Date: Sat, 1 Mar 2003 20:58:30 -0500
From: Jasin Chau <magic2312@msn.com>
Subject: Where love should be found

"[.]Bobby."  I hear someone whispering my name.  Who is it?  Justin, is
that you?  A figure walks towards me, but I couldn't really make it out.
Weird.echoes slowly sounding it's way towards me saying, " wake up."

Then at that moment everything is clear as day.  I open my eyes and slowly
begin to see Justin.  "Hey Justin, how you doing?" I said to him as he lean
closer and it seems like he is examining me.

 " I'm ok; just practicing my jumper before the game."

"There's a game today?"  I asked

"Yeah you coming to watch me play?"

" Sure I wanna see you do some of those cross overs you been talking
about."  I said in a joking way to Justin.

"Haha you better, but right now though, it seems like someone else wants to
talk to you." Justin said pointing his finger behind my direction.

I turned around and saw Stacy wave at me.  " BOBBY!"

She yells out my name across the court and everybody looks at me.  I feel
kind of embarrassed, but still, that's just how Stacy likes it.  She is
always such goof ball.  Stacy comes up to me and as always she smiles and
hugs me.  That is our friendly greeting towards each other.  And I guess, I
like it because people might not think of me as much of a fag.  I know
that's cruel to use her, but I don't always use her like that, she is my
best friend.  This is just a cover up so there is no suspicions.

" Hey Stacy and don't you think you were kind of LOUD." I said with a
smile.

"Haha I had to get your attention.  You couldn't hear me, prob'ly because
of that guy over there." She said pointing at Justin.

" Can you be any more noticeable?  GOD why don't you just tell him I am
gay!" I said sarcastically.

"Well fine, if you don't want to talk to me.  You can go back to your
'PRETTY BOY' over there."  Stacy said with a pouty face.

"Awww com'on Stacy, you know I am just playing around."  I said admitting
defeat.

Stacy's slaps me in the ass and says, " Well, lets get going then cause we
got a movie to watch."

She wraps her arms around mine and we began to walk out of gym room to our
buses.  I turned my head to Justin and rolled my eyes with a smile, while
Stacy wasn't looking.  Justin couldn't help but laugh and wave goodbye.
Sigh. Justin is such a great guy I thought to myself.  "Well you going or
not.  Com'on let go."  Stacy said while basically pulling me away from
Justin.

We made it to the bus just in time.  Stacy and I sat on the same seat, but
I chose to sit next to the window.  The view was so beautiful.  Snow was
beginning to fall.  It was a beginnings of a snow storm.  But every time in
the end results of the storm, it leaves us a winter wonder land.
Strange.when we are young this place seems so magical, but I know after my
youth; my life and this right here is going to change.  And I felt cold for
the first time as it snowed.  I am so scared of being left alone.

Home sweet home, and guess what, mom was there to yell at me again.
"Bobby!  I thought I told you to clean up your room.  When I tell you to do
something, I actually expect you to do it."  She said down the hall
yelling.  Mom, I love her, but lately after dad walked out our lives; mom
hasn't exactly been happy. She has been really stressed out lately and
telling her the REAL me, I think, isn't going to help us any.  So I have to
keep a lot of things from her.  And I mean A LOT.

"So how was school, honey?" said mom and she totally changed from angry
mother to caring mother.  I guess it is that time of month with her mood
swings and all.

"O nothing happen really." I responded.  "Mom I'm going to the movies
tonight is that ok?"

"As long your not coming home too late."

"You know I won't mom I am the most responsible person you know." I said
with smirk on my face.

"Sure." She said with smile and rolling her eyes.

Wait.I forgot about the GAME!  Oh my god, should I go to the movies with
Stacy or should I go and watch JUSTIN play.  Usually there is no question
what I am going to do right now and I bet you could guess who I would
choose.  But I feel sorry though that Stacy is going to feel left out.
Seeing Justin play in a game is so priceless, I have to go.  I quickly took
a shower and got ready.  What should I wear?  Oh, what else, but
Aeropostale.

I don't know why I like to wear it.  It just fit snuggly on my body and it
kind of shows off my lean figure.  The shirt also shows off my blonde hair
and my blue eyes.  My hair is short, but people say I look cute, so it
don't matter.  Actually, Stacy said I look cute with short hair.  But
anyway I have to tell her I can't go.  Stacy called me just when I am about
to call her.  " Bobby are you there?"  Stacy said.

" Look, Stacy I can't go to the movies today."  I closed my eyes and was
scared about how she would react.  " Stacy are you there?"

" I'm here, its ok.  You want to go the game tonight rite?  She asked.

"Yeah." I responded.

"Its ok.  Can I come with you too, is that ok?"

"Sure."  I said

Then we were off to the game to see my crush, Justin.  I am so excited.
When we arrived I met Stacey at the parking lot.  She was dressed unusually
nice today.  I wonder was she trying to impress somebody.  When we went
into the gym it was amazing.  The amount of people there was unbelievable.
The atmosphere was filled with cheery people.  It was a nice sight to be
hold when you been down for a while.  Everyone seems to be so happy and
that puts me into a positive mood.

"Wow look at all these people," I said.

" Yeah look at all these skanks" Stacy said while looking at the
cheerleaders.

Haha. I don't know why she was always mad at girls, they don't seem THAT
bad.  The basketball game has started and we took our seats.  Oh there's
Justin, aaaww he looks so cute with those basketball uniforms.  The team
ran around warming before they started the game.  At the end of the game
they didn't do that bad, although they lost I still felt Justin did the
best.  We came up to Justin to say hi.  He wasn't exactly happy about
losing the game, but he still managed to put up a smile, for me hopefully.

"Wow you did crazy that game." I said with a smile ear to ear.

"Nah I didn't do that good." He pouted " If only I wasn't so distracted at
that game."

"Distracted on what?"

"Oh nothing, listen uh I got to go and take a shower, see ya around." He
said waving good bye.

I wonder why he was distracted.  Stacy looked at me with a smile.

"What." I said cracking up.  " Why you still smiling."

" Oh nothing, he was distracted, I wonder if it was because of um I dunno
YOU! She said laughing out loud.

" Stacy." I said wining her name.