Date: Wed, 16 Nov 2005 11:48:23 -0800 (PST)
From: sim sez <sim_sez@yahoo.com>
Subject: Gramps 03

Monday
I ask Gramps how I should have answered Josh when he ask me if it was OK
with me if he dated and kissed girls.  Gramps looked at me and I saw a
tear form in his eye as I am sure he recalled how he had answered that
question.  He said,"Jesse you can love someone with all your heart and
soul, but there is no earthly way that you can force that person to love
you.  You gave the same answer I gave so many years ago".  Gramps told me
only time would tell if my answer would strengthen Josh's love for me.
Be there for him if he needs you, he is very fragile.  If he should fall
in love with a girl, he can have a "normal" happy life.  But if he falls
for her and she doesn't love him, he will need your support more than
ever.  No matter how it turns out you have to be strong and accept it.
Life will go on, it is like a roller coaster  the incline is a lot slower
than the the very fast decline.  You cannot control someones life, you
can only share the good and bad times.

Josh called this afternoon after school, we talked a few minutes, I told
him How much I loved him.  He said he would be on the Internet in a few
minutes.  My heart does flips every time I see that flag come up "Josh
just signed in".

We seem to be back like we were before he broke off with me Friday night.
We began our chat with a little humor. He asked me "Hay, what's up".  I
replied "Little Jesse" he want to play with "Little Josh".  That's about
the way the chat went until his mom came home and he had to get off the
net.

Gramps 03

Gramps arrived in Texas on a very hot summer day.  He had spent many a
hot summer day working in the fields on the farm, but this heat was
overwhelming.  When he had been in boot camp it was in south Texas and
winter, so it was mild then.

Gramps was shuttled to the base hospital where he waited in limbo, not
knowing what his future held.  Again he found himself laying in bed with
tears in his eyes listening to the loud air coolers all night. \r\n
\r\nFinally the doctors made a decision to send him back to duty.  They
determined the injury did not interfere with his duties.
\r\n
\r\nGramps at the age of eighteen, not happy with the way his life was
going was assigned to a new experimental group called Confinement
Screening.  His duty was to guard and escort prisoners sent here for
screening.  Here he learned what happen to the men facing all kinds of
charges.  He was interested in the treatment of the "queers" by the
guards.  It was not uncommon to see the guards give a "queer" a blanket
party. (they throw a blanket over the guy\'s head while he is asleep and
then beat the shit out of him.  This usually happened after a guard on
duty at night found a guy giving another guy a blow job.  When Gramps was
on night duty he would walk loudly as he patrolled the barracks.  This
gave the guys a chance to get back in their own bed before he checked
beds.  Beds had to be checked every hour because this was an open
barracks with no bars on the windows.  Most prisoners here were minimum
security and the majority of them were supposedly "queer". \r\n
\r\n
\r\nSome of the "queers" when they found out they were going to the
stockade would beg Gramps to let them escape because they knew he
sympathetic toward them.  Gramps knew though if he let his sympathy be
known, he would be joining the prisoners. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps was worried he would be labeled as a sympathiser and decided
he had better transfer out as soon as he could.  His transfer finally
came through, he was put on base patrol.  Gramps liked this duty much
better until one night he with three other M P\'s were sent to town to
pick up a drunk and disorderly soldier from the city jail.  \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps said when they got to the jail, he was horrified at what he
saw.  There huddled in the corner of a jail cell was this black  guy more
like a boy.  He was bloody, face swelled as if he had been in one hell of
a fight.  This was Gramp\'s first taste of prejudice in the south.  When
the jailer came to get him out of the cell for us he drug him to the cell
door by the foot, then kicked to make him get up.  We put the cuffs on
him and as we took him from the cell block the jailer hit him with a
night stick across the back.  We put him in the vehicle, it was called a
carry all similar to today\'s suburban.  He was in a lot of pain but he
never said a word not even a whimper.  He was placed in the middle seat
with Gramps on one side and another guard on the other side, the other
two guards in the front.  \r\n",1] ); //-->

Finally the doctors made a decision to send him back to duty.  They
determined the injury did not interfere with his duties.

