forgot to do or just kick back and relax) i sat next to
this guy named Ben ,he's   really pretty not hot but pretty , he has
green eyes which i only seen a couple of times  since school started ,short
black
spiky hair ,tan skin. we usually don't talk much cause either he's
busy or I'm busy, but today we did but just like the others he stare
into my eyes (that's starting to freak me out ,why the hell do they
keep looking at my eyes) ,  and then there was  a awkward  silence
moment .

 ''say something '' i said.

 ''ok.. tell me a story '' he said.

 i  playfully bump him with my shoulder and said '' shut up and pay
attention and learn something cause you know that looks will only take
you so far and in your case not very far '' i said laughing .

then hesurprised me cause push back his chair and motion with his hands all
over his body and did wave type of thing with his body while saying

'' you know you cant resist all of this ''

and I'm like ''i can when theres noting there to resist'' and laugh

then out of no where he pull his shirt up and show me his abs, fuck he
has really hot body i wasn't expecting him to have abs  i say to
myself.

he was like ''oh man look at this puppies come on touch them they like
to be pet'' he said with a sexy voice then grin.

fuck!!!  he wants me to touch his abs ,should i do it ? well he did ask right ?
,damnit !! my heart is beating so hard i think  i'm going to have a heart attack
or maybe suffocate because i can hardly breath, god I'm going to do  it but i
have to do it in a sexy way or maybe in a cool way , ok focus , i think to my
myself.

he was looking at my eyes  so i look away and look at his abs and  i took my
hand and walk my fingers over each one and said ''oh poor puppies i bet daddy
doesn't take you on  walks '' i also said in a sexiest  voice that i could
master in my nervous state.

 i kept walking my fingers lower  ,played with his happy trail until my fingers
reach the top of his jeans where i could clearly see that his dick was hard as
rock laying to his left hip and it looked pretty damn thick too. then i slide my
hand over his dick a couple of times  and it was really thick and big, and  then
he let out a loud gasp and shiver a lil. thank god we sit all the way in back of
the class no where near any one . when he gasp i quickly  turned  to  look at
him in the  eyes and he was  really red and breathing kinda hard and he was
also  sweating a little and i just smile and wink at him , cause i knew what
happen to him.

he was like ''um ..i..ah ..um...um...i..ah..i..''

he was fidgeting in his sit while he was trying to come up with
something to say, but before he could the bell rang ending class .i
got up from my sit and turn to him and said ''see ya later Ben and make
sure to take those puppies for a walk k  they need to learn to stay outside a
bit longer ''  and winked at him again ,

he just smile and nod his head and said  ''i sure will and maybe you
can help me teach them sometime''

'' k give me a call when you need help'' i said with a sexy smile''


i didn't get to see my friends during nutrition cause i had to go to
the main office to turn in some papers. my classes after nutrition
were the same as the others  , a few people staring ,giggling and
stealing an occasional glance my way .

by the  time that lunch rolled  around i was so happy cause while getting gawk
at was fun, it was also making me a little self-conscience , since i was always
in the
background hiding , i really wasn't used to getting attention .so
right after my 6th period class i stop by my locker to drop off some books
 that i didn't need and get the ones that i did.

 almost every day that i go to my locker i see this really cute guy putting his
books
away , and i always try to get a look at him without getting caught ,
his really pretty like a boyish cute, his my size  but more leaner he
has light brown hair and a really dark tan and blue-grey eyes which
are so cute , and he usually wears surfer style clothes and he happens
to be a one too! how do i know you ask? well i seen his pics on face
book a few times or a bunch lol , hey!! its not stalking either i just
like to see what he does ,you know to make sure his OK and stuff ,he
he he!!.

