Date: Wed, 9 Jan 2008 16:37:16 +1100
From: kim brush <nirvana@dodo.com>
Subject: He Was Mine From The Start : chatper 3

I stood there lost for words watching this beautiful person on the ground
bleeding, I certain it was Billy laying there motionless , until I felt a
hand on my shoulder , I was about to turn around , ready for the worst ,
hoping I wasn't the next victim of there brutal attack , hoping Jessica
didn't go around telling everybody what she saw , them wanting to bash
the "gay boys" , all these things running through my head as I turned
around so I tensed up. When I saw the face staring back at me I felt so
relieved, it was Billy , he is alright , "I'm so scared tommie" he said ,
as long as I'm here Billy nothing is going to happen to you ok I replied.
Billy asked me who it was , as I turned to look I saw Jessica on her
knees crying with a her hands on her head , at that moment I felt my
stomach drop and all the worry I had just lost entering my body once
again as I realized that it was Wesley laying on the ground. I ran over
leaving Billy , knowing that Wesley needed me right now more than anybody
else at that party . I got on my knees and stared at his body , it was
bruised and bloody , who would want to do this to Wes, I picked him up
and tried to carry him way into a quite place as he was unconscious , I
struggled to pick him up but I guess I overcame it because my best friend
needed me. I managed to take him to a near by street , and laid him on
the grass , I took his shirt off so he could cool down , then I laid his
head in my chest and ran my fingers through his hair and tried to get the
dirt off his face, I was crying , I couldn't stand to see Wes like this ,
his pain was my pain.

Then I saw somebody in the distance , it was Jessica , god I'm so sick of
her , Wes just keeps her round for a bit of fun , but she thinks she is
more than that , she thinks she is closer to Wes that I am , god it makes
me angry. "hi jess , what do you want" , I think that you should leave
Wes with me now Tommy , you have done all you can , "nooo , I don't think
so Jessica , I think you should go" , "no Tommy , I'm staying , Wes is my
boyfriend now he asked me tonight , oh my god she cant be serious , Wes
would not want her , she is just a dumb superficial bitch , "LISTEN ,
FUCK OFF , I DON'T NEED YOUR BITCHY ATTITUDE RIGHT KNOW JESS' , as she
finally walked away I remembered that she saw me and Billy kissing "shit"
sometimes I just don't think , if she tells everyone I really don't give
a fuck right now , there is more important things to deal with right now
, I just hope Billy forgives me for leaving him alone , he will
understand , maybe I will invite him over my house tomorrow night. , yeah
I think I will. Me and Wes laid in the moonlight , Wes still hasn't woken
up and I am starting to freak out trying to check his pulse, I don't know
what to do , how to get him home , he needs new clothes everything he's
wearing is torn and bloody with dirt all over them , ok , I'm going to
run back and get his stuff , he will be alright for 2 minutes here by
himself . I gently placed his head gently off my chest and onto the soft
grass, I looked over his face and told him that I would be back and not
to worry then I leaned down and gave him a small kiss on the lips, not
that he could hear me or know what I done , I just wanted to kiss him to
let him know that I was there for him and I cared about him a lot , it
was nothing sexual.

I ran back to the party and went up stairs into what was obviously a guys
room , I grabbed a pair of pants and a t-shirt , I didn't care what style
I took , but this guy obviously had taste . I ran back downstairs and by
this time, most people had left , because a fight kills the fun for
everyone. I turned the corner of the street that Wes was on, and I saw
somebody sitting with him , I thought to myself that Jessica had come
back , I was getting ready to scream at her again and tell her what I
really though of her , till I got closer , and the person sitting with
Wes was Billy , I approached him and I saw him with a sad look on his
face and he said "I am so glad you're here Tommy , I don't want to walk
home alone , I' scared them guys are out there" I will walk you home
Billy , but right now I got to take care of my friend , I unbuckled Wes's
belt and slid off his jeans , it was kinda embarrassing because Wes
didn't wear boxers or briefs , he likes to free ball , not that I'
exactly complaining , while I was in the house I grabbed a bottle of
water , I slashed it over Wes to wake him up , plus to wash some dirt off
his body with my hand , Billy just sat and stared , "this is my fault"
what Billy, where did that come from", then he said "if you weren't
distracted from me they wouldn't of done that to Wes cause you would
have been with him", don't be stupid billy these guys are known for this
kinda stuff round here so they would of done it anyway then he said "ok I
spose , but still", then he said something that intrigued me "Tommy ,
when ever we were in class together I use to sit a stare at you hoping
that something like this would happen to me , and I know you stared at me
all the time" , "so is that why you kissed me Billy , cause you kinda new
I liked guys" , "no Tommy , I done it cause I could not resist , I had to
, I didn't even realize I kissed you till we were half way through it".
Billy is too good to be true. He moved over to me and told me I needed to
relax, and that tonight has been hard on everybody and I felt his hands
rubbing my shoulders , it felt so good , releasing all stress and anger
that was built up on my , then his hands sided past my shoulders and down
the front of my shirt and I felt his chest and stomach pressed up against
my back as we sat down , he was sitting with me leaning up against him
with his legs on each side of me , then I felt his warm breath flow
across my neck and then his kiss touching my skin , it was so slow and
peaceful , all my troubles have been lifted as I forgot about them and
the only thing on my mind was Billy.