Gramps at the age of eighteen, not happy with the way his life was going
was assigned to a new experimental group called Confinement Screening.
His duty was to guard and escort prisoners sent here for screening.  Here
he learned what happen to the men facing all kinds of charges.  He was
interested in the treatment of the "queers" by the guards.  It was not
uncommon to see the guards give a "queer" a blanket party. (they throw a
blanket over the guy's head while he is asleep and then beat the shit out
of him).  This usually happened after a guard on duty at night found a
guy giving another guy a blow job.  When Gramps was on night duty he
would walk loudly as he patrolled the barracks.  This gave the guys a
chance to get back in their own bed before he checked beds.  Beds had to
be checked every hour because this was an open barracks with no bars on
the windows.  Most prisoners here were minimum security and the majority
of them were supposedly "queer".

Some of the "queers" when they found out they were going to the stockade
would beg Gramps to let them escape because they knew he was sympathetic
toward them.  Gramps knew if he let his sympathy be known, he would be
joining the prisoners.

Gramps was worried he would be labeled as a sympathizer and decided he
had better transfer out as soon as he could.  His transfer finally came
through, he was put on base patrol.  Gramps liked this duty much better
until one night he with three other M P's were sent into town to pick up
a drunk and disorderly soldier from the city jail.

Gramps said when they got to the jail, he was horrified at what he saw.
There huddled in the corner of a jail cell was this black  guy more like
a boy.  He was bloody, face swelled as if he had been in one hell of a
fight.  This was Gramp's first taste of prejudice in the south.  When the
jailer came to get the boy out of the cell for us he drug him to the cell
door by the foot, then kicked him to make him get up.  We put the cuffs
on him and as we took him from the cell block the jailer hit him with a
night stick across the back.  We put him in the vehicle, it was called a
carry all similar to today's suburban.  He was in a lot of pain but he
never said a word not even a whimper.  He was placed in the middle seat
with Gramps on one side and another guard on the other side, the other
two guards in the front.  \r\n
\r\nThe boy sit with his head down saying nothing,  when the guard
driving started harassing him, the boy didn\'t respond.  When we stopped
for a stop sign, the driver turned around to look at the boy.  He started
cussing and calling the boy names Gramps had never heard before.  When
the boy still didn\'t respond, the driver spit a big snotty glob in his
face, this brought a quick response.  The boy rared back against the seat
brought both feet up and kicked the back of the driver\'s seat so hard it
threw him into the steering wheel.  Gramps knew this was not good, they
starting hitting with night sticks so hard Gramps thought they were going
to kill him.  Of the four guards Gramps was the youngest (18) and the
smallest (5\' 7"  135 pounds).  Two of the other three were over six feet
and two hundred pounds.  The third was tall  probably 6\' 5" thin maybe
180 pounds.  The prisoner wasn\'t much bigger than I was and here were
these three brutes beating him while his hands were cuffed.  By the time
they arrived at the base the boy was unconscious.  The driver who was in
charge of the detail filled out his report stating the prisoner passed
out from being drunk.  As they placed him in a holding cell he was
showing signs of regaining conscious and again they started beating on
him.  When the shift commander came in, he called an ambulance and had
the boy taken to the base hospital. Gramps didn\'t remember any more
about the boy after he was sent to the hospital, but he has never forgot
his first taste of prejudice.  Gramps found out later that the other
three guards were from the south, the driver was from Alabama. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps found it difficult to observe all the abuse and never
attempted to participate in it.  In Gramp\'s barracks there was only one
black guy, one Mexican, one Indian and the rest were all white.  Gramps
noticed these guys were always assigned what was called shit details,
stuck out in the sticks guarding who knows what, out of sight of another
human. \r\n",1] ); //-->

The boy sit with his head down saying nothing,  when the guard driving
started harassing him, the boy didn't respond.  When we stopped for a
stop sign, the driver turned around to look at the boy.  He started
cussing and calling the boy names Gramps had never heard before.  When
the boy still didn't respond, the driver spit a big snotty glob in his
face, this brought a quick response.  The boy rared back against the seat
brought both feet up and kicked the back of the driver's seat so hard it
threw him into the steering wheel.  Gramps knew this was not good, they
starting hitting the boy with night sticks so hard Gramps thought they
were going to kill him.  Of the four guards Gramps was the youngest (18)
and the smallest (5' 7"  135 pounds).  Two of the other three were over
six feet and two hundred pounds.  The third was tall  probably 6' 5" thin
maybe 180 pounds.  The prisoner wasn't much bigger than Gramps was and
here were these three brutes beating him while his hands were cuffed.  By
the time they arrived at the base the boy was unconscious.  The driver
who was in charge of the detail, he filled out his report stating the
prisoner passed out from being drunk.  As they placed him in a holding
cell he was showing signs of regaining conscious and again they started
beating on him.  When the shift commander came in, he called an ambulance
and had the boy taken to the base hospital. Gramps didn't remember any
more about the boy after he was sent to the hospital, but he has never
forgot his first taste of prejudice.  Gramps found out later that the
other three guards were from the south, the driver was from Alabama.

