Date: Tue, 22 Aug 2000 20:40:11 -0700 (PDT)
From: Chuck
Subject: Giving Up 4

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-Doesn't Really Matter-

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"Thanks Doc," I said while spit dribbled down from my mouth. He laughed and
handed me one of those plastic-like tissues that only dentists have, and
ONLY dentists can have. I took it and wiped the drool off my chin. He had
just finished giving me a fluoride treatment, which is god awful tasting,
but he always put it on my teeth before I leave. He pointed his finger at
me and said, "Now Blue, remember! Don't swallow anything! Fluoride's bad
for you!"

"Yeah, yeah. That was an accident doc! I'll see ya in half a year," I said
leaving the room about to puke from the taste of the fluoride in my
mouth. Dave was sitting down on one of the black leather couches reading
MEN'S HEALTH. I didn't know if he was reading how to get healthy or he's
just interested in looking at hunky guys. He looked really tired as always
from a really busy week, but he was nice enough to wake up at nine in the
morning on a Saturday just to go with me to the dentist. Once he saw me, he
got up and smiled, "Well how's the check up?"

"Bad. I feel like puking from this taste," I said. He snickered pitying
me. "Oh that sucks. I mean to me that is. I can't kiss you!"

"Awww...isn't that sweet...thinking about YOU all the time! You know I have
a piece of mind to wrap my fingers around your throat to..."

"Okay okay I'm sorry! C'mon let's go. I'll treat you to a Chinese
restaurant...after an hour," he said wrapping his arms around me while
patting my chest with his knuckles. We left the medical center and went
walking around downtown. Dave window shopped at mostly every store in we
passed. I was too, since it was James' birthday next week and I had no idea
what James' really wanted. Well, I had many ideas from video games to
girlfriend. He never really told me anything about needing a girl but I get
the hint here and there. He isn't too ugly to get one, but he's really,
really shy. In fact, I guess he even gets anxiety attacks. But since I
can't help in that department, what am I suppose to do?

One hour eventually passed and both of us went to eat at The Mandarin. The
waitress that showed us to our seats kind of gave us this weird look when
Dave accidentally just blurted out that he loves me. He must have thought
he was whispering, but she heard him. Yeah, I really did freak out but it
was kind of okay since she looked like one of those nice people that would
actually understand about us.

She smiled and asked us, "Do you guys need anything? Refreshments,
tissues...lights a bit dimmer?"

I blushed like totally covering my face with my hands while Dave kind of
just scratched the back of his head trying to come up with something clever
to say, but he just couldn't come up with anything. She giggled and joked,
"Don't worry. I see this all the time here. If you guys need anything,
don't be scared to holler at me! I'll be back with two glasses of water."

I nodded while she left I went and sat down in my seat trying not to look
at Dave. Dave sat own on the chair and gave me this pleading look that kind
of begged me to stop looking at him in a pissed off mood way. But I didn't
and I grumbled, "Why did you say that for?"

"Say what? That I love you?" he asked. I frowned and nodded, "Yeah! You
know we are in public."

"So what's wrong if I do say that I love you in public?" he asked with this
insecure look on his face. I crossed my arms and leaned back on my
chair. Dave took off his hat and laid it on the table. I answered not
looking at him, "Well, anything can happen you know! Haven't you ever
thought that it's a small world? Someone that knows us might see us doing
all this shit and tell others that we're a gay couple. Haven't you thought
about that for once? Or is your head too small to think?"

"Why are you insulting me? Look I'm sorry if you think that saying I love
you in public is a big mistake, but it isn't to me okay? I love you and if
everyone has to know just to convince you that my love's only for you then
I'd tell everyone. Look I'm sorry if I feel that way okay? I don't care if
everyone knows about us, but if you can't think like that, I feel like
you're not happy with, or proud of this relationship. I feel like you'd
backstab me just to convince you were no way having a relationship with me
so everyone would think your straight."

"Look, I didn't say that..."

"You don't say it but you sound like it. You don't have to explain anything
just to make me understand how you feel and think. I'm not as dumb as you
think," he said quieting down. I knew he was really hurt about this about
me not being able to express in public that I'm in love with him. I have
really good reasons like homophobes and bashers out there who hate gay
people, and if they find out about us they would beat the living crap out
of me and him. But somehow, this reason wasn't good enough to use in this
argument. I feel like he wouldn't care if even a homo basher finds out
about this relationship. I know it's really sweet for him to love me THAT
much but I'm just worried, that's all. I want him to be happy rather than
being pushed over and get hurt by people out there. I explained trying to
sound reasonable to him, "I didn't say that. What I meant is that..."

