Date: Tue, 03 Jan 2006 12:11:54 -0700
From: Samuel Forte' III <fallenangel595@hotmail.com>
Subject: finding andrew-chapter 12

** This story is a true story, telling of people and events that have taken
place in the last three to four years. I have the consent of the others who
are involved to use them, but no last names will be used for privacy
reasons. This story will focus around two people as they stumble upon each
during high school and find themselves falling for one another. They are
able to survive the trials, tribulations, and difficulties that are thrown
at them and from each other until everything comes to an abrupt end...All
rights to this story are mine (lol well it is based on MY experiences) so
no copying or publishing without my consent!**

			      Finding Andrew
	       Chapter 12: An Eventful Valentine's Day Week

     So Monday night comes and Andrew comes back to see me after our tag
team match.

"Hey Sam."

"Hey little man."

"You should go home and see what you got for V-Day. A little early present
with the help of your mom."

"Really? This should be interesting."

"Yea, I know you'll like it. I'm going out to eat with my brother so I
won't be able to talk to you tonight. I'll see you at school, ok?"

"Ok." We shared a quick kiss as he took off from Mario's house. I would go
home to find the gift sitting on my bed: a Simeon Rice Buccaneer jersey! I
was excited as my mom told me that he had pitched in half to help get
it. You know I had to wear that to school.

     I got a lot of evil looks (there are a lot of Oakland Raider fans in
Colorado), but I was happy to get them. I didn't see Andrew that morning,
but I knew I would at lunch.  Lunch turned out to be nothing like I
planned.

     I sat down with my friends as I still had yet to see Andrew. I was
talking with my friend MJ when a certain individual started to irk
me. Lizzy had a brother, Jeremy, who was a freshman and loved to hang out
with us. He kept messing with MJ and I was starting to get a little peeved.

"Jeremy, leave him alone. He said cut it out."

"Mind your own business loser." Things went back to normal for a few
minutes until he started messing with MJ again. I know he can take care of
himself, but I don't like to see anyone mess with my friends.

"Leave him the fuck alone."

"Or what?"

"Try me and see." I said with anger in my tone. I said it a little louder
than intended so it drew the notice of those close to us. I went back to
eating in silence. I looked up to see Andrew getting out of the lunch line
headed in my direction. He had a big grin on his face as he spotted my
jersey. I was just excusing myself from the table to have a chat with him,
when Jeremy dumped his pizza and emptied his chocolate milk onto me. I
stood up and slammed my fist into the table and yelled fuck really
loud. This got everyone's attention as I started to walk off fuming.  I got
halfway across the room when I turned back around with bad intentions in
mind. Andrew tried to stop me as he grabbed me by the shoulder.

"Sam, let it go! It's not worth it."

"Shut the fuck up and get your hands off of me." Andrew took a step back as
I turned back around headed to the table. He made a last ditch effort to
stop me.

"Sam, for me just let it go." He said as he wrapped his arms around my
ribs.  I broke the grip and shoved him down to the ground.

"Listen you damn dumbass! Leave me alone." He was shocked as was the rest
of the lunch room. I had snapped mentally. All the crap that I dealt with
to that point just let loose. I walked back to the table to find Jeremy
crying trying to run. I grabbed him by the back of his shirt and slammed
him hard into the brick wall. I cocked my arm back and as the fist came
flying forward, I felt the weight of the world on my arm...actually it was
the majority of my friends. Lizzy loosened my grip and Jeremy took off
running as Steve, Sean, Kenny, Craig, and MJ all did their best to hold me
back.  Lizzy got in my face about what I did and slapped me. That made
matters worse as I pushed her into the wall and started to yell at
her...for all the crap I had to deal with when "going out" with her.
Andrew came again to try and calm me down and I broke free about ten
seconds before the security guards would get there. In those ten seconds, I
hit Andrew in the face twice and yelled that's what he gets for being an
asshole (the incident awhile back). As I went to hit him a third time, the
security guards took me to the ground and escorted me to the office. I got
cheers from the rest of the lunch room as I managed to hit one of the
guards and try to make my way back to finish what I started.  The last
thing I remember was getting hit in the neck...

     I woke to find Jason being held back from kicking my ass. I was locked
inside the nurse's room as I felt very stiff in my neck. I looked up to
find Andrew sitting across the room with a swollen left eye. I couldn't
tell exactly what he was thinking or feeling when he stared back into my
eyes. I saw a mix of fear, anger, sadness, confusion, and relieve. Neither
of us said a word as I was taken into the principal's office. My first and
only time ever being there.  We (Andrew, Lizzy, Jeremy, and myself) had to
explain what happened and deal with whatever punishment we got. I was still
very upset so I was sent home before I could do anything else hurtful to
anyone.