Gramps found it difficult to observe all the abuse and never attempted to
participate in it.  In Gramp's barracks there was only one black guy, one
Mexican, one Indian and the rest were all white.  Gramps noticed these
guys were always assigned to what was called shit details, stuck out in
the sticks guarding who knows what, out of sight of another human. \r\n
\r\nGramps liked the black guy, he was very polite and always willing to
help out. He was from Louisiana and he loved to shine shoes.  Gramps said
his shoes look like mirrors they were so shinny.
\r\n
\r\nGramps became friends with the black guy, his name was Jackson.  They
would hang out together, go to movies on the base, play basket ball,
running or what ever they wanted to do.
\r\n
\r\nThey hardly ever went into town and it never dawned on Gramps why
until one Saturday they decide to go into town.  Jackson was reluctant to
go, Gramps finally talked him int going.  We had to take a bus, as we got
on the bus I let Jackson get on first, that was just an old habit I had
of letting my friends go first.  As they got on the bus Gramps followed
Jackson, he wondered why Jackson passed all the empty seats and went to
the very back.  Gramps just figured he like siting in the back.  They
talked and joked on the bus ride into town.  Gramps ask Jackson if he
wanted to go in the five and dime store and look around.  Jackson
reluctantly agreed.  As we started to enter the store Gramps saw a water
fountain and said he wanted to get a drink.  When Gramps got to the water
fountain he noticed there were two water fountains.  On the second water
fountain was a sign that said "colored".  Gramps said hey Jackson look
they have a colored water fountain and he went over turned it on and the
water came out.  Gramps said hell that water ain\'t colored its as clear
as any water I ever seen.  Hearing this Jackson burst out laughing,
Gramps looked at him and said what the hell is so funny, why they say
colored water when its as clear as any water.  When Jackson was able to
stop laughing, he explained to Gramps the colored fountain was for black
people.  Gramps had a hard time understanding something so stupid. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps said he got educated about the south that day.  He said inside
the store they had "black" and "white" restrooms.  Everywhere Gramps and
Jackson went in the store, Gramps noticed someone watching them all the
time.  Gramps asked Jackson if he noticed that, Jackson told him he was
used to it because it always happens in white stores. \r\n",1] ); //-->

Gramps liked the black guy, he was very polite and always willing to help
out. He was from Louisiana and he loved to shine shoes.  Gramps said his
shoes look like mirrors they were so shinny.

Gramps became friends with the black guy, his name was Jackson.  They
would hang out together, go to movies on the base, play basket ball,
running or what ever they wanted to do.

They hardly ever went into town and it never dawned on Gramps why until
one Saturday they decided to go into town.  Jackson was reluctant to go,
Gramps finally talked him into going.  We had to take a bus, as we got on
the bus Gramps let Jackson get on first, that was just an old habit he
had of letting his friends go first.  As they got on the bus Gramps
followed Jackson, he wondered why  Jackson passed all the empty seats and
went to the very back.  Gramps just figured he like siting in the back.
They talked and joked on the bus ride into town.

Gramps ask Jackson if he wanted to go in the five and dime store and look
around.  Jackson reluctantly agreed.  As we started to enter the store
Gramps saw a water fountain and said he wanted to get a drink.  When
Gramps got to the water fountain he noticed there were two water
fountains.  On the second water fountain was a sign that said "colored".
Gramps said, " hey Jackson look they have a colored water fountain" and
he went over turned it on and the water came out.  Gramps said, " hell
that water ain't colored its as clear as any water I ever seen".  Hearing
this Jackson burst out laughing, Gramps looked at him and said "what the
hell is so funny, why do they say colored water when its as clear as any
water".  When Jackson was able to stop laughing, he explained to Gramps
the colored fountain was for black people.  Gramps had a hard time
understanding something so stupid.

