Date: Sun, 30 Mar 2008 04:40:47 -0500
From: Vitaly Noah Eyam Golovastov <silentenvynoah@gmail.com>
Subject: from hell to hope with love Chapter 2

Okay this part I didn't intend on making but there were a lot of
questions and some new things have happened in the six days since the
last story. So here we go usual disclaimers apply no hate mail but
criticism is okay by the way I submitted a revision of part one but I
don't know it it made it cause the first one had some kinks i had to
work out sorry.


Okay here we go. No Brian does not know I'm gay or that I have a
boyfriend. I didn't intend on telling him right away. But I think he
had an idea. I was pretty sure he wouldn't care but i cant risk him
hating me. I'm still in a foreignish country and wouldn't have any
where to go. When I left off last time in my what some assume to be an
interesting life I got the letter that said I am accepted into
University of Michigan medical school that all tuition was paid and
room and board and they cant wait for me to get out of the Air Force
and join their program to become a high standard student. And Giovanni
got a letter from the marines welcoming him to the core in 3 months.
We almost shit our pants when we found out we have to be alone for up
to 4 years in the service then 4 to 12 years at college. But he got
into U.M. to so we were cool. His social worker degree allowed him to
shadow and give input to social workers in Michigan after his first 2
years.

Now I thought that I should share my amazing discover well i thought
it was amazing but I'm the only man alive over 12 that didn't know
this. Did you know some guys have this stuff on their dick called
foreskin. And that it moved. Yeah i didn't no one warned me the priest
was cut and so were that boys i blew and Giovanni so when i saw this
in the gym shower case refused to shower in high school eww foot
fungus so i felled P.E. and almost didn't get in college. Anyway yeah
some do so i saw it and freaked out. I asked the guy what the fuck was
eating hie dick and he just laughed at me. It was embarrassing and
when i asked what was funny he said nothing is eating his dick ain't i
old enough to know what uncut meant and I said no and he just laughed
harder.

I was stunned I couldn't help but stare until Brian walked into the
shower and grabbed my arm to avert m eyes but i so amazed. We got done
in the locker room and on the way home i think he was in a difficult
position to either laugh or try to explain what most people find out
in the 2nd grade to an 18 y/o.

He asked with an attempt at a straight face if i wanted him to explain
that to me. I said I don't know its weird and he busted he couldn't
hold it in anymore. We pulled into James' house and walked in. And he
said

"Your boy here doesn't know what the male anatomy is naturally and you
gotta explain it" He said though tears of laughter.

I didn't think it was funny but James took my arm and sat me on the
couch and explained that foreskin is what boys are born with and some
parents op to remove it. Okay i am not 8 i  get it but I'm sorry but
eww wouldn't it hurt or get in the way? I don't know i didn't ask.
Anyway it was cold outside so we stayed in to wait for people to
arrive for the party. James' daughter from his marriage that ended bad
was turning 17 so he was throwing a party. This wasn't a good thing
cause Brian has been telling me about her for months and I don't like
girls eww god gross. not that shes ugly but she has a vagina who likes
those things? So its about 4 when she and everyone shows up. Brian
tells me that shes single and looking. But somehow I knew he was
waiting for me to tell him  I was gay. Which I didn't wanna do but I'm
not going ask her out to spite him.

I went up to talk to her and she was a pretty cool person. The vagina
thing just not happening for me sorry. Plus Giovanni was suppose to
come get me from here at 8 cause Brian thinks we were going to his
house to study. yeah right like he believed that or that there was any
studying going to happen nope.

"So you ask here out yet?"
"No"
"Why? Whats wrong with her?"
Wow he was pushing the issue.
"Cause I.. nothing...just ..I don't really...I sorta like...me and
Giovanni are more than.... friends,dad .. he's my and we're I.. sorta
gay" I said with my head down as stood in the door frame praying to
God he didn't beat the shit outta. Not that I think he would under
normal circumstances but I'm gay and I know it and now so does
he.There was a pause and then I felt his hand on back and heard a sigh
of relief more than disappointment that I expected. I didn't know if
should be scared or what. So I turned to face him and he was smiling.

"Finally, Christ I thought I would have to shake it out of you. No
shit your gay and I am glad you finally decided to tell me. It only
took two years and a year and a half with you to be with Giovanni to
tell me. You know he told me you all were going out the second time he
spent the night. I saw you all in your room fucking around when I went
upstairs to tell you you had mail from the Air Force. When you went
and got it down stairs and read t I talked to him for a couple
reasons, One to make sure it was what you BOTH wanted and to make sure
what ever IT was it was safe."

Now that his spill was over and I could pick my jaw from the ground I
stood guess that's right in shock. These Americans never cease to
amaze me.

"Well... I ....and...we....but...tonight...and...he....you...I....going
to.....thought.......I....maybe...you'd hate me?"
"I wouldn't care if you fucked dogs on camera for a living although I
would be freaked out and a little sickened I could never EVER hate
you. I love you buddy. Come here."

With that he pulled me into a hug which felt nice we haven't hugged in a while.
"Thanks dad love you to"

He went into the other room with the adults and I went into Kyla's
room and there were some of her friends and we just talked about
different shit until it was time for me to leave.Giovanni showed up at
like 7:54 (yeah I was waiting suck it). The first thing he did was
come in for a kiss. But Brian and James and about 13 other people was
there bu instead I slapped him.
"What the fuck was that for? What did I do?"
"What do you mean what did you do? You....ahhh"
He pulled me outside as he said goodbye to everyone. Okay, Okay I'll
go faster we're getting to the sex I promise. I told him I  know what
he did he said sorry blah, blah, blah.


Here you go:

We got back to his house and his rents and sister are at his aunts to
help her get ready for the wedding, poor Acel (Giovanni's dad.)

Not moment to soon did we make it up stairs but I was till upset so it
was more a rip this off cause I am not taking my time I am pissed at
you run/stumble to his room. When we got there I threw him on the bed
and pulled off the rest of our clothes. I jumped onto the bed with my
legs on either side of him and the furious biting and kissing began
along with the angry rip of a condom rapper. I wasn't nice with it. I
yanked it on his dick and climbed on. He was happy but I just kept
thinking of ways to make this hurt him as much as he had hurt me.

I was on top just going at it and it felt great I was screaming and
moaning and he coulnd't hold back.

"HOLY FUCKIN SHIT BABY FUCK IMMA SHIT SHIT FUNGH"
"Fuck!"
"Baby that was awesome"
And it was it was awesome make up sex but i knew there was a problem
when the only thing i could think of Father Slava. All I wanted to do
was hurt Giovanni in the way he hurt me. And I knew that this would
come back to haunt from somewhere or something. So I got up and left
to go to the bathroom. And I cried for what I'm not sure. I'm not sure
that it was cause I didn't know it was possible for me to want to hurt
or make any one person especially Giovanni to hurt like I did or if it
was cause I was till upset at him or both.
"Baby is everything Okay? Vitaly answer me! Vitaly answer me or I am
comin in there!! VITALY!!!!"

He kicked open the door I dont know why it wanst locked maybe he was
worried or wanted to show off but whatever it was I remember he was
scared and that he yelled my name then fuck then nothing I went blank.
Oh great im in the hospital and my boyfriend and my dad and James and
Kyla and Jake who was Kyla's best friend.

"Glad you joined the living, but there is some bad news you had a
seizure brought on by severe stress and what is know as emotional
overload. Your body couldn't handle the extreme emotional stress sex
or any other rigorous activity you have participated in so your body
had to basicaly reprogram itself. But dont worry your fine now and can
go home Saturday."

So here i am home whoo hoo.