Date: Thu, 28 Jan 2016 19:34:27 +0000
From: Matthew S <mattstories@hotmail.com>
Subject: Finding My Voice - Chapter three

Hi guys,

This is my first time ever writing a story though I've been an avid fan of
Nifty for a while. It's something I've been meaning to do for a while and
would greatly appreciate any feedback you have for me. Please feel free to
email me at mattstories@hotmail.com even if it's just to tell me that you
liked/hated the story. Apologies for any typing, spelling or grammatical
errors.

This story will contain sexual scenes but is also a story about a teenage
boy growing into himself and his sexuality. Although I have borrowed from
my own life and experiences, any events that seem similar to your own lives
are purely coincidental.  All copyrights for this story are held by me. If
it is not legal for you to read this story then that is a decision that you
need take yourself but any consequences of that decisions are yours.

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The story so far:

Our main character, Aaron is 13 years old and suffers from a crippling
shyness. He is sent on a trip to Germany with school to help him overcome
this but is rejected by the other children his age quite early on. For the
past year, Aaron has had an extremely strong crush on an older boy, Kieran
(15) who is also on this trip. Kieran invites Aaron to room with his and
his two friends - Adam, who Aaron feels an instant bond with, and Danny,
who doesn't seem interested at all. Whilst showering, Aaron overhears Danny
complaining about him and arguing with Kieran and Adam before storming out
of the room. He tries to sneak back into the room to dress but is seen by
Kieran who appears taken aback by Aaron's semi-naked body.

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Finding My Voice - Chapter three.

I was 9 years old when I had my last friend. A boy called David had spoken
to me out of the blue on a Monday morning at primary school and I'd spent
the week becoming his friend. We spent breaktimes and lunchtimes playing
together and talking; getting to know everything about each other and
becoming the best of friends in that incredibly quick way that 9 year olds
can. On Friday, I had asked him if he wanted to come to my house for tea
only to find that the other boys in the class had dared him to be my friend
for a week and he hadn't really meant any of it. The worst part was seeing
the look on my mum's face when I told her that David wasn't coming. To her
credit, she didn't push me for answers and gave me my space. That night was
the most I had cried since my dad died and, by the morning, I'd resigned to
just stop trying. I went from shy to purposefully invisible and stayed that
way until my mum sent me on this stupid trip.

I'd been foolish to relax. Foolish to think that these boys were interested
in being my friend. Danny's words and bitter tone of voice had made it
clear; I was just a little kid for them to babysit. I wouldn't be surprised
if my mum had put them up to it! Why else would Kieran have approached me
on the ferry or offered to share his room... his bed... with me?

It was all I could think about while I dressed. Sliding on a pair of fitted
blue and white striped boxer briefs, I began searching through my suitcase
for clothes. Why was it so difficult to find anything?! After a few
moments, frustration got the better of me and, in an unusual show of
strength, I tipped over the case and let its contents fall onto the
floor. Pulling out garment after garment, the messy pile spread over the
room. Eventually I pulled a simple white t-shirt and ripped black jeans
onto my body and slipped my feet into a pair of black Vans. The handle on
the door to the bathroom rattled. In my anger, I hadn't heard the shower
stop. Panic gripped me and I dashed quickly for the door to the corridor; I
couldn't see Kieran. Not now.  I fled, leaving a mess of clothes, towels
and other bits and pieces all over the room.

I guess I should have felt a little guilty, leaving my things like
that. Part of me did but a larger, and much stronger, part was so angry
that I just didn't care. Like a dark cloud, I stormed through the corridors
and outside into the gardens. The sun was low in the sky and it cast an
orange glow over the area. The water shimmered and the trees rustled in the
cool breeze. Sinking to my knees, I stopped; letting my body become
still. I wanted to be furious. Desperately, I wanted to hate Danny for what
he had said and the others for pretending to like me in the first
place. That feeling would keep me going but... here... surrounded by so
much beauty, so much calm, I couldn't. Like smoke from a fire, I could feel
the heat rise from my body and leave me empty. Without the anger to focus
me, the tears came.