Gramps said he got educated about the south that day.  He said inside the
store they had "black" and "white" restrooms.  Everywhere Gramps and
Jackson went in the store, Gramps noticed someone watching them all the
time.  Gramps asked Jackson if he noticed that, Jackson told him he was
used to it because it always happens in most all stores. \r\n
\r\nGramps had had enough of this weird nonsense, He ask Jackson if he
wanted to see a movie while in town.  Jackson said he didn\'t know if he
could get in, Gramps told him don\'t sweat it it my treat, thinking
Jackson was short on money.  Gramps walked up to the ticket window with
Jackson standing behind, told the ticket person "two please".  The ticket
person looked at Gramps and said "is he with you", Gramps said yes mamm.
\r\n
\r\nShe pulled one of the tickets back and said he can\'t go in.  Gramps
said why not, she said isn\'t it obvious.  Gramps was getting upset, and
said isn\'t what obvious.  She yelled at him "HE\'S BLACK".  Gramps said
he about lost it then and yelled back at her "WHY IN  THE HELL DOES THAT
MATTER".  Gramps told her to give him his money back he wouldn\'t go in
that dam theatre if it was the last one on earth. \r\n

\r\nJackson was transferred to a base out west and I sure hated to see
him go.  He had taught me a lot about the south and we had a lot of fun
times.
\r\n
\r\nGramp\'s mom and dad came through Texas on a trip to California and
stopped in to see him.  While they were there they help him buy a car
(1951 Mercury).  He had just turned nineteen and was real glad to get
some wheels.  He showed me the pictures of that car, he was proud, it
showed on his face in the picture. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps didn\'t drink or smoke and was the only one on their floor
with a car.  A bunch of the guys talked Gramps into driving them to
Mexico for a weekend.  They told him they would buy the gas and his food
and all the pussy he wanted.  Gramps figured he had better go along
although he didn\'t want to. He couldn\'t take a chance on someone
thinking he was "queer". \r\n
\r\n
\r\nThere were seven including Gramps, they arrived at the border late on
Friday night.  They decided to park the car on the states side for
safety.  They still had to pay a Mexican to keep an eye on the car.",1]
); //-->

Gramps had  enough of this weird nonsense, He ask Jackson if he wanted to
see a movie while in town.  Jackson said he didn't know if he could get
in, Gramps told him don't sweat it, it's my treat, thinking Jackson was
short on money.  Gramps walked up to the ticket window with Jackson
standing behind, told the ticket person "two please".  The ticket person
looked at Gramps and said "is he with you", Gramps said yes he is.
The ticket person pulled one of the tickets back and said he can't go
in.  Gramps said why not, the ticket person said isn't it obvious.
Gramps was getting upset, and said "isn't what obvious".  The ticket
person yelled at him "HE'S BLACK".  Gramps said he about lost it then and
yelled back at the ticket person "WHY IN  THE HELL DOES THAT MATTER".
Gramps told the ticket person to give him his money back he wouldn't go
in that dam theater if it was the last one on earth.

Jackson was transferred to a base out west and I sure hated to see him
go.  He had taught me a lot about the south and we had a lot of fun
times.

Gramp's mom and dad came through Texas on a trip to California and
stopped in to see him.  While they were there, they help him buy a car
(1951 Mercury).  He was about to turn nineteen and was real glad to get
some wheels.  He showed me the pictures of that car, he was proud, it
showed on his face in the picture.

Gramps didn't drink or smoke and was the only one on their floor with a
car.  A bunch of the guys talked Gramps into driving them to Mexico for a
weekend.  They told him they would buy the gas and his food and all the
pussy he wanted.  Gramps figured he had better go along although he
didn't want to. He couldn't take a chance on someone thinking he was
"queer".

