Date: Wed, 15 Feb 2006 23:05:35 -0800 (PST)
From: Vijorge Potal <v_potal@yahoo.com>
Subject: finding myself  chp2

This story is completely fictional. None of the names in the story are real
people, at least ones that this author knows. This is gay fiction about
high school romance, therefore if you are UNDER 18, GET OUT, it is illegal
for you to view this AND YOU KNOW THAT.

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finding myself chapter 2

As I got home from dropping off Marco I was on cloud 9, I mean I am soooo
happy I havent been happy in a while ever since the uncovering of my
step-fathers infidelity towards my mom and the other secret that I have
kept hidden from everyone including my mom, I regret it ever happening
and ive been a wreck since that day, but now a whole new chapter of my
life is occuring and I dont know if I can actualy be straightforward with
Marco if i dont tell him, I want him to know my past that I havent
revealed to no one, but is it worth telling him? the doubts and the pain
started to creep back into me. I have to shake this off now. I arrived at
my aunts house where I have been staying for the past months since the
dilema with my parents, I love my aunt she has been there for me through
and through and I also believe that she will be there for me now with the
issue of me and Marco, god I hope im doing the right thing.
-Aunt Tess!!! im home!
-hey sweety how was your first day?made new friends?
hehe if she only knew
-actualy yeah, made new friends and then some, how was yours?
-good same o just tired worked a 11 hour shift today..you see my aunt is
an ER nurse she has a hectic schedule but makes time for me and I love
her for that, she has a husband and 3 kids, I love all of the kids but at
times I just want to strangle those BRATS!!!
-ummmm can I talk to you for a bit?
-yeah sure always, let me just switch into something more comfortable, oh
the kids went to sleep if you were wondering...and she left i went and
sat down on our couch and contemplated the issue in which I was about to
reveal to her..should I tell her that I have a boyfriend? or should I
stretch the truth and just tell her im in a relationship, that sounds
more easy than the first, but that always got me into trouble..not long
after I saw her comeout in to some PJ's
-so whats up?
-well...ummm im going out with someone T(thats my nickname for
her)..before you say anything about its only my first day and what not I
really like this person
-who is she?...or is it a he?
WOAH!!!! hold it just a minute...did I just hear her say "he"? does she
know? oh my god what if she knew ?..*sigh* guess theres no hiding it now
-its a he..his names Marco hes a freshmen and in one of my classes, but
what made you think it was a guy?
-oh come on Vic ive been your aunt way before you hit puberty when you
were little you played with all the girls in the neighborhood instead of
hanging with the guys, also ive seen your wondering eye, you better watch
out before you get into alot of trouble with it..she chuckled
-okay..so are you okay with this? I mean me being you know ..ummm queer?
-HEY! first off its not queer its GAY! you have to say it, it seems that
im more comfortable with you being gay than you are with yourself, whats
wrong?
-well ive never had feeling like this before, I mean back then I would
look at guys to admire their physique and all but now that I have a
boyfriend it seems that all this time ive been staring at guys because
the were cute, and I dont know what to do...ive never had a relationship
with a boy before, and Marco is soooo special to me that I dont want to
mess this up, what am I gonna do T?
-Vic you well know that I cant answer that only YOU! yourself can answer
that, take it slow, tell Marco how your feeling, if hes such a great guy
as you make him to be im gonna guess hes gonna understand, but it is you
who has to set the pase because I experienced and seen what has happen
when there is no communitcation with the 2 couples so talk, thats all I
can say to you, you know I have no problem with who you are and you
shouldnt be ashamed either, you are you and thats what makes you unique
never go with the crowd becuase when you do your just gonna get lost
within the herd of teens being whats considered "in" okay?
wow I have never seen my aunt with such a passion like this before, i
started to tear up and flung at her and hugged her to my fullest
-god T I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!! thank you!
-haha no problem, so did you eat yet?
before I answered I wiped my tear filled eyes with my sleeve
-Yeah me and Marco had dinner at Applebees
-hmmm a first date already wow!
-shut up! it was cool we got to know each other way better and I feel
real close to him, hes soo cool you should meet him
SHIT! I never should have said that I can see her head turning
-why dont you bring him to dinner one of these days
NOOOOOOOOO I knew this would happened
-uhhh I guess so
-uhh no I guess so's its yes aunt I will
god no way getting around her
-*sigh* Fine you win
-okay good, well imma head to bed got another long day night sweety
and she left, I got up from the couch and went into my room, I always had
a routine of going on the computer to check my mail and go on my instant
messenger to chat it up with a couple of my friends all of a sudden just
as I entered the site I got an instant message
-VIc! hey bud
who the fuck is this?
-uhhh whos this?
-oh haha my bad its Robert, whats up?
oh I was about to say..haha
-hey man whats happening?
-nothing much here man just chilling, just got done with my homework,
Math is a BITCH!
-haha I know what you mean man, hated math but I always passed so I didnt