I starred into his eyes and started thinking about wes and what was going
through his head while getting bashed , other than a fist . Billy could
see that I was starting to get choked up I think so he assured me wes was
going to be ok and checked his pulse for me because I didnt know how to
find it and said it was fine and not to stress out , he leaned down and
kisses me and put his hands under my shirt from the back and was just
rubbing me while he kissed me before I leaped off him as it was finally
Wes waking up , I didn't even think about what could happen if he woke up
while I was hooking up with a guy , "WES , your awake" then he replied
"Tommie man , what happened , I'm sore , where'd these clothes come from"
, "you were bashed dude and you were covered in blood , I had to change
you , I don't know why they bashed you but there was to many for me to do
anything , I'm so sorry, I carried you out here because it was to noisy
at the party and everybody was crowding round you" , Wes looked bad , his
nose had blood all over it and his eye was swollen and he said "I know
why they bashed me but I will tell you later" as he looked at billy , but
at least he is okay , then Wes said "thanks so much Tommy , I knew I
could trust you to take care of me , I will never have a friend any
better than you" then he leaned over and gave me a hug. All of us agreed
to go home and get some sleep; I would go back to Wes's for a bit then
walk Billy home , I walked over to Wes and I didn't know if he saw or not
until he leaned over and said "so did you hook in with any babes tonight"
and he laughed ,he seems ok , but when we get back to his house I will
have to fix him up.



Billy and Wes didn't talk the whole way back to the house and I have no
idea why , I mean , I know that they have two completely different
personality's like , Wes is very boisterous and full of testosterone and
he always gets what he wants , but Billy was very shy from what I know
about him so far , but that's no reason for them not to get along with
each other , could it be jealousy , I will ask Wes back at his house , he
will give me a honest answer , when we were approaching the house Billy
told me his house was only about a block away from Wes's house so he
would walk by him self , but I said "no Billy , I want to come with , if
that's alright" , "yeah sure Tommy , I would prefer that a lot more"
awwwww , he is so cute , "hey Wes , I will be back in like 2 minutes ok
buddy" , then Wes turned around and said "yeah sure , ill be waiting
sexy" in a jokingly way , I just laughed and started to walk down the
street with Billy , on the way we just joked and Billy said "tommie I
don't wanna freak you out but I haven't felt like this before , its
been one night and already I feel comfortable with you , usually im so
shy and never open up but with you its different , but like I said I
don't wanna freak you out " wow , now I feel so good , I new he felt
real about this , and it wasn't just something he done cause he was
drunk. We got to his house and we stood out the front of it, it was
getting close to 5:00am in the morning, we were both very tired and warn
out, I leaned over to his ear and whispered "I feel the same way about
you, I've never felt this" Then I gave his a soft kiss on the lips , he
gave me a hug and while his mouth was near my ear he whispered to me "why
aren't you and Wes together" then he walked fast in side before I could
react .