There were seven including Gramps, they arrived at the border late on
Friday night.  They decided to park the car on the states side for
safety.  They still had to pay a Mexican guy to keep an eye on the car.
\r\n
\r\nSince they had been drinking on the trip down, they were pretty well
loaded.  We walked across the border and were surrounded by Mexican kids
all yelling "fuckie my sister giveie me dollar". They all went into a
bar, Gramps really felt out of place but pretended to be having fun
anyway.  One by one the guys disappeared into back rooms with a girl.
Soon Gramps was left all alone with girls trying to get him into a back
room.  It had been almost a year since he had had sex and although he was
horny as hell, he couldn\'t bring himself to take a girl afraid he would
not be able to get hard and be laughed in front of the other guys.
Gramps left the bar, walked back to where the car was parked and ask the
Mexican watching the car if there was a hotel close by.  He directed
Gramps to a nearby hotel.  Gramps got a room, went to bed and jacked off,
cum all over the bed so it looked like he had had good sex. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nThe next morning, he ate an early breakfast and hurried back to the
bar where he left the other guys.  A couple of the guys were there
waiting and ask Gramps where in the hell did he shack up at.  Gramps told
them he got a hotel room.  The ask if he got laid and had good sex,
Gramps said "oh yeah I had great sex". \r\n
\r\n
\r\nWe had welcomed in the new year (1956) and I was hoping it would be a
lot better than the last.  Gramps had finally come to grips with losing
his lover, but knew he would always be in his heart.  He was able to
remember now with out crying every time. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps met a guy named Jim that had transferred in from the same
state not too far from Gramp\'s home.  They became good friends.  Jim was
sort of religious, but a really nice guy.  He started dating a girl in
town that went to the Nazarene Church. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nOne Sunday Jim ask Gramps if he would drive him to church and then to
his girlfriend\'s house for Sunday dinner.  Gramps thought what the hell
he hadn\'t had a home cooked meal since joining the service, so he
went.",1] ); //-->

Since they had been drinking on the trip down, they were pretty well
loaded.  We walked across the border and were surrounded by Mexican kids
all yelling "fuckie my sister giveie me dollar".

They all went into a bar, Gramps really felt out of place but pretended
to be having fun anyway.  One by one the guys disappeared into back rooms
with a girl.  Soon Gramps was left all alone with girls trying to get him
into a back room.  It had been almost a year since he had had sex and
although he was horny as hell, he couldn't bring himself to take a girl,
afraid he would not be able to get hard and be laughed at in front of the
other guys.  Gramps left the bar, walked back to where the car was parked
and ask the Mexican guy watching the car if there was a hotel close by.
He directed Gramps to a nearby hotel.  Gramps got a room, went to bed and
jacked off, cum all over the bed so it looked like he had had good sex.

The next morning, he ate an early breakfast and hurried back to the bar
where he left the other guys.  A couple of the guys were there waiting
and ask Gramps where in the hell did he shack up at.  Gramps told them he
got a hotel room.  They ask if he got laid and had good sex, Gramps said
"oh yeah I had great sex".

They had welcomed in the new year (1956) and Gramps was hoping it would
be a lot better than the last.  Gramps had finally come to grips with
losing his lover, but knew he would always be in his heart.  He was able
to remember now with out crying every time.

Gramps met a guy named Jim that had transferred in from the same state
not too far from Gramp's home.  They became good friends.  Jim was sort
of religious, but a really nice guy.  He started dating a girl (Mary) in
town that went to the Nazarene Church.

One Sunday Jim ask Gramps if he would drive him to church and then
to Mary's house for Sunday dinner.  Gramps thought what the hell he
hadn't had a home cooked meal since joining the service, so he went.
\r\n\r\n
\r\nJim\'s girlfriend\'s family were the religious type except for her
brother (Paul).  He was fifteen, wild and sexy.  Gramp\'s dick got hard
as soon as he saw him, he was one of those guys that sex just seems to
flow off of.  But he liked girls.  I got the vibes though that he was so
horny he would take sex any way he could get it. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nFor the next month or so Gramps went with Jim to his girlfriend\'s
house.  Gramps and Paul would run around together while Jim was with
Paul\'s sister.  Gramps and Paul got to be really good friends.  Gramps
was really attracted to Paul, but afraid to make any advance on him. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nEaster Sunday was coming up and Paul asked if I would like to go to
the Easter Pageant in Oklahoma.  It was held at sunrise on a hill in the
country.  We would have to leave on Saturday spend the night in the car
to be there for sunrise services.  Paul begged Gramps to go, Gramps
acting reluctant finally said he would go. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nWhen they arrived, it was dark.  They had brought food to eat since
they would be there until the next day.  After eating they played cards
and talked.  Paul kept looking around, Gramps asked what he was looking
for, Paul said pussy.  So Gramps pretended to do the same.  Gramps had a
tent in his pants and since the light was on in the car, Paul saw it.
Paul said you got a hard on, Gramps looked over at Paul\'s crotch and
said I see you are putting up a tent too.  Paul rubbed his pants over his
hard on and said I am really horny.  Gramp\'s heart was beating so fast
he thought it would jump out of hi chest. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps reached up to turn the light out, as he did his hard dick
rubbed against Paul.  He didn\'t seem to mind, so Gramps just sit down
next to him.  Paul was leaning his head back in the seat, Gramps just let
his hand fall on Paul\'s hard on gently.  Since he didn\'t object Gramps
started rubbing it through his pants.  When Paul let out a little moan,
that\'s all Gramps needed.  He took Paul\'s hand and laid it on his hard
on, Paul gently squeezed it and Gramps almost came in his pants.  After
rubbing each other through the pants for awhile, Gramps slid his pants
down to his knees, then Paul did the same.  The played with each others
balls, jacked each other off until they came.  Instead of pulling their
pants back up they just sit there, neither one going soft. \r\n",1] );
//-->

