Date: Sun, 11 Dec 2005 06:47:49 -0800 (PST)
From: sim sez <sim_sez@yahoo.com>
Subject: Gramps 07

Saturday

Josh's late night phone call was really late last night. It was almost
two in the morning, of course that is about midnight where Josh lives.
He woke me up, I had gone to sleep waiting on him to call.  He said he
was exhausted from trying to catch up on his lessons.

Josh told me he decided he didn't want to edit my journal/story because
he felt that would take away from being my true feelings.  I told him I
thought he could help me with my English and grammar.  He said if he
changed the grammar, then it wouldn't be my true journal.  I said OK, you
are the smart one.

He ask if we could wait until morning for our phone sex.  I felt sorry
for him, he pushes himself so hard.  I told him that was OK because it
was Saturday.  Josh kept saying how sorry he was because it was my
birthday and he wanted to please me.  I told him I am pleased just by
talking to him and hearing him say "I love you".  Here I set at the
computer with my morning hard waiting for my Josh to call.

Josh called before ten as he had promised, he was ready with a raging
hard on.  I was hard and ready too, it didn't take but a few minutes and
we were spewing cum.  We talked a few minutes, Josh said his parents had
come home and he had to get off the phone, but be on the net later.

I waited until almost one and he had not got on yet.  I couldn't wait any
longer, so I called him.  He said he couldn't talk but would sign on the
net.  After we chatted for awhile, we played euchre as partners for the
first time.  We had a lot of fun, but the couple we were playing against
accused us of cheating, that's crazy.  Josh said he had to go take a
shower and he be back on later.

Josh called me like five minutes after getting off line, he said are you
ready?  I told him I am always ready when talking to him. We were so hot
we both cum at the same time, him in his pants and me all over my
stomach.  It will be so awesome when we can actually get together.  Josh
said he would be back on later.

I ask Gramps today if he thought Josh and my love for each other would
last.  He told me only time would tell.  He said he had been reading and
following a story called "Finding Tim" by Charlie.  He didn't know if the
story was true or not but thought it might be based on a true life
experience.  He suggested I read it.  He said it was a love story between
two dedicated people.  One a man and the other a boy.  Love is a weird
emotion, it can cause people to do many strange things.  It has caused
the downfall of countries.  Cost people millions of dollars.  Caused
people to commit murder.  Made people give up every thing they own.
There is no limit to what the emotion of love can do.  Gramps said he
thinks that one emotion causes most all the confusion in teens as well as
adults.

Gramps 07

Gramps and Paul with Paul's dad arrived back in north Texas the next day
around noon.  Paul was told by his dad that he had to go to west Texas
with him to stay with the family.

Gramps was left at Paul's grandparents house all alone and very
depressed.  Paul's grandparents felt sorry for Gramps and told him he
could stay in an old house that set out back of their house.  Gramps felt
grateful and thank them for letting him stay in that old house.

Gramps had no car, no money and very few clothes.  Gramps knew he had to
find work to survive.  He called the local radio stations with no luck.
Gramps heard about the new TV station in town, he thought there was no
way they would hire a twenty one year old.  Gramps called anyway and to
his surprise they ask him to come in for an interview.  He still thought
the station would not hire him fresh out of school and no experience what
so ever.

Gramps ask Paul's grand dad to take him the next day to the interview.
Paul's grand dad was proud to take Gramps, he had never seen a TV station
before.
The chief engineer interviewed Gramps for about an hour, show him through
the station and all the equipment he would be helping to maintain.
Gramps was really impressed, but still thought they wouldn't want someone
so young and inexperienced.

After the tour of the station the chief engineer took Gramps back to his
office and ask him to sit down.  The chief engineer ask Gramps when he
could start work.  Gramps looked at him with his mouth hanging open to
say something, but nothing came out.  Finally Gramps said he didn't
understand why he wanted someone young with no experience.  The chief
engineer told Gramps, its simple, we can train you the way we do things
and don't have to worry about you doing something some other station
taught you.  We have all new equipment that experienced radio engineers
know nothing about and would have to be trained at a much higher wage.
Gramps was so happy, he told him he was available when ever he needed
him.  He told Gramps to report for work the next day at three in the
afternoon.
(In those days most TV stations was only on the air in the late afternoon
and evenings)

Gramps took his first paycheck (two weeks) and bought a car. (1953 Ford
convertible)  With his second pay check, he rented a room from an elderly
couple. Gramps thought the only reason they rented it to someone so young
was because they were impressed with where he worked.

After a month he was really missing Paul and was desperate to see him.
Gramps had three days off, he decided to go to west Texas to see Paul.
He wanted to find out if there was any chance they could be together
again.

Paul was in the partying scene, the high school kids partied every
night.  Paul talked Gramps into going to party with him.  Gramps felt out
of place, the drinking and fucking was rampant.  He really felt bad when
he saw Paul was fucking one girl while another was sitting on his face.
Gramps felt then he would never be able to have sex with Paul again.
Gramps left the party and went to get a motel room.

The next day Gramps went to Paul's house, his sister said he didn't come
home last night.  Gramps waited and visited with Paul's family until Paul
finally came home.  Gramps ask Paul to take a ride in his convertible so
he could have him alone.  Gramps ask Paul if he would want to be with
Gramps anymore.  Paul said he was having too much fun in west Texas and
Gramps should move out there.  Gramps ask him if they could room together
if he moved out there.  Paul said he would some but he usually spent the
nights partying and fucking.