complain..lol
-LUCKY! Robert said
-lol
-so what did you do today?
-uhhh nothing actualy just got dinner with a friend
-oh cool..robert said
it was a bit silent for a bit till he written back
-friend?
-uhhh yeah you can say that
-thats cool, hey so you coming to Bubbas party?
-yeah Mark invited me so imma go but I think imma bring a friend
-oh...cool do I know him/her?
-nah I doubt it
I checked my watch..1130PM
-yo rob my man i gotta jet bud! getting late imma holla atcha at lunch
aight?
-aight Vic catcha later night
-night bud
and then I signed off, god today was crazy. After taking a shower and
brushing my teeth I got into bed and slept like a baby.
-YO YO YO!!!! this be KJAK! your morning radio station im DJ K...
FUCK! its too early to go to school, I checked my alarm clock before I
turned off my alarm clock..600am, god its too early, but I had to get up
and get ready for another day at ACHS
After taking a shower, I put on a pair of faded jeans, my gray Billabong
t-shirt and my Black Billabong jacket, December is crazy out in Cali, and
I slipped on my black and white checkered vans shoes and headed for the
kitchen to get some OJ and my car keys
-T im leaving!!!!
I yelled, I checked my watch and it was 645, today is thursday and school
starts at 745 so I got time to take Marco to get breakfast, I got into my
car and started my engine,"what have I got myself into?" I asked over and
over again before I left for Marcos house
*DING DONG!*, I awaited for Marco to come out but was surprise when his
mom opened the door
-hey VIc how are you?
-im good Miss C im just picking up Marco to get breakfast before we head
to school
after I said that I saw her rummage in her bag, I wondered what she was
getting
-here
I saw here hand me a 20$ bill
-uhh I dont need this Miss C I got cash for me and Marco
-NO NO NO I Insist, Marco told me how you paid for his dinner last night
-its no biggie I wanted to pay for Marco, so put your money away
she just went on ahead and stuffed the 20 into my jean pocket
-okay im heading out tell Marco imma be home late, work is requiring me
too dont do anything I wouldnt do..then she winked
OH MY GOD!..does she know?, did Marco tell her? I got interupted
-hey Vic
-hey Marco ready?
-yeah lets go
so we got into my car and before I started the engine I gave Marco the 20
his mom gave me
-here
-whats this?..with a hint of cinfusion within his tone of voice
-your mom wanted to pay me back for the dinner but I didnt want to have
anythingto do with it, so you keep it and dont say no either
-But!...I
I interupted him with my lips covering his for a quick kiss
-hmm all minty haha
I saw him blush, god this boy is getting cuter and cuter by the minute
-Its only 650 we got more than 45 min till school starts what do you
wanna do?
-were gonna get food and then well head to class
so we left his front yard and started towards the Burger King across our
school, while driving it was quiet but the comfortable silence I liked,
so I got brave and took his hand into mine and held it I saw him turn to
me and smile and I smiled at him as well, when we got to BK we entered
the establishment and ordered Marco ordered the #5 while I just got
another cup of OJ, I insisted on buying his meal but he refused..stubborn
little boy oh well, when we got our order we sat in a corner away from
the rest of the people
-why did you just get an OJ? he asked me
-well im trying to cut down on what I eat im gaining weight again
he looked me over
-your "fine" to me, while wiggling his eye brown
that got me to laugh
-shut up and continue eating!
while he continued eating I remembered that the party Bubba was throwing
was tomorrow so I had to ask Marco if he wanted to go
-he Marco
-yeah?..with food stuffed in his mouth still i conjured up a gigle
-hey theres this party I was invited to wanna come with me? I get to
bring one guess
-ummm I dont know Vic
-awwww come on please? for me?..and I summoned up my cutest pouty face
-Fine Fine when is it?
-ummmm Tomorrow
-WHAT! I dont know now Vic its might not go well with my moms that I ask
so late
-what if I ask her myself?
-well I guess
-fine thats that imma ask her today..oh yeah she said shes gonna be late
today so me and you can chill together afterschool...if you want to
-of course NOT!
I started to frown, why didnt he want to hang with me?
-im just joking Vic of course I want to hang with you
-okay cool
I checked my cell and it was 725am
-hey we gotta head to school now its 725
so he finished his food and we headed to school, when we arrived to the
school parking lot Marco was just unbuckling his seat belt when I stopped
him and Kissed him, then I backed away but he held my head and went in
for another kiss this time he started to kiss me with his tounge too, so
I opened my mouth to let him enter, and it felt like he was inspecting
for something and then he started to kiss my bottom lip, god this kid can
KISS! there is no comparison to him and my other ex's after a couple of
minutes we both backed away, I looked into his eyes and he did the same
with me, he was about to open the door when I pulled him down and kissed
his nose softly and whispered
-I just cant get enough of you, and I dont know when I can do that again
he blushed
-we got afterschool so prepare your self...then winked at me
WOAH whats gonna happen afterschool?..then I remembered that we were
gonna hang in his class, god this is going way to fast I gotta tell him
later today that we gotta take things slow, but how will he react to it?
so we headed out of my car and headed into our classes
-imma catch you at lunch okay?
-k bye, babe and he walked off
did he just call me babe?..oh well gotta get to class