as I walked back to Wes's house I was wondering when the next time I see
Billy will be and what I would say to respond to what he just said , I
think I will walk to his house tomorrow and see what he is doing , I
really want to see him again , god , I already miss him and I have been
away from him for about 2 minutes , I will go over his house tomorrow and
see if he wants to spend the night at my place , that's what we need ,
sometime alone where there's no risk of getting court , I got to Wes's
house and went upstairs , he doesn't care if I enter his house without
knocking , I walked upstairs to his room and he wasn't there so I walked
to the bathroom which wasn't far from his room anyway , he was in there
cleaning his face in a pair of tight red briefs , god he was hot , the
briefs were light material so I could just see through them , god I
wanted him so bad at that moment , he turned me and said "Tommie, your
back already , sorry about what I'm wearing but I just grabbed it , I was
to tired to care" he laughed , "oh that's ok man , like I'm looking"
which I was , then he asked me to wipe off the mud off his back when I
got back from getting changed in his room , I went in and took a pair of
boxers I leave there for when I stay and his mum washes them , I walked
back into the bathroom where Wes was and I was so worried that I was
going to go hard in front of him. So I walked in and he was as hot as
ever and standing in front of the mirror, I grabbed the wet cloth he was
using and asked where he wants me to wash, he said "just on my back, I
cant reach there, and be careful, its sore", so I grabbed the cloth and
began to rub all over his back, and my dick was just touching the middle
of his ass, I don't know how long I can stand here without getting hard ,
I watched the drops of water running down the middle of Wes's back
falling into his crack witch resulted in me getting hard , I got to get
out of here before he sees it "ummmm Wes , I'm really tired , your back
is clean , so I will be in your room ok" as I went I looked in the mirror
and I could of swore he was hard to, but that could just be his big dick
. I went into the room and got into his bed, I always sleep in his bed
because there isn't much space in his room, Wes doesn't mind. He came in
and climbed into bed after a abnormal amount of time in the bathroom
witch made me kinda suspicious but not enough to actually think anything
of it , we laid there for a couple of minutes then I asked him "Wes, how
come you didn't talk to Billy all night , don't you like him" , "well
Tommie , its not that I don't like him , its just that I think you were
with him a lot tonight , I mean , I wanted you to come with me tonight
and talk to girls , we you just wanted to stay with that new kid Billy"
awwwww , how cute is that , Wes is jealous" then I said "Wes , you got
nothing to be worry about" witch I was sure of "you will always be my
best friend Wes , you are practically like a brother to me man , you have
been with me through all the tough times , and you never let me down"
then Wes put his hand on my shoulder and just said "thanks man , that
means a lot" I'm glad I let Wes finally know how I feel about him cause
he really is as close as a brother to me and even more , as I drifted
asleep all I could think about was Billy , and I knew he was thinking
about me.................. fucking Wes ?



I woke up at about 1:30pm seeing as though I only got home and asleep
about 5:30am , im not use to waking up this late usually I wake at about
8 or 9 because I like to go running of a morning then in some cases hit
the beach for a swim , there's nothing more refreshing then going for a
swim in the beach in the morning to wake you up and revitalize you for
the day to come. So I got out of bed and noticed Wes was already awake
because his spot in the bed was empty , so I stayed in my boxer shorts
and headed downstairs knowing his mum would be at work. I didn't wanto
be standing in the same room as Wes's mum with only boxers on it would
be a bit awkward , for me anyway, I went downstairs and I looked all over
the house and Wes wasn't there. I rung his mobile but there was no
answer so I waited for about 15 minutes and rung again , and this time he
answered and he must of recognized his home number because he answered
saying "hey tommie" I asked him where he was and that I just woke up and
he wasn't there , he told me he was with jessica and then I realized
what jessica told me the night before about them being together now , he
told me to hang on while he went somewhere more quite , I told him what
jess told me and how I couldn't believe it and that he could do so much
better.

When he got to a much quieter place he told me that he completely forgot
about it till jessica rung him and made comments about it and then he
remembered what he asked her that night and how much he regretted it and
he was only drunk , I understood where he was coming from , I mean Wes is
a lady's man and if jess was all over him at the time when the subject
came up then Wes would have caved and said yes. He said that he needed a
excuse to come home and get away from her cause she was being really
possessive and weird so he made some story up to her saying that his mum
told him she needs to talk to him about something really important, she
is so annoying and obviously persuasive to get Wes out to the mall with
her one day after being "together" pffft , I went back up to Wesley's
room and started thinking about everything that happened the night before
, but I only thought about billy , not what happened last night but just
billy in general and how cool he was and the feelings towards him that
seemed way to soon but I couldn't help it , I sat there and thought why
the hell I didn't get his number last night .

Grrr only one more day till school again and 6 more days till the weekend
again , I don't mind school that much because I love being around my
friends and of cause now "billy" . I laid on Wes's bed for about half an
hour till I heard Wes walking up the stairs , "hey man , did you have a
fun day" I laughed as he walked through the door , fuck you tommie Wes
said in a jokingly way then he just collapsed on the bed and let out a
giant grunt , I asked him what happened and why he was so annoyed and he
said " so I got woken up by her at the front door at 11!! , I went down
and told her I just wanted to sleep today and she just invited her self
in and I came up here to get dressed and she was trailing me the whole
time and when we got into the room she was like , oh , tommie is in your
bed ummmm i.....i .....i , then she just stopped and gave me a really
weird look but i shrugged it off , then i just gave in and we went to the
mall , when we were there she was sooo annoying i had to go everywhere
SHE wanted and I don't do that . So after i talked to you i told her my
story and started to walk off and saw halley so i went over and said hi
and jess being jess looked and came over , then right infront of jess she
said , i had a great time last night Wes , didn't know you would be so
good , oh and big then winked at me , jess was like WHAT ...... then i
told her i fucked halley before we were together officially and i figured
that was ok and she went crazy and broke up with me then i just left
while her and halley were arguing , so i guess it all kinda worked out
just one less hookup for me haha".