I have no idea how long I sat there with my head in my hands, tears falling
freely from my eyes. Long enough that the air around me grew cold on my
bare arms and my chest began to hurt from the sobbing. There I stayed until
I felt movement to my left and a hand land softly on my back.

"Come on now lad," came the whisper from this Irish giant, "It can't be as
bad as all that."

I raised my head, expecting the anger to return but when I saw Adam's
warming smile any resentment I had for him melted. "You... you... you..." I
tried but my voice was stuck. I couldn't get past the first word. There was
so much that I wanted to say but Adam seemed to understand anyway.

"I'm guessing you heard Danny-boy eh?" I nodded my head. "Ah, don't listen
to him. He's like a bear with a sore head sometimes; he always has
something to moan about. It's not about you, honestly, it isn't" His eyes
full of concern as they looked at my tear stained face.

"But... you... you don't like me!" Looking back now, I know how pathetic I
sounded. In truth, I knew then but right there it was like I'd regressed to
that betrayed 9 year old who didn't have a friend in the world. Adam just
pulled me in towards him, his strong arm over my back, and held me
there. He waited, silent, as I realised how ridiculous I'd been. Both he
and Kieran had been nothing but nice to me and what Danny had said didn't
even seem so bad anymore. I'd overreacted and made assumptions about these
3 boys that simply weren't fair to make. I could feel the warmth of Adam's
body against me and, with each passing minute, it calmed me. The tears
stopped and I wiped my face. "I'm sorry," I whispered.

"Nothing to be sorry for, my lad. But supper will be served in a few
moments and you'll definitely have apologies to make if you make me miss
that," he said, laughing.

We both got to our feet and it took a moment to realise that I needed to do
a quick rearrange. What? Don't act like being pressed up close against a
muscly, soft spoken Irish boy wouldn't have the same effect on you; I was
upset not dead! Luckily, Adam turned to head back to the hotel first so I
was able to slide my hand down my boxers and adjust my hardening cock. I
shoved my hands into my pockets, hoping that would disguise it further.

Supper was... ok, I sat with Adam and we were soon joined by Kieran and
Danny. I noticed a look of concern immediately come over Kieran's face but
it vanished when he looked at Adam. I guess friends must have a way of
communicating without words. All three of the boys were quite animated
throughout the meal, barely stopping to take bites of the crusty rolls of
bread and various different meats that were being served. I stayed quiet,
only answering direct questions and even then just simple yes and nos. I
kept catching Kieran glancing at me, as if he was checking that I was still
there, following the conversation and each time, he smiled but his eyes
didn't show their usual warmth; instead a sad dullness was present. Danny
spoke a lot but never really directed what he was saying to me but that's
ok. I wasn't really sure how I felt about him anyway.

As we walked back up to our room, Adam placed his hand on Danny's back and
started to walk a little quicker. I moved to catch up but Kieran stopped me
with a hand on my arm.

"Hey," he began.

I smiled, I couldn't help it. "Hi."

"I'm sorry about Danny," he looked almost pained, "He's a good guy, really
he is, but his mouth works three times faster than his head."

"Yeah, Adam said he was like a bear with a sore head," upon hearing that,
Kieran started to chuckle and nod, seeming to agree with that assessment.

"His mouth gets him into trouble, that's for sure. But he's had my back
since I started at Rockforth and I know that, once he gets to know you,
he'll have yours too." He seemed so sure. So confident in his choice of
friends. In that moment, it was clear to see that they had been through a
lot together. I just smiled, unsure of what to say. For a few seconds, he
just looked at me. His eyes regaining some of the warmth they had been
missing before. It took everything I had to resist reaching up and moving
the few strands of hair that dangled across his eye but I did; blushing at
the thought instead.

Slowly, we walked back to the room. Neither one of us spoke but the silence
wasn't uncomfortable either. Embarrassment did begin to creep in when I
realised that all of my worldly belongings had been flung around our room
and I'd left it in a complete mess when I ran off. I needn't have worried;
when we opened the door, the room was spotless. Well... as spotless as it
could be given that 4 teenage boys had been sharing it for 5 or 6
hours. Noticing my confusion, Kieran walked over to the wardrobe.

