Date: Sun, 15 Jun 2003 05:44:38 -0700 (PDT)
From: Ray Morales <fyiord@yahoo.com>
Subject: Heartache 08

This story continues where Heartache 07 left off in the story 'Heartache'
in /High School/. 

Thanks to all who emailed me. It means a lot to me.
 
Note: 

This story is fiction and is by no means depictive of the life of any
person, place or thing. It contains no penetrative sexual acts between
males YET and should only be read if it is legal to do so in your area.
Read at your own risk. All names are made up and any similarities are just
dumb luck.

Heartache 08
By Fjord

"Huh?" That was all I could manage. My parents' only son, who was supposed
to be quite brainy, could only produce a monosyllable that the Neanderthals
had perfected in usage thousands of years ago. The unexpected news that
Derek was coming to live with us turned me to a caveman.

"Eric, we know it's such a short notice but they really need our help," Mom
said as she maintained eye contact with me. She was looking for any signs
of discontent or anger.

"Why?" Another monosyllable emitted from my mouth.

"Its rather personal. But your dad and I think that you're mature enough to
understand," Mom said, "The truth is, they just found out that Derek
is... well, he's gay."

My eyes were wide open. "He's gay?" So Jake was right.

"Yes, Eric, are you okay with that?" Mom asked. Dad was at her side,
looking fidgety.

"Yeah, of course I am. He's still a friend no matter what. I wouldn't treat
him any different," I answered quickly with a reassuring smile. There was
great relief shown on both of my parents' faces.

My Dad smiled happily at Mom. "See, I told you he's a great son." Mom just
smiled at him in return.

"Are they kicking him out because he's gay?" I asked with some
apprehension.

"No, it's not like that at all. His parents are okay with him being gay but
his sister Debbie isn't. It seems she did not want him in their house," Mom
answered.

"Why?"

"Well, Eric, different people have different reactions to these sort of
things. Like your Mom and I, both of us have gay friends and relatives. For
us, Derek's situation was quite easy to take in. A no-brainer actually,"
Dad put in his thought.

"We have gay friends and relatives?" I asked with some surprise, "Who?"

"We won't tell you who they are yet, Eric. We do have to respect other
people's privacy, okay," Mom replied.

"Okay... When's Derek moving in, then?" I said, changing the subject.

"As soon as possible, meaning tonight," Mom replied. Dad nodded and added
that he checked the spare room earlier and found not much was needed to be
done expect for removal of some furniture with some dusting and vacuuming.

"How long would he be staying?" I inquired.

"Well, he'll be with us until everything blows over and Debbie gets over
the shock or at least until she moves out for college. That's what his
parents said," Mom replied with a tinge of sadness in her voice.

"Derek knows that I know?"

"Yes, he asked us to tell you first. In fact, he told us that you said to
him once that you have no problem with people with alternative sexual
orientation. We're so proud of you, son," my Dad gushed with pride. Mom's
eyes were brimming with tears as she smiled her approval.

I looked down with some embarrassment and said, "I learnt it from you two,
anyways. I'm glad the he trust us enough to stay here."

"Well, that's settled then. Let's get his room ready," Dad said to me and
then turned to Mom, "Honey, you can call the Joneses to tell them the good
news."

"Okay, dear," Mom answered. "By the way, Eric, don't tell anyone else about
him being gay unless Derek agrees to, okay?" I knew Mom meant that comment
for Jake.

"Mom, I think Jake would be okay with it. In fact, I'm 100% sure. But I'll
ask Derek first," I replied to reassure her.

"Good. Thanks Eric," Mom said to me. She got up and came over to hug
me. Dad just patted me on the back. They were completely oblivious to the
Jake problem that was gnawing in my brain. I had no idea how he would react
to this news. One of my secret admirers was moving into my house. I began
to worry a little but shoved that thought deep down and tried to address
the present moment. Jake would have to accept Derek's presence in my house,
no matter what. However, I would have to tell Jake tonight.

Dad and I cleared the spare room. There was not much to do, as the room was
always kept ready for guests. We managed to get the room ready for
occupancy within two hours.