for the past like three school years he has never spoken to me before
or even looked at my direction or maybe he has i don't know i hoped he has . in
fact i didn't know his name was
Shane until like last year and i only found out because one of his
friends called him and i just happen to be walking behind him lol , and
its not what you think or maybe it is i don't know I'm not telling.
well today when i open my locker to  put my books inside and turn to
sneak a peek at him , fuck!!! he  caught me , i froze and i think that
i prolly turn beet red , he just smiled and finish what he was doing in
his locker , and walked towards my direction when he got close he said
''hey'' and wave at me . that freaken got me light headed i mean he
spoke to me he has never spoken to me before , i couldn't even speak ,
but i master up all my will and said ''h ..hi '' and awkwardly wave
back to him. he smile and kept walking to where ever he was going.
when he turn the corner i sigh  and thought ''fuck i just made a fool
of myself in like two seconds'' .

 why the hell i do i always panic when i least expect it god! my whole
morning was just right i was able to talk to everybody that talk to me.
and had some what confidence. so i just kept telling myself to be
strong and that if i can think it i can do it. i finish with my locker
decided to put just put everything in it including my backpack and come back at
the end of lunch to get my stuff. then went down stairs to find my friends .


i found my friends in our usual spot , in the center quad , beneath a
tree sitting in a metal lunch table, we've been there since like
freshmen year.  i known most of my friends since 8th grade, the first
year that i move to the district . when i arrive at the table they all
looked at me and together they said ''what the hell '' .

 ''what'' i said.

 ''don't you what us ,you know what ,you look like a completely
different person'' said Saul.

 i smile and said ''i needed a little change''and shrug my shoulders.
they all ask me a whole bunch of question like when i when did i go shopping,
why did i decide to change my style and be more open? and i whole bunch more ,
and i spend the first half hour of lunch explaining things to them .
by the end of explaining things to them.

Edgar said ''thats cool that you did this cause you were keeping us
from being the popular  group of school ''

i looked around the table at everybody with a rise eyebrow  and said
'' yeah ...sure it was all my fault..uh huh''

 then we all just bust out laughing ,the people turn to look at us
prolly wondering why the hell we wore  laughing .


then once the laughing had stop i told them that i was going to get
some food ,they had all ready gotten there food ,and while i was
explaining things to them i kept eating there food of there plates.
and like always one of my friends comes with me ,his named is Alex but
he likes to be called lex, he happens to be my best friend he calls me
''lexy'' and i  calls ''x''  he was the first person that i meat at
school in the 8th grade. i sat next to him in my elective which happen
to be art , and I'm not really good at drawing but I'm good at
painting , he happens to be really good at  drawing even back then so
he helped me and i helped him during class and since the day we've
been friends and i also met Luis , Michael which we call mike, Rickie
,and Andres , through him.

 i have always found found him attracted, that's one of the reason i
sat next to him in art class and got lucky that i suck at drawing he
he he. now he looks so freaken hot .fuck why are so many people in
this school so hot ,you know the more i think about it , its prolly
cause I'm always so horny lol or maybe  i just never really pay
attention to people that i don't find attracted yeah that most  be it
, and i don't mean that i don't talk to them its just i don't look at
them in a sexual way .well back to ''x'' he's about 5'10 ,tan skin.
short ,spiky brown hair , amber color eyes which look gold when the
light hits them, he has a piercing in his left ear, and in the whole
time that I've known him i never seen i pimple on him , lucky bastard,
i have to try really hard to keep my skin clear, he also dresses like
a pretty boy ; you know matching his clothes ,ironing them ,being all
clean and shit ,and it takes him like 20 minutes to get his hair just
right , whatever the means he does it like 3 times and at the end it
looks the same as the first time but he says its different , and don't
ever ever step on his shoes, he fuck en loves his shoes , i steped on
one once and he freaked and punch me on my back which ended us in a
fight . he apologize and told me that it was a reflex , that he
usually does that to his older brothers, and also  that he never meant
to hurt me and promised never to hit me again, and that was like in
the middle of 9th grade.


he has a great body due to the fact that he's on the soccer team ,he
has been on the school team for like 2 years but he has  been playing
most of his life ,i play with him sometimes but i suck big time and
he's usually a show off.  so anyways we went to get my lunch but since
it was late already the cafeteria was close so we went to the quad
store which is a snack store on the left side quad .we were waiting in
line to buy some chips and cookies when nick come over to say was up .
now nick is really cute , he has light blue eyes and short blond hair,
he's about 5'6 slime but you can see his muscles and he has a killer
smile .
he used to part of my  original group of friends but he
started to pull away from us and into the bad craw of people until he
stop hanging with us all together . so now lex doesn't really like him
all that much , but even though he didn't hang out  with the group
anymore he still keeps in touch with me . i was a Lil mad at the
beginning but he's  so cute and he dresses like a cholo, thug guy
which is so cute on him.