"I put all of your things away with mine, I hope you don't mind?" he said,
hopeful he had done the right thing.

Now, I appreciate that to you this might seem like something small but,
after the last 24 hours, the fact that he would bother to collect up all of
my things, hang up all of my clothes, fold away my towels, organise my
toiletries and gadgets and rematch all of my socks was just... well... it
made me feel exactly how I needed to feel; wanted. He'd even folded up my
underwear and placed them on the shelf next to his own. Oh god... he'd
touched my underwear. Kieran the teenage sex god had put his hands all over
my underwear. I nearly shot a load in my pants at the mere thought of it!

"Thank you," I replied, a slight glaze appearing over my eyes which he
couldn't have failed to notice.

"No problem." There, the warmth was back. Looking over at the bed that Adam
and Danny were sharing, he let out a small laugh, "Didn't take them long,
did it?"

I looked over and, sure enough, both of the boys were already in bed and
asleep. Adam was on his back with his mouth open, letting out a steady
stream of snores with Danny turned away from the room, curled up.

"So..." Kieran began, "From what you packed, I'm guessing you sleep in
PJs." He held up a particularly embarrassing pair of Avengers themed pyjama
bottoms and a 'Mr Tall' Mr.Men t-shirt that my mum had bought for me
ironically. Blushing profusely, I cursed myself for letting my mum go
through my suitcase and add the extras she 'thought I'd need'. Seeing that
my cheeks were now burning hotter than fire, Kieran quickly added, "It's
ok, I can sleep in PJs too."

Taking my clothes from him, I watched as he pulled out a pair of black
jogging bottoms and a black vest top. They weren't actual pyjamas but I
appreciated him making the effort.

I wish I could say that I got to see him reveal his sexy, toned body or
perhaps caught a glimpse of the cock behind that impressive bulge I'd seen
on the coach but, alas, I was too busy trying to keep my own body hidden
whilst changing that, by the time I had done, Kieran was already putting
his dirty clothes away. I wasn't disappointed though. In front of me was a
truly beautiful boy. The vest clinging to his body perfectly, showing off
his slim waist and hips, my eyes following down his legs as he removed his
socks. Even his bare feet were beautiful. A small sigh escaped me and I
quickly picked up my own dirty clothes to put away, hoping he hadn't heard
me. When I turned back, he was already in bed with the covers pulled back
waiting for me to join him.

Now this was a familiar scene, I'd imagined this many times in my
head. Albeit, we weren't sharing with two other boys, we weren't fully
dressed in PJs and the bed definitely wasn't for sleeping in when I'd
fantasised about it. Still, beggars can't be choosers and I climbed in,
pulling the covers over me. I was really conflicted. Part of me wished that
the bed was smaller so that we'd be forced to be touching but another part
knew that I couldn't handle that. In fact, if he had of so much as grazed
my arm with his, the rocket I was once again hiding in my pyjama bottoms
would definitely have gone off to quite the explosive end. After a few
moments silence, and the thoughts of the day playing back in my head, I had
to ask.

"Kieran..."

"Yeah?"

The words caught in my throat, like I was suddenly trying to pull a tennis
ball out of my mouth. After a few moments, Kieran spoke again, "Aaron, its
ok."

Those words released my throat and the words came spilling out, "Did... did
my mum ask you to look out for me?"

He sat up, looking down over me. "Aaron. I asked you to share with us
because I think you're..." he paused as if his next word was the most
important thing he had said all year, "...nice."

"Oh... ok." He thinks I'm nice. I guess I can live with that.

He smiled down at me, "Goodnight Aaron." He leaned over, reaching for the
lamp on my side and as he clicked the switch, his body moved over mine. Our
chests touched. My prediction had been right and, whilst biting on my lip
to prevent moaning out, my pants were flooded with my creamy teenage load
for the 2nd time in 24 hours.

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Thank you for reading chapter three of my story. I hope you enjoyed it -
please feel free to give me any feedback at mattstories@hotmail.com, I'd
really appreciate it.

The feedback so far from you guys has been amazing. I am genuinely
overwhelmed by the support and encouraging words you have sent me so thank
you very much. It really does mean a lot to get that sort of response from
you.