By that time Derek had arrived with his parents. He brought with him three
rather light medium-sized sports bag filled with his clothes and three
boxes that I guessed contained his PC and schoolbooks. Derek's parents
thanked me profusely. His father shook my hand firmly and his mother hugged
me in gratefulness. Derek mumbled his thanks but looked embarrassed and
wouldn't maintain any eye contact with me. We all carried his stuff
upstairs to the spare room that was next to mine. I helped him unpack while
our parents went downstairs. I guessed they wanted Derek and me to get
acquainted further.

"So, did they tell you I have an alternative sexual orientation?" Derek
asked while unpacking one of his bags. I was opening another one opposite
him across the bed.

I chuckled at his use of the same phrase I liked to use. "Yeah. They
did. It was a shock but don't worry, I'm cool with you playing for the
other team."

"Thanks a lot, Eric, for understanding," Derek said to me as I handed him
his clothes to be placed in the medium sized side dresser drawers. His room
was slightly smaller than mine and the furniture was also smaller.

"No prob, man. I'm glad you trust me. It's cool. I want to tell you this up
front; I still like you the same way. You're like my younger brother," I
told him. He said, "Thanks," and just looked at me straight in the eyes. I
could not read his thought but I detected some sadness in his beautiful
blue eyes. He looked like a little lost blond haired boy. He was very good
looking too, up close. My dick twitched at this thought. Jake was going to
kill me if he knew I was attracted to this younger boy.

"If you think I'm going to seduce you, don't, okay," Derek said suddenly. I
realized I was staring at him for some time. "I like you, but not that
way. Anyway, you're straight, right?" he said as he looked away and
continued unpacking. In my mind I replied, "Yeah, right... and pigs fly."

However, I just chuckled and said, "You can seduce me anytime, loverboy."
Derek laughed and threw a pillow at me. He missed miserably. I laughed with
him as we continued unpacking. He looked much better and brighter than
before.

"Hey, I gotta to give Jake a call. We're riding to school with him tomorrow
morning."

"We are?" Derek said in surprise but suddenly asked apprehensively, "Is he
cool with me riding with him?"

"Definitely! Jake is the coolest, man. I'll call him now," I said and left
Derek to his own devices.

******

"Hello, Anderson's residence? Can I help you?"

"Hi, Mrs. A. How was the trip?" I asked brightly.

"Oh, hi, Eric. The trip was so wonderful. We have some great photos to show
you. Why don't you come over to see them now?" she replied happily.

"Maybe later, Mrs. A. We've some visitors. Is Jake around?"

"Okay, I'll take a rain check. Later would be fine. Yeah, he's in the
kitchen with his Dad," she answered and then called Jake over.

"Hey, Eric. How's it hanging?" Jake's voiced replaced his mother's on the
phone.

"Still a bit sore, pretty boy," I replied as I looked around to see if
anyone's listening.

"Same here," he replied. We both giggled quietly.  "Wanna go to the park
tonight?" he asked.

"You're one horny boy," I said. "Can't. There are some really crazy things
happening over here."

Jake asked what happened and I told him about Derek moving in our house. As
I had expected, Jake was quite surprised and asked why Derek was moving in
with us. All I could tell him was that Derek had some family problems and
we decided to help. Jake persisted in probing further but I would not give
in.

"I know you're holding something back. But I think I understand. It's not
for me to know. You don't have to tell me everything, dude. I understand,"
Jake sounded disappointed as he said this.

"Thanks for understanding, Jake," I said to him with a heavy heart. I
wanted to tell him the truth but deep down I know I should not.

"I gotta go, dude. See you tomorrow morning. Don't be late or I'll come up
to wake you up and then we'll really be late," Jake said and we both
giggled again.

"Jake, one more thing. Do you mind if I bring Derek with me?"

There was a pause before he replied, "Cool, the more the merrier." He did
not sound that merry to me.

"I love you, man," I said softly on the phone after I confirmed that the
coast was clear.

"I love you too, dude. I gotta go. My rents are calling for me," Jake
whispered in reply and hung up. I just stood there for a minute or so,
missing his voice.

****

"You're almost finished," I said as Derek was finishing his unpacking when
I entered his room. Only the PC had not been set up.

