Date: Tue, 7 Jul 2009 20:32:03 -0700 (PDT)
From: Peanut Shields <peanutshields@yahoo.com>
Subject: Forever and Always part 2 chapter 1

As we got out of my car i opened the door and tip toed in, i whispered to
ryan and told him that my parents were asleep. He followed me into the
kitchen where i found a note on the fridge " Nathan me and your father will
be out of town for a few days please try not to cause trouble, and don't
forget to feed the dog love Mom and Dad." I turned on the light and
explained to Ryan that my parents will be out of town for a few days he
just smiled a (sexy smile, whoa why was i thinking about this i have a
girlfriend, keep it together Nate the plan is almost finished). I told Ryan
to go upstairs to my room and put his bag away.


As i walked upstairs trying to find Nate's room, I found his cell charging.
I picked it up like the snoop i am and i went through the messages. I
started to tear a little when i found out he had a girlfriend, but that
doesn't me we can't be friends. I looked through some more messages and one
was from Derek ( the meanest guy in school) " make sure you bust that
cherry tonight" what was that supposed to mean, then it hit me Nathan was
going to fuck me and spread it all around school.. I felt sick, scared and
used what was i going to do. He then walked up and i glared at him "Whats
wrong Ry having trouble finding my room?"  "fuck off" "Hey whats with the
attitude" " just take me home" " i told you i can't" thats when he realized
i had his phone. "Oh my god" was all he can say. there was a moment of
silence and he approached me i backed away. "Ryan it's alright calm down
i'm not going to hurt you" " then why does Derek say your going to fuck me
tonight?" "huh you saw that" "yes i did, i knew you were just another jock"
" hey wait a minute, I'm not like the rest of them" "prove it" " did you
see the reply?"  "No" "well look at it" as i went through the messages the
reply said " Derek fuck you, i wouldn't do that geeze whats with you lately
all you try to do is hurt people, and i can't be friends with a person like
that" "You see Ryan i'm not like that, he came closer to me and i couldn't
back up anymore. He kissed me. There was silence between us, till he
finally broke it. " I'm sorry i thought you were into that stuff" "I am i
think but you have a girlfriend" "No i don't at least not anymore" he
showed me another text from 3 weeks ago. " oh i see" "well lets go to bed
Ry we have suicides tomorrow" "ok"


Huh that was close Nate thought to himself, his cell started to ring it was
Kelly "Ry i have to piss be right back".  "Hey boo whats up" kelly said "
Hey Kelly nothing how bout you" "Well i was hoping we could get together
tonight and have some fun i heard your parents are out" "Kelly i can't at
least not tonight i'm sore" "I can rub you and make you feel better" " I
said no" "What kind of Boyfriend are you?"  " The unhappy kind" with that
being said he hung up and started to cry. What am i going to do i like Ryan
but i'm not sure if i love him or if this is just a phase but i do feel
something.


The next morning was rough after practice i decided to hang out with my
besties Mary, Sarah, Sam, Dylan, and Andrew. We were walking through the
mall when i saw nate he was holding hands with Kelly. " What are they doing
together" i said "they have been going out for the past six months you
didn't know" said Mary. " No" he walked up to us with Kelly and Said hi to
me i shrugged him off and asked him what do you want. he pulled me away
from everyone else and asked me if we can talk. i told him no, the he
grabbed my arm and pleaded with me, i gave in. " I'm sorry i lied to you
but i do like you." "no you don't you were going to use me i'm just a quick
fuck and thn your going to throw me out just like yesterday's paper" " Ryan
thats not true" " Yes it is" i started crying. i whipped my tears and told
my friends we should be heading home. I was hurt and ashamed i really did
like Nate why does this happen to me huh i hate life so much. I walked down
the stairs when Dominique (Dom for short) handed me a julius "Whats wrong
boo" " Love problems" "I hear ya i was going out with Nate till i found out
he was going out with 4 other girls at the same time now we are just
friends i guess". that hit me like a ton of bricks now i was worse "Dom can
you give me a ride home" "Sure" On the way home whitehorse played on the
radio "say your sorry that face of an angel comes out just when you need it
to" all i thought of was Nate.