"Look, can't we just eat? I really don't want to lose my appetite right
now," he said cutting me off. I gulped and knew he was really pissed at
me. He stood up quickly and stormed off to the buffet table where the food
was. The waitress noticed Dave was pissed and asked me what was wrong and I
smiled and said it was just our usual arguments. She smiled and said ok
before leaving to help another customer to their seats. I went to where he
was but he was avoiding the table where I was. As soon as I finished
getting my food, I went back to my seat and ate with him quietly, ashamed
at the same time. This was the first time he was ever this pissed at
me. The whole time, he didn't talk to me whatsoever and he kept his eyes
looking down on his plate. Thirty minutes had passed and I only had two
plates finished, I really didn't feel like eating since I really felt bad
for what I did. Meanwhile Dave was on his third small bowl of ice cream. He
asked for the waitress for our check, and when she did, I noticed that it
was the same waitress who knew about our secret. I smiled and grabbed the
black book that she handed to us. I said, "Ms. umm..?"

"Oh Janice is fine," she said. Dave looked away and took his wallet from
his back pocket. I said to her loud enough that Dave could here me, "Yes
Janice. Have I ever told you that I'm in love with Dave here and I really
love him to death?"

"Well..." she said then she giggled, "...Not until now I didn't. But your
friend...I mean your boyfriend said he loves you so I kinda knew that you
were in love with him too."

Dave smiled and I knew he was blushing while he put his cap back on. He
paid for the meal, still trying not to smile. He wasn't really looking at
me but I was staring at him the whole time. I whispered, "I love you and
I'm really sorry."

He nodded and lipped that it was okay. I grinned and we left The Mandarin
with happy faces again like we did when we arrived. But before we could
leave the waitress gave us our 'fortune cookies' and said goodbye to us
again and told us to come again at the same hour 'cuz she really wants to
know more about 'us'. I smiled and nodded and I know Dave would gladly go
since he still has a lot of money in his pockets. Fortune cookies...who
cannot love these? I really don't believe the things they say, but heck,
sometimes I do actually. I opened mine and I read it while I ate my cookie,
"Problems will arise."

Dave read his fortune, "Problems will arise...hey..we got the same
fortunes! Weird huh?"

"Nah, don't think so. They have boxes of same fortune cookies you know."

"No, I mean the thing it says: Problems will arise. Like we haven't faced
enough problems. Sorry but I have to like not believe in that advice or
whatever," he said throwing the small paper on the sidewalk as well as the
wrapper. Such a waste of paper! I didn't really believe it, but a part of
me kind of had to believe in that 'prediction'. But I'm sure it's
nothing. Maybe I only partly believed it 'cuz I mean anything could
happen. Wait 'till Nancy hears this. Dave and I went back to the mall,
walking around just window shopping and actually buying stuff like simple
things like candies and really big lollys. We went to the Disney store,
which is one of my very favorite stores. I sort of have this problem of
being obsessed with "Winnie the Pooh" lately. He's just soo cute! Has
anyone ever seen him in his cartoon shows? You just want to hug him to
death because of his cute, cute face, and that little red tee shirt and
with that honey on his hands! Who cannot like Pooh? Anyway, we also went to
the arcade, but lately it didn't really satisfy us anymore. Maybe it's just
that they haven't added any new games or lowered the price to make it MORE
interesting. But still, we played on this game where there's this little
dinosaur that throws out little different colors of circles. I really like
this game, it's just...well addicting. It's called Busta Move. Sometimes, I
would spend hours playing this game on my computer or in the arcade wasting
tons of money.

It was close to four and it was really, really hot at this hour. We panted
and panted resting in the nearest shade hoping that my house would be the
next block. But it wasn't. Every time we walked a block, he'd complain that
he should've save up money to buy a car instead. Just before I was about to
die from extreme heat and sunburn, we saw Nancy down the street with a
popsicle in her mouth sucking it like crazy. Her hair was up and she was
wearing a pink short skirt with a matching tank top. The guys who passed by
her looked at her twice and Nancy didn't seem to mind. She looked almost
like a stripper! Dave called out, "NANCY...Nancy! Over here!"