Mary's family were the religious type except for her brother (Paul).  He
was fifteen, wild and sexy.  Gramp's dick got hard as soon as he saw him,
he was one of those guys that sex just seems to flow out of.  But he
liked girls.  Gramps got  vibes though that Paul was horny would take sex
any way he could get it.

For the next month or so Gramps went with Jim to his Mary and
Paul's house.  Gramps and Paul would run around together while Jim was
with Mary.  Gramps and Paul became really good friends.  Gramps was
really attracted to Paul, but afraid to make any advance on him.

Easter Sunday was coming up and Paul asked if Gramps would like to go to
the Easter Pageant in Oklahoma.  It was held at sunrise on a hill in the
country.  They would have to leave on Saturday spend the night in the car
to be there for sunrise services.  Paul begged Gramps to go, Gramps
acting reluctant finally said he would go.

When they arrived, it was dark.  They had brought food to eat since they
would be there until the next day.  After eating they played cards and
talked.  Paul kept looking around, Gramps asked what he was looking for,
Paul said pussy.  So Gramps pretended to do the same.  Gramps had a tent
in his pants and since the light was on in the car, Paul saw it.  Paul
said you got a hard on, Gramps looked over at Paul's crotch and said I
see you are putting up a tent too.  Paul rubbed his pants over his hard
on and said he was really horny.  Gramp's heart was beating so fast he
thought it would jump out of his chest.

Gramps reached up to turn the light out, as he did his hard dick rubbed
against Paul.  Paul didn't seem to mind, so Gramps just sit down next to
him.  Paul was leaning his head back in the seat, Gramps just let his
hand fall on Paul's hard on gently.  Since Paul didn't object Gramps
started rubbing it through his pants.  When Paul let out a little moan,
that's all Gramps needed.  He took Paul's hand and laid it on his own
hard on, Paul gently squeezed it and Gramps almost came in his pants.
After rubbing each other through the pants for awhile, Gramps slid his
pants down to his knees, then Paul did the same.  They played with each
others balls, jacked each other off until they came.  Instead of pulling
their pants back up they just sit there, neither one going soft. \r\nThey
played with each other all night, getting off four or five times before
daylight.  Gramps was in love again, but knew the limits.
\r\n
\r\nAfter that, the played with each other every chance they got.  Paul
would have Gramps spend nights with him.  Gramps loved that because when
Paul slept he dreamed he was fucking girls and would get on top of
Gramps, rub and hunch until they came. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nThat summer they would go swimming nude at a lake.  The lake had dock
that extended out into the water.  The deck had a knot hole in one of the
boards about middle ways out.  Paul would lay on his stomach with his
dick sticking through the knothole.  Gramps would get under the dock and
suck on him until he came.  Then Gramps would get on top of Paul, rub his
dick in Paul\'s but crack until he came. \r\n
\r\n
\r\nThey were together almost all the time during that summer.  Gramps
showed me the pictures of good times they had together.  Gramps was
finally happy again, he had every thing he wanted except returned love.
Gramps never told Paul he was in love with him, he thought that would end
the relationship.  So he continued his secret love for Paul, pleasing him
every chance they got and Paul returned the favor.\r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramp\'s family wanted him to come home for Christmas (1956).
\r\nAll his brothers and sisters were going to be there for the first
time ever for Chrismas. But Gramps was in love and didn\'t want to leave
Paul who was now sixteen.  Gramps talked Paul\'s parents into letting
Paul go home with him.  His parents thought Gramps was really special for
all the things he had done for Paul.  \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps trip home with Paul was a happy time, they were best of
friends shared sex with each other and really enjoyed being together.
Even with the element of love missing Gramps was really happy.  When
Gramps got home, his family couldn\'t figure out why he brought a boy
from Texas with him.  Paul looked to be eighteen at least so Gramps told
them he was a buddy with no where to go for Christmas.  Then they made
him feel welcome. They couldn\'t sleep together while there, so ever time
they got a chance to leave they would go park some where and have
sex.\r\n",1] ); //-->
They played with each other through the night, getting off four or five
times before daylight.  Gramps was in love again, but knew he could never
reveal that to Paul..