"Yeah. There wasn't much anyway. All the other stuff are still in my room,"
Derek replied. Then, he just sat down quietly on the bed looking at his
hands. He began to sob quietly. I came over and sat next to him on the
bed. Our bodies touched.

"I'm sorry, man."

"Its okay," Derek said between sobs, "I just miss her, that's all." I
guessed he meant his sister Debbie.

I wrapped my right arm around his shoulders and held him close beside
me. He put his head on my shoulder and continued crying softly. The smell
of his hair was intoxicating and I had to stop myself from kissing the top
of his head. My dick was hardening by the minute. After some time, he
stopped crying and wiped his tears dry. He looked at me and said his
thanks. I just smiled at him and told him to cheer up.

"Eric, Derek, are you two finished up there? Come down please. It's dinner
time," My Mom's voice drifted upstairs.

Derek made sure his crying did not leave any teary evidence before we went
downstairs. They had ordered Chinese food for dinner. We had a relatively
quiet dinner, exchanging pleasantries, cautiously skirting around the
"Derek is gay" subject. Pretty soon Derek's parents had to leave.

My parents dragged me into the kitchen as Derek and his parents said
goodbye to each other. I could hear Derek's mother sobbing as the front
door closed. I wanted to go see them off but Mom stopped me with her stern
eyes.

Derek appeared in the kitchen doorway looking sad. "I'll go up to sleep
now. I'm a bit tired."

"See you in the morning, Derek. Remember, we're riding with Jake," I said
to him.

"Thanks, Eric. You're the best," Derek replied. "Goodnight and thanks again
Mr. & Mrs. Collins."

We all said goodnight to him as he turned and walked away.

****

"So, how are you two getting along?" Dad asked as we sat down at the
kitchen table.

"We're okay. He's still a bit sad about his sister though, but I think he's
going to be fine," I replied. "I'm a bit tired too, Dad, Mom. Goodnight." I
got up and went upstairs to sleep. I could hear Derek using the bathroom. I
came into my room, closed the bedroom door and lay down on the bed, looking
at the empty ceiling, waiting for him to finish.

This weekend was a blur to me. To say things were moving too fast would be
an understatement. I had loved Jake since we first met and just found out
on Friday night that Jake loved me too. I never thought for once that I had
any chance with him. On Friday night, we had kissed and had sex with each
other for the first time and then some. My best friend was now my boyfriend
or more correctly my secret boyfriend. In my mind, I could see Jake's face,
smiling at me with his blue eyes drawing me into his soul. I loved him so
much. I grabbed a pillow and hugged it tight, thinking of Jake. I wanted
him to be next to me, holding me tight. I smiled with the memories of
Friday night and last night. Suddenly tears rolled down my cheeks as I felt
his physical absence. I wondered if he felt the same way tonight. Did he
miss me? Was he hurting like me? I missed him so much. With so many things
to do this evening, I had no time to think about him and me. I buried my
face into the pillow as I curled my body into a fetal position.

The sound of Derek's bedroom door closing woke me from my reverie. The
other big thing that happened to me this weekend was Derek. This kid had
moved in with my family. He was gay and his sister hated him for being gay
and wanted him out of their family home. The poor kid was literally kicked
out by his own sister. What was my family going to do? Refused him a place
to stay? Was it just plain bad timing or was it really good timing that
Jake revealed his true feelings for me on Friday night just before Derek
moved in? Otherwise, with Derek moving in, it would have been impossible
for Jake and me to have time to actually discover our feelings for each
other. If Jake had not staked his claim on me earlier, who could say what
would have transpired between Derek and me. I had to admit to myself that I
was attracted to Derek. However, Jake was my soul mate, my sun and my
life. I knew I had to tell Jake sooner or later that Derek was
gay. Furthermore, Jake had suspected it earlier from his own
observations. It would be unfair to keep the information from him. But,
first, I had to get Derek to agree to tell Jake. How? That was another
mission for me.

I got up and proceeded to the bathroom to prepare for my much needed
sleep. I showered quickly. I had a semi hardon but decided not to make it
any sorer than it already was. Jake really worked it to death this
morning. My dick rose at the memory and I quickly dried myself with a
towel.