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Here I am at lunch with Marco walking in our lunch line to eat when I saw
Mark and called him over to meet my "friend"
-yo Mark this is my friend Marco, Marco and Mark shook hands..Mark said
the first words
-sup bro hey arent you in my 4th period class Chemistry?
-hey yeah I remember you now you sat with some of the guys in the back
row
-sit with me today with my friends get to know each other better
-sure..Marco said, I thought thats cool that Mark and Marco are gtting
along well enough so I can rest easy on them getting along
I could see them staring at each other for quite some time wonder if they
had past aquaintences before oh well not worth stressing over, so we got
our lunch and us three walked over to our usual seats, I introduced Marco
to the crew and it seemed that everyone was cool with him, except Robert
he seemed uneasy with Marco, I could see him look at me and marco
switching glances..GOd i hope he doesnt have suspecions about us, I
cought Robert look at me and I just smiled my pearly whites which caused
him to blush, god hes such a cutie with that blushing face, I heard a
phone ring after a while and I thought that it was mine but saw Marco
open his phone
-hello?..Hi mom, wait what?....oh okay, yeah thats fine okay bye mom.
I had to ask
-what was that about?
-sorry but I cant get a ride with you today, im getting my braces on
today my mom totaly forgot until she looked on her monthly planner in her
office, shes picking me up sorry Vic
man i guess its okay but I really wanted to hang with Marco well I guess
I can just hang out
-oh okay, thats fine..
-hey VIc since your not doing nothing today want to hang with me after
school?..I got football practice first then we can chill after that?
I thought about it I had nothing better to do so I guess I could go, plus
I can see guys in tight uniforms..hehe what can I say im at my sexual
peak
-yeah thats cool I want to see what your team looks like so im game
-cool..Robert said, I saw him give me the bigest smile ive seen him in
today...then the bell rang so we all went our seperate ways gave daps to
my friends(handshake with a bump on the fist) and went to my 4th period
class.

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Marco's Point of View
-So like how long have you known Vic?...Mark asked me as I sat with him
in the back row with his friends
-uh..actualy i just met him yeterday, hes a real cool guy, super easy to
tak to you know?
-yeah I know what you mean, hes a cool dude Mark said
for some reason I couldnt keep my eyes from Mark, he looked very familiar
to me like ive seen him before
-Dude something you want to say?..you keep staring..he said while
laughing a little bit
-uh..well it seems like ive met you before like ive known you from
somewhere else but I just cant figure out just yet..
-I doubt it, maybe but unlikely..he said, se seemed nervous when he said
it though like theres a tinge of nervousness
-okay class hand in your newspaper article that was given to you as home
work...my teacher said
wait newspaper?...thats it!!!
-I remember now!..I accidently shouted getting looks and a couple of
giggles
-remember what?..Mark asked
-you delivered newspaper to our street
he looked emberrassed and turned away shyly
-yeah I did that, just that one time during the summer needed money so my
friend gave me his route
God this guy was sooooo fine! he came around our neighborhood to deliver
paper once in the summer and that was my high for the day because he
would usualy drop paper off without a t-shirt..yummy..lol he looks
different now, more mature, more handsome...
-yeah you always delivered papers to our street practicaly half naked..i
said with a giggle
he became a deeper shade of red from emberassment
-shhhhhh, be quite I dont want people knowing , its so emberassing for me
to be labeled as a"paperboy"
-haha I know, you were always without a tshirt
-you like what you saw didnt you?...he then winked and started to laugh
omg was the expression that I thought I gave becuase I did like what I
saw..I had to answer quikly
-uh..well..uh, no I didnt like what I see...god im such a dufus with
combacks..I said in my head
-chill man I was just joking, you'd be with out a tshirt too if you were
in my predicament..then he winked again and laughed
god this guy has the most crazy sense of humor god
-and then id be the one oogling your body..he said which cought me off
guard...either this guy is very open about this type of talk or the other
thing which I didnt want to get into
-chill bro im just playing dont get to flustered my bad..I got a sick
sense of humor..or do i?...mark said
I smiled
-Shut up!!!!
I continued to stare at him for some reason i dont know why but it felt
as if there was something else there, and I wanted to find out what that
was, he then saw me staring and just gave me a warm smile that made me
feel all warm inside, god what was I thinking? I have a boyfriend and hes
great, I love talking to him and his company, but what is it about mark
thats got me all mixed up inside...god I gotta stop thinking these
thoughts.

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Whats Marco thinking? will it all be just a thought or will he act on it?
man highschool is a bitch!
sorry for taking long, with school and all a kid can only do so much
hope u liked it and comments are always welcomed
catch chp3 coming soon
JP