Date: Sat, 11 Feb 2006 22:34:13 -0500
From: Dylan
Subject: Freedom Exists ch. 2

                  I helped Jake up and we walked out of school.  Jake went
ahead of me and opened the door, he stepped outside and looked back at me.
A sunshower.  The sun was glaring on Jake, making him and everything around
him shine, his black hair was golden.  A symmetrical angel, a being of
light, my Jake.  It was beautiful, but the only thing greater than watching
him, was my need to be with him.  I jogged over to him and just stood in
front of him.  I looked him in the eyes and just beheld the beauty of his
image and prescence.  I slowly reach up and touched his face.  I leaned in
closer to kiss his delicate lips, the taste of the golden rain on his lips
was orgasmic.  Through the rain I saw a tear come out of his eye, I would
have wiped it off his face if the rain had not cleansed it.  I couldnt help
it any longer, I grabbed Jake and hugged him.
               A hug is greater than a kiss, a kiss can be quick, it can be
half hearted.  A hug, a hug is something special, two bodies joined together
feeling each others warmth, two perfect beings holding each other.

                 The sun cleared up after a few minutes, then we both stood
there wet and just smiled at each other.
                 "come on Dylan, lets go to my house." Jake said.

           So we walked the short distance to his house, our arms wrapped
around each other the whole way.  Jake walked up the steps to his door, and
went inside.  I followed him and looked inside.  I saw Jake go off in the
distance, to what looked like the kitchen.  I heard some words, but I really
couldnt make them out.
           I saw a lady, chestnut hair, a slim body, and had a very kind
face.  Without warning she grabbed me and hugged me.  I was a little struck
by it at first, but in a second I was fine.  She backed up.

          "sorry..I couldnt help it....im Laura, Jakes mother."
         I saw Jake standing in the doorway to the kitchen
          "Sorry to have kept you waiting, while we were back there talking,
Jake told me about everything that happened today and.......and....." she
started to cry.  I took her over to a chair to sit down and I held her he
hands with one of mine, and with the other hand I held her back.

             She looked up at me.  "Jake told me about everything, and it
warmed my heart, you're a good kid.  I guess Jake has a boyfriend now" She
smiled warmly.
            "I guess I have a boyfriend now" I said, and we laughed.
           "I was just about to head to my friends, Rebecca.  I'll go do
that now, and leave you two boys alone."

            Once she left, me and Jake headed up to his room.  He let me go
in first.  in the middle against the wall was a queen size bed, on the left
was a TV, I'm bad at guessing the inches, lets just say its a good size TV.
Near the bed was a shelf filled with books, and on the other side of the bed
was a dressor drawer.

        Jake went towards his bed and sat down.  He patted the space next to
him for me to sit down too.  I went over and very gently sat down.  He
pushed closer to me and rested his head on my shoulder.  I put my arm around
his back and held him.  Then Jake started crying again.

            "I..I..I miss him...so much......"
           "I know Jake...I know....but theres nothing you can do now..hes
gone...but it will all be better soon, plus, im here for you know whenever
you need me."
            "Dylan...."
           "yeah Jake?"
           "The wake is tomorrow, and the funeral is the next day.....can
you come?  I don't think I will be able to do this by myself, my mom is
going to be there, but it won't be the same if you arent there....."
           "of course Jake, I'll be there whenever you need me....if you
ever feel a hint of sadness, you can call me late at night and I'll rush out
of bed to see that you're ok, and even spend the night holding you."
           "I love you Dylan,  I love you so much, you don't even know...."
           "My love for you reminds me of that."


          Me and Jake slept together that night, nothing sexual, we just
slept in the same bed, some moments are so heightened in joy that a sexual
experience is not needed, for it would negate the feelings.  I'm not saying
a sexual experience is bad, but it has to be its own moment, it should not
interfere with something else.

           Jake slept on his side and I slept against his back, holding his
hands in front of his belly.  Even in the darkness I could see Jake clearly.
  Jake was beautiful, hes such a good guy, I love him more than anything.