After that night, they played with each other every chance they got.
Paul had Gramps spend nights with him.  Gramps loved that because when
Paul slept he dreamed he was fucking girls and would get on top of
Gramps, rub and hunch until they both came.  Gramps was sure that Paul
was awake when they came, but never said anything.

That summer they went swimming many times nude at a lake.  The lake had a
dock that extended out into the water.  The deck had a knot hole in one
of the boards about middle ways out.  Paul would lay on his stomach with
his dick sticking through the knothole.  Gramps would get under the dock
and suck on him until he came.  Then Gramps would get on top of Paul, rub
his dick in Paul's butt crack until he came.

They were together almost all the time during that summer.  Gramps showed
me the pictures of good times they had together.  Gramps was finally
happy again, he had every thing he wanted except returned love.  Gramps
never told Paul he was in love with him, he thought that would end the
relationship.  So he continued his secret love for Paul, pleasing him
every chance they got and Paul returned the favor.

Gramp's family wanted him to come home for Christmas (1956).
All his brothers and sisters were going to be there for the first time
ever for Christmas. But Gramps was in love and didn't want to leave Paul
who was now sixteen.  Gramps talked Paul's parents into letting Paul go
home with him for Christmas.  Paul's parents thought Gramps was really
special for all the things he had done for Paul.

Gramp's trip home with Paul was a very happy time, they were best of
friends shared sex with each other and really enjoyed being together.
Even with the element of love missing Gramps was really happy.  When
Gramps got home, his family couldn't figure out why he brought a boy from
Texas with him.  Paul looked to be eighteen at least so Gramps told them
he was a buddy with no where to go for Christmas.  Then they made him
feel welcome. They couldn't sleep together while there, so ever time they
got a chance to leave they would go park some where and have sex. \r\n
\r\nWhen Gramps and Paul got back to Texas, Paul wanted Gramps to take
him to New Year\'s party some of his classmates were having.  Gramps
still didn\'t drink or smoke and he felt out of place with high school
kids, but he went anyway.  It was after midnight and Gramps wanted to
leave, he went looking for Paul.  The more he looked without finding him
the faster his heart beat until it was in his throat. After looking
everywhere, he went to the bath room, there was Paul fucking the girl
that hosted the party. As Gramps opened the door Paul was just pulling
out of her with cum shooting all over her, the wall and the floor.  \r\n
\r\n
\r\nAlthough Gramps knew this would happen sometime, he was devastated
and heart broken.  He could not let it show though for fear of being
called a "queer".  Gramps hiding his hurt and tears slipped out of the
party and went back to the base.  \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps couldn\'t understand why he had to be "queer", why couldn\'t
he like girls instead of boys.
\r\n
\r\nGramps was distraught and upset, he had to get away.  In the middle
of the night he threw some clothes in his car and headed home.  He drove
fast and hard (this was before interstate highways) only stopping for
gas. When he got home as he was driving down the lane to the house, his
car quit running and wouldn\'t start.  He walked on to the house, his mom
asked him what he was doing home.  He couldn\'t tell her why and that he
was AWOL too.  He told her he has some time off and decided to come
home.  Gramps really didn\'t care what happen to him, he had been in love
twice and lost.  What the hell does it matter what happens to me he
thought.  His car was broke down in the lane, he couldn\'t get back
before they discovered him missing now anyway.  One of Gramp\'s favorite
brothers happen to be visiting that week end because our grandmother had
died  Gramps  wasn\'t even aware that she had died because she had been
in a mental institution since before he was born.\r\n",1] ); //-->

When Gramps and Paul got back to Texas, Paul wanted Gramps to take him to
a New Year's party some of his classmates were having.  Gramps still
didn't drink or smoke and he felt out of place with high school kids, but
he went anyway.  It was after midnight and Gramps wanted to leave, he
went looking for Paul.  The more he looked without finding him the faster
his heart beat until it was in his throat. After looking everywhere, he
went to the bath room, there was Paul fucking the girl that hosted the
party. As Gramps opened the door Paul was just pulling out of her with
cum shooting all over her, the wall and the floor.