She turned around and jumped up and down with her arms holding her breasts
to prevent them from jiggling up and down. She only managed to hang on to
one of her breasts while the other bounced liked crazy I couldn't help
giggling. For one thing it didn't turn me on! Well duh! I'm gay!Instead of
her coming to us, we had to run to the other side of the street to meet
her. She smiled and greeted us, "Hey you guys! What's up?"

"Well you really don't want to know, but all I know is I'm really hot and I
really need a lot of suckin' from that popsicle your holding!" I said
reaching out for the ice candy she was holding. But she kept on moving her
hand back trying not to let me grab that pop from her. She gasped, "Hey hey
stop! I have some more in my bag! I was bringing them to my house 'cuz
James wanted some and I ran out. Oh yeah, you wanna come over? Someone
fixed the pool and it's all set to be used."

"Sigh...you're such a life saver," Dave said while he grabbed the plastic
bag tossing me one popsicle and keeping one for himself. Even though it
melted quickly on my tongue, it really felt soothing and gave me enough
strength to get to her house. We went to her half a million dollars worth
house where everything must've cost a fortune. She was one of those girls
who's always served with a silver platter and I was sure there was tons of
money hidden somewhere in a safe keep in their house, hey they have those
in cartoons! And the fact that rich people never have fun...not true at
all. What's really cool about Nancy is she NEVER brags about how rich she
is. She acts like one of us middle class people even though she's really
meant to be one of them high classes that goes private clubs with their
expensive real FUR! Ugh...haven't they ever thought about how many animals
they kill just for a single fur coat and how there's a word called
'poverty' everywhere?! This heat must be really killing me. As we went
inside the house, Dave said, "Oh man, I totally forgot, we don't have any
swimming trunks."

"Oh James left some so he didn't have to bring his trunks whenever he comes
here. I think it'll still fit and I know he wouldn't mind," she said while
she led us to her bedroom which was twice as big as mine. She gave me a
blue swimsuit and Dave a black one with something written on the side. She
said to us before leaving, "Well I'll leave you two alone to change here in
my bedroom. I'll be outside with James okay?"

We both nodded and I kind of shrugged when she closed the door. Dave smiled
and blushed shyly. He looked down after taking off his shirt and I wondered
if he'd change right in front of me. I was still standing there with a dick
getting harder from excitement. In all my life, this will be the first time
I will ever see his...and him seeing mine. He whispered, "Uhh...do
you...want to change in front of me? I mean I really don't
mind...but...well...I mean well...I uhhh..."

We were really not prepared for this, I quickly turned around and took off
my shirt keeping my eyes looking down since the window could make an exact
reflection of him getting undressed. His back was turned around too so if I
became bottom naked, he still won't see me. I kept my eyes on the carpet
floor slowly unzipping the zipper of my loose fit jeans. Once I heard this
quiet thump when his pants hit the floor, I took a deep breath trying to
prevent myself from looking at his reflection. I quickly got undressed and
slipped on the suit Nancy provided me. Satisfied with the fit, I whispered,
"Done."

I turned around and there was Dave with James' trunks covering his private
parts. His arms were crossed and he was leaning on the door like he was
posing for me. I smiled turning around to let him see me with James'
shorts, "Like what you see?"

"Yeah...and before that too. You got the cutest round butt you know that?"
he said with this wide grin stuck to his face. I covered my mouth with my
eyes widened. I gasped, "I can't believe you looked!"

"It was an accident! I thought you weren't changing yet and when I turned
around...wow! Seriously I really love your ass!" he said giggling while
blushing uncontrollably. I giggled and tried not to scream that he actually
saw my bare ass! I walked to the door and said, "Well let's go. Can't wait
to get on the water!"

We hurried down to her backyard to her pool and saw Nancy splashing James
while James was trying to grab her, but he immediately stopped when he saw
us. Damn, James has a really nice bods! James cried waving his hands to us,
"Hey Blue! Hey Dave! Quick! Water's hella getting warmer."

We ran and jumped on the deep end, which wasn't really that deep, only 6
feet, but I had to thread so I could keep my head on the top. It was really
hot for one thing. Not the water but the air. The top of my body that
wasn't in the water was quickly gathering sweat and getting a bit darker
from the sun and vice versa for my bottom part. We stayed in the shallow
end resting at the sides of the pool. Nancy was panting but I couldn't tell
wether she had sweat on her face. She said going back to the house, "It's
really hot here. I'm gonna come back with cold drinks in a flash."