I went into my bedroom, closed the door and removed the towel that was
wrapped around my waist. Naked, I went to my window and peeked through the
curtains. Jake's room was dark, the window and the curtains
closed. Reflected on his windows were my room window and Derek's next to
mine. Derek's curtain was open and I could see inside his room from the
reflection.

Derek was crying. He was sitting on the edge of the bed with his face
buried in his hands. I had to turn away from the window as my heart went
out to him. I had my own share of the loneliness, of the pain and of the
fears that Derek was feeling. However, in my case my parents still did not
know of my alternative sexual orientation. I had no qualms about them
accepting it if I had told them. I knew that the worst that could happen,
would probably be a ten-minute silence for them to regroup before they
scolded me for not telling them all this while. No, I did not worry about
my parents' reaction. I worried about my own.

I had accepted that I had an alternative sexual orientation but I had hung
on the hope of a cure. If Jake got married then I would be cured, had been
my illogical logic. Before Friday night, I was convinced that the closest
that I would ever be to Jake was as his best friend. When we were fifteen,
he had made me promise to be his best man when he got married. I had made
him promise to do the same for me too. My heart felt again the pain that I
had felt that day, imagining my secret love with his future wife. The pain
was sweeter this time as I recalled his first words of love for me on
Friday night. Tears of joy rolled down my cheeks as I got in bed. I was no
longer alone. Jake had given me his heart and I had given him mine. We had
each other now. He would have to marry me. I slept soundly with this
thought.

*****

"Eric, wake up?" A familiar voice whispered in my ears.

I opened one eye and saw a flash of red lips before they kissed my
forehead. I opened both eyes and saw my sunshine, my joy and my love. Both
of us smiled as our eyes met. Then we kissed, softly and gently at first
and then with hunger and passion after. My hands caressed his silky blond
hair as we kissed. He was in control. I was gasping for breath each time he
allowed me to. I did not want it to end, and neither did he. I realized
that he was as naked as I was when I felt his dick digging into my
stomach. But for the moment, I just wanted to kiss. I only stopped when I
felt the wetness on his cheeks.

"What's wrong Jake?" I whispered as I looked into his eyes.

"I still can't believe this is happening, Eric," Jake replied softly, "Did
it really happen? Do you really love me like I love you?"

"Yes, Jake, it's true. We do love each other. I know, 'coz right now your
dick is digging into my belly button and mine is dislodging your balls."

"I love you, Eric Collins," Jake said softly between our giggles and I
replied, "I love you too, Jake Anderson." He kissed me again.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"4.27," Jake replied after glancing at my radio alarm clock, "and no,
nobody saw me coming in. I made sure."

"I glad you came. I missed you so fucking much," I said and held him real
tight as our lips met again.

Then, inevitably, I felt his right hand gripping my dick, slowly jacking me
off. I followed suit as we continued kissing. Our kissing managed to stifle
our moans of passion as we continued pleasuring each other. Both of us came
almost the same time. We continued kissing as we milked each other dry. We
were a mess, with cum all over our bodies.

Finally, Jake got up and cleaned himself with my towel. He handed me the
towel with an apologetic look and proceeded to get into his T-shirt and
pants. I cleaned up my body and tossed the towel at Jake. He ducked and the
towel hit the bedroom door before sliding down to the floor. He grinned as
he put his index finger on his lips signaling for me to keep it quiet.

I got up, still naked, and hugged him tight and kissed him hard. I knew he
had to go but I wanted him to stay. I wished time would stop so that we
could just be with each other forever but time stopped for no one. No words
were spoken and we kissed one last time before he left as quietly as he had
come in.

I was left alone and naked, staring at the bedroom door, feeling the pain
in my heart as the realization that he was gone hit me hard.

"I love you, Jake. I love you. I miss you. I love you so much," I whispered
to no one in my moment of desperation. Suddenly, the bedroom door quietly
opened and then closed. Jake had come back. Both of us stared at each other
with desperate love in our eyes. He came over towards me and then we just
hugged each other. We held each other for the longest time before we parted
again. Holding hands, we looked at each other's faces and I tried to
memorize his deep blue eyes, his cute nose, his pointy ears, his high cheek
bones, his kissable lip, his strong chin, his blond hair, his eyebrows, his
forehead and just everything I could see.