Although Gramps knew this would happen sometime, he was devastated and
heart broken.  He could not let it show though for fear of being called a
"queer".  Gramps hiding his hurt and tears, slipped out of the party and
went back to the base.

Gramps couldn't understand why he had to be "queer", why couldn't he like
girls instead of boys.

Gramps was distraught and upset, he had to get away.  In the middle of
the night he threw some clothes in his car and headed home.  He drove
fast and hard (this was before interstate highways) only stopping for
gas. When he got home as he was driving down the lane to the house, his
car quit running and wouldn't start.  He walked on to the house, his mom
asked him what he was doing home.  He couldn't tell her why and that he
was AWOL too.  He told her he had some time off and decided to come
home.  Gramps really didn't care what happen to him, he had been in love
twice and lost.  What the hell does it matter what happens to me, he
thought.  His car was broke down in the lane, he couldn't get back before
they discovered him missing now anyway.

One of Gramp's favorite brothers happen to be visiting that week end
because their grandmother had died.  Gramps  wasn't even aware that she
had died because she had been in a mental institution since before he was
born. \r\n
\r\nGramps suddenly got an idea to keep him out of trouble for being
AWOL.  Gramps confided in his brother about taking off without
permission.  Gramps ask him if he would call his commanding officer and
explain to him that his grandmother had died.  Gramps was so upset he
just came home, because he didn\'t know he could get an emergency leave.
The commanding officer said he would initiate the paper work for his
emergency leave. Gramps said thank god he fell for that story.  Gramps
parents help him get another car by co-signing a loan at the bank.  This
time Gramps got the sharpest car around at that time.  It was a 1955
Mercury Monclair red trimmed in white with sun roof, duel spot lights,
duel exhaust pipes and lots of chrome.  He showed me the pictures, it was
a cool car.  \r\n
\r\n
\r\nGramps headed back to Texas with his head held high and proud of his
new car.  The closer he got to Texas the more his heart began to ache
over Paul.
\r\n
\r\nA few days later Paul called Gramps and asked him if he would take
him and a girl (Mary) on a date.  Gramps knew Paul thought nothing was
wrong between them, because he was not aware of Gramps being in love with
him.  Gramps agreed to take them to a drive in movie.  As they made out
in the back seat, Gramps pretended to watch the movie as tears ran down
his face.\r\n
\r\n
\r\nPaul was at Mary\'s house almost every day after school and Gramps
would go over and hang out with them.
\r\n
\r\nIf you are interested in Chapter 4 Gramps decides to try girls.
\r\n
\r\n\r\n",0] ); //-->

Gramps suddenly got an idea to keep him out of trouble for being AWOL.
Gramps confided in his brother about taking off without permission.
Gramps ask his brother if he would call his commanding officer and
explain to him that his grandmother had died.  Gramps told his brother to
tell his commanding officer Gramps was so upset he just came home,
because he didn't know he could get an emergency leave.  The commanding
officer said he would initiate the paper work for his emergency leave.
Gramps said thank god he fell for that story.

 Gramps parents help him get another car by co-signing a loan at the
bank.  This time Gramps got the sharpest car around at that time.  It was
a 1955 Mercury Monclair, red trimmed in white with sun roof, duel spot
lights, duel exhaust pipes and lots of chrome.  He showed me the
pictures, it was a cool car.

Gramps headed back to Texas with his head held high and proud of his new
car.  The closer he got to Texas the more his heart began to ache over
Paul.

A few days later Paul called Gramps and asked him if he would take him
and a girl (Mary Beth) on a date.  Gramps knew Paul thought nothing was
wrong between them, because he was not aware of Gramps being in love with
him.  Gramps agreed to take them to a drive in movie.  As they made out
in the back seat, Gramps pretended to watch the movie in the front seat
by himself as tears ran down his face.

Paul was at Mary's house almost every day after school and Gramps would
go over and hang out with them.   Gramps just wanted to be near Paul any
way he could.

If you are interested in Chapter 4 Gramps decides to try girls