"I'll come and help," James said getting out of the pool to follow her. No
offense, but James really looks cute when he's wet. He almost looked like
one of those barely 18 wet porn guys since his hair was spiked and simply
resting on top of his head. Dave smiled and swam to my side. He hugged me
keeping his feet on the ledge under the water. I put my arms around him and
our bodies were touching each other completely. I smiled, "You know, James
will come out in a minute or two. You don't want him to know do you?"

"I really don't care if he knows. He's missing out in a lot! I mean we can
do a threesome. Didn't you notice how cute he is today?" he asked kissing
me on the lips.

"Yeah, new side of him huh? Used to be goth now we see a real model right
in front of our eyes.  And that threesome thing, yeah right. You must be
nuts! I mean he might be gay but there's no way he'll have you. You're mine
already and you're ONLY allowed to date only ONE guy...ME!" He laughed and
kissed me again. He purred in a masculine way and whispered, "Yeah, who
wants him?

You're like...ten times the man he is." I smiled and kissed him back while
he drew himself closer, squeezing me against the wall. While kissing me,
his tongue drilled through my lips to play around inside me. It tasted like
chlorine since there was a bit too much chlorine in the water but I didn't
care. We frenched, groaning madly feeling the water around us getting
warmer. I could hear his heart beating and his nipples getting erect while
he rubbed his body against mine. God, is this kind of rude or what? Making
out in a bestfriend's swimming pool. All of a sudden, I started giggling
which interrupted everything. He looked at me smiling, "Why're you
giggling?"

"I felt something poking my thigh," I said giving him this innocent look. I
kept on giggling which got worse when Dave kind of blushed and accidentally
lost his balance from the ledge and sank down to the bottom of the deep
end. He swam back to the top and threaded the water to stay
afloat. Seriously, it was like...wow! I instantly got hard when I felt his
dick! He was smiling and his blush was still there. I kept on laughing and
said to him, "You are such a horny bastard! I'm gonna go inside and help
Nancy and James out! You need a major anti-viagra!"

I swam back to the shallow end, kissing Dave on the way. When I got out, I
dried myself a bit and went inside the house. I looked around the kitchen
and surprisingly, they weren't there. There was this big pitcher and this
empty can of cold lemonade which you only have to add water and
presto...done. But other than that, no one was there. I walked around
calling out Nancy's and James' names. Finding that they weren't in the
kitchen, I walked around the house trying to find them and I eventually
went to the second floor to her bedroom but they weren't there either. Just
before my foot stepped on the first step of the stair way, I heard this
quiet panting which was barely audible. I looked where my instinct thought
the sounds were coming from and softly asked, "Nancy? James?"

Slowly, I walked closer and closer towards the sound's origin, and as I got
closer the noises began to sound familiar. It sounded like Nancy. Well
almost, but it sounded so different. I called out her name again just a tad
bit louder, but no one answered. I kept on hearing it but could barely
understand what it was. I was really kind of getting scared since I was
afraid that someone might've gotten in and must be doing something really
bad. I mean, this place is like full of priceless things and what if that
'safe' is really here?! Slowly I walked closer, trying not to make a sound
since the floor kind of squeaked every time I moved. My heartbeat was way
up the scale and my mind wanted to shout out for Dave for help but I kept
walking closer and the sound became a bit louder. Finally, as soon as I
reached the door where the sound was coming from, I slowly opened the door
and peaked inside.

What I saw totally shocked me! And also turned me on! There he was with
Nancy totally NAKED! I mean...both of them! James and Nancy! Nancy was on
top of James holding her hair up with both of her hands while she wiggled
her ass up and down and I eventually saw James' dick coming in and out
rhythmically inside HER! James was groaning, but not as loud as
Nancy. James was squeezing her breasts massaging them like they were
stressballs or something. Maybe that's why I didn't hear James's voice at
all. Nancy was practically the one who's screaming! My dick was totally
pointing up right now! Seeing James like this...woah! James was holding her
waist trying to lift it up while he pumped inside her as fast as he could
then he eventually slowed down panting with major sweat pouring on his
face. He moaned and slowly fucked her slowly until I saw his dick coming
out of her becoming limp, but it was still totally red. I screamed but no
sound came out, "OH MY GOD!!!"