     I had to deal with my parents when I got home which only led to a big
argument before heading down into my room. That night I found out that I
was suspended for the rest of the week and the following week. Basically
they were giving me enough time to prove that I was able to control my
emotions. Mario skipped the next day and we hung out as I told him what
happened. For the first time in a long time, I got all my emotions out as
he nodded his understanding. After getting it all out, I felt a lot
better...but obviously I burned some major bridges that just might not be
able to be rebuilt.

"Sam...don't get mad, but I think you really should go see a doctor."

"Whatever...Better yet, you just go home."

"I'm serious. Look at what happened when you lost control of yourself.
Things could have been much worse..."

"You think that I don't know that? I did have some control, but the last
couple of months finally caught up to me. I didn't know that I was capable
of something like that.  And anyway..."

"Well let's see what you've caused. Half the school will be scared of you,
your friends will, Lizzy and Jeremy will, Jason hates your guts, and
Andrew..."

"I can't think about any of that right now. I'll deal with it when I go
back."

"Your friends maybe, but you need to try and talk to Andrew..."

"I SAID, I don't want to think about that."

"Look at what you did, Sam. You could have ruined everything the two of you
have. Do you want things to end like this? Sam, I think..."

"SHUT UP!" I yelled tossing a remote at him. He took the hint and left my
room leaving me to myself. I slept pretty good that Wednesday night which
was pretty surprising. Thursday came and I would have my first contact with
Andrew.

     We were both there for wrestling. I was advised not to have a match by
Mike as Mario had filled him in on what happened at school. I would be
given a two-week pass until I could get my act together. I wasn't happy
about it, but I figured I could use a break to heal up anyway. I was in the
back playing PS2 when Andrew walked in.

"Hi, Sam." He said with a whisper. I kept playing as I ignored him. I
wanted to enjoy my game and be left alone. He obviously didn't want to give
up that easily. He walked up and unplugged the system. "We need to talk."

"No, you need to leave. I don't want to talk to you." Mario came up behind
him as I stood to my feet.

"You don't have a choice in this one, Sam. I'm locking you guys in here
until you get things worked out. If you don't talk to him, I guess you'll
be in here for a long time. I ran to the door as he shut it and locked
it. I was a second too late. I sat down on the floor looking up into the
light. Andrew stood there for a few minutes until he broke the silence.

"Umm, I don't really know what to say to you Sam. I haven't seen that side
of you before. Never knew that it existed."

"..."

"I'm sorry that I tried to stop you. I only made things worse."

"..."

"I guess I kind of deserve the black eye anyway."

"..."

"Why won't you say anything?"

"..."

"Why are you being so difficult, Sam?

"Fuck off."

"Words! Ok, that's a little progress." He said with a nervous laugh. I sat
in silence staring away from him. My anger was starting to wear off and I
was beginning to realize what I had done. I will be the first to admit that
none of that should have ever happened. I shouldn't have attempted to hit
Jeremy, shouldn't have shoved Lizzy, and I shouldn't have knocked Andrew to
the ground or blacked his eye.  I'm not perfect, but even I have things I'm
ashamed of. I don't think I would have did that if Andrew didn't help buy
that jersey. It had a special value and seeing it get ruined kind of set
things off. I also knew what I had to do to try and set stuff right.

"Andrew, I don't know what to say to you."

"You were upset. I can understand...Honestly I thought you couldn't get
upset. Nice to see you're human like the rest of us." He said with a
laugh. I chuckled nervously as he sat next to me and laid his head in my
lap. I couldn't look him in the eye because I didn't want to see what pain
I caused him.

"Why do you bother with me? I don't usually get upset like that." I told
him about the last time I had got upset (which was back in 1998, but I
won't be revealing that incident).

"Sam, I don't know how many times I have to tell you, but I guess I'll keep
doing it. I love you! I wasn't expecting what happened either...but I guess
that makes us even. You never really got anything back from the other
time..."

"And what difference does that make?" I asked curiously.

"I know you aren't a real violent guy. Competitive, yes. I knew that you
hadn't really let that go yet because you just tried to file it away. You
can't do that with your problems."

"Well that's what I do. Seems to work pretty good..."

"You are so stubborn. Every chance I get to help you, I get pushed
away. Not fair...especially when all you want to do is help me. It has to
be a two way street."

"Ok. I'll work at it."

"Just know that I'm going to love you no matter what."

"I know that...I try so hard to be the perfect guy for you and I always
have to find a way to mess it up."

"Don't you get it? You don't have to be perfect. Hell none of us are. You
know I'm not obviously."  He said gauging my reaction. "I like you just the
way you are. Your looks, mind, uhh other stuff."  He finished in a fit of
giggles. I couldn't say anything because I had no idea what to say.

"..."

"Sam, just be you. You don't have to change. I don't want you to."

"I'm sorry, Andrew." I said with the tears starting to form in my eyes.