Once again Gramps was at a confused, depressing point in his life.  He
let his heart over rule his head again.  He told Paul he had to go back
to north Texas and give notice to the TV station.  Gramps hated to give
up the job he loved, but he loved Paul more.

Gramps moved to west Texas, rented an apartment and got a job from Paul's
dad.  Paul did move in with Gramps but he brought two of his friends with
him.  Gramps willing to do anything to keep Paul with him, let them move
in.  After a week Gramps knew this wasn't going to work.  Gramps didn't
remember what started it, but one of the guys was an armature boxer and
started a fight with Gramps.  He beat Gramps up.  Gramps kicked him out
of the apartment.  The other guy left with him.  Paul was upset that I
had kicked his friends out.  He decided to move back with his family.

Gramps wondered how in the hell his life had to be so fucked up.  He
gives up everything to follow his heart and still ends up unhappy and
depressed as hell.  What kind of fucking way is this to live anyway.  No
one deserves to be unhappy all the fucking time, something has to change.

Gramps went by Paul's house, told them all bye he was going back home.
Paul told Gramps to keep in touch, they had been best friends for over
three years.  Gramps with tears running down his face, hugged Paul for
the last time.  Gramps headed on a long drive again, all alone with tears
in his eyes, back to north Texas.

Gramps decided he couldn't go back home as a loser, so decided to stay in
north Texas.  He got a job with a two way radio company.  The company
sent him all over north Texas installing two way radios on oil rigs and
vehicles.  He rented a little cottage from an elderly couple that owned a
motel.

Gramps was lonely and unhappy.  One night he went to a teen club, hoping
he might meet someone he could be friends with.  He watched as the
couples were dancing and having a good time.  He was standing just
looking through the door, when a man approached him and ask why he wasn't
dancing.  Gramps told him he just couldn't get into it.  The guy ask
Gramps if he would like to go get a pizza.  Gramps ask him what a pizza
was.  The guy said this new restaurant down the street makes a big pie
and they call it pizza pie.  Gramps had never heard of this kind of pie
and said yeah I'd like to check that out.

That was the first time Gramps had ever heard or eat a pizza pie.  It was
different from anything he had ever eaten before, but he liked it.

After they finished the pizza, the guy asked Gramps where he lived and
Gramps told him.  The told Gramps he had just arrived in town and didn't
have a place to stay and wondered if Gramps would let him sleep on the
floor for the night.  Gramps still young and trusting said that would be
OK.  The guy parked his car in a lot next door to the motel.  He said he
didn't want to take some body's space in the motel lot.  Gramps thought
that was considerate of the guy.

When the got in the cottage, it was after midnight.  Gramps told the guy
it was a big double bed, he didn't need to sleep on the floor he could
share the bed.  Gramps went to sleep and woke up a while later, for the
second time in his life he was being sucked off by an older man.  He
looked to be early thirties.  After he sucked Gramps off, he knew Gramps
was awake now, he wanted Gramps to fuck him in the butt.  Gramps had
never done that before, he told Gramps he would guide it in, just push
your dick in my ass hole.  Gramps wasn't too thrilled about doing that,
but after a while it felt pretty good.  Gramps told him he was going to
cum and the guy said go ahead.  As Gramps cum in his ass the guy was
jacking himself off and cum on my bed.  when we got the mess cleaned up
we went to sleep.

When Gramps woke up the next morning, the guy was gone and had left ten
dollars on the dresser.  Gramps thought that must be what is called a one
night stand.  After he thought about it, that guy could have killed him
in his sleep, robbed him, beat him up, but all he done was suck his dick
and get fucked.  Weird??

Christmas 1958 was coming and Gramps was getting homesick.  He was tired
of being alone and depressed.  He had just turned twenty two with no
life.  He had to get a life some way or another.  The life of a "queer"
sucks. (pardon the pun)

Gramps was going back home and start a life that could be accepted with
out anyone knowing he liked boys.  So Gramps went home for Christmas.

If anyone is interested in the next chapter Gramps tries the straight
life.

Thanks for the emails, I like to know someone identifies with my confused
life.
JJ

emails

Great Story Sim!

Keep it coming.
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I enjoyed your story Gramps. Thanks for sharing.

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Great work!  It just seems to good and real to be really real!
Anyway, I'm sure you get bugged by a lot of people and I certainly am not
looking to change your writing in any way except to offer some time
looking over things like verb tense and quotes and simple things that you
are to busy writing to pay attention to.  And I think that's the way it
should be.  If you will let me I would like to go over your work before
it goes into print or before it goes where you want it to go next (and it
should go on).  Or the next chapter.
Please consider.  If you would like I will edit a previous chapter to
show how it would flow.  You wouldn't notice much change, just a bit
easier to stay in present or past tense.  I have helped a couple of
authors on Nifty and they seemed to like my work.
Let me know how I can help.
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I just wanted to let you know that this story was absolutely beautiful
dude. Well done indeed. The emotion really catches you midway and you
captured a very realistic part of an emotional relationship (on line or
otherwise). Is this a true story? Because it feels like one.

Again, I loved it dude! One of your best.

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