Well thats umm ok i guess Wes , at least you got rid of that dumb bitch i
laughed , so Wes what do you wanto do on our last day of freedom for a
while then he said "well i don't wanto go to the mall , so lets go
surfing maybe but i wont be up late tonight im fucked" , hmm nah i don't
really feel like surfing now so how about we just stay in and watch a few
movies and Wes agreed , i got dressed and we both left to walk to the
video shop witch was at the plaza witch was a fair way from the mall ,
Wes really wanted to avoid jessica and i didn't mind walking a bit
further as long as i was with Wes , we only got a block or two and i
realized this was where i dropped billy off last night and i saw his
house , but it looked different in the daytime , it was not very big and
was really run down and i remembered that before billy moved in it was
for sale for about 2 years and nobody wanted it , i saw a woman out the
front trying to hammer a loose floorboard into the deck and she was
having trouble and looked like she was about to cry , she looked over at
me and yelled "hey boys how are you on this nice sunny day" and her frown
turned into a huge smile witch all seemed a bit forced i just yelled back
"im great thanks , how are you" i think she only heard the first part
because she didn't reply. Obviously that woman must have been billy's
mum , while i walked i started to feel really sad at seeing that house
that they lived in , they mustn't have much money , i wouldn't have
guessed that because last night billy was wearing nice clothes and just
didn't give off that vibe, or maybe im being really arrogant in think
that , i don't know ...... poor kid



we got to the video shop just as it was about to close but they kept in
open 5 minutes longer just for us , i told Wes to get whatever he wanted
because i was going to get something to eat , i went into the fish and
chip shop and ordered something and looked around and saw one of the guys
that bashed Wes sitting all by himself , his name was Jason reinheart i
just ordered my food and sat down directly opposite him and starred at
him the whole time , every time he looked up and saw my eyes on him he
snapped his head back down to the table , in any other situation i would
have went over there and started punching into him , he knows who i am
cause me and Wes are always together and he also is in my boxing club but
he is ranked 27th and i am ranked 4th so he knows he wouldn't stand a
chance. I wanted to go and give him a beating so bad but i know Wes would
hate it if i did it , Wes likes to do things himself and would be so
angry if i stepped in and took care of his problem , when my number got
called out i got my food and on the way out just starred Jason down and
said "you got no idea what's coming to you motherfucker" and he kept his
eyes on the table and said nothing , i didn't tell Wes i saw him when i
got back to the video shop , he was already standing out the front
holding maybe 4 or 5 video's so we went back to his house to start
watching them and eat the food , i got extra for him incase he hadn't
eaten.



We sat down on the lounge and had our food infront of us and got drinks
and put on the first movie , about 30 minutes into it i was noticing
little things in it , it was a romantic/comedy not something Wes would
have gotten , then there was the fact that ½ an hour into it that there
were no girls , then what made me certain that Wes had gotten the wrong
movie was the scene where two guys were laying on a bed and started
KISSING , i just yelled "WHAT THE FUCK" and started laughing hard and
said to Wes "umm i think maybe you got the wrong movie dude" and he said
"hahaha yeah i think just maybe" i was waiting for him to get up and
change it but he didn't move he just sat there watching it so i started
to get up to change it until i heard him say "you don't have to change
it tommie just cause its two guys doesn't mean its disgusting , i have
nothing against gay guys at all tom , i really couldn't care less , just
cause somebody comes out and says there gay doesn't mean there a
different person than the one you already knew , if you love somebody you
love them for who they are , not who they fuck" i sat there , confused ,
nervous , wondering what all that really meant , was he saying he was gay
, or that he wouldn't care if i was , and if he was telling me he
didn't care if i was that means there's something he knows , maybe
jessica told him , its impossible he just said that for nothing so i said
"what's that supposed to umm mean" i was so nervous at what he would say
next but he just said "i just wanted you to know that , thats all" i got
back up on the lounge and left the movie on not that i was really
following it , i just sat there wide eyed and blank.



chapter 3 , there it is , always like questions and feedback at
tommathy@hotmail.com , knowing what people think is my fuel to write
.......... chapter 4 shouldn't be long

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