"I love you, Eric, and I always will. Before Friday night, I only dreamt
about this. Now, I don't think I can live without you anymore. I need you,"
Jake said as he held my hands tight, "I want to tell the whole world that
you're mine but I can't. It's so unfair. Instead, I have to pretend that
you're just my best friend."

"Jake, no matter what happens, just remember that I love you too, okay."

Looking at the radio alarm clock, Jake sighed deeply as it showed 5.36
a.m. and that meant he really had to go.

"I gotta go, Eric. I'll see you in a couple of hours," Jake said before he
left me all alone again but not before we kissed and hugged again.

I decided to have an early shower. The water was hot and I had a long
refreshing shower. As I was drying myself with a towel, the bathroom door
opened. I had forgotten to lock it. Derek sleepy expression turned into
shock as he saw me naked. He just stood there in his CK boxers staring at
my naked body, speechless. The head of his morning erection was peeking
through the top of his boxers. My dick was semi hard but I could feel the
blood rushing through my veins trying to help it grow bigger.

"Quit staring, loverboy," I joked, trying to defuse the situation, "Derek,
you gotta learn to stop staring at people's dick. Otherwise, you're gonna
be dead meat."

"Huh? Oh, sorry Eric," Derek finally looked at me instead of 'you know
what'.

I wrapped the towel around my waist before it became obvious I was getting
hard. "Look, Derek, we gotta talk. Meet me in my room when you're ready."

Derek just nodded as I slipped past him. He did not move an inch and our
naked skins touched.

****

"Eric?" Derek called through the bedroom door. I told him to come in. He
came in and closed the door behind him. He was wearing a black leather
jacket with black pants to match.

"Sit down Derek," I said and pointed to the side of the bed. I pulled up
the chair from my study table and sat on it facing him.

'Sorry about this morning," Derek apologized, "I didn't mean to stare. It's
just the first time I saw a naked body that close. Sorry."

"My fault, okay. I should've locked the door."

"If you want me to move out, I'd understand," Derek said sadly.

"No! Why the hell would you think that? You just stared, okay, not like
molest me or something. Just remember not to do it in school. Just try to
control your urges, okay," I told Derek and paused before I said, "You did
well this morning, actually. You stopped yourself grabbing my dick, right."

"Man, how did you know I was going to? You were so hot..." Derek cupped his
mouth in embarrassment after he realized that he had given away too much
information.

"You were really looking at it, man. I bet you jacked off after I left."

"Man, this is so embarrassing," Derek said and visibly cringed as he hid
his face in his hands. I enjoyed toying with him.

"I hope you cleaned the shower after you sprayed it with your cum."

"Aaargh... stop it Eric. I get your point."

"Okay, I'll stop. I have to ask you a favor though."

"What? I'm not gonna suck your dick okay," Derek replied with a joke of his
own.

"You wish... I want to ask your permission to tell Jake about the reason
you are staying here."

"You mean, you want to tell him about us?" Derek was on a roll.

"Dickhead. Stop joking around. I wanna tell him that you have an
alternative sexual orientation and you had to move out of your house for a
while."

"Just say 'gay' okay. Your favorite phrase is a mouthful, you know."

"You should know better about a full mouth." I could not resist and Derek
glared at me. "Sorry, couldn't stop myself. So, can I tell him? He's my
best friend and I know 100% that he would be okay with it."

"Really? He's a jock you know. I mean he's cool but he pretty straight and
narrow. He might accept it but he'll probably avoid me like the plague."

"Trust me, Derek. He's an enlightened jock, not your ordinary Moose
character. By the way, does anyone else in school know?"

"Just you, I guess. I don't want anybody else to know. I don't want to get
killed."

"So, it's okay to tell him?"

Derek nodded his agreement.

"Good. Let's have some breakfast then."

****

Jake was downstairs at the kitchen table talking and having breakfast with
Mom and Dad when Derek and me got there. This was his normal routine as his
parents were not the type to wake up too early. My parents were the exact
opposite.