"I know and its ok. Everything will be ok. Just a small bump in the road."
He said sitting up and pulling me into a hug. I let loose as I couldn't
keep back the tears. I looked up to find him smiling. "I love you and
nothing will ever change that...as long as you don't go straight." We
laughed as I tackled him to the ground and started to tickle him. He was on
his back squirming as I kept up the frenzy. I finally stopped as I laid my
head on his chest. It was just a peaceful moment shared between both of
us. After awhile, a quick thought popped into my head.

"Andrew?"

"Yea?"

"I...I want to make it up to you." I said slowly and very nervously.

"Ok, we aren't going through this again. I'm not going to make you do this.
You don't OWE me anything. I can wait." He rolled me off as he stood to
walk to the door. He pulled out a key to unlock it and I walked behind him
and spun him into the wall. He started to object until I took control of
the situation...one of few times I ever really did. I just felt more
comfortable with him taking the lead role. I gave him two pecks on the lips
teasing him as I backed off before he could return the favor. Going in the
third time, he met me halfway as I started to rub up and down his bare back
(oops, forgot to mention he was only wearing jeans). I slowly eased my way
down kissing his chest and stomach until I reach the top of his jeans. He
was panting out of anticipation. I unbuckled his jeans and slid them down
to his ankles. One more piece of clothing until I would be at the point of
no return.

     As I reached up to pull them down, I paused thinking about what was
going to happen. DJ reared back into my mind as I relived bits and pieces
of the locker room incident.  I was at a crossroad. I knew that sooner or
later I was going to have to confront it and move on and this would be the
final step. I could hear repeats of his words as I slowly grabbed Andrew's
boxers.  I looked up to find Andrew looking back with concern. That look
was what gave me the strength to go on. It was like he channeled his faith
and trust in me with the eye contact. Him believing in me, when I didn't
even myself, was the missing piece that I had so badly needed to overcome
DJ.

     I eased his boxers down slowly as his happy friend flopped out in all
its glory. It had been awhile since I had seen one up close. He was 5" long
(later found that out) and a little less thicker around than myself. I
started to slowly stroke it causing him to emit a light whimper. Before I
could give it a second thought, I swallowed him whole as I bobbed up and
down. Being the horndog he is, he didn't last long as he called that he was
cumming. He shot four times as I did my best to swallow. I savored the
taste (his was a little sweet) as I licked around making sure to clean him
up. As I was still finishing the job, Mario busted into the room and then
froze.

     It caught both of us off guard as I still had him in my mouth as
Andrew was standing there with his jeans and boxers around his
ankles. Mario kind of mumbled something and quickly turned out the room. I
did catch a brief glance of his face before he turned away. A look of anger
was what I got as he slammed the door. Andrew quickly dressed as I gave
chase to Mario.  I found him running out to the woods.

"Mario! Wait up!" I yelled as I gave chase. He slowed down, but did not
turn his back to me.

"Hey, cocksucker." He said with a sarcastic tone.

"Don't even start. You were the one that locked us in there in the first
place." I said as I walked in front of him.

"Yea, but I wasn't expecting you to be on your knees like a damn puppy dog
either." I couldn't really say anything after that. When you really look at
it, I gave my boyfriend a blowjob in the house of the guy who likes me. A
little minor oversight at that moment in time.

"Mario, I'm sorry." I said softly feeling my face blush with the
realization of the whole situation from his eyes.

"You bastard! How could you do that in front of me? In my house?" Mario
asked. It was dark outside, but the moonlight reflected off the tears that
began to form on his face.

"Mario..."

"Just go home. Talk about ripping out my heart."

"I didn't mean for it to happen like that...I just got lost..."

"Leave." I turned around after he said that. I heard him cry and thought
hard about turning around until I saw Andrew walking towards me. I was lost
at what to do. Stay and comfort Mario or leave and comfort Andrew. Either
way I'd lose this time...

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Let me explain a few things really quick:

1 - Most of the time I'm on msn messenger I'm at work. So at work, there
are certain things/topics I can't talk about.

2 - For the last time, I don't want anyone making any passes at me. I've
let you know if you are one of those people.

3 - I have gotten pretty behind in returning emails. I'm catching them up
and will send EVERYONE a message who has sent me one. I haven't forgotten
you.

4 - 30 might not be the magic number to finish this thing. I keep thinking
of more stuff to add and I'd hate to leave some key stuff out just to rush
it to the end. I'll have a little counter at the very bottom from here on
out showing the current max I plan on.

5 - For those of you that want to see a pic or pics of me. I have a myspace
page. Just search my email or name or however you want to do it. I'm not
completely out yet, so I would appreciate it if no remarks/comments about
nifty would be left in my comments section.

6 - Have a happy new year everyone!

Chapter 13: Making A Choice

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