''was up  lexy'' he said with a smile that killer smile of his. i
think that i might have blush a little .he then turn to lex and just
said ''hey '' and turn back to look at me.

out of the corner of my eye i could see he was not happy to see him and that he
called me lexy  only him calls me that . he  just said ''hey '' back and
continued to glare at him .

''so hey bro do u want to like hang out later ,we haven't hang out in
while ''nick said

 i was kind of surprise that he would ask me in front of lex and i
could see that lex was looking at me. fuck he's so cute i cant say no
but if i say yes lex is going to be mad at me because I'm hanging  out
with him, but i bet he's going to be mad at me just cuz I'm talking to
him so what the hell i thought to myself.

'' yeah sure ok'' i said . i could tell lex was pissed but it didn't matter.

'' k cool I'll see you later then ''  he said happily he then turn to
lex and coldly said ''see ya'' then left before lex could say anything.


it was my turn up to order what i wanted , got what i ordered and kept
ignoring lex glaring at me , finally after i stared walking  i turn to
lex and ask ''what ''

''you know what , why didn't you say no and why the hell you still
hanging out and  talking to him''

''i couldn't just say no , he used to be our friend and i can hang out
with whom ever i want''

''yeah ...he used to be our friend ''

''well he's still my friend ''

''k fine but when he gets in trouble he's going to take you down with him''

'' you do know that I'm not stupid right '' i said with  a grin ,he
was about to say something to that but i say ''you shut up'' and he
close his mouth and smile.

'' i know that but i don't want to see get in trouble or hurt '' he said with a
loving look

''thanks  man that means a lot to me '' i said with a smile

'' shut up man you know what i mean'' he said with a smile and i could
see he blushed a little

''yeah i do thanks.'' i said while looking in into his eyes and a
smile on my lips.

after lunch my classes were the same as in the morning  and by my last
class i was falling asleep . but finally the last bell ring and we were
dismissed .i walk to my locker drop all my books cuz i didn't have any
homework and i thank god for that cuz I'm so tired and i just  need
a nap not homework . i walked outside to the parking lot to meet lex
cuz i always give him a ride to his house. we get into the car and
leave .he was quiet for a while but then he spoke

'' so are you still going to hang out with nick?'' he asked.

i didn't know if i should tell him that i never stop hanging out with
him , but i remember the way he reacted earlier so i decided not to
tell and just said .

''i don't know yet maybe but like in the weekend'' while just
concentrating on the road. i hate lying to my best friend but if i
tell him he's going to be pissed.

''k sure just make sure you're careful k'' he said looking at me .i
turn to look at him and i can see that he doesn't like the idea but
he's trying, i smile and said

''k mom'' and laugh

''you bitch I'm serious   stop playing for a bit ''  he said while
looking at me with a angry face.

i turn to look at him again and blow him a kiss and turn back to look
at the road again . he was quiet for a few seconds so i turn to look
at him again and he's blushing which makes me smile. so i said '' k
I'll be careful if i do decided to hang out with him.''

he turns to look at me and says '' thanks all I'm asking''

we don't say anything for a while ,  i parked in front of his house ,he
opens the door then turns to me  and says ''bye '' and really quickly
gives me a kiss on the cheek and leaves before i can say anything and
goes into his house.

i got home around 4:00 and i was really confused ,was lex just playing
when he gave me the kiss cuz i blow hi a kiss or did he mean it .i
guess I'm going to have to find out tomorrow. i decided to text nick ,
to ask him if he wanted to came over , he said that he be over in 30
mins. and that he had a surprised for me . I'm not sure if I'm excited or
scare of what the surprised is , but i can't wait for him to get here.



........to be continue..

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