Derek and me said our morning greetings to everyone and proceeded to have
our breakfast. Jake continued his conversation with my parents and ignored
me. I pretended not to notice him. I hoped we were not overcompensating.

"Let's go guys. Don't wanna be late on Monday," Jake said to Derek and me
as he got up. We had already finished by then and were just waiting for him
to stop blabbing his mouth talking to my parents about his parents' trip.

I rolled my eyes upwards and Derek had to stifle a chuckle.

We all said goodbye to my parents and went out of the house to Jake's
car. I sat in the front with Jake and Derek sat in the backseat.

Jake was driving in silence as I glanced at him. Jake looked back at me and
I just grinned.

"What?" Jake asked curiously.

"Nothing. It's just that we're really early, you know." Our house was just
about ten minutes away from school if we had walked. In his car, we had to
take a longer route but would reach the school within five minutes.

"I know. I just think that the three of us need to talk," Jake said as he
turned into the side road going to the local community park. I was slightly
surprised and glanced at Derek who looked back with his mouth and eyes wide
open.

Jake parked the car and switched off the engine. He asked us to follow
him. We got out of the car and followed him to a nearby wooden picnic
table.

He sat down and I sat next to him. Derek had to sit on the other side of
the table across from me. The park was relatively empty. I could see just a
few people jogging in the distance. The sky was overcast with clouds
blocking the morning sun.

"Both of you owe me an explanation."

Derek looked at me, pleading for some help.

"Jake, Derek moved in because his sister wanted him out of the house."

"Why?" Jake asked in surprise.

"Well, his family found out that he's gay. His parents are okay with it but
his sister went mental," I said looking at Derek for his reaction.

Jake was quiet for some time. He looked at Derek who had his head down not
wanting to look at Jake. He just had his shameful secret revealed to
someone whom he had hardly known. His own sister had deserted him because
he had an alternative sexual orientation.

"I'm sorry, Derek. I'm glad you came to stay with Eric's family. They're
really good people. You'll be safe there," Jake said, finally, and added,
"The next door neighbour is not too bad either."

"Thanks for understanding, Jake," Derek replied without looking at
Jake. Jake glanced at me and I looked back at him.

"So, did you tell Derek about us being lovers, Eric?" Jake asked in a
serious tone.

"Of course not," I replied with a grin. I could see Derek looking at both
of us from the corner of my eye.

"So that's why he didn't let me suck his dick this morning," Derek said to
Jake with an innocent look on his face. Jake raised his eyebrows in
response and smiled. I realized that Jake was beginning to like the new
kid.

"Don't worry 'bout it Derek. He never let me suck it either," Jake replied
with a grin. We all laughed with Derek thumping the table repeatedly.

"You guys are sick," Derek said with a big grin after he finally stopped
laughing.

"Derek." Jake said.

"Yeah." Derek replied.

"Your secret is safe with me. If you need any help I'm there for you," Jake
said and this time Derek did not look away.

"Thanks," Derek replied softly, "Both of you are just so cool. You don't
know how much this means to me." I could see tears running down his
cheeks. Instinctively, I grabbed his left hand and squeezed it with
affection as Jake held Derek's right hand gently.

Jake looked at his Swatch and leapt off the bench, literally.

"Shit, we're gonna be late. Let's get a move on before Mr. Lionel 'Grumpy'
Hamilton locks the school door."

We were not really that late but I guessed Jake wanted to break the
tension. All the way to school, we just talked about Mr. Grumpy and his
punishment for us if we got locked out of school. We all laughed together
as I told them my wish for a parallel universe where Mr. Grumpy would be
the one punished for locking us out.

We reached our school on time and Derek went off first as Jake and I stayed
in the car. Jake looked at me and I looked at him. This was our first day
in school as boyfriends pretending to be best friends. I had to stop myself
from leaning over to kiss him.

Suddenly, a voice from outside the car said the words that I had long
dreaded to hear, "Hey, faggots! Get the fuck out of the car!"

To be continued...

I am quite busy with my real work at the moment. However, I have several
chapters already in the pipeline but they still need some tweaking. So be
patient because the end is nigh. Please email me at fyiord@yahoo.com and
give me your most intimate thoughts about Eric and Jake.