Date: Sat, 19 Jun 2004 13:34:34 -0400
From: Just Jake <mission_hockey_4_life@hotmail.com>
Subject: From the Heart of a Little Guy IV (highschool)

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So things went, Jon would come over when my mom was at her night job
and Uncle Arnie was out with his buds.  Of course when my cousin
Todd was staying Jon never came around.  We kept our new
friendship on the secret side.  We did hang out together at school
and after school a bit more than we used to, but that was usually
with other people anyhow.  We equally spent about as much time
with just us together with out anyone knowing as we spent in
public.  It was like living a second, secret life or something,
but you've got to be careful right?  About a year ago things in my
life started to get pretty messed, towards the end of grade 10.

First off, my mom stopped sleeping out on the couch in the living room
and started sleeping with Arnie.  Now don't get all weirded out or
anything; Arnie is one of my dad's brothers, so it's not incest or
anything.  I don't even know how I feel about it.  I just don't
think about it.  I don't want to think about it.  It makes me mad
and hurt I guess.  My first reaction was disgust, she is my mom
after all sleeping with my dad's brother.  But I hardly ever see
her so I guess I've been able to run from dealing with it.  She's
got her life, and I have mine.

Just so you know my dad is the 3rd of 4 sons, and was closest to Arnie
growing up.  He went to prison for theft and fraud and some other
crap when I was in grade 8.  He had been in jail or prison since
partway through my seventh grade year.  Yeah, that was a great
time.  I got a lot of alienation at first from my friends back
then.  Michael was one of only a few friends that didn't change
towards me.  Not that I especially thought that I was gay at the
time, but I guess that's when I learned that for sure I could
never come out to anyone about my sexuality.  People act strange
to you for anything and I never intended to give anyone a loaded
gun like that to use against me, Jon being the obvious exception,
for obvious reasons.  Anyhow, when Dad actually went to prison,
mom was a Customs Agent and had to quit because of her
relationship to a convicted criminal.  So now she works rotating
night security shifts, 4 on and 4 off, and is going to school for
accounting.  Right now for school she is on a work placement with
a national accounting firm, but last year at the time when I was
in grade 10, she was 5 days a week school just like me.  When mom
lost her job and dad left us bankrupt because all of his money was
frozen, and then his legal fees had to be paid we moved in with my
Uncle Arnie.  Again, I was in grade 8 at the time.  We moved in
with Arnie because his old lady left him years ago.  Actually I
hardly remember what Janice looks like, it's been so long since I
saw her.  Arnie has a really nice house that he bought after his
settlement with Janice, funded from his auto body shop and an auto
parts store that he both started and owns.  So being family he
took us in and let us have use of his house.  Arnie took the
second bedroom, and gave the master bedroom to his son Todd and
myself.  The room basically fits two twin beds, and two dressers
with my computer on a sewing table between the beds.  I get most
of the closet.

So I've kinda raised myself a lot so far through high school because I
would get in deep if I screwed up but was otherwise left to
myself.  My cousin Todd was actually my biggest influence.  Todd
is now 18, and plays college ball at Texas Tech and is a total
chick magnet.  Before college, back when mom and I moved in, Todd
was only staying over every other weekend as per Arnie's divorce
settlement.  But I looked forward to those weekends.  He's never
been a jerk to me, and didn't seem to mind me or treat me like
crap.  Todd is like a perfect gentleman where his dad is a typical
biker, and he is really cool to me.  Of course I know where Todd
keeps his weed hidden in his old gym bag, his frequently
replenished condoms in a cookie tin in his dresser and that he
hides his porno mags in his baseball card binders.  Yeah, I've
done a bit of snooping.  But I stopped looking at the porno mags
when I started talking to Jon a lot more.  Cock shots are nice,
but the girls do nothing for me.  Plus I didn't ever want to think
of my mom and Arnie doing that stuff.  Yeah that's right, they go
at it in the next room a lot now, and hearing them at it grosses
me out sooo bad as it is.  So it got to be that Jon started coming
over a lot more in the spring and summer of last year.  But at
first it was always only in those times when I was home alone.

A big personal accomplishment occurred for me finally in May of Grade
10.  I finally had a wet orgasm!  It was so intense and I wasn't
ready for it.  I was used to the 2 or 3 times a day dry cum and
totally messed my bed.  Ugggh!  It was everywhere, and I didn't
want mom or Arnie to know, so I just slept the rest of that night
in Todd's bed.  OMG!  I was on a cloud because finally I had a way
of feeling like I wasn't a little boy among men.  As stupid as it
might be it gave me such a personal high, and it gave me more
confidence in myself.  I told Jon about all of this the morning
after it happened as we walked to school.

"What were you thinking of?"

"To be honest, I was hoping like the last few hundred times that I'd
finally have something other than friction burn to show for my
hard work!"

"Did you shoot a lot?"

"Yeah, totally!"

"Like how much?"

"I dunno.  A lot!"

"How much jizz, how many squirts?"

"Like a ton, it squirted out twice."

"Hahaha, that's not a lot, but that's great!  I'm so happy for you!"

"Cool, now you can eat my cum!" Of course we hadn't even touched each
other yet, but it seemed like the right thing to say for a
reaction.  The reaction I got wasn't what I expected.  I was
trying to gross him out, not meaning it at all, but somehow I
think he really wanted to do just that.  So after my development
we talked a lot about shooting off and decided that we were going
to take the huge plunge and jack off together one night.

The night of my first wet orgasm I guess I didn't make Todd's bed
right because he asked me about using his bed, so I told him.  I
do my own laundry, have for as long as I remember, so it's not
like something new that I washed my bed sheets, and therefore mom
never found out thankfully.  We hardly talk as it is.  How do you
have a talk about puberty finally hitting you with your mother?
Anyhow, Todd laughed and told me maybe I might finally start
getting some pubes other than the ones on my head.  Hahaha.aside
from a little down there, and more under my arms I'm still almost
hairless.

But again, somehow the same thing happened for the night that Jon
stayed over in his bed, Todd knew right away that his bed had been
used.  I washed his sheets again, but I guess I didn't put it
together exactly the same way, although I could swear that I did.
It was a Friday night when Todd was at his mothers.  Jon and I
were so nervous, but so excited.  Jon came over for dinner on a
night that mom wasn't working which was the rule for having a
friend overnight.  Right after dinner Arnie went out like usual to
some biker bar, but mom stayed home and Jon and I went to bed
early.  Mom had sold her Harley to pay some of dad's legal bills
before she had to declare bankruptcy, so she has to ride on
Arnie's when she goes with him, but again because I was having Jon
over she begrudgingly stuck to her rule and stayed home.  By going
to bed early it meant locking the door, turning the lights off,
and stuffing a shirt along the crack so that we could look at gay
porn on my computer.  I stuffed the shirt at the bottom of the
door so that no light from the computer screen filtered out.

On the computer Jon showed me his favorite free sites and I showed him
mine.  We were both really nervous and I was in a hurry so that
mom wouldn't notice the phone line was tied up.  Jon didn't even
get totally naked, he just used the fly in his 2xist boxer briefs
while I went for broke and pushed my gitch half way down my
thighs.  We didn't touch each other and were too embarrassed to
even really look at each other.  Jon had used one of his socks
over his dick like a condom.  He told me that's how you jerk off
without being caught.  I copied that from Jon because I so far had
just used whatever clothes were handy to wipe up and the sock made
sense.  We were so horny that we were literally both soaking up
our socks with cum in like a matter of a minute.

But right after that was the first time we ever kissed!  It sort of
happened I guess, we were both like feeling really good like you
do right after cumming, and Jon just sorta turned towards me and I
turned towards him and we kissed on the lips.  It was magic.  I
had never really kissed many girls ever, not that it bothers me in
the least.  In fact I haven't ever had much practice at kissing
anyone at all.  Kissing Jon was so good, it felt so right.  His
lips were so tender and dry, meeting mine, I felt an excitement in
my body that probably rivaled my ecstasy at finally ejaculating!
The kiss was pretty brief, we pulled away quickly, and then mashed
our lips together again for a little longer.  We were both all
smiles, I know I couldn't stop a big grin even when I tried.  I
turned off the computer and unlocked the door and we watched
Letterman.  Then when it was time to go to bed for real I worked
up the nerve, and changed into my Joe Boxer pajama pants in front
of Jon.  Knowing from Michael's party that he sleeps in his boxer
briefs and is body shy, I was hopeful for a return favor, but
didn't expect one.  In return for my display, Jon shocked me
again; he put on a show and tell for me and dropped his gitch to
the floor and did a 360 for me before quickly whipping them back
up.  He had like a totally full bush on his dick like mature guys
do to match his armpit hair but was otherwise mostly hairless.  He
was really cute and we were both red faced, but he sat down on the
edge of my bed.

"That was really awesome before," Jon said, making the first
acknowledgement of us having jacked off together.

"Yeah, it was super cool!"

"Did you like it?"

"Yeah."

"Did you like what you just saw," He asked about his quick striptease.

"Yeah!"

"Can I kiss you goodnight?"

"Yeah, please.  That'd be cool!"

Dangerously, we kissed again, on the lips and it lasted for a while
this time before Jon slipped over to Todd's bed.

Four weeks later we pretty much repeated the same routine.  This time
however mom had the night off again, but took off with Arnie
rather than make dinner and baby sit me.  In our secret times,
when we could, Jon and I were kissing a bit more frequently, and
for longer.  So on that night we were just sitting there in my
bed, both fully naked but shyly under the covers, with our lips
pressed together for like half a minute or something so I turned
it into a series of pecks.  I guess that was the green light he
was looking for so he started to push his tongue against my lips.
In no time we were figuring out how to French kiss.  I'm sure it
totally sucked and we are a lot better now, but it was so awesome
at the time.  Our bodies pressed together a lot and it felt really
good.  We both were hard and eventually we both were sitting on my
bed jacking off again, and looking at each other this time.  Jon
gave me the sock he had used earlier and picked up the one I had
used.  I was weirded out by this and rather than use his cum
filled sock I made it look like it fell off the bed on its own.  I
mean it was sorta exciting to hold his sock with his cum in it,
but it was also sorta disgusting at the same time too.  I watched
in awe as Jon took the sock I had used and slid it over his dick!
In just a few strokes I could see his nice addition to my wet spot
forming in the sock.  He told me that it was the best orgasm he
ever had when he felt my cum.  I wasn't too attentive because
while I was way busy stroking away!  Seeing his body tense and his
cum soak through the sock was so hot, it made my little body spasm
and I instantly shot a messy load halfway up my chest and onto the
blankets!  I cleaned up as best as I could and we went to bed, Jon
in Todd's of course.  But man I tell you, I jacked that image of
Jon cumming in my head for months!!!

After that night we started to hang out a lot more with each other and
started dating, secretly of course.  The only person that knew
about us right away was Todd.  He put it all together pretty
quickly.  He knew that Jon was using his bed from time to time
when he wasn't there, and one Monday night he stopped by to get
some textbook he had forgot and I didn't hear him coming into our
room and he saw me looking at gay porn.  I was totally embarrassed
and tried to convince him that it was just a pop-up, but as I
tried to close the window, one after another, a different gay page
popped up.  I then tried to lie my way out of it and make it like
I was just looking at pictures of developed guys because I was so
underdeveloped and felt insecure.  He didn't buy it at all, but I
kept saying I was totally straight and with a huge grin on his
face he was like `Whoa there little dude.  So you like to stick
your dick in the mud from time to time then.  Don't get all worked
up over it.'  He said he had to go, but showed me where he hid his
condoms in a ziplock bag in the bottom of a cookie tin underneath
a pile of Reece's pieces.  (I knew this because one time I found
and ate enough of his Reece's pieces to find the condoms and had
to buy more Reece's pieces to cover up that I was even eating his
candy in the first place.  But I've already said that.)  He told
me to use them if I get ever really get the chance to need one,
especially if I `went for a ride down the dirt road' but not to
let my mom know because she freaked on him when we first moved in
about ever corrupting me into having sex at a young age like
everyone knew he did.

The next weekend Todd was over he changed his bed right away and was
acting like a bit of a loser to me.  I felt so bad.  I felt like a
pervert.  Now I knew how Jon felt when he had touched me and
didn't know I was gay too.  I was so afraid that Todd was going to
tell on me.  He went out to a party and when he came home that
night mom and Arnie were already home and in bed, so it was damn
late for sure.  He reeked of pot, but seemed totally clear headed
when he shook me awake.  He told me to turn on my computer and
wanted to show me something.  He then told me about times that
this guy on his football team used to suck him and a buddy off in
the woods and in the bathroom at school.  He said he didn't get it
why a guy wants to do that but it sure feels great.  When my
computer booted up he signed onto the internet and showed me this
site.  He said that he had just been with the guy who sucks him
off, and that guy told him to tell me about this site.   He told
me to have fun with the site, but don't ever let Arnie know
because he and his buddies beat up faggots for fun so I better be
careful.  I saved the site, turned off the computer, and before
going to bed I smoked my first joints ever with my cousin.  On the
second joint, Todd told me he knew exactly which of my friends is
my butt buddy and to be careful because Jon is totally obvious.
But for the rest of the year at school Todd and his jock friends
looked out for me and Jon at school.  Again, Todd's at Texas Tech
now, but the acceptance from the seniors on the football team made
Jon and I the cocks of the walk in our grade.  Coach Maynes even
took a grater interest in us too, not surprisingly though, as and
I found out from Todd that the guy that used to suck him off was
actually Coach's son.  Coach never ever said anything except for
once telling Jon and I in private to be mindful because we have a
tougher road to walk through life than most people and if we need
his help we only have to ask.


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Sorry  that  this one took a little longer to post.   Thanks
for continuing to read and for the encouraging feedback!   I
am just starting the revisions for part 5 so it should be up
soon,  time permitting.  For those that live in the  rainbow
kingdom, Happy Pride